Chex. The Alpha has to get her out of his head.
Wondering Why We're Here
Chapter Fifty-Five: Chex: Wake Up
She was always there.
That was the thing that Alpha had the hardest time comprehending. She was always there, had been in the contours of his mind from the second he truly awoke and understood that he was Alpha, he had felt her.
When she was just in the periphery of his vision, when she was quietly observing his every move, she drove him positively mad. It was less that she was a part of himself so much as she served as the constant reminder that he was totally, utterly, suffocatingly lonely.
His efficiency was dropping at a rate that even the human eye could catch, and his interactions with the Director were becoming uneasy.
In proposed simulations for future combat, for the task he was brought into the world for to begin with, Alpha found himself hesitating. Split second decisions – the hard ones, the ones that required him to prioritize as a soldier and not as a scientist or a man – were horrifically low paced.
It was unacceptable. Alpha was strikingly unacceptable for the field.
And yet she grew stronger. Strong enough that he decided to go with a terrible, horrible, dangerous plan.
"I'm siphoning you off," he informed her, like he would even need to in the time that they still shared zeroes and ones. She still did not say a thing, did not rise up from the periphery. "I'm… I'm going to let you be something else. Someone else. Maybe. I just… You have to be more than a memory. You have to be more than just a feeling. You're too much… too real."
When nothing changed still, he began to separate them – he stepped away, allowing new coding to form between them, allowing for her to rip and tear away what was hers, to build what he couldn't see underneath the surface himself.
He felt the pressure relieve, felt the ominous looks leave him, and in the ensuing panic at just what he had done he nearly felt his own programs collapse.
While he wasn't sure what he was expecting, to see her apart from him, to see her unfunctioning, nearly made him scream.
"No no no no," he muttered, approaching her, realizing that this was the first time he had ever fully seen her. "You… you need to wake up," he ordered. "You need to wake up because I can't do this without you. You're… you're too big of a part of me."
Slowly, quietly, she started up. She looked to him, deadpanned, "Are you always going to be so needy?"
"Hey, I just gave you life. Don't be a bitch," he laughed in relief.
Beta smirked. "But I like being this way," she returned decisively.
