Now I have to give out a most dedicated reader award. Kelly Eliz seriously , this girl got up early in 3 in the morning to read the new update I finished, then reviewed and went back to bed. I'd be taking notes from this girl People. . . Just sayin'.
Just so you all dont lose your heads! repeat after me
"I trust the Author" . . . You know theres a large chance there will be a happy ending so stick with me through these next few chapters.
"Leo do you know what your saying?" Mikey bolted up. Leo still rubbing the side of his jaw Raph hit.
"Oh he knows" Raph growled out.
"Leo . . .You love Kira" Don was surprised.
"Yeah if Gwen could hear what your suggesting right now you'd be for some serious explaining" Mikey put his hands up.
"Dont you get it! As long as their with us their in Danger, every time they walk outside! Mikey, How long before you think someone breaks into gwens shop, because they know shes associated with you?" Leo burst out making Mikey double take to the ground thinking about it.
"Don, Elisa has a job and is constantly out and about , one of these days shes going to sit on a park bench reading a book and some low life is going to think shed make a great target"
"Raph"
"Dont even say it Fearless" Raph warned.
"Lynnette has TWO jobs and one of them is already dangerous enough even with you there to protect her. We can't always be there for them!" Leo shouted.
"Lynn can take care a herself!" Raph shouted back.
"Oh Really! Like when Cole Asani Kidnapped her . . . AGAIN"
"She was out numbered and DRUGGED LEO! If I hadn't of gotten that shot on the neck We could've Gotten Away! She tried Her hardest ta get ta me Leo dont you EVER say she didn't" Raph pointed threateningly.
"Leo we understand you want them to be safe but, Under the circumstances wouldn't they be in even more danger if we seperated?" Don asked out loud knowing the answer already.
"They can be sent away to somewhere Outside of New York" Leo suggested.
"Leo dude, Gwens Life is here, she already left her Life In Illinoise to be with me, I can't ask her to pack up and do it again" Mikey shook his head.
"An Like ya said 'Fearless Leader' Lynns got Two Jobs and I dont think she plans on going back ta live In Iowa any time soon" Raph crossed his arms.
"I could never ask Elisa to do that, She loves it here. Her favorite books stores are here, her work is here, shes publishing another book soon. I can't ask that of her Leo" Don agreed with Raph and Mikey.
"Well I'm not going to sit here and let Kira and the others Be put in harms way any more just because of us. I'm going to talk to Kira".
"Dude I thought you were showing her self defense and stuff so she could take care of herself" Mikey shrugged.
"Self Defense can only get you so far, she can't take on Karai or foot ninja" Leo shook his head.
"Uh Dudes!" Mikey pointed at the building next door.
"Watch it!" Raph shouted just As Leo hit the Arrow in half with his sword there was a letter attached.
"It might be from the guardians" Don said hopefully. If it was then Leo could calm down about wanting to send the girls away.
"Air Mail" Mikey joked.
"See for yourself" Leo handed Don the paper.
"Whats it say Donny" Raph asked directly.
"Dear Turtles: We have picked up The remains of Baxter E Stockman. Cause of death was the experiments he so generously created. Hun leader of the Purple Dragons has been turned in to authorities and wont be out for release anytime soon. Cole Asani , second in command of the Foot ninja Elite, has been transported back to Attica State prison, where they are now sending him to Rikers Island federal prison. Unfortunetally, The Scion and Daughter of the Shredder . . . Were not found. There was a message to Leonardo found by the area mentioned to find her. It read.
'Leonardo, I will be back'
The guardians apologize for not getting to her sooner. We wish you and your friends the best. Best wishes to Splinter -Michael leader of the Guardians"
"No . . " Mikey shook his head.
"Shes . . .Still out there"
"Karai will never stop" Leo shook his head re-reading the note and then putting it away in a pouch on his belt.
"Dont even get started Fearless. Karai was beaten, end of story. If she even sets foot back in New York she knows shes bein' tracked down by not only us, but da guardians too. Her days are numbered Leo" Raph uncrossed his arms.
"She wont stop until Kira is dead" Leo growled out.
"Then protect her Leo, its your JOB" Raph growled back.
"WE wont always be around to Protect them RAPH, One Moment were not there, they could end up dead. One second is all it takes" Leo said darkly. Mikey bit back his fears. Imagining Gwen at work one day, he was out training or playing vigilante with his bros. All it would take is a bullet through the store glass . . .and she'd be gone. Mikey shook his head sitting down on the ground.
Donatello knew Leo was over exaggerating the situation, but then again logically he wasn't. They all knew what Karai was made of, and the things she would and could do to get revenge. Including . . .Hurt Elisa. Don imagined Elisa sitting by their favorite bridge over the pond with the ducks. Karai showing up. It was too difficult to imagine.
"How long Raph, How long until Karai comes back, Finds herself in the lair and sees Lynn first?" Leo asked rhetorically.
"I can-"
"You wont always be around to protect her Raph, you know that. Im not going to risk their lives just for the sake of being with us. We care about them, and we always will but their lives are more important". Leo ended turning around.
He froze , And so did the others. There stood Kira . . .Tears forming in her eyes. April was behind her, dumbstruck as well. Kira and Leos eyes were locked. Kira shook her head ready to burst out crying, Leo didn't stop her as she ran inside. April looked at Leo with the expression 'what are you doing?'. April didn't take her questionable eyes off of Leos.
" Mikey , We think Gwens having a Nightmare" April said still not tearing her eyes off of Leos.
Mikey slowly walked past April who wouldn't look away. Raph gripped the side of the wall looking down at the streets below.
"Leo . . .do you really mean that?" April asked.
"Its whats Right April. Their in too much danger being around us. Especially with Karai at Large". Leo explained.
"Do you all think that way" April asked stunned with a little anger.
"It wouldn't be fully permanent" Don interrupted. "Just until Karai is caught" Don explained making things a little better.
"Not permanent?" April asked making sure.
"Once karai is caught, we'll eliminate any other threats . . ." Leo said darkly. April could tell something in Leo changed. Something not good.
"Raph?" April asked. She didn't get a response just watched the muscles in his arms tense as he gripped the wall tighter. His neck twitch as he cracked it standing up not looking at them.
April turned around knowing . . . There are going to be four broken hearted girls in my apartment soon.
"When do you plan to tell them?" April asked.
"Actually . . .We'll leave tomorrow morning" Leo suggested. Don nodded.
"Out of sight out of mind, if we leave they'll know its for mission purposes, the shorter the good bye the better" Don agreed.
'That fucking soon?' Raph thought.
"I dont think they'll see it the way you do" April shook her head.
"Its whats best April, Until Karai is caught they're all in danger being around us . . .Its for their own safety" Don explained.
Don went downstairs to the apartment floor. Raph pushed past Leo to the apartment.
"Leo I hope you know what your doing . . ." April looked at him carefully.
"Their lives are more important then being with us" Leo explained again.
"That may be true but . . .in the morning there are going to be four brokenhearted girls in my apartment" April went downstairs leaving leo by himself to ponder over his decision.
(Goodbyes are never easy)
Donatello looked up with a soft smile, Elisa was up reading the book he got her. Noticing her journal he got her for christmas too by her side. The bracelet that went with it adorned her small delicate wrist. .
"Hey" She smiled softly.
"Hey" He smiled back softly. He knew she could probably tell something was wrong. But she didn't say anything just padded the spot on the bed next to her. He did promise he'd read to her. She made room for him and settled on his chest while he read the last chapter. When they got near the end, there was a bit of a racy part. The heroine and the hero were about to . . .make love.
"Do you want me to keep reading?" He asked. feeling a blush creep up his skin. He felt her hand brush across his.
"Hmm . . .I think I'd preffer a demonstration" She looked at him softly. He smirked looking away. Elisa leaned up to kiss him.
"Are you alright?" She asked.
He took a deep breath . . . Knowing what morning was bringing. That all went away, her scent and hair over him. He smiled up at her, she leaned down again rubbing his arms. She knew there was something bothering him internally but when he was ready he'd talk about it. Leaning him back against the pillows she wanted to make him relax , taking his hands and using them to slide her skirt down. She loved his intake of breath just before they kissed again. She said his name and he said hers. Turning the lamp off , he let himself be over taken by all of her. Letting the thoughts of tomorrow morning fade to her carrying voice all over the room.
(Goodbyes are never easy)
Michelangelo brushed the strand of hair out of Gwens face. As soon as he laid in next to her the nightmare stopped. she woke up and hugged him and he hugged back ready to tear up thinking of . . . the break they had to take because of Karai. He read it before in Comic Books the superhero having to say goodbye to his lover because the villans would go after her. But he never thought it would happen to him. Gwen was always willing to take that risk, but here he was. Saying she couldn't take this one.
"Mikey" Gwen said after they had watched t.v for a while.
"Are you alright?" She asked. He nodded pulling her in close to him. Turning off the t.v. He wasn't in the mood for Batman Begins again.
"Thankyou" Gwen smiled. He looked up surprised.
"For what babe?"
"Being my knight again, otherwise who knows where I'd be right now" Gwen kissed his forehead. Then made her way to his mouth. He let that beach smell take him over like a wave. Let a hand through her hair while hers was on his shoulders. Tonight would have been the perfect night for their first time. He thought. the way Gwen was moving him and he obliged ontop of her letting the strewn pillows surround them both, she was thinking the same thing. He told himself he couldn't. No matter how hard it was. Gwen was shimmying out of her boy shorts. Mikey got up and stared at the door, feeling totally guilty. He wanted to . . .Reallly really wanted to. But it would just hurt her more in the morning when she'd find him gone.
"Michelangelo . . ." He turned trying to brace himself. Gwen let her sandy colored brown hair loose around her shoulders. the button up shirt partially unbuttoned. He gulped. . . 'what would Turtle Titan do?'.
Gwen stood up and by the hand pulled him back.
"Gwen I-" He didn't know how to explain without telling her.
"Mikey . . .Please?" Gwen bit her lip. Her scent was more overpowering than it had five minutes ago. taking his hands to the last buttons on her shirt. His hands were shaky undoing the first one, she slid her hands up his arms. Now he was nervous . . .Very very Nervous.
"Just you and Me" She said making his breathing even out. Her New orange decorated Bra slid off afterwards and he gulped again.
(Goodbyes are never Easy)
He walked into the Room, It was dark and Lynns form could be made out on the bed. This was Casey's room when he stayed with April but he agreed to sleep on the couch. Rubbing the back of his neck. He wanted to tell her, that way when she woke up she wouldn't hate him.
'damn she's been through alot'
Her hair was damp from a warm shower, Under and ontop of covers, one leg up the side. He chuckled seeing she fell asleep in her jeans and a t-shirt. The pant chain under her attached to the belt. Hair sprawled out. The radio playing soft Country next to the nightstand. She breathed in and out slowly through her nose.
You said the way my blue eyes shined
Put those Georgia stars to shame that night'
I said thats a lie
Those Firey green eyes. He thought smirking to himself.
Just a boy in a Chevy Truck
Red Motorcycle, I'd stop on purpose just so we could be alone somewhere.
That had a tendancy of getting stuck
in Backroads at night
and I was Right there Beside him
All summer Long
and then the time we woke up to find that
Summer Gone
Is that how shes gonna feel . . .ta wake up an find me gone?
But when you think Tim McGraw
I hope you think of my favorite song
touching her hair. 'you got alot of favorite songs'.
The one we danced to all night long
The moon like a spotlight on the lake
When You think Happiness
I hope you think of that little black dress
'those black jeans'
Think of my head on your chest
He remembered the feeling of her head on his chest, during the fireworks. The way she listened to his heart beating and they watched the sparks go off. Not only da sparks in the sky, there were some in the grass too. Remembering the pulling of his hand and the feeling of rubbing her arms of goosebumps.
and my ole' favorite blue jeans
When you think Tim McGraw
I hope you think of me
Now he was gettin' emotional. He thought to himself angrily.
September saw a month of tears
Thankin' god that you werent here
to see me like that
'I'd put up with you cryin your eyes out for a year if it mean not havin' ta leave. He thought. pulling the covers over her.
But in a box beneath my bed
is a letter that you never read
3 summers back
Its hard not to find it all a little
bitter sweet
More like unfair, for tha both of them. She never trusted a real guy before him. and here he was . . .Leavin. Breakin' that trust just ta protect her, afta he promised that he wasn't goin anywhere. Guilt was like a bullet straight to his core.
and lookin' back on all of that
Its nice to believe
When you think Tim McGraw
I hope you think of my Favorite song
The one we danced to all night long
The moon like a spotlight on the lake
When you think Happiness
I hope you think that 'little black dress'
think of my head on your chest
and my ole' favorite blue jeans
When you think Tim McGraw
I hope you think of me
Memories of playfightin' over the lime side of the sherbert icecream. When she sang for him 'although she wouldn't admit it' at the bar. He loved knowin' everythin' about er'.
Hey I'm back for the first time ever since then
and I'm standin' on your street
and theres a letter left on your doorstep
and the first thing that you'll read
He got out that piece of paper and pen, writing that note. in two hours he'd have to be gone. He didn't want her thinking he'd abandoned her forever. It couldn't end like dat. He'd be back . . .if she wanted him. As soon as Karai is found and taken care of . . .Hed come back and take her out on another date ta coney Island.
Is when you think Tim McGraw
I hope you'll think my favorite song
some day you'll turn your radio on
I hope it takes you back to that place
When you think Happiness
I hope you think that little black dress
Think of my head on your chest
and my faded ole' blue jeans
When you think Tim McGraw
I hope you think of me
Oh think of me
'Please think of me Lynn'
Mmmmmm
You said the way my blue eyes shined put those Georgia stars
To shame that night
I said thats a lie
(Goodbyes are never easy . . .)
Kira was laying in bed crying, she knew he meant what he said. His words echoing in her head.
He thought he couldn't protect her, she knew he could. and it killed her to know that she couldn't protect herself. If she could, if she had half the skills Karai did, Leo wouldn't be saying and thinking all those things he said. Not only was he killing her. Her friends, they mattered too. Now when she and her friends would wake up in the morning, they would be alone. Gwen and Mikey are meant for eachother
She couldn't see a morning Gwen wouldn't be talking , baking, making jokes, playing video games or singing show tunes with Mikey. Thinking of the flour fight they had in the kitchen a week ago. Now when Gwen wakes up from a nightmare . . .She wont have Him there to comfort her. She knew Mikey loved Gwens jokes, and the fact she loved everything about him. They were perfect together. Now . . .She worried about how alone Mikey will feel not having her with him when he needs her most.
Lynn changed for the better when Raph showed up. She never trusted anyone fully until him. God only know how much this would kill her when she wakes up to find him gone. Kira couldn't think of a day when they wouldn't have a play fight, wrestle on the ground just to have an excuse to touch eachother. Lynns smile was never a huge thing around the apartment but with Raph, she smiled all the time. Raphael with his temper, anger and all over dribble of sarcasm. Lynn soften him a bit, not enough for everyone to notice but enough so that he would let her in, instead of racing off to be alone, or blow up screaming at the world she was there for him.
Elisa . . .She didn't deserve that. Donatello and Elisa were the two most soft spoken kind hearted couple there was. Elisa would beg cutely to stay up later to read another chapter and Don could only say , 'only five more minutes' because he knew she would be tired getting up for work the next morning. But he could never say no to her innocent violet eyes. Don wasn't very outspoken unless the time needed it. Elisa got him to come out of that box. They were good for eachother so why was this happening?
Kira knew . . .Leo didn't need her. He was a fully trained highly skilled Ninja, and kira was just . . .Kira. He must've known he didn't need her. She cried silently knowing it. She heard a slight turn of the door handle, she didn't bother seeing if it was him, she locked the door before she got into bed. There was a sigh , and then footsteps. She cried harder.
'He doesnt need me . . .' Kira thought trying to calm herself. 'Theres nothing you can do, you have to be strong for the girls tomorrow. Who knows the amount of damage that will be done'. Kira tried to drift off to sleep. Thinking of Her and Leo back at the Farm house . . .Chasing eachother in the snow.
(goodbyes arent forever)
"M-Mikey . . .MICHELANGELO" Gwen cried out. Mikey felt himself lose it. He held his breath, feeling a euphoric wave each time she called his name. she gripped his arms nails digging in. Her head into his neck He slowed as she and him both went off at the same time. Looking down at her , her face of one he couldn't believe he made. She looked up at him and he looked down at her. "Love you" she said while he pulled out and kissed her.
"Love you more" he shook his head taking in their mixed scent. every inch of her in a sheen sweat. He crawled under the covers with her after taking off the protection. Pulling her close to him, he tried to hide the sadness that was close to overwhelming him, in an hour . . . He'd have to leave.
Donatello and Elisa didn't stop, She was soft with him and He loved that it was his name she was saying. The threat of what was happening in an hour in the back of his mind.
"Don . . ." She said panting. He looked up at her. They both were ready to end the night.
"Love you" She said just as her hair threw back and he heard her go over that invisible line. He followed saying her name. Not letting go of her. Both looking into eachothers eyes.
"Love you too" He said with a glint of happiness in his eyes. Elisa bit her lip in a smile.
"Ready to sleep champ?" She asked making him chuckle. He pulled her down and she rested her head on his arm, he turned slightly to cover her with the other arm, both still out of breath. Listening to her steady breath. He wanted to doze off and completely forget about leaving. put it off for another day, to procrastinate as long as possible. Pushing a strand off raven hair out of her face.
Lynns head was resting on his chest. He moved some of her hair out of the way. One leg invitingly over on his stomach curled into a knee position. He listened to the breeze outside the window, still hearing that song in his head. the letter placed under the lamp. He kissed the top of her head. Growling when he heard that voice outside his window.
"Raph . . .its time to go" .
"Shut up" He growled out at Leo. Raph looked down at her again. She was sleeping totallly un aware.
"I gotta go ta the bathroom" he whispered to her.
"mmhmm . . .Love you" She said nonchantly in a soft whisper. He bit back his pride and slipped out. Before turning to leave at the window her form sleeping peacefully. He wouldn't get to smell that scent or see that smile again for a while. He walked back over to the bed and took off his mask . . .
"Love ya too" He managed out with as much normalcy and swagger as he could muster. She shifted in a sigh and partial smile, one arm partially over the side of the bed. He smirked . . .'I'll be back. I promise'.
"Raph lets go"
Raph reluctantly left. Following his brothers. Who all looked just as fuckin' depressed as he did. back to tha sewers. . .
(The first morning after)
Gwen woke up smiling. The past was behind them, no more people coming after them, no more worrying about people seeing them. She smiled getting up stretching. Surprised she didn't smell pancakes or something. Usually on special occasions like this Mikey made breakfast and they'd watch something on T.v before deciding what else to do with their day. She looked over to his side of the bed, thinking of last night. It was passionate, beautiful, and she couldn't wait to see how he felt about it now that they' crossed that barrier that had been there for so long. Ted, Mikey's stuffed Bear was next to her.
"You must've gotten a front row seat, I'm sorry bud" Gwen apologized to the bear. She picked him up and felt something on the back. she turned the bear to see . . .A piece of paper scotch taped to him. She laughed thinking Mikey was playing with her. Was he hiding in the closet? She checked quick nope . . .must be something else.
Gwen read the note . . .'What?' She shook her head.
"Mikey?" She asked in the room . . . No answer. She grabbed the bear and the note and stepped out into the apartment hallway. "Mikey if this is your idea of a joke it isn't funny" Gwen called out . . .No answer.
"Mikey!" She called.
"MICHELANGELO!" She called louder. She read it again.
"no , no no no no no no" She shook her head this was wrong this . . .Something had to have happened to him he was there just awhile ago next to her sleeping . . .he was JUST HERE.
"Gwen" April appeared in front of her. Pulled her into a hug.
"April Mikey's Gone , this . . .this note . its not from him is it? I know it looks like his handwriting but it could be someone elses right? Did someone take him! We have to go find him!" Gwen started crying.
"Gwen I'm so Sorry" April hugged her friend.
"no no no no, this isn't real, i'm dreaming again. where is he!" Gwen went into a hysterical fit. Casey watched the heart break from the corner.
"i'll make coffee" He told April who nodded trying to hold back tears. She led Gwen to the couch.
Elisa came out a second later. her face solemn holding a note. Delicately written. April could tell she had just read Donatello's letter. Elisa saw Gwen and broke out into tears with her friend. rushing to hug her. gwen rocked back and forth hugging ted close to her the note on the coffee table. Gwen just stared at it like it was all the letters fault.
"Its gonna be okay" Elisa whispered in her friends ear trying to calm her down. Kira woke up dry tears on her face. She scrunched herself in bed hiding under the covers. She heard Gwens sobs from the living room.
'Leo . . .They dont deserve this. If you didn't want to be with me you should have just said so . . But not to them' Kira felt herself numb her emotions. She had to be brave . . .for them.
When Kira opened the door she half expected a note, there was nothing there and nothing in her room. He didn't bother leaving her a note. that proved she meant nothing to him.
"Is there Coffee Kira asked Casey" he handed her a mug. April told casey earlier that Kira already knew. He didn't ask if Leo left a note for her or not.
"Gwen and Elisa know, is Lynn up yet".
"No and I'd hate to be Raph , the moment she does" Casey admitted. Before the guys left this morning Casey pulled Raph off for a quick talk.
"You dont have to do this man" Casey shook his head.
"Until we find Karai Case, I left her a note and everythin'"
"wheres your mask bro?"
"With her too" Raph replied not taking his eyes off the window where he could see Lynn sleeping.
"Man you know this isn't right, this could be worked out a different way but . . .If it were april I might do the same thing" casey Admitted.
"Hey Case . . .Will ya . . .Watch her and stuff for me . . .Till I'm back?" He asked casey with a 'I really need you to do this favor but in a tough guy sort of manner' way.
"yeah Raph . . .I'll help her" Casey shook hands.
"We'll call ta give ya tha heads up on the new place were livin' in. and When we find Karai I'll call ya. . . and Casey . . ."
Casey stopped to turn around.
"thanks" raph said before dissapearing after his brothers.
"I hope you know what you guys are doin' Raph"
Lynnette Nauta stretched her hand to the other side of the bed. moving her hand around till she found its target . . ."Hmm?" She sat up . No Raphael? The last thing she remembered was hearing him tell her he was going to the bathroom. Maybe he was hangin out with Casey. Lynn shrugged. She stretched went to the bathroom brushed her teeth and flipped her hair, she winked at herself feeling great. Her hair was bed head the way she liked it and Last night was the last night she and raph would ever have to worry about the footclan, her ex, or the Pd's. April said they all went back in the take care of them. Casey saying something about the Guardians coming to pick them up. Although lynn wouldn't be surprised it Cole was six feet under by now. But she knew he would think first, she wouldn't let him damn himself over that man. Walking out to the living room she stopped.
Gwen was crying holding onto that teddy bear of Mikey's , there were paper on the coffee table like letters. She looked at Elisa who looked back at her with Sad Violet eyes. April was clutching onto Gwen trying to calm her down.
Lynnette walked away to the kitchen where Kira and Casey were. Kira was quiet.
"What? no good mornin?" Lynn remarked sticking her head into the fridge for a bottle of water. Strange . . .No guys yet.
"Lynn . . ." Casey said , lynn turned taking a drink.
"Mornin' , hey wheres Raph? and Whats wrong with Gwen and everybody. Its like I woke up in a different universe or somethin' " Lynn worried secretly but hid it behind pure sarcasm.
"Lynn . . .did ya get a note from Raph?" Casey asked.
"Note? . . .what note? . . .For what?" Lynn suddenly got serious.
"Lynn its . . .I . . .I'm sorry" He said with a solemn expression. Kira was looking up at her like she felt sorry for her.
"What fuckin' note" Lynn said to herself walking fast back to the room . Did he have to go somewhere? Why didn't he just wake her up and tell her? Walking in she looked around for a note checking the bed, her fingers felt something soft.
'Wait a second thats . . .' She picked it up . . .Two eyeholes . . .It was Raphs Mask?
He left without it? Maybe he was out in Human form with the guys? If that was so why didn't he take Casey with him?
Lynn looked around hastily looking for a note. Turning on the lamp to see . . .the note was under the lamp. She could recognize his rough scrawly writing, but could tell he tried writing nicely on it.
"Lynn
By the time ya wake up to read this, I'll be gone.
Last night the guardians picked up Hun, Stockman, Cole, and even a whole bunch of foot soldiers. But they couldn't find karai. Shes still out there somewheres. Leo thought that in order to protect all of you, we should leave.
When your with me Your in danger. Dont think I wanted to leave cuz I didn't. But Leo was right, I can't lose ya. No matter how much I want you to be with me, I can't put ur life on the line.
Karai is only after us, So to protect all of you, we left. I know I'm a dirtbag for not sayin' goodbye but , As long as ur safe. thats all that matters. I need you to be safe Lynn. You know I care about ya more than anythin'. Until all the people who want to kill us and destroy our family are gone, I can't see you. Be brave for me okay? and stay outta trouble. I know I promised I wasn't goin' anywhere, and that you have every damn right to hate me. But I needya to stay safe. Listen to Casey and watch out for the others. Please Lynn.
Love Raphael
Lynn dropped the note as it floated to the floor. She was frozen numb, she didn't know what to do. He . . .left. But he promised he wouldn't. Lynn shook her head.
"This aint right" She shook her head harder. She trusted him . . .He promised . . .
"YOU PROMISED!" She shouted. Knowing the others could hear her. She paced walking around the room not knowing what to do.
"He . . You . . .Raphael!" She shouted angrily. She saw his mask on the bed. and set the letter next to it. grabbing her hair she thought of everything that happened between them the past year . . .Now it was all gone. Everything. That huge gaping whole she felt in her stomach that he had filled up with a promise, was now gone. She felt hollow inside . She dropped to her knees putting her hands to her face.
"He lied" She cried silently. He lied to her, He promised he would be there, that no matter what happened he would call, and that if it got to be too much they'd get on his motorcycle and leave. He Lied to her, all of it . . .Even the part of him saying he loved her . . .He lied. Lynn threw the lamp against the wall and it shattered. She felt like her whole soul and being was ripped out of her. Nothing made sense. . . Except she felt played and used all over again. Cole was nothing compared to this . . . She felt absolutely betrayed. Throwing a glass against the wall she screamed at the top of her lungs before collapsing knocking over a chair and falling to the floor on her knees.
"Lies" She shook her head bursting into tears . . .this is hell all over again.
Casey and April looked at eachother. They could hear the rampage and nuclear explosion that was Lynnette Nauta. She had obviously found the letter Raph left for her. Kira stood up, she was the only one out of the girls who seemed to be taking this less harshly or so it seemed. April knew Leo didn't leave her a message. She wasn't sure Leo had the right words to say that he could make up for what Kira heard last night. He said he tried to get in but she locked the door. He gave up and left to gather his brothers. April was asked to help the girls to their new apartment.
She let a last tear fall watching Gwen, Elisa try to help eachother. Lynn stay locked in the room she destroyed. Kira sit numbly at the kitchen table. like she expected this all to happen. Here was April . . .Asked to clean up the pieces.
In three days April recieved a call. Casey took the girls to their new apartment to help set up and move things from the old apartment to the new.
"Leo what about their things at your place?"
"Already taken care of. Casey and Angel said they would help. Their stuff will be outside their door to the apartment when they arrive" Leo said calmly. April noticed she kept looking guiltily towards the door to where Kira was sleeping.
"Hows Mikey, Don and Raph doing?" April asked.
"Mikey is dealing with it the only way he knows how, reading comic books and constantly out looking for Karai. I dont think he gets that its not only Karai were going to have to take care of. He just wants to get back to gwen as fast as possible.
"Don?" April asked.
"He spends all his time in the lab, only coming out for meals, if even then he'll eat in his lab to work".
"And Raph?" April asked sighing.
"He wont even speak to me, Not that I can blame him. just hits the sand bag all day, and all night he's out with us looking for Karai or Footclan" Leo sighed.
"Are you even going to talk to the girls?" April asked irritated but sad at the same time.
"We agreed that no communication was best, We all promised we wouldn't . . ." Leo said with another heavy sigh.
"Leo . . I . . .I dont know what to say, or what I even can say. How is Master Splinter dealing with all of this".
"He doesnt agree with it but understands . . .its to protect the ones we love" Leo said.
"Leo . . .If you really loved her . . .You would ask her what she wanted" April said only to hear a hung up dial tone. She sighed putting the phone down. She tried.
"Any Luck?" casey asked walking through the door.
"They're a mess but holding their own. Leo hung up on me again after I suggested he talk to Kira . . .Nothing" April shrugged.
"theres nothin' we can do babe, just ride this out until they get back together again" Casey shrugged.
"What if they dont Casey?" April asked herself out loud.
"I dont think Raph would give up that Easy, Heck even Mikey for that Matter" Casey smirked.
(New Home . . .Empty)
Gwen slept all day and all night since they arrived at the new apartment. She looked out her window at the grey rainy sky. Hugging Ted to her. Mikeys note left on her desk. She knew tomorrow eventually she'd have to open the shop. No matter if she wanted to just lay here by herself. Lynn and Kira heard the doorbell ring. It was Angel she said that the last box from the guys was here. Lynn and kira didn't shed any tears in front of eachother, trying to be strong for her and they got back, Lynn immediately hid in her new room. Kira did paperwork for the gallery and tried making everything as normal as possible. Elisa tried to read but would give up and work on her novel. Kira thanked Angel and Lynn slipped her a 10 spot and whispered something to Angel who winked and nodded.
"Sure I can do that. Just leave it out here away from the other boxes I'll be back next week" Angel left and Lynn nodded.
"Hey Gwen" . . .Elisa walked in, holding a box Lynn came in with another one.
"Your stuffs in here" Elisa smiled sympathetically before leaving.
"Hey uhm . . .Angel picked this up , she wanted to make sure you got it" Lynn set a familiar orange sweatshirt on the bed. Gwen pulled it close to her when lynn left, It had Michelangelo's smell to it. She pulled it on and tried to fall asleep, grasping Ted to her chest curled up ontop of the covers.
(When Your Gone: Avril lavigne)
I always needed time on my own
But I never thought I'd
Need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
and the Bed where You lyed
Is made up on your side
Gwen felt the side of the bed that was empty
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When your gone the pieces of my heart are missing you
and When your gone
The face I came to know is missing too
and when your gone the words I need to hear
To always get me through the day
and make it okay
I miss you_
Michelangelo was playing another video game and he failed it again. He let the controller fall to the ground, he re-read all his comic books over and over again. It lost its sense of fun, when he could read them to Gwen as many times as she like and shed love the voices he'd do, and that he'd point out all the pictures to make sure she didn't miss one.
"Mikey . . .theres mac and cheese on the stove for ya" Raph pointed. Raph knew Mikey stopped eating normally. He barely ate anything. Mikey walked into the kitchen and let the mac and cheese sit on the stove. Someone else could have it. Gwen liked ketchup on hers. He sighed sitting down in his room looking up at the ceiling.
I never felt this way before
everything that I do
Reminds me of you
and the Clothes you left they lay on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do
Gwens "I only date Ninjas" T-Shirt was on the floor of his room. He thought about that night when they couldn't go further, because he was nervous. How sad she was and that she thought he didn't want her, when it was the complete opposite. He thought she wouldn't want it with him. Then that night after rescuing them . . .He closed his eyes remembering her taste, her sounds, her nails on his arms and the feeling of security she said she had afterwards. calling his name out, feeling pure waves of nothing but love for her.
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When your Gone
The pieces of my Heart are missin' you
and When your gone
The face I came to know is missin' too
and when your gone the words I need to hear
To always get me through
the day
And make it okay
I miss you
He thought of when he was having a bad day. Gwen would make him something before she would do everything in her power to make him laugh. whether it was making him something in the shape of a heart or smiley face. Order his favorite pizza and surprise him with it. Surprise him around a hallway corner with a kiss and theyd chase eachother until she let him catch her. Tickle fights, watching movies , even dorky ones he knew she only watch cuz of him.
We were made for eachother
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah yeah!
If all I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd Do I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe
I need to feel you here with me YEAH
Now he felt lost, and alone. They hadn't come close to finding Karai yet, no sign of her, she dissappeared without a trace. God knows he searched that headquarters building a thousand times with Raph who was just as wanting to get back to the girls as he was. The building was freaking vacated again, no sign of the foot being there except old dougnuts, and lifting equipment which Raph took with him. Michelangelo said a quick prayer that Gwen was okay. Hoping that she wasn't too sad. Leo wouldn't let them check on them, either, and Master Splinter said to follow through and Find Karai to be sure.
When your Gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When your gone
The face I came to know is missin' too
When your gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through
will always get me through the day
And make it okay
I miss you
Now here come the part I ask you to repeat the excersize
"I will trust in the Author, I will trust in the Author"
Feeling better?
"I will trust in the Author"
Great job. Unfortunetally i'm going to show how their all doing so this might sadden you.
