Previous Chapter: Caleb saved Ezra's life and now they have to face the ordeals together. Aria suspects that Mona is Sore. Hanna escaped prom with Lucas. Jason is afraid of what –A wants to show him. Emily's mind is invaded by the most horrible fear, the fear of herself. Kara and Bobby are getting closer to understanding –A.
Chapter 49: The Truth Hurts
Emily's POV
My body is like numb. I feel like I'm out of my body. I try to calm myself down by thinking of another explanation. Why would I have killed Maya? It doesn't make sense. I loved her, even in a crisis I would have known that. I refuse to acknowledge a crime like that. I can't allow myself into thinking that I could have done anything to hurt the first person around whom I could be myself. Losing Maya was a knock down. It was the second most terrible experience of my life. That includes coming out and the –A troubles. I'm not ready to believe that I have brought all of this suffering to myself. It's not possible. What person in their right minds would do that?
There is the problem. I was not in my right mind. I have a paranoid psychosis. Once I'm having an episode, the slightest thing can be seen as a threat. I can get any sentence wrong and find a secret hidden Agenda to it.I have been denying this possibility to protect myself, I guess I don't like the idea of being a murderer. What a shocker! I feel like crying right now but instead, I choose to block it out. I can't let devastation get the best of me. Not when the Freaky Games are finally coming to an end tonight.
Finally, I am ready to pronounce out loud, the question that I have been battling inside.
"Did I kill Maya?" I ask with a detached, emotionless tone.
Look like you do know yourself after all. Here's the proof –A
I get a text with a link to the Freaky Games website. A video with Maya's face as a thumbnail. It's becoming harder for me to keep my emotions in. I stay as calm as I can manage to be at this point and play the video.
****Video*****
"I'm scared, I'm scared! Maya they are coming to get me"
"Who is coming? Emily, please calm down. You're scaring me!"
"They are coming! Alison is dead! Now they want me! They want me! Normal, normal, everything is normal! Pretend, pretend. Crazy! The world is crazy! Dead, they want me dead. Maya will you help me? We need to go. Normal, normal. No it's not!" Emily is screaming in what seem to be woods.
The two girls are standing in the middle of the woods. There was no light. The camera was infra-red. The video showed the two girls in infra-red.
"Emily calm down. No one is coming. Look at me. I'm right here. You're safe. No one will kill you I promise." Maya tries to calm her down
"How do you know? Kill me they will stab me. Alison dead, me next. Pretend, pretend. Crazy! That is crazy!"
"It's ok Emily, you just smoked some weed. Just lay down and breathe" Maya brutally grabs Emily's arm.
"Haaaaaaaaa" Emily yelled in terror. She looked all around her and picked up a rock.
"Stop Emily, it's me, Maya" Maya stepped back, away from her delirious girlfriend.
"You're with them. Kill me they will get me dead! Away away! Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa" Emily hits her junky girlfriend in the back of her head and runs away.
****End Video****
Emily's POV
My eyes can't realize what they just saw but my brain recognizes the moment. The fear, the paranoid behavior I just saw are confirmed by my memory but my body won't follow. I feel like the vessel of another being. A frightening persona.
I get another text and in the same emotionless state of mind, head to the address I was sent.
Aria's POV
Get inside and walk slowly
Ok this seems easy to do. I can do that. I'm tired, sad and I feel dirty but I can do it. I won't let them bring me down. Bring Sore down, we need to fight. I get in the room and it's another school hall. How long is that freaking building?
"As the sun goes down, the lightning strikes. Once, twice, thrice today. Step aside and watch its power. A quick shot of energy from the skies to the earth. Fascinating. Magnificent. As if god reminded us of his power, hoping to provoke in mankind the thirst for salvation." Read –A's helper in a satiric tone. He is holding what looks like a diary.
Hearing him destroy such a beautiful sentence is almost heartbreaking.
"Yeah, or maybe god sent lightening hoping it'd burn you. Maybe it's for his own salvation. He must regret inflicting mankind the huge burden of your existence. Sore, why don't you get this pain over with?" Said another one looking right into my eyes. He was bald and very scary.
They are making fun of her diary. Her intimate thoughts, leaving her no space to breathe, be herself and escape the hell they had created for her. My heart breaks in millions of pieces as this "play" goes on.
"Death is supposed to awaken fear, that's how most people feel. Rest, that is all death represents. No dark thoughts filling my mind, no fear, anger felt at the thought of it. Just peace, the ultimate step a better place." Continued the one who was reading Sore's journal.
"That's what I'm talking about! Poor little girl wants to take her own life." The bald minion gets dangerously close to my face.
That's enough. No more reading her diary, no more making me feel horrible. I'm exhausted. I take the deodorant from my bag and look for the lighter. I look at the bald guy and light up the lighter spraying deodorant in the direction of his face.
"That'll burn your dirty mouth!" After that I don't wait around to measure the consequences, I just run and open the door. I get out of there, on my knees once again and fall on another rose. I accidentally crush it with my knee. Oh no, I pick it up as fast as I can to check its state. The flower is torn, its color can only be guessed.
I get to the screen hardly keeping myself together. My heart is bleeding for her, Sore, and for me, Aria.
"My soul is burning me and the fire won't stop. I'm in hell, I'm desperate, I have cried all the tears I could cry. Every day, every night. Nothing stops, it happens and everyone is watching. Why is my living such an entertainment for everyone? Why do I have the feeling that the world has gone mad?"
I read crying shamelessly. I have recognized myself as both the victim and the bully and both pains are raging inside of me. I hope I'm won't have to go through another scene of this deadly play. I don't think I can take more bad treatments.
Noel's POV
I'm silently sat in the chair looking straight into Jenna's eyes when I remember the episode at the grocery store.
"The day we went shopping for the lunch you wanted to cook. Did you recognize the guy who threatened you with his knife?"
"Yes, it's Lee. The guy you worked with, I think. That's what I just found out."
"How did he know Ezra?"
"It's his brother. Lee is Wesley Fitz."
"Oh god, bastards are everywhere! Did Ezra know anything?"
"No."
"That's why I found the missing page of the file in his apartment" That explained a lot. So he was telling the truth. He really had no idea of what I was talking about.
-A's helper gets in front of me and spits on my face.
"That was rude!" I groan, apparently they didn't appreciate my betrayal. He pulls out a gun and I hold my breath. Things are not looking good!
"But you said you wouldn't hurt him!" Complains Jenna getting a little teary.
Is she really sad that he wants to kill me?
"I lied! I'm a bad guy remember?" He says pulling the gun in front of my skull. I close my eyes thinking that it's my last moment on earth. My ears wait for the big bang that would end my existence. Instead, the big bang I hear is the sound of his body hitting the ground.
My eyes grow in size with surprise. I look at Jenna completely shocked. She unties my hands.
"Go, I'll take care of them" She says her eyes filled with terror.
I don't know if I should leave her. She saved my life after all.
Toby's POV
My gun slips from my hand when a sneaky psycho jumps at my back. I lose a little bit of balance. The guy behind me elbows my spine and I find myself helpless on the dusty floor.
"Can't do much without that, right?" He exclaims, the gun hanging on his middle finger.
Shit! That was quite handy. Backup gunny is there for that. I shoot him in the foot and keep going.
Shooting people is more fun in video games. At least you're not hurting actual people. Even though one could argue about the humanity of these living creatures.
I look in front of me and I have no choice but run straight forward. -A is leading me somewhere, maybe more of her partisants will be waiting for me. That doesn't scare me given the fact that gunny is always there to shoot some psychos.
I don't know why but I feel closer to Spencer. Maybe that's just my mind providing hope, for self-preservation. It feels good anyway.
Spencer's POV
I feel horrible. I would love to just turn my humanity off like vampires do. Why should I always feel that way? There's only a small part of me that wonders. The other parts knows exactly why, and won't stop reminding me. Will it be as painful for the rest of my life? That's the scariest question I am tormented by. Is living with a burden like that even considered living? Life is about memories, projects, experiences. My memories are full of blood and bleach. They are invaded of images of a white sheet covering Alison's body.
My projects consist in admitting my crime to the police. I'll probabl spend the rest of my life behind bars, if not death penalty. My experiences are a succession of mistakes, perfect Hastings girl is not so good after all. She's pathetic, disgusting and doesn't deserve sympathy.
Life is also about love, but as strong as the emotion is. It can dissolve just as fast as it came. Will my parents love the girl who helped a murderer ? Would my sister look at me the way she always did? I have my friends too, I had them. After I betrayed their trust and constantly lied to them, what kind of friendship will last?
Most of all, I have Toby. I hope he hasn't given up on me. I wouldn't blmae him if he did. I just don't think I would be able to survive getting out of the closet. Yes, getting out of the closet, that is the only phrase I think can qualify what I'm about to do. I've been hiding in the closet for years. Fearing the rejection the truth would someday provoke in the people I've grew up with.
Toby is the one person, after my parents, I would hate to lose. What we have is the best thing that has ever happened to me. I miss his grin when he succeeds in making me procrastinate when I'm studying for a test. I miss everything about him. I just hope he has not fallen out of love with me.
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