Edward's POV
"We really should get back together. We can just forget about the past and start over" Tanya smiled touching my arm.
She leaned up and kissed me.
Before I could push her away Jasper bumped into me in his rush to move. I looked up in surprise looking for the fire. Alice followed Jasper and then Emmett followed. I noticed Rosalie's car and automatically panicked. Something happened. I ran over in time to see Bella get off of the floor. She looked at me for all of two seconds; I saw her eyeliner running and the black tears running down her cheeks. She dropped her bag and took off. I was too surprised to move.
"What happened?" I asked.
I didn't wait for the response because Bella had just crossed the street and hit the shelter of the woods. I ran to the street and could hear Emmett's thoughts following me. He grabbed me.
"Edward I don't think it would be smart to run into the woods alone."
"She's in there alone and upset" I screamed. "Do you know how many things could go wrong?"
I started fabricating things that could go wrong in my head. It got so bad that I started to think about things that I knew wouldn't happen. Like what if a meteor hits inside of the forest? Or if a mountain lion eats her. Rosalie finally caught up to us along with everyone else.
"What happened to make her run away?" I asked.
"We should go home and tell Esme and Carlisle she ran again. They'll figure out a better tactic than searching blindly" Rosalie said with a frown.
Emmett drove my car because I was too busy freaking out.
"What are you guys doing home?" Esme said when we walked in.
"We didn't know what to do" Alice said.
"Bella saw Edward and Tanya kiss and broke down. When Edward came over she ran into the woods"
"I can't see her future either." Alice added.
"And she is very" Pause. "Unstable right now" Jasper added.
"It's my fault" I finally found my voice.
"No it isn't" Rosalie said. "She's been feeling off since the whole thing with Jordan and then getting her car taken. Today was just the breaking point"
"Because of Tanya and me" I yelled. "Why didn't you tell me about what was going on with her emotions" I yelled accusingly at Jasper
"Because you weren't talking to her so it shouldn't have mattered. Plus, she was mostly angry. She wasn't aware of any other feelings. I can't sense feelings she doesn't feel." Jasper said.
"What was I supposed to say to her? After bringing him in this house, doing lord know what!"
"If you wouldn't be so thick skulled you would've realized that she didn't sleep with him" Alice snapped. "And that's why she isn't speaking to any of us. Rosalie was the only one who didn't assume anything and went straight to speak to her. I yelled at her, everyone else ignored it and didn't even look at her, and you pushed her away when she tried to explain herself, literally."
"And how do you know she wasn't lying to you" I said, sadly defensive.
"Because it was obvious" Jasper answered.
"This is all my fault" I cried.
"Don't blame yourself son" Carlisle said, walking in.
No one even notice Esme call him.
"What are we going to do?" I asked.
Suddenly Alice had a vision. Bella was walking out of the woods a few miles away from the school and closer to the house. She was still crying but was trying to get home.
"I'll go get her" I said when it ended.
"No" Alice said. "Rose can you go pick Bella up? She is a few miles away, towards the school"
Rosalie nodded and left. An hour later they got back home. Bella ran up to her room before anyone had a chance to get to her.
"She didn't speak at all" Rosalie whispered.
A little while later Bella came back downstairs. She had on a sweat suit now and walked straight out of the door.
"Bella" I called at the same time as Carlisle.
She didn't even turn around, she just kept walking ahead.
"Bella" Carlisle said louder. "Where are you going? You need to come back in here."
"I'm leaving" She said quietly.
"Leaving where" Carlisle said.
My heart sped up.
"Leaving here" She said stopping but not turning around. "I don't want to stay here anymore"
I felt my heart break. She wanted to leave and it was my fault. My fault for hitting her, for assuming she slept with Jordan, not talking to her, everything!
"Please don't leave" I spoke up.
I could see her tense up. "Don't talk to me" She finally said.
I felt my heart break again.
"Bella, please, let's talk" I said.
"I have nothing to say to you" She said angrily.
I walked up to her and spun her to me. She reached up and slapped me. I looked at her in surprise. She looked pissed, but all I could see in her eyes was sadness.
"How could you?" She yelled teary eyed.
"I didn't know she would kiss me" I said because I knew that's what she meant.
She didn't respond. Instead she bumped past me the way I had to her. I turned and saw her digging her nails into her arm. I ran up to her and grabbed her arm.
"Stop" I said sternly.
"Don't touch me" She screamed.
I stepped back from her in surprise. Once again her nails dug into her arm.
"If I have to stay here don't expect me to be happy about it" She spit before she started crying again.
"Oh my God" I whispered.
Bella had already run back into the house and disappeared up the stairs. I turned to Carlisle who looked shocked. He looked lost in thought for a few seconds before going back into the house. I followed him but I felt like I was in slow motion. Carlisle was speaking too fast and I was moving too slow.
I was literally knocked out of the state by Jasper. He bumped into me so hard I fell.
"Carlisle" He screamed, running up the stairs.
I got a horrible feeling in my stomach as I ran behind him. We ran straight to Bella's room and dread engulfed me. Jasper banged on the door twice before Emmett ran up and forced it open. He also had to force the bathroom door open. He saw the scene first. I took every inch of control not to scream.
Bella's POV
Why is this happening to me? What did I do so wrong?
I slam my bedroom door closed and locked it. My nails have drawn blood from my arm. Four crescent shapes marked my right arm. I threw off my sweater. I want to scream but I can't. I can't breathe. I run to the bathroom and lock that door too. The mirror throws my reflection at me. Why does it look like water though? I'm going to drown.
"Look at you" I look up at the mirror and see Charlie standing next to me, watching me through the mirror.
No. No. No. Why is he here? How is he here? No. No. No.
"Are you happy?" He asks.
I start yanking on my hair roughly.
"Please, please, please make him go away" I beg the air. "What is wrong with me?"
"You killed me" Charlie hisses.
"No" I cry. "No I didn't. Please make it stop" I cry louder.
"Make it stop Bella. Make it stop. Make it all stop" Charlie chants.
Make it stop
Make it stop
Make it stop
My fist flies into the mirror and it breaks around my fist. Huge chunks of glass fall around my hand. Blood falls from my knuckles. I stare at myself in what is left of the mirror.
Make it stop
Make it all stop.
My hand reaches out and grabs a big piece of glass.
Make it stop
I close my eyes and do it. Quickly. Right across the wrist. Pain spasms through my body and when I open my eyes Charlie vanishes with a smile. The room spins, the glass falls from my hand to the floor and shatters along with the rest of the glass. My back slams against the wall. I groan in pain and I hit the floor roughly. My head hits the wall and my vision swims. There is blood everywhere. My white bathroom is red.
It's gone though. I fixed it. I fixed me. This time when I blink I don't open my eyes.
A/N: Hmm I wonder how many of you guys know what just happened to Bella. I would love to hear your guesses. I would love to see who gets it right
Once again I apologize for how long I made you guys wait so maybe these updates will make it up… Hopefully…
