Day 54

I've been enjoying this blog, but at the same time I haven't been. I love that I'm able to clear my mind just by typing and focusing on the click of the keys, but I also feel like there's something missing.

Finnick has been distant lately. Maybe that's it. I think maybe the blog was helping him deal with his own problems too and now I've taken it away from him. I know he's happy for me; I can see that. But he's my best friend, so I can also see that deep within, he's hurting.

I think he's conflicted over his possible feelings for me. Sometimes I wish I could say something to him. I wish I could walk up to him and kiss him and say, "I love you, Finnick Odair," and we can be happy. But I'm not even completely sure myself. I feel like everything has been one big question lately.

This post is short but I think I've realized what is missing and there's something I need to do. If it goes well, maybe tomorrow will bring a big surprise.

Annie