Writing in the book makes him feel stupid.
As though his problems are that important. He sounds like one of those "emo" teenagers that Jaime sometimes goes off about that listen to MCR on full blast and wear weird, black lines around their eyes (he once thought it was war paint, Jaime had a good laugh at that oneā¦)
The thing is, Bart doesn't really want to be fixed?
Because, what if he can't be? What if he's just like this because he is? Coming from an apocalyptic future might do that to you, right?
But, the thought of other people reading this kind of makes him feel sick. Because, he doesn't want them to think that he's some attention seeking, stupid little kid who grew up listening to MCR on full blast wearing those black lines and complaining about his problems to everyone who would listen.
Bart doesn't want to be different. He doesn't want to be normal, either.
He just wants to be him.
Except, like most things in his life, he doesn't know how.
