A/N: Twilight and all characters associated with it do not belong to me. What I do have is the need to say thank you to my reviewers for constantly making me smile, and for understanding what this story is all about-real life events and reactions. It's not just a story to me; it's things that have happened in my life that I'm putting in the story. That makes me a little more vulnerable to this story but you guys never disappoint me so again THANK YOU! =] Song for this chapter-"California King Bed"-Rihanna.

I walked back inside after possibly the most romantic kiss I'd ever had shivering down the bone. I went straight to the bathroom, stripped all of my clothes, and jumped into the hottest shower I could stand. Edward had gone back to Alice's to get the rest of his stuff, and then he was coming home. He was right, and so was Alice. I was treating him as if he was my dad, or Jacob, and that was unfair. I knew him better than that, and though he had hurt me I knew he meant it when he said he was sorry and it wouldn't happen again. I needed to have more faith in us, more faith in him; no matter how hard that might be for me.

I stayed in the shower until the water ran cold, and then changed into sweatpants and a tank top. I ran a brush through my hair, and put it up in a messy bun. I picked up my towel and soaked clothes and put them in the washer. Then I went and climbed back into bed cuddling under the covers to wait for Edward. We still had a long way to go in terms of trust, and communication, but those weren't things to work on while living separately. Besides, I missed him terribly, and I knew that would only get worse as time went on. I was five months pregnant; this was not a time to be miserable.

I was almost asleep when I heard the front door open and shut. A few minutes later Edward came slowly walking into the bedroom, soaked from head to toe from the rain. He smiled at me, and then disappeared into the bathroom. Several minutes later he came walking out butt naked drying his hair with a towel. Though I thoroughly enjoyed watching him prance around in his birthday suit, I forced myself to look anywhere else. We were not having sex until things were right between us, and right now they just weren't. Yes, he was coming home. But, we still had a lot to talk about, and a few things to work on, and I wasn't okay with making love until we were us again.

He slipped on a pair of boxers, and climbed into bed next to me. He slipped his hand into mine, and squeezed it lightly. We lay there, side by side, staring into each other's eyes for a very long time. And the longer we lay there, the sadder I felt inside. We were right there, literally inches from each other, but I had never felt more alone, or farther away from him than I did right then. It was like looking at a stranger in some ways. I fought back the tears as long as I could, but they won in the end.

"It's like I don't know you anymore. Here we are so close together, and yet I feel as if we're a thousand miles apart." I whispered. "It'll get better, love. We've been apart for quite a while." He said gruffly.

"So you feel it, too." I stated rather than asked. He nodded slightly. "We've been apart before and this didn't happen." I said quietly. "I didn't nearly destroy us the last time we were apart." He replied pulling his hand away to wipe at my tears. "It'll get better." He repeated. I scooted over and snuggled against him, trying to stop the tears. He started humming my lullaby and eventually I fell asleep.

I woke up late the next morning and was grateful I had taken a shower the night before. I put on a pair of the maternity jeans, and my work shirt and fixed my hair into a tight ponytail. I slipped on some socks, kissed Edward on the cheek, and walked quickly out to the living room. I took my prenatal vitamin, grabbed a pop tart, slipped my shoes on and ran out the door.

I was fifteen minutes late for work, and the day did not get any better. It seemed like every crabby customer came to my register and I was getting bitched out left and right all day long. It didn't help that I was still upset about last night. By the time my shift ended I was ready to quit, but I kept my mouth shut. I had told Brian I would work until the baby was born, and I was going to try and keep my word. Too many more days like today though and I was done. I was the pregnant one wasn't I supposed to be bitchy? Geez! I drove home in a funk, and groaned when I saw Emmett's Jeep, and Jasper's truck.

I trudged up the steps slowly, and walked in with a sigh. Everyone was sitting in the living room talking loudly and laughing. I kicked my shoes off and walked past them to the bedroom, waving as I went. Edward came in shortly after me and closed the door.

"Bad day, love?" He murmured leaning in for a kiss. I pushed him away and took my shirt off. "Okay, well everyone is here and they want to go out for dinner." He said slowly. "And you want to go?" I guessed. "Um, well it is Saturday, and I thought it might be fun for us to go out." He replied hesitantly. I found a cute maternity top and slipped it on.

"I'll go to dinner, but if they want to go to a club or something I'm not going. If you want to that's fine we can take separate cars." I snapped as I redid my hair. "Oh, no. I'm not going near a club without you. Dinner is fine with me." He replied as we walked back out to the living room.

"Are we ready to go?" Alice asked excitedly. I looked at our friends who were all happy and excited to go out, and I sighed heavily. "Actually, I'm not going tonight. It's been a really bad day and I'd just bring the mood down, but Edward is going to go." I stated with a smile I didn't feel.

"I am?" Edward asked, looking at me with a confused expression on his beautiful face.

"Aw, are you sure, Bella? We don't mind if you're a little grumpy." Rosalie said with a smile. "Oh trust me I'd be more than a little grumpy. You guys go! Have fun for me!" I exclaimed. I gave them each a hug, and kissed Edward goodbye. Once they were gone I shut and locked the door, and leaned against it with a heavy sigh.

I walked back to the bedroom, took my jeans off, changed into a tank top, grabbed my book and went back out to the living room. Twenty minutes later there was a soft knock at the door. I marked my page, and got up to see who it was. I looked through the peephole and smiled. "What are you doing?" I asked Edward as I opened the door.

"I got to thinking. What kind of husband would I be if I left my pregnant wife home alone when she's had a very bad day? So, I went to our favorite Chinese place and got your favorite foods, and then I stopped at the market and got your favorite ice cream." He explained with a smile. He held up the beef lo Mein and the Ben and Jerry's ice cream, and I took the ice cream. He laughed and went to the kitchen coming back with a spoon in hand.

Double fudge brownie ice cream always made me feel better, and tonight was no exception. Edward was sitting quietly beside me rubbing my feet as I chowed down on the ice cream. I smiled when the baby started moving around.

"I think the baby likes the ice cream." I said still smiling. He smiled, and placed a hand on my stomach. "Wow she's really moving around in there." He said softly. "I'm telling you, it's the ice cream. It makes everybody happy." I joked. He chuckled and leaned down to kiss my belly.

"I can't believe I almost lost this." Edward said after a while. I finished the ice cream, and set the container on the table. He began rubbing my stomach absently. "You and this baby are everything to me, and I screwed it up. I missed you every night. And every night I thought about how stupid I was, how stupid what I did was." He continued.

"You really didn't sleep with her?" I asked quietly. "No." He replied fervently. "Did you have feelings for her?" I asked. I don't know why I asked him that; I didn't really want to know if he did, but it was out there now. "No, Bella, I didn't have feelings for her. It's like I told you before. I liked the attention that she was giving me, and I liked that I didn't think about what was going on at home when I talked to her. I was afraid, and my way of dealing with it was flirting with some chick at work. I know it's shitty, but that's the truth." He explained.

"Have you heard from her recently?" I asked, and again I didn't know why. The questions just wouldn't stop coming. "Not since the day you knocked the shit out of her." He said with a smile. I grinned back at him.

"You know if you had just talked to me none of this would have happened." I said confidently. "Yeah, I know." He sighed. "Trust me I'm kicking myself in the ass for not doing just that." He continued bitterly. The baby kicked against his hand, and he smiled. "I'll never get tired of that feeling." He said.

"I have a name that I really, really like." I stated biting my lip. "Let's hear it." He replied with a smile. "Raelynn Marie." He thought it over for a few minutes, and then smiled widely. "I like it." He said.

"Really? I like Rae because she's my little ray of sunlight, and it's different which is also what I like about it." I rambled. "I love it. Is that what you want to name her?" He asked, still smiling. I bit my lip, and nodded. "Well, there you go. We have a name for our little peanut." He said kissing my stomach again.

"Yay! Oh, but can we keep it a secret? I want to surprise everyone when she's born." I asked excitedly. "Of course, love." He replied. I leaned up and kissed him lightly on the lips and then leaned back with a smile.

"Do you think you'll be able to get over this?" He whispered when it had gone quiet for a while.

"I'll never forget that it happened, but you wouldn't be here if I didn't think I could get over it. We've been through a lot together, Edward. And you've forgiven me for some pretty bad things, too. You're my best friend and confidante, and if it weren't for all that we've been through I wouldn't be as strong as I am today. I'm drawing on that strength now, and so far it's getting me through this. Not to mention the fact that we're married. We promised each other for better or for worse until death do we part, and I take that very seriously. The way I see it I have two options; kill you or forgive you, and I ain't having this baby in jail." I said with a smile. He chuckled, and wiped a tear from his eye.

"I don't know what I did to deserve you." He whispered. "You might rethink that statement by the time this is all said and done. I'm not going to lie to you, Edward; this is really hard for me. And I can only imagine it's going to get harder. It's going to get worse before it gets better, but again we're married. I'm in this for the long haul, and I need to know that you are, too. This can never happen again, or it will be over between us." I explained seriously.

"I wouldn't be here if I wasn't in it for the long haul, Bella. I meant my vows, too. And I swear to you this will never happen again. I have too much to lose." He said firmly.

"Then we'll work it out, and we'll get through this." I stated confidently. My phone chirped from the kitchen, and I got up to see who it was.

My water broke! Going to hospital now! –A

"Oh my god! Edward we have to go! Alice's water broke!" I squealed running to the bedroom to get dressed.