Unintentional Hero

Author: Nightstar Fury of Nightstar Productions

Rated: M for a variety of things that will happen

Pairing: Hiccup/Astrid

Disclaimer: I do not own HTTYD

44; I Hate You

Avery had been just as shocked as Hayden was to find out what they'd done-that they had sex while drunk, but she didn't get dressed in under ten seconds and bail on her dragon at the news. How could she? Avery was really sore still from the night before, so after Hayden left she just sat on the bed crying for a bit before Camille knocked on the door asking if they could come in-Avery got herself dressed in a pair of pajama pants and a basic tee shirt before allowing it. Camille, Jasmine, Heather, and Rachel all came in slowly as they saw Avery just crying lightly on the couch. She told the girls everything that she could remember and how she realized they'd had sex last night, how she woke Hayden up and told him but he freaked out and rushed off without a word. The girls confirmed that when they were on their way to bed around 10:30pm they heard the noises and decided not to dare enter so they made more room in the second RV while Seth and Theo stayed in the tent.

"It'll be okay, Avery...He's...probably just mad at himself for getting that drunk..." Jasmine stated rubbing her back a little.

"But he just...took off. I'm mad at me too for getting that drunk: he even said him drinking a ninth beer might not of been a good idea but I told him it'd be fine...Gods, it's all my fault," she cried more.

"No it's not. You guys were drunk, you couldn't have known it would go that far...He'll be back soon and you two can talk about it. Just relax until then...and drink some water," Rachel offered lightly. With warning-Toothless was heard landing outside, Camille checked the window near the table to see that Hayden was back and heading right to the camper.

"He's back," Camille pointed out, then the door opened and Hayden walked in: he looked calm but scared nevertheless.

"Can you give us a few minutes?" Hayden asked the girls: they nodded as Camille, Rachel, Jasmine, and Heather filed out and left. Avery looked at him, ashamed at what they'd done together and then started to cry again. Hayden moved beside her and hugged her tightly. "Ssh, it's okay. It's alright, Avery...We'll figure this out. I'm sorry I took off..." he said softly.

"Why...did you?" Avery asked him, wiping her eyes.

"I just...got scared, nervous, mad-at me, not you..." Hayden admitted to her.

"You told me another beer wasn't a good idea and I pushed you anyway..." Avery lowered her head.

"I was drunk before that beer, it's my fault. I should've known better than to start making out with you knowing how riled up it gets both of us..." Hayden sighed now.

"I kissed you first," Avery reminded.

"But I didn't stop it. I didn't stop any of last night and I'm sorry...I never wanted to have sex with you, not this soon at least. I wanted us to be ready," Hayden sighed and stared into her eyes gently.

"So you regret sleeping with me then..." Avery frowned.

"No...I regret sleeping with you while we were drunk. I didn't want our first time to be because we were so intoxicated that we blacked out right after the fact-then in the morning couldn't remember a damn thing. I wanted us to be ready, Avery-as in both consenting, aware...I wanted to make love to you, not fuck like dragons in heat..." Hayden told her.

"So what do we do about this? We can't take it back," Avery asked.

"Well the first thing I need to do is make sure you're okay...You said there was blood on the between your legs and on the sheets?" Hayden asked: she nodded as he got up and went to check the bed. It wasn't a lot of blood and he assumed he knew what it was because of what they'd been doing. "It's just from your hymen being broken when I entered you-I've read some women can bleed a little from it. Let me see your arms and back...You scratched the hell outta me, I want to make sure I didn't mark you..." Hayden said to her. Avery stood up as she removed her shirt and stood with her back to him: he didn't see anything on her back but along her neck and lips were bruised from hard kisses.

"And there's a few bruises on my legs from...where you held my legs..." Avery informed lightly as she put her shirt back on and faced him now.

"How much of last night can you remember?..." he asked now.

"Well, I remember coming in here and having a beer with you. We talked about how you were feeling with everyone calling you a hero. You tried to leave because you said you didn't know who you were anymore, but I stopped you and told you that you were still you. After that...I kissed you, you took my shirt off, then your own. You picked me up and pressed back to the wall before we went to the bedroom. I can't remember more than that right now..." Avery stated softly.

"I'm starting to recall more too. I remember getting to the bed, taking off your bra, then pants and underwear. I fingered you a while, then ate you out. You took my pants off...Then I think after you stroked me a few times we just got into it. I just wish I could remember if I hurt you when I entered you..." Hayden sighed a bit.

"Well I'm...really sore down there. I remember being in a lot of pain before it turned into pleasure..." Avery pointed out.

"I'm so sorry..." Hayden said lightly as he held her close to him in her arms.

"It's okay...I'll heal...So what now...obviously don't...ever do this again." Avery asked as Hayden kissed her forehead as they both headed out of the RV and the others were just quiet watching them come down the two steps and sit at the picnic table.

"Obviously...as for actually having sex again, well I think we should just hold off a while. I go back to base in two weeks and so you can heal. We can be better prepa—Shit, that's right...We were unprotected last night," Hayden said, remembering that fact now.

"Yeah...I actually checked the bedroom after you left to see if maybe we had but didn't see any condoms..." Avery admitted now.

"How worried about this should I be?" Hayden asked her now.

"About what?..." Camille questioned.

Hayden sighed glancing towards Camille, then Avery, "About you ending up pregnant, Avery. When was your last period?" he asked now.

"It's irregular, Hayden...you know I don't always get it every month..." Avery replied.

"Did you get it this month, that's all I need to know," Hayden asked.

"And how would you know if you're in the clear by knowing her period?" Ethan asked curiously.

"Because women with a normal period as is every twenty-one to twenty-eight days will ovulate two weeks after her period. Women with irregular however, have less of a chance to ovulate. If he knows she didn't get her period this month then she should be be fine," Jasmine stated.

"I got it three weeks ago..." Avery told him softly.

"Well that's a little relief...we should've just missed your ovulation then," Hayden said as he held her hand.

"Take a test in test in two weeks anyway dear," Maria, Anderson's wife said as Hayden looked over to see them reaching the campsite now. "I had irregular periods too and both times when I wasn't trying, I got pregnant. My doctor said it's due to late ovulation because of the prolonged cycle times."

Hayden looked at her now, "I...didn't know that. So there's no way to know if she is or isn't for a few weeks?"

"Two weeks should be more than enough time. I always went by symptoms but every woman is different. Just pick up a home test in two weeks and take it first thing in the morning," Maria said softly.

"And that way you know before we have to get back to base," Anderson added with a nod.

"You feel any different, Avery...you call me. I mean it..." Hayden told her.

"You'd be the first one I call anyway...I'm sure it's fine, Hayden...It'll be okay. Don't stress out..." Avery tried to comfort him.

"Avery, I'd like to remind you I'm still in the military and even with one war over, there is a worse one about seven hours away that I could still get deployed to at anytime and if you're pregnant...I'm allowed to stress out if you're pregnant and I'm deployed where I can't see you, or come to appointments, or any of that...That's not how I want us having our first baby to go. I want to be home, I want to be with you, without the worry of having to ship out again for what would be my fourth tour of duty...don't tell me not to stress out right after last night when there is a chance you're pregnant." Hayden stated as he got up up and kissed her head, he went inside to change his clothes and come back out without a shirt on.

"Odin almighty, Avery...what the hell did you do to the poor boy?" Anderson asked seeing the marks on Hayden's back now. "And when the fuck did you get a tattoo, Hayden?"

"Wait, what!?" Camille screeched as she moved and looked at Hayden's back now: on his back was a tattoo-and in a pair of angel wings with words reading 'On The Wings Of Our Fallen, We Will Soar To Victory'.

"That? I've had that since Oivind passed away, because it's the line I came up with. Motivation motto if you would." Hayden shrugged.

"That was four years ago, how have none of us ever seen it before now?" Avery asked, also shocked.

"You tell me how often you catch me shirtless and staring at my back?" Hayden remarked.

"True." Hayden rolled his eyes as he put his earbuds in, started his music and jogged off.

"I feel like he's mad at me..." Avery sighed.

"He's not, just stressed out. Take it from someone who knows what it's like to worry about his pregnant wife while in the military. He's mad at himself for letting last night happen even though he knows that while drunk, there was nothing to stop it unless your friends came in and the rest of us were just as drunk. That and Hayden must have hit the lock by accident because we couldn't get in," Anderson stated softly.

"Just let him run, Avery...he loves it and does it every morning unless he's wounded or sick," Theo chuckled. Avery nodded as she sighed: even though she told Hayden not to worry, she actually was worried about being pregnant. Hayden was right, she didn't want them having their first child while he was still at risk to be deployed again. But all she or him could do was wait until two weeks passed so she could take a test and find out for sure.

(Two Weeks Later)

Their vacation ended just a few days after Hayden and Avery's drunken night together, mainly because Hayden was riddled with worry about her being pregnant and all around wasn't enjoying himself anymore-that and Camille, Felix, and Rachel got sick. Two weeks had passed since they returned home, and it was the day right before Hayden and the others had to return to Fort Dreki so it was the day Hayden was making Avery take the pregnancy test because he had to know before he went back. Anderson had come over for support, but the other guys and girls were off enjoying time before tomorrow. Hayden picked up the test for Avery to take, and now they were sitting at Hayden's house first thing in the morning while Camille and Gerald were home too: and it was only 7:30am.

"Thanks for coming over, Anderson..." Hayden told him while Avery was in the bathroom.

"Haddock, I've told ya a million times if not more-you're like a brother to me and I'll always be here for you. Besides, how can I not be here to find out if I'm gonna be an uncle to your kid like you are to mine?" Anderson, Hayden glanced over arching a very un-amused brow to his friend. "Too soon?"

"The day I become a father, you're an uncle by default but that still don't mean I want a kid right now. If she is then hoo-rah I'll be happy and celebrate but still-and again, this isn't how I wanted it to happen. If she's not, we're just going to be on our toes from now on..." Hayden sighed, in the silence the toilet flushed and Hayden got up moved to the bathroom door as Avery came out.

"It says to wait three minutes..." Avery said softly, "I left it on the counter for now," she added afterwards.

"So while we wait, can I inquire what you plan to do if she is, son?" Gerald asked.

"That's a really stupid question, Dad. What do you think I'm gonna do? I'm gonna be there as much as I can," Hayden sighed.

"You should quit to take care of your family that way they don't have to ever run the risk of losing you." Gerald huffed.

"Dad, don't start. Swear to God if you start then we'll have serious problems. I'm not quitting: I'll make it work...just like Anderson does," Hayden mumbled.

"Well excuse me if I'm not thrilled to find out my son got wasted with his girlfriend, had unprotected sex, and is now worrying about becoming a parent at only twenty-one years old. I swear, you do everything behind my back. Joining the military, this, and that tattoo!" Gerald stated.

"I don't tell you because you don't approve or just start arguing with me. Now will you stop," Hayden asked, he looked over at Avery who was just sitting there nervously. He took her hand and kissed her cheek, "It will be okay. No matter what happens, I'm still your boyfriend and I'm still going to be by your side," he assured her as she smiled a bit and nodded to him.

"I think it's been three minutes now..." Avery said after another minute or so passed in the utter silence as she got up and he went with her towards the bathroom. She lifted the test and took a deep breath-then seeing the result she finally let it out and looked towards Hayden as he'd been standing outside the doorway to wait for her. "Negative. It's negative, I'm not pregnant," she said softly to him. Hayden let out the breath he'd been holding in as Avery showed him the test and he smiled in relief: Avery tossed the test and Hayden hugged her tightly. He could feel she was maybe just a little upset that she wasn't-because he knew how much she wanted a family with him.

"One day, babe. When we're ready, we'll have a family. I promise," Hayden said softly to her as she nodded and hugged him back.

"Well?" Anderson asked while the two returned.

"She's not pregnant," Hayden said now as Camille got up and hugged them both, then Anderson hugged Avery and patted Hayden's back.

"Now I hope you two learned something from all this and won't have sex again until you're ready to have a family," Gerald stated, "One you can be home for. Don't want to end up like your friend's fiancee and daughter who no longer have him." Hayden flinched and froze. Camille whipped her head around to her father.

"How could you say something like that?!" Camille asked him quickly.

"Well it's the truth. Didn't another one of your friends have a baby on the way before he was killed? Eli was it? Or was it Daryl? I only know because I was at the cemetery visiting your mother and I saw his girlfriend there. She was about five months pregnant then," Gerald remarked.

"Shut your fucking mouth!" Hayden yelled making Avery, Anderson, and Camille back up. "I hate you! You fuckin' know how much my friends meant to me, how much it hurt then and still hurts now to know they are gone-and you still fucking bring it up, I'm sick of this! I think I would have preferred you not being proud of me the rest of your life rather than you talk about my friends who all died either by accident or saving MY life! Fuck you, I hate so Gods damn much and I never want to see you again. Don't call me, don't write to me, just stay the hell out of my life for good. As far as you're concerned from now on, I Am Dead To You!" Hayden stormed out of the house. He briefly caught sight of his friends before getting on Toothless and taking off angrily.

"Why would you say something like that to him!? You know how much it hurts him, Dad! You saw it when Steven died, how upset he was. Steven died saving his life, and the platoon's lives. Eli was shot and caught in a blast that Hayden couldn't save him from, and Daryl took a bullet to save Hayden-and then died in his arms. He watched Jason kill himself! He almost killed himself after that, and you insist on pushing him!" Camille cried as she shoved her father away.

"He wouldn't have killed himself, Camille. Don't be so dramatic..." Gerald sighed.

"Actually, Mr. Haddock, he might have. Because I was the one who put him on suicide watch when he returned to Afghanistan, and he admitted he wanted to kill himself so he didn't have to feel the pain anymore. And if you just brought all that back up again and he hurts himself at all-well, you're a lawyer. Why not look up assisted suicide, because it is a crime and the military will pursue such a charge for you assisting in the death of a soldier who ended the war. I never believed Hayden when he said you didn't support him, I didn't believe a father could do such a thing-but now I see why he never wanted to talk to you," Anderson stated as he left the house, "Now if you don't mind, I'm going to go make sure my brother is alright." He got on his Nightmare to go after Hayden.

"Seth...can I come stay with you and your parents? I refuse to live here," Camille asked as she saw Seth enter the house now.

"Sure can, cuz. Way to go, Uncle Gerald! He's suffered enough: he shouldn't have to feel like he's hated at home when he just got back from his third tour of duty," Seth informed Gerald sarcastically. Camille went upstairs to pack her suitcase: she grabbed anything she wanted to take then left with Seth, TJ, and Felix in Seth's car. Avery only shook her head at Gerald before leaving with Heather and Rachel in Rachel's car. Ethan, Dylan and Heather left in Dylan's: Gerald was left alone in the empty house after smacking himself in the face.

"What have I done?" he asked himself after plopping on the couch with his face buried in his hands. He never meant to hurt Hayden, he just didn't want his loved ones to have to go through what his friend's lovers and families were going through. Gerald clearly realized that he said it the wrong way, and now his son, his daughter, and the others they knew hated him for what he said to Hayden because he very well could have relapsed his son's entire recovery: he just prayed he hadn't because he'd never forgive himself if he lost Hayden because he didn't think before speaking on a very sensitive subject about the friends Hayden had lost in battle.