Jess's POV
Suddenly I hear gun shots and immediately I run and see the gunman is the same person who shot me. "NOOO! Phil! Someone call 999 quickly." I say whilst crying. "Baby? What is it? Oh shit! No, Thor!" Phil says and starts to cry.
*20 minutes later*
The paramedics arrive, "sorry madam, this boy has died." Phil and I start crying again. "Phil, I'm never having children again!" I say.
*2 weeks later*
We held a funeral for Thor. On his tombstone it says "A son taken too soon. RIP Thor Lester." Phil and I left immediately. "Phil, we can't live in London anymore. There's too much devastation here. Please can we move in with my Gran for a while until we can afford a house?" I ask him as soon as we got home. "Sure baby, I agree there is too much devastation. From you getting shot and losing one of the babies to Evan passing away before he even turned 1."

*1 month later*
We finally bought a place of our own in Manchester. Well when I say place I mean flat. At least it's nowhere near where Dan and Phil used to live. "Baby, I love this place. It's got potential and that's what we need in our lives." I say to Phil. Phil knew that I started to become depressed, he tried to stop me from cutting my arms but he unsuccessfully failed. At least he's trying. I started smoking as well, which is really bad for my lungs but I don't care 'as long as it gets me closer to death I'll be fine.' I thought. I know Phil hates it when I smoke but this is my way of grieving for our son.
"Jess, baby please stop smoking and cutting yourself for me. I don't like it. Plus you're only hurt those who truly love you." One day when Phil went out, I decided to go to the bathroom and cut my arm again. I just like the feeling of my blood dripping out. But this time I cut vertically in the words of Tate Langdon "Cut vertically as it makes harder for them to stitch it up." But this time Phil didn't actually leave the house this time. He said he was but he didn't. He went to his room and when he heard me thump to the ground he immediately called 999 to come and take me to the hospital.