Title: To Be Loved 52?
Author: Christen but if you want a response back from during the week email me at these characters belong to One Tree Hill except for Margaret or any other characters you don't recognize.
Distribution: Take it, but let me know. If you have any of my other fics, go ahead.
Comments: This is my first One Tree Hill Fic but email me if have any comments please email them to me. Ok someone was a little confused and they couldn't understand how Lucas could have kids but still be in high school. Ok when Lucas, Nathan, Haley etc are in high school in the past and when they have kids that's in the future. Remember how Dan has a date of death that's not current? That's evidence that at the time that was the future. Any other questions just email me.
(To Be Loved by Curtis Stigers)
"Daddy's
favorite little girl
Dress up in your momma's pearls
Serve us
breakfast in her bed
Heard a little kiss on the forehead
You
are sugar
You are spice
You are growing up so nice
Paint
your nails
Paint your face
Paint around the empty space"
Kendall opened her door and looked around. No one seemed to be in the hall. This was the perfect time to go and do what she had to do. She went into Chad's room. She started going through his desk. She found a picture of Chad and her as little kids. Keith was holding her and Lucas was holding Chad. On the back it said "First time I met my Aunt Kendall. I know then that she was crazy." She put it aside and started digging through the desk again. She found a book labeled "my family album." She remembered that Chad had mentioned he had to make this for some school project. She picked it up and the other photo and decided this would be enough for now. She remembered how Chad wouldn't let anyone look at it for any reason not ever Lucas or Margaret. Well she was going to see what was in here. She left his room and headed to hers. Once she got back in there, she turned back on the computer screen. She had already made the title page. "Chad Jalesiski-Scott, who was he really?" she was making a photo PowerPoint of this life. She figured Lucas or Jake could use this at the memorial and if not at least when Carrie forgets who her brother was she could show her. She opened the album. "My life. Warning:" Normality not accepted or expected." Margaret laughed. "How true." Next page was a picture of Margaret and Lucas holding a new born Chad. "Even or my first day, it had already been determined that I was born to do the unusual, unexpected and unacceptable. No one told my parents though and no one told me they didn't tell them. Too bad, I didn't know, it would of saved me from years of lectures. But I guess that's what I get for being me. Side note: notice my father's hair gets thinner every year I'm alive." Kendall continued to read and didn't notice the new im that had popped up.
Nathan decided he should give Keith and Karen the night to be alone so he dropped off Haley at home and headed to Margaret and Luke's hopefully they wouldn't mind. He was half-way there when his cell phone went off. He looked at the caller Id. It was his mom. He pressed answer. "Hi mom."
"Hey are you driving some where's? Cause if you are you shouldn't be on the phone."
"You'd purposely want me to ignore your call. Mom you'd be furious with me if I did that."
Deb sighed. "Ok true. So why are you driving this late anyway?"
"Well Karen and Keith just got engaged so I thought I'd give them the house alone so I'm going to Margaret's and Lucas's for the night."
"So they did get engaged?"
"Yeah even though dad tried to stop them"
"Well I'm happy for them."
"Me too. Well I've got to go. Mom so I'll talk to you later."
"Bye Nate I love you."
"I love you too."
Deb put her phone back on the bed. So Karen and Keith had gotten engaged and he didn't even do it because she's pregnant. Deb put her hands on her stomach. Could she really got back to Tree Hill and tell Keith she was pregnant with his child? How badly would that hurt Karen? She knew it would kill her. Could she do that to Karen again? She had taken Dan away from her years ago because she was pregnant and she couldn't do that again. She was just going to have to keep her pregnancy and the paternity a secret for now.
"They're finally asleep. Thank God!" Brooks said lying down next to Tim.
"Those two sure have a set of lungs on them. Don't they?"
"So did T.J. don't you remember?"
"No for some reason I don't."
Brooke sighed. "Tim what would you say about us having another kid?"
Tim sighed. "It wouldn't be such a bad thing. It might actually be kind of nice for T.J. to have a brother or sister."
"You know I didn't really expect you to agree so easily." Brooke said shocked.
"Well it's nice to know that after all these years, I can still surprise you."
Brooke smiled. "Knowing you Tim that'll never stop."
"You know we do the next baby thing I have a condition."
"Which is?"
"That these two go back to Peyton and Lucas first."
Skills finally walked out the door and Lucas sighed. He had looked at the clock before the guys had started to leave; it was late. Margaret had probably already gone to sleep. He just hoped he didn't wake her up since it didn't seem like she ever got sleep. That worried him but she made it seem like it was just a once or twice thing. He didn't completely believe her but was it his place to tell her? Even if he was her husband, he still wasn't sure what to do. She seemed like she was trying so hard to keep herself together but after what Dan did to her it made sense. He turned off the light in the kitchen and went upstairs. He was heading to the bedroom when he noticed the light was on in the nursery. He went in and was shocked to find Margaret passed out on the floor. He checked her pulse; she was still alive so she was just sleeping. He breathed a sigh of relief. He then noticed the broken pieces of glass on the floor. He picked them up and threw them away. He went to turn off the light and to head to the bedroom but stopped. How would she act if she was to wake up and find herself alone in the dark in the nursery? He figured that would probably just make her upset. And he promised her he'd be there for her. And he had meant that. He went and grabbed two pillows and a blanket and then he headed back to the nursery. He put a pillow under her head and then laid down next to her and covered them both up with a blanket. He put his arms around her so she would know he was there and then closed his eyes and tried to go to sleep.
"Bryan you know you don't have to stay in here with me 24/7." Lori said annoyed.
"How is that I'm bothering you? I'm just sitting here reading a book." He asked looking up from the book for a second.
"Yeah what kind of book has the title "Ashes to Ashes.", anyway?"
"A good one."
"Ok be that way."
Bryan sighed. "Are you that desperate to talk to someone that you want to talk to me?" Bryan asked shocked.
"Well I'm not desperate. I just… well if you're going to stay here you might as well talk to me."
"I didn't mean to insult you by calling you desperate, if I did I'm sorry."
"Thanks. So got anything to talk about?'
Bryan put his book down but fooled the page he was reading over. "Well we can talk about he accident because I know neither one of us has done that yet."
Lori sighed. "You mean the accident that killed Chad? Because I having a hard time accepting it I'm not sure I can talk about it yet."
"You know I haven't even told my parents yet."
"Why?"
Bryan shrugged. "Well if you haven't noticed my parents aren't really the type of parents you talk to. But I also sort of feel like if it tell them that means it's really true and I'll have to deal with it and accept it and I don't' wan to do that."
"It seems like we both need a big dose of reality, huh?
"And where I thought the wreck was that. Didn't work huh?'
"Made me not want to live in this reality."
"Well maybe we can help each other with accepting reality?"
"Bryan you do know that me and Ryan…" Lori started to say.
"Are a couple I know and so are me and Jenny. I'm just talking about being friends. If that's ok with you."
"Sorry for assuming you were hitting on me."
"If ok, Lori really. So deal?"
"Yeah deal."
"You know I think I'm going to need to you to pinch me every day just to prove to me that is in fact real." Karen said to Keith who had his arms tightly wrapped around her. They were in his bed at the beach house.
"You're going to have to do the same for me. Do you know long I've wanted to marry you?"
"Really? So why did you wait so long to buy the engagement ring?"
"Well I didn't wait as long as you think. I've had that ring for quite a while."
Karen gave him a look. "And why haven't you asked me yet?"
"I was worried you'd say no."
"You were?"
"Yes and maybe it makes me a coward but that was what I was worried about."
"Well I don't think you're a coward. Because let me tell you I would never agree to marry a coward."
"Well right now your opinion is the only one that matters to me. Well you and Luke's that is. Since he said he was ok with me marrying you."
"That means a lot Keith it does. So we're finally going to be a family. It's about time."
"Yeah but now it's bigger."
"What?" Karen asked thinking he knew about the baby.
"Well Luke's married now and his wife is pregnant and there's Nathan so it's not just the three of us anymore."
"Well we're still being a family anymore."
"Yeah and we'll all be happy and that's all that matters."
"You just wait here I'll go get Mrs. Jalieski for you, dear." The nurse told Jenny as she sat on the couch and then went to get Margaret. Jenny looked around the room. Most of the patients were starting to stare at her. Jenny took a deep breath and closed her eyes. She hate hospitals and this place seemed just plain scary to her.
"Umm… the nurse said you're here to see me." Margaret said sitting down on the couch across from her.
Jenny opened her eyes. "Yeah I'm Jenny… Jagliski."
"You're my daughter, right?" Mag guessed.
"Well not biologically…."
"Well it's not to finally meet Jenny's mother. She talks about you all the time, Mrs. Jagielski."
"Mom where did you go?" Jenny asked.
"Umm… I'm here sorry I just have a lot on my mind so you're really my step-daughter?"
"Yeah but my bio mother is… well in short you basically raised me."
"Excuse me, young lady but you and I may not share blood but I raised you and you don't speak to me like that unless really want to prove to you that you are my daughter."
"Ok you zoned out on me again. Maybe this is a bad time."
"No it's just what I seem to be doing lately. Just try to ignore it."
"Ok um… I don't really know what to say."
"Well what would you normally say to me?"
"Well we are really close and usually when I get home or back to school; I call you to tell you how my day went and what happened. Even when I know you're mad at me; I try to talk to you. We both can't seem to stand not talking to each other or being mad at each other for long."
"It must be hard for you not have me around to talk to. I'm really sorry about that." Margaret said truthfully.
Jenny sniffled. "This isn't your fault. And I know that but you're right it's hard."
"Mom… this is so hard… I don't know how I'm going to get over this."
"You back?"
"Yeah I just I really wish I remembered how close we were. I do."
"Me too. Look I just had to bring you this. It's Chad's journal." Jenny said handing her the journal.
Margaret took it. "Thanks Jenny and I hope we get that relationship back."
"Me too."
"What are you doing Hales?" Quinn asked coming in to Haley's room.
"Trying to have a little privacy but I'm failing apparently." Haley said closing her journal.
"Privacy in this family? That's a joke right?" Quinn asked laughing as she sat down on the bed next to Haley.
"I swear some times mom and dad only had all of us just to make sure that we could never hide a damn thing."
"Knowing our parents it could be true. So let me guess that journal is full of the name Nathan."
Haley gave her a look. "Have you been reading my diary because if you have Quinn I swear…" Haley started to say mad.
"Oh chill Haley, she doesn't have to read you diary to know that your head over heals into Nathan." Viviane said coming in and sitting down next to Quinn.
"You know too? Is there anyone in this house that doesn't know?" Haley asked shocked.
"Taylor and dad probably. Taylor because she's only concerned with herself and dad because he'd prefer to believe that all of us are going to be virgins for the rest of our lives." Quinn said.
"Though the second Taylor started to walk. He should have known that would never happen." Viv said.
"Viviane!" Haley said shocked.
"What it's the truth!"
"Let's forget about Taylor for now and just talk about you and Nathan. So you know if you're got any questions you can ask us." Quinn said.
"Just what ever you do don't ask Taylor." Viv said.
"You know Taylor is our sister, Viv."
"You but she's right Hales." Quinn said.
"Who's right about what?" Lydia said coming in.
"Viv about the fact that Nathan and Haley make a cute couple." Quinn said lying.
"Well I agree with Quinn on that. I've never seen you so happy, Haley." Lydia said.
"You know what guys as nice as this is I really don't feel like talking about me and Nathan."
"Which is good because if you dad hears you mention a guy he's going to want to lock you in your room for the rest of your life because he's determined that none of you ever grow up." Lydia said.
"One of the pleasures of being the youngest." Haley said sarcastically.
"So what are the four you're talking with out me?" James asked coming in.
"Sure dad come on it. You know you just need to take my door off because none of you seem to knock anyway." Haley said annoyed.
"Well there's an idea Lydia at least we don't have to worry about Haley ever having a guy alone in her room." James said.
"James this is Haley we're talking not Taylor or Quinn or Viv."
"Mother!" Quinn and Viv both said shocked.
"Oh girls you know what I mean."
"Speaking of our girls any of you seen Taylor?" James asked.
"The only time I see her is when she's trying to steal my clothes." Quinn said.
"Or when she's trying to use my makeup." Viv said.
"For me it's when she needs help with her homework or she wants me to do it for her." Haley said.
"Well it's almost midnight and she's still not home I swear Lydia I'm going to lock her in her room."
"You tried that James; she can pick locks." Lydia pointed out.
The three girls just started laughing.
Deb came back into her house. Seeing Larry actually helped calm her down. She heard some laughing coming out of the kitchen. She was shocked to see her brother Cooper. "Cooper! Oh my God what are you doing here?"
"It's good to see you too!" He said picking her and spinning her around.
"Cooper, you're going to make me sick if you don't put me down." Deb said.
Cooper put her down. "Sorry you know I never thought I'd find Andrew in any place you were living again."
"Hey I told myself I'd never be in the same state as her again." Andrew said.
"Yeah and I told myself the same thing but our daughter's health comes before all of that." Deb said.
"Of course. Deb you know I forgot how much I liked your brother." Andrew said.
"Yeah well give my brother liquor and he'll marry you."
"Well that's not true. I need more than just liquor."
"You mean a low cut top and a short skirt?" Deb asked knowingly.
"I'm not about to wear a low cut top or a short skirt. Not even for you, Coop." Andrew said.
Deb laughed. "Coop you know most brothers aren't this close wither their sister's xs." Deb pointed out.
"Look I'm going to go check on the kids… you two can talk." Andrew said leaving.
"Are you ok?" Coop asked knowing she wasn't.
"I'm fine Cooper. You didn't have to come out here just to check on me." Deb said lying.
"You know me; you don't have to act so touch. I've seen you cry before, Debra Lee and I still haven't told anyone."
Deb smiled. "And I've seen you cry too Cooper Lee…"
"And you told everyone as I remember."
"Yeah and dad almost disowned you for it."
"That's why we both always tried to act so tough but dad's dead and it's just you and me so please tell how you really feel."
Deb sighed. "I… I'm one stop away from a complete breakdown but I know I can't."
"Why not?'
"I've got one child left that still depends on me and whether she wants to admit it or not; she needs me and I will not let her down."
"Well I'm here now so let me help you."
Margaret
woke up with a start. She was shocked to feel Lucas's arm around
her.
She sighed. It felt good to have someone's arms around her that
wasn't
Dan
but for some reason she couldn't stay there. In the back of her
mind a
thought
came up. "He's only with you because of the baby. He doesn't
care
about
you." She agreed with herself and decided that she couldn't stay
with
him
right now not if he didn't want to be with her. She slowly took his
arms
off
her and got up. She noticed when she used her hand to get up it
started
bleeding
again. But she didn't seem to feel any pain. She never really
seemed
to feel any pain anymore. Not that that was a bad thing. I should
clean
this before Lucas wakes up, she thought. She didn't want him to
worry. She started
to
head to the bathroom but heard breathing coming out of the guestroom.
She
cracked
open the door and found her brother sleeping in the bed.
"See
no one cares about you. Your own brother sleeps while I rape you. Hedoesn't
care what happens to you. Your mother is sleeping in a differentman's
bed ever night while I rape you. Your mother doesn't care about
you.You're
farther handed you off to your mother and your mother handed you offto
me. So see Margaret no one cares what I do to you. So don't you
darethreaten
to tell anyone what I do to you because I don't and won't takebeing
ideally threatened by you." Dan told Margaret as they looked at
Nathanwho
was sleeping. "Do you understand?" He asked as he squeezed her
armharder.
"I
get Dan now let go of me your hurting me."
Dan
smiled. "As long as you stay submissive to me, I won't need to
hurtyou."
"Fine
then let go now!" Margaret said though her teeth.
"Good
now let's go back to your bedroom; I'm not done with you yet."
Dansaid
dragging her off.
"Nathan
please wake up, please." She was begging him mentally but as she
waspulled
away she was what Dan said was true her brother didn't care abouther.
That
memory sent a chill up her spine. She had to remind herself she
wasn't
with
Dan anymore. That he couldn't hurt her anymore. But deep down she
knew
that
he would always hurt her.
