Disclaimer: I do not own the turtles…
Raphael's POV
Okay, to say I was in shock was putting it lightly. I had just lost quite a bit of my drink on the living room floor. When I looked back up Leonardo was already down the stairs. He looked okay, except there was some badass scarring on his right shoulder.
He looked us a bit awkwardly and cleared his throat. "Uh..hey." He said in a sheepish voice.
Hey? After all this he says, HEY! I was on my feet instantly and threw a right hook at his smug face. He dodges with a tilt of his head, but I kept going charging into him. We slammed into the floor and I screamed in his face, spraying spit the hell all over him.
"FUCK YOU, YOU FUCKING FUCK!"
Leo looked up at me with quarter size eyes. We held each others gaze for a moment, and then he wet his lips with his tongue. Yeah, I was pretty sure he was playing dirty now. I watched.
"Honestly, Raph. I didn't know it was possible, but I think you're swearing has gotten worse. That one….."
I stared at him. My swearing? He just miraculous appears back from the dead and he is worried about my fucking swearing? Mikey snorted loudly, next to me. I gave him a death look and he backed up, still wearing that retarded grin.
"Where have you been?" I whispered back to Leo, but was interrupted as he yanked me down into a full out hug.
"I'm so sorry." He whispered. Sorry…..whatever. He wasn't just going to get me back that easy. I shoved him away, getting to my feet.
"Raph…" he tried, looking at me with mournful eyes. I knew I should just let it go, be happy and all that shit, but I couldn't. It was as welling up inside of me spinning out of control.
"You…." I couldn't think of anything else to say. All the words just stayed tangled up in the back of my throat. I turned storming to my room and banging the door shut. Behind the closed door, I sunk down to my knees and wept. Literally bawling my eyes. He was back..he was alive….
A mixture of emotions ranged through me. I was pissed as bloody hell and at the same time beyond any normal happiness. I was stunned and relieved…I felt like I was going to erupt. I got to my feet and gave the wall a sudden punch, hoping to release some tension. I barely felt the pain. The wall cracked.
I closed my eyes, pressing my forehead just above it. That's how I felt. Like the wall….cracked…broken…My fist tighten. Tears on my face.
Damn him! Damn him for doing this shit to me!
I don't know how long I stayed like that, trying to keep the emotions in, when I heard Don's voice. The little twerp was up. I moved from my spot on the wall, to my door, listening.
"What happened, Leo?" Don was asking. I heard Leo take a breath. "It's pretty complicated."
Complicated? My rage flew up again. He was the one who made things the hell complicated! He got us into this mess! He…..
"Leo.." Don's voice slid into my thoughts. He sounded, like he was pleading. I frowned. Doing the old pathetic thing? Really, Don. He just got here and you're gonna start that crap again? I was pissed but…
"Look, I'm back. That is all you need to know right now..." Leo was saying, but he stopped suddenly.
"Did you kill them?"
I pressed my ear hard against the door now. Hanging on Don's every word. There was a long pause. I waited, straining to hear.
"I….I…" Leo's voice was shaking…It was layered with emotions I couldn't identify. Shit. I was never good at this emotional crap.
"I'm not talking about that." Leo finished. "Look, I wasn't trying to hurt you guys.."
"Well, you did…"
The angry voice that shot out however was not Don's. It was Mikey? Seriously? I pulled the door open, stepping out, to make sure that I hadn't lost my marbles.
Mikey was standing infront of our leader. He looked as mad as shell. His normally happy blue eyes were fixed on Leo with such intense angry that it freaked me out a little.
Leo sighed, rubbing his forearm with his hand. "Mikey…"
Mikey lunged forward, his hand covering Leo's mouth. There was a loud smack as their bodies collided. We all gasped and Don made a move to grab Mikey, but stopped as the youngest turtle began crying.
"No! I don't want to hear your excuses! You broke your promise, Leo! How could you?"
Leonardo tried to pull back, but Mikey followed, never letting go of his face. "I..I thought I killed you, Leo! I thought you died! I told you not to do it!"
Leo worked his hand up between his mouth and Mikey's pushing it back. There was a red welt in the shape of a handprint over his lips. Leo's eyes looked like they were on fire, in frustration.
"Then don't forgive me!" Leo snapped. "But, I wasn't going to let any of you died! That is what.."
"SHUT UP!" Mikey was beside himself, he began pummeling Leo in the chest with his fists! It was rare for Mikey to get this worked up, but Leo being gone had messed with him bad too. It did with all of us.
"I AM NOT YOUR JOB! I AM YOUR FAMILY! YOU ARE MY FAMILY!"
He cried out with each blow. The look on Fearless's face was priceless. He stood there, arms loose at his side, letting Mikey beat on him. Don gently took a hold of Mikey's shoulder. Mikey let him, crying huge tears. Don steered him towards the kitchen, leaving Leo standing there, staring at the ground.
Okay…I felt a tad bad for a guy. Not much…mind ya. But a little. I came over to him. He looked like someone had just taken a shit on his favorite mediating mat.
"Leo…"
He straightens at the sound of my voice, raising his eyes to meet mine. "I know, Raph." He snapped and I felt some anger leak back into me, despite myself.
"Ya know what?" I demanded, roughly. Christ! This guy had a fucking gift. He could piss me off in three words or less! He should fucking write a book!
"I screwed up! Okay, I get it. I probably shouldn't have came back.." He mumbled that last part. I shoved him into the wall. He looked startled as his shell scraped the brick.
"Ya wanna run that by me again, Leo?" I hissed, right in his face.
He looked dejected, at the floor, refusing to meet my eyes. I leaned into him. "LEO!" I shouted. He jerked a little at the force of my voice, but still wasn't answering.
Stubborn prick. Well two can play that game. I put my finger against his chest, pointing rudely.
"You just dot get it, do ya?" I snarled. "He ain't mad that ya cuz ya came back, he's mad cuz ya don't give a shit!"
Leo's eyes flashed and he pushed away from the wall, getting right the fuck up in my face, but I wasn't backing down now. Not that I had a reaction.
"And how do I not give a shit, Raph?" He growled at me, his nose was almost touching mine. When he spoke a got a blast of cool heat from his mouth. And he was swearing…..
Damn…that is sooo friggin hot.. I gave my head a little shake, letting the moment past before answering.
"You don't give a shit, Leo, because ya throw yourself under the damn bus." I replied, evenly, advancing, forcing him a step back again, towering over him in height, but he stood tall, eyes square on mine. It made me smirk. Leo didn't back down either…
"What the shell does that have to do with anything?" He wanted to know.
I gave myself a little chuckle at that. The bastard had been gone all this time, faced who the hell knew what and still was as clueless as ever. It was typical for Leo. I was laughing. I couldn't the fuck help it. It just seemed right for him. He glared at me, waiting for an answer.
"Ya amaze me, Leo." I laughed. He bared his teeth at me, eyes narrowing. I was ticking him off. So maybe I was messing with him. Ya so sue me. It had been a while.
"What's so funny?" He asked his hands in fists by his sides. I shook my head. Hell, no. I wasn't going to do this now. I waited this long. I could wait a little longer. Besides, I had other things to take care of first.
"Ya just don't get it, Fearless." I told him, pulling away. I turned towards the kitchen, leaving him standing there, looking as confused as sin, but I wanted to talk to Mikey.
We were going to get this settled once and for all.
