Septhis looked up at her a bit surprised. "It's fine. I understand you were scared." Septhis said with a weak smile.
"A bit more than scared, but yes. But I want to come out and say it. I'm… sorry." Eleanor sighed.
"Don't be. If anything I should be the one who's sorry." Septhis sighed.
"I still shouldn't have reacted the way I did." Eleanor sighed, shakily reaching up and cupping his cheek, running her thumb over the darkening bruise.
"You only reacted like anyone else would. Plus I deserved it." Septhis said.
"No you did nothing to deserve a slap. If need be you can return the favor, I can take it." Eleanor said guiltily.
"I'd never hurt you." Septhis said then sighed. "At least not on purpose."
"I… I need some time. This is all very shocking and I need to figure things out. I'm so sorry." Eleanor sighed.
Septhis sighed. "It's all right." Septhis said with a weak smile.
"W-Why did you never tell me about this? Did you not know?" Eleanor asked shakily.
"I didn't think i'd uh snapp. So I never told you." Septhis sighed sadly.
"What did I do wrong? Did I make you unhappy?" Eleanor asked worriedly.
"No you make me extremely happy." Septhis said placing a gentle hand on hers. "It's just something that kinda happens. And I was a little afraid to tell you."
"You never need to be afraid of anything with me. You know i'll always understand and love you. Nothing could ever tear me from you." Eleanor said gently.
Septhis smiled warmly. "It's kinda something I got from my dad. It pops up once and awhile and i'm a completely different person when it happens." Septhis sighed. "And well I can't control it. I do things, say thing that I don't mean. It's not the first time this has happened and I don't think dad knew that I have overheard about some of the things he did when it happened to him."
"Is there something we can do? Is there something it doesn't like about me?" Eleanor said worriedly.
"It's not your fault that it happened. Don't know dad never really explain it other than. What it was." Septhis sighed.
"Did he tell you some way to control it somehow?" Eleanor asked.
"Try and fight it and uh some kind of pills that we had. They never had a name to my memory." Septhis said.
"Luckily you didn't do worse. The worst you did was surprise me and locked Poopsy up. From what I can tell Poopsy just got a bad beating but nothing's broken." Eleanor said.
"That's what scares me. I've never told you because I was afraid you'd think differently of me." Septhis said with a gulp and took a deep breath. "I have killed a whole family before. Never got caught because I ran away. I try not to think back on it of what I do remember of it." Septhis sighed sadly.
Eleanor's eyes went wide, and she backed away, looking a bit fearful. Septhis looked worried over at her then sighed and looked away. "See that's what I feared. You'd only see me as a murder." Septhis grumbled. Eleanor sighed, bringing her hands up to hug her arms to herself as she looked away.
"I'd understand if you want to leave me now. Knowing that in moment where I black out I could kill. I wouldn't judge you for it." Septhis said sadly.
"Just… I don't know. This makes things so much more complicated." Eleanor said worriedly. Septhis looked back at Eleanor with a sad expression. "Whatever you do decide I won't force you to stay around me. Just, I do love you, and i'm sorry for what I did." Septhis said weakly.
Eleanor sighed, looking deep in thought as she slowly paced the kitchen.
"Sorry for keeping this all a secret from you I was just worried you'd see me differently." Septhis sighed.
"Well it certainly does change things." Eleanor sighed.
"I figured it would" Septhis chuckled a bit.
"And here I thought i'd have a normal life with a normal boyfriend and normal husband. Apparently not though." Eleanor said weakly.
"My family isn't exactly normal. And even without this thing. Someone with a partial metal head isn't common to find." Septhis chuckled.
"Sadly I think this will change a few of your family plans. Granted the partial metal head is understandable. This though… well, this is a bit tougher to accept. And unlike the metal head, I can't just pretend it doesn't exist." Eleanor said.
"Yeah can't really ignore it due to being dangerous, unlike metal." Septhis sighed.
"Well at least if I wake up with a knife to my throat i'll know it isn't an intruder. Probably. I'm not responsible for whatever self defense measures I need to take though." Eleanor said.
"I wouldn't hurt you for defending yourself from it." Septhis said.
"I know. Look, you can keep Poopsy for tonight, I need some time alone. If anything happens, Poopsy can handle herself." Eleanor said, sighing. "The bedroom's all yours, and you can keep Poopsy as company if you want."
Septhis sighed sadly but nodded. Eleanor looked over at him, looking like she pitied him as she leaned over and gave a soft loving kiss.
"It's nothing personal, don't worry. I'm not leaving. I'm just getting my head straight somewhere else for a few days." Eleanor said.
Septhis smiled a bit. "I know. It's a lot to take in all at once." Septhis said.
"Don't worry. I'll be back. Poopsy will make sure you're not alone." Eleanor said, hugging him.
Septhis hugged her back gently. "I really do love you Ella. Please don't ever think otherwise." Septhis said softly.
"I know. I love you too. All the way to your scruffy hair and dirty habits." Eleanor said with a smile.
Septhis chuckled happily. Eleanor smiled hearing his laugh and rested her head on his chest, listening to his heartbeat.
