Chapter 53 The 'talk'
Raven's POV
We went to a little cosy diner up the road, the doors were barely open but at least they were open. We went right to the back even though we were the only ones in the diner. Silence pounded throughout the room as we looked at the menu. Once we ordered and it came Randy finally looked at me, harsh and ice was all I saw. That so didn't put me at ease.
"So what did you wanna talk about?" I asked brightly, suddenly now I wasn't hungry. That happened alot, one minute I was ravenous the next nothing. "Your match at Over the limit? Your next championship reign? You know say what you want about fresh syrup, I am a fan of the bottled stuff" I guess I was just talking over him so his harsh words wouldn't make it from his mouth to my ears.
"Are you finished?" Randy growled at me, I swear I saw his eyes dancing.
"Not yet, so do you think they'll give you another reign"
Randy banged his fist on the table, "Damnit Venom!"
"Sorry" I put my head down sadly, I didn't want this anger between us, I just wanted to be friends, didn't I? I really don't know anymore. If I did know I don't think I would be sitting here with a very angry Viper.
"I don't know if I'll get another championship reign and I like the bottled syrup too, now can we talk about us?"
"There is no us Randy"
His eyes flared up again "Will you just hear me out before you start making choices for both of us"
I didn't usually let anyone talk to me like that, but I couldn't help it. I shut my mouth like a good girl and let him go on.
"Venom I'm in love with you"
Say what? "Randy" "You can say all you want against it but I know deep in my heart that I love you. That ain't gonna change."
I actually didn't know what else to say right now, when one professes love its meant to be soft and sweet, but Randy sounded like they were words he hated saying least of to me of all people. "I can't be 'just' friends with you, its either all or nothing"
I thought about what he said and more or less it was black and white. Two options only and I had to make a choice. "Fine"
"Fine?" He questioned looking at me, I guess that wasn't much of an answer.
"I want all of you Randy. I always have" I said honestly and finally I was rewarded with those dancing blue orbs. Suddenly something hit me and now I was back to counting down the minutes until he walked away and said goodbye. That should be fun. "I have a feeling its gonna be over pretty soon by my guess"
"What makes you say that?" His eyes narrowed in concern as he slyly slipped his hand into mine.
"You'll see when it happens" I stood up still smiling, "Are you ready?"
"Sure"
All the way back to the arena we actually held a conversation that was light and fluffly, like the feeling in my stomach right now. In my usual black and white fashion I asked him if we were together which he said yes. Yeah it was still meant to be a secret because my father is a giant jerk but still we was together. Until of course he found out the major kicker. When we got in, shockingly we were the only ones around in the halls. Randy slipped his hand from mine and slid that thick arm around my neck, I was pulled even closer to him and the scent of him washed over me like sweet honey.
"You know we have some time Venom" Randy grinned slyly at me.
"Time for what exactly Randy?"
He lent down and whispered his evil intentions in my ear, I had to admit even though my current status wouldn't change, his deep voice washing over me made me think twice. I pulled away and decided against slapping him, this would hurt enough if he meant what he said about loving me.
"Randy I won't be sleepin with you for a very long time, partly because its still hard to trust you, but mainly because I don't feel comfortable. So sex will not be happening until I feel good and ready"
His whole face twisted into a look that I couldn't explain, it wasn't a good look, I knew that much. "Ok relationship over." I looked at my watch "Ooh just in time for lunch. Bye Randy"
Randy's POV
I seriously don't know if I wanted to throttle her or not. Sex (or lack there of) wasn't my issue, my issue was what everyone was thinking, how the hell could she do that? Not to mention she just thought that it was sex I was after and love was just a word I threw out there. I banged my head against the table, seriously the frustraion and anger I felt was nothing compared to the heart break.
"You ok Randy?" Hunter asked coming in the main locker room. I just growled angrily banging my head again. Hunter for some reason laughed "Oh you had a conversation with Venom didn't you?"
"Why does your neice have to be so fucking frustrating?"
Hunter laughed again "Venom wouldn't be Venom if you don't feel utter frustration after a talk with her"
"I really want to strangle her"
"I recommend you don't do that Randy"
I banged my head again, ok so she didn't feel comfy giving me all of herself which is a fair point (yes I can be fair) but the way she just decided it was over still pissed me off. Why is it that in this relationship she was the only one allowed to make choices that concern both of us? Fucking people, they do this just too annoy me. I kept the sigh to myself. Probably wondering why I'm still even bothering with her, simple; I loved her and no matter what she would always be worth it.
"Randy can I ask you something that may help"
"Oh I can't wait to hear the words of wisdom from you"
He ignored my icy jab knowing that to some degree I didn't mean it. "If this exact situation was happening with, say, Kaitlyn, would you be in here banging your head against the table?"
"No" I answered instantly, no way in hell would I let her get away with this.
"So why are you letting Venom get away with it?"
I lifted my head and finally got something in my skull. Because she wasn't afraid of me, I didn't know how to deal with her, I didn't know how to make her see reason because I simply couldn't stand over her and make her shake.
"Now I'm not suggesting violence because it would only end with both of you in the ER, however you can make her listen because I know something that she doesn't want you to know"
"And that is?" I couldn't help the little ray of hope, maybe little miss suddenly calibute had a weakness I could use to my advantage.
"She won't stab you Randy" Hunter grinned at me, "She'll draw them but she won't use them, not against you"
That actually made the grin come out, now I knew how to get to her. Hopefully by the end of the day, I would have Venom back and she would finally see that I loved her, This time I was the one making the choices.
All day I thought about my little simple plan and with a little help from Hunter and Mark, I had it all sorted in my head. I managed to get away from the training early and quickly went to find her.
"Hi Randy" Kelly cooed at me, the current mode I was in, this wasn't the time for whores. I merely walked straight through her knocking her little ass to the floor. I glanced at my watch for a moment, I was cutting it fine but I was making time for her, like I said she was worth it. She was in the locker room talking with Vickie, I stopped and just listened for a moment.
"Vickie can I ask you somethin?"
"Sure can honey"
"How did you know you were in love with Eddie?"
Vickie didn't say but through the crack in the door I could see her smile at Raven, "Are you in love?"
"I think so, I'm not sure. I'm just so confused. He said it but it sounded like they were the last words he wanted to say especially to me of all people. It was like he was testin to see if was capable of saying those words and I was dummy"
Vickie pulled Venom into a hug, like a mother would give a daughter "Honey, let me tell you something about men. Those words are hard to say and nine times outta ten they mean it. Its when they come out sounding all weird and mumbled is how you know they mean it. I remember the first time Eddie said that to me, his whole face went red. I had never seen him blush so hard, but everytime even after fifteen years, his cheeks tinted when he said those words to me"
Raven let out a sigh, "I want him to love me because I love him. I've never loved anybody but I'm pretty sure I love him. Or else I wouldn't be driving myself crazy with all this crap"
Score! She loved me, I was so fucking happy that I may even do a twirl when all this is over. And when no body is watching.
Vickie gave her a slight nudge off the bench, "Go and talk to him Venom before he decides his love isn't going to be returned and he does something stupid like sleeping with that bimbo Kelly"
"Yeah I don't think that'll happen Vicke" Raven laughed, at least she knew me well enough to know that. Before she came out I quickly got out of there, I had plenty of time after the show to talk to her. And one way or another she would listen to me.
