I haven't forgotten about this story I just got really distracted with All I Want which is the Christmas/Winter themed story. I'm terribly sorry for the wait but I had to wait to be inspired to write this one which was completely draining emotionally. I love you guys so much! TY for all the reviews.
Disclaimer: I don't own Austin and Ally or The Disney Channel. I don't own the song lyrics either.
Ally's POV
I feel like I've been hit by a truck but that's probably because I was stabbed in the chest. There's not a whole lot that I remember after that. I remember bits and pieces though.
Did Austin really say that he loves me? Not only that he loves me but I think he said so much. I'm sorry but what? That doesn't make any sense.
I remember hearing Austin screaming that we needed an ambulance. Something about having to keep me awake but my eyes started to close and then I heard Logan singing Treasure to me. Everything after that is very hazy.
I still feel groggy but when the doctor asked if there was anyone that I wanted to see.. I told him that I wanted to see Austin and Logan. I need answers and I want them now.
God, it's too fucking bright in my room. I feel like I'm going to burn like a vampire in sunlight.
The door to my room swings open nearly shattering the glass revealing both a frazzled looking Logan and Austin.
"ALLY!" They rush to separate sides of my hospital bed both appearing nervous but very eager to see me. Facing the window Austin on my left and Logan on my right. They both interlock their hands with mine seemingly without even realizing it. "How are you feeling Princess?" Logan asks and then leans down to kiss me chastely on the lips. I feel Austin's grip tighten on the other side of me.
Jealous. Typical. Some things just never change. He clears his throat, "I've been going crazy since we got here. The doctor said that you wanted to see both of us."
"Yeah. I want to talk about what happened."
"With both of us in the room?" Logan asks. "Yes." I reply looking up at both of them.
"There's not a whole lot I remember. I need you both to fill me in and for the love of God please don't choke each other out I just got out of surgery." That was my attempt at a joke.
"Alls, that's not funny. We could have lost you."
"Yeah Princess, you can't joke about that."
"Would you both lighten up?" As I looked at the two of them they looked so serious, a mixture of worried, hurt, stressed and angry but probably at the situation and not me.
Austin and Logan both look at each other and then back at me responding in unison. "You expect us to lighten up after what you just went through!" Their voices went up a little higher with the words, "Not happening."
Oh God, there's two of them. The two of them speaking in unison is kind of freaking me out.
"Enough stalling. Tell me what happened."
"What do you remember?"
"I remember most of it. Screaming for help and Logan coming into view and literally seconds later you did as well said he targeted me because he wanted to hurt you Austin. What did you do to him?"
"I honestly don't know. I rubbed him the wrong way. He knew that the only way to hurt me was to hurt you."
"Why me?"
"Why do you think?" He deadpans.
"I -" He hesitates but pushes forward. "I'm in love with you Ally. When we were at the rehab center he would start talking about you and then I went totally ballistic on him. I think he's mad that for the most part I was able to hold my own. I did inflict some pain on him as well and I didn't give up."
I look to see Logan's reaction and he doesn't look surprised I wonder if they talked or something. I look up at Austin. I'm kind of in a weird situation right now and I'm not going to say those words back to him in front of my boyfriend or anything like that. "I don't really know what to say to that. I care about you. I always will. I believe you Austin." Turning to Logan who is rubbing my hand the entire time. "Logan. He was Tracey's brother. Did he have an issue with you at any point?"
I wait patiently for my boyfriend to answer. "No. He really liked me. As fucking twisted as he is we got along great. I know that he said that it was all Austin, but what if seeing me in love with a girl that's not his sister set him off? I could have prevented this if I had just told the cops where he was headed."
"It's neither of your fault. Cole obviously has very serious anger issues."
"But Ally, this wouldn't have happened if I didn't start fighting with you."
"You two were fighting?" Logan questions looking both at Austin and I. "Just how bad was this fight? I can assume awful because you stormed off and ended up in a dark alley Ally."
"It was beca-" I cut him off. "It was bad Tiger. Really bad. Right Austin?" I shoot him a Don't even. Please don't tell him. His face looks conflicted. "Right. Really bad. I accused her of being in love with both of us. You and I talked about some things though Logan."
In love with both of them... NO WAY!
"Wait, you two had an actual conversation?"
I don't like where this is headed.
"Princess, you should know that Austin saved all three of us. He was willing to take a bullet for me. Dez had a gun and shot Cole and Cole had a knife and we just couldn't let him continue to hurt you. We tried to keep him away from you but neither of us was strong enough. When Cole gets like that he's legit impossible to stop so we're fortunate that Dez shot him."
Dez shot Cole? Holy shit!
Austin's POV
"Logan, do you think that you could get me strawberry milkshake from the cafeteria? I'm kind of thirsty."
"Anything for you Princess. I love you. I'll be back soon." Ally smiled that beautiful smile of hers but because of the surgery she was feeling weak. "Thank you Tiger. I love you too." He leaned down to give her a peck on the lips and was out the door quickly.
"Yeah man. We'll see you in a bit."
"Austin?" Ally called out my name in question. "What are you doing? Why did you close the door?"
"Alls, I'm going to communicate with you the only way that I know how to. I don't know how much you remember from that traumatic experience but I'll answer any of your questions after this."
"After what?"
Grabbing my cell out of my pocket I pull up the instrumental version of Back at One.
Back At One: Brian McKnight
It's undeniable that we should be together,
I take one of her hands and interlace it with my very own. It fits perfectly in mine. She's a little hesitant but doesn't jerk away from me when I reach out to touch her face.
It's unbelievable how I used to say that I'd fall never,
Looking into her eyes and baring my soul to her with these lyrics. I think of the time that I performed 'Not a Love Song' and was dancing on the piano. Ally was crushing on Dallas at the time but honestly when singing that song I think that I knew that it really was a love song...well secretly.When you don't say what you're feeling/If you got a broken heart, You can punch me in the arm/ Now that's what you needed (That's just what you needed) Ally's approval meant everything to me.
The basis is need-to-know, if you don't know just how I feel,
Then let me show you now that I'm for real,
If all things in time, time will reveal,
Yeah,
One, you're like a dream come true,
Two, just wanna be with you,
Four long months I have spent away from her and I have hated every single minute of it. When she's not there it feels like I'm missing a huge chunk of my heart and as cliche as it is I feel incomplete. It hurts that she's with Logan right now, but I drove her to it. I constantly screwed up over and over again. I was under the impression that she would wait for me forever but I was wrong. She moved on.
Three, girl, it's plain to see that you're the only one for me and,
Four, repeat steps one through three,
Five, make you fall in love with me,
If ever I believe my work is done, then I'll start back at one,
Yeah, yeah,
It's so incredible, the way things work themselves out,
And all emotional, once you know what it's all about, hey,
And undesirable for us to be apart,
Never would of made it very far,
'Cause you know you've got the keys to my heart,
I move the piece of hair that fell in her face off of it and just the way that she's looking at me says everything. I can see everything that she's feeling.
I didn't make it far at all.. I was a total mess without her. Complete and utter fucking mess. I'm glad that she suggested that I go help and go to rehab. The mistakes I have made are endless and I can only hope that one of these days that she will forgive me.
'Cause one, you're like a dream come true,
Two, just wanna be with you,
Three, girl, it's plain to see that you're the only one for me and,
Four, repeat steps one through three,
Five, make you fall in love with me,
If ever I believe my work is done, then I'll start back at one,
Say farewell to the dark of night,
I see the coming of the sun,
I feel like a little child whose life has just begun,
You came and breathed new life into this lonely heart of mine,
You threw out the lifeline just in the nick of time,
When I met Ally she was unlike any girl that I had ever met. I was instantly drawn to her, she was a breath of fresh hair. Sure, she was quirky but she was also one of the prettiest girls I had ever seen. She's even more beautiful now.
One, you're like a dream come true,
Two, just wanna be with you,
Three, girl, it's plain to see that you're the only one for me and,
Four, repeat steps one through three,
Five, make you fall in love with me,
If ever I believe my work is done, then I'll start back at one.
I finish singing the song and my eyes search hers. She's crying. "I didn't mean to upset you." She takes in a deep breath. "Austin, I'm not upset that was incredibly sweet of you. What I'm trying to wrap my head around is that it seemed like that you were the guy I fell in love with...back at the start when we were teens and you serenaded me with I Think About You.. I never thought that I would see this side of you again."
When I sang that song to her. I wanted to kiss her and would have if there weren't so many people around. I wanted Ally to know how special she was to me, hell I wanted everyone in that room so see just how crazy I was about her.
"Baby, I'm so so so sorry for everything and there's a good chance that you are going to hate me even more but I have nothing else to lose." I lean down and lean my forehead against hers. I close my eyes and for the first time in a long time it honestly feels like it's just the two of us. She sighs in what I think is contentment. "I love you, Alls. God I love you so much it hurts. I'm sorry but I can't wait another second I have to do this." Ally opens her eyes then and looks at me she gives me a dazed sort of look and before she can even question what I'm talking about my lips are on hers. I haven't kissed her in over four months and I thought our incredibly painful departing kiss was passionate this one feels different but in a good way. "Austin." It feels like she's going to let me back in. I repeat those three little words and to my surprise she kisses me back while she has tears cascading down her angelic face. I feel her tears fall on my hands and wipe them away massaging her face. I hesitate for about a half a second and run my hands through her hair. "Forever and Always." I'm not going to overthink this and I'm just going to be there with her in this moment. I told Logan that I wasn't going to give up on Ally and I meant that. I pull away from her lips so I can kiss her neck..she tangles her fingers in my hair. God, I love when she does that. I need answers though ones that I'll only get by kissing her neck and running my hands down her arm. I need to know if I still got it and if she has the same reaction she has always had with me. As I kiss her neck lightly she shivers and starts to moan and to quiet her my lips are drawn instantly back to hers. I request entrance into her mouth which she grants which turns me on even more. She pulls back, "A-Austin we shouldn't do this." I look into her eyes hoping to see that window into her soul where I'm supposed to be. "Baby, you can't deny this." We pull away panting and nearly out of breath.
"You were right." She pauses and I smile because I know what's coming next. "What you told Logan... I wish I didn't feel this way about you still. I'm sorry truly sorry if this hurts you in any way but you deserve honesty. Austin... I love Logan. Please don't make me a cheater. If you honestly love me like you say you do... as amazing as it was this can't happen again. We just got caught up in the moment and are familiar and comfortable with each other. Thank you for singing to me especially that song it was beautiful. I have a boyfriend. I - I care about him."
" I don't understand. I know that you felt what I did..FIREWORKS!" I'm screaming now. "FUCKING FIREWORKS ALLY!" She turns away from me and flinches. "Austin, lower your voice."
"You are still in love with me too."
"Austin."
"Stop lying to me. Stop trying to deny it. I felt it Alls."
"Austin."
"No. I know what you are going to say...that you need more space... but you don't! You need me...we need each other" Breaking into song, Like pieces of a puzzle/ without each other we're in trouble trouble." She looks at me with those pleading mesmerizing beautiful eyes of hers and I'm going to cave." I'm not asking you to choose. Please just don't shut me out! My life has been shit without you. You're still my best friend. I know that our.. whatever this is has been fucked for months but I want to fix this. I want to fix us. I almost lost you for real tonight. I FUCKING LOVE YOU. Nothing, no one is ever ever going to change that!"
"Austin. I was stabbed in the heart okay. Literally. They just operated on my heart this conversation is a little overwhelming. I need you to calm down. Please Austy. I'm not saying that I don't feel that way. I just this is too much after everything that happened at the moment."
"Then let me just hold you... Please. I just want to hold you in my arms." She lets me wrap my arms around her enveloping her in a hug. The hug is tight but gentle enough that I won't hurt her. "I missed this. I missed you so fucking much. I'm happier now that you are home on break from your tour." I mumble into her hair memorizing her sweet scent. "Austy. What else did you and Logan talk about?"
"Are we okay Alls?"
"Well, we're better than we were before everything happened. I'm still terrified that you are going to hurt me but things are looking up. Maybe we'll actually be able to be friends again."
"I want more than friendship with you."
"Well, that's a gray area. We'll cross that bridge if it ever arises."
"Do you really mean that? Does that mean you'll give me a chance and spend more time with me?" I hug her a little tighter and she snuggles more into my chest.
"Well, I'm open to the idea."
"I'll show you I can love you Ally the way he loves you but better."
I continue to hold her in my arms and just kiss her hair whispering to her how I'm so happy that she came out of the surgery and that I'll be a better man for her.
A/N: Reviews appreciated and thanks for the patience loves! xo
