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CONTIGO
50
At What Cost?
-Thanks InuAngel for the title of this chapter :)
"What?" sputtered Jin in between his confusion and panic, "You cannot be serious."
Sesshomaru's hazel eyes hardened as he glared at the half-demon in human disguise in front of him, "Does it seems like I am the type to make jokes?" asked Sesshomaru with a small snarl forming in his lips.
Jin's anger began to rise steadily as his confusion slowly began to dissipate, "You still can't do it."
Sesshomaru took a deep breath and turned to Jin fully, "In biological terms, I can," pressed Sesshomaru stubbornly. He knew the idea was farfetched but it was the best way to save her pup and his nephew. He was a cogent being and as of now emotions and feelings should be their last concern. Saving Kagome—and her pup—was the first priority and he didn't have any qualms with doing whatever it was necessary to achieve it.
"You don't have any power or position to do that to her," insisted Jin and unconsciously fisted his hands—what Sesshomaru took quick notice off—and moved a step closer to Kagome's bed, "She's a mated female. She will be an unwilling partner."
Sesshomaru tilted his head to the side as he tried his best to keep his irritation in check. He didn't need to make a scene of this. He would prefer this matter to be as silent as possible. "I am her alpha and I decide what the best is for her."
"You lost your role as alpha when you killed her mate five hundred years ago," Jinenji reminded the Daiyoukai in front of him. He just couldn't even start to comprehend the meaning and the feelings behind Sesshomaru's actions. This was simply stupid, Kagome wouldn't heal she would be broken far more than she was now. Still, a whisper echoed in his mind, telling him that she could be saved by the actions of the Daiyoukai in front of him, but he wouldn't accept it. This was rude and selfish and dictatorial!
At this declaration Sesshomaru grinned, "I haven't killed Inuyasha yet. Feel her; she's still connected to him through their mating bond. I am still her alpha. You may hate it but it's the truth."
Jin couldn't stop his eyes from flashing red for an instant but he tensed his body to keep from moving. His eyes returned to their blue color again after a few seconds…but his rawer side was there—with him—and not in the deepest part of his mind anymore. "Are you Lord Sesshomaru?" asked Jin clearly disgusted, "you are not the Daiyoukai I've heard about. Our race deems you the most collected, smartest, wisest and powerful among us. That is why I accepted to treat her to the best of my abilities," The frustration was clearly evident, "But right now, what I see, is a Daiyoukai who is making me help him rape a weakened—"
He couldn't finish his word because the Daiyoukai in front of him disappeared in thin air. The next thing he knew he was being pinned to the wall of Kagome's room by a human hand against his throat. His hand instinctively grabbed Sesshomaru's wrist and he pulled at them trying to release the hold on him, but the strength with which it held him betrayed their frail appearance. This was—after all—a Daiyoukai.
"Jinenji, you are trespassing your boundaries," warned Sesshomaru while his eyes turned a colder yellow as the seconds passed, "Also, I don't like how you refer to a female of my pack with such familiarity."
Jinenji felt his inner side once again try to crawl to the surface. He knew he shouldn't attack him nor go against Sesshomaru but he couldn't stop what was happening. He had always been a very polite and detached person with his patients but not this time. It was impossible, destiny had made it impossible. He knew this person—this miko—since he was young. She had helped him and had given him the confidence he needed to become what he was today. He couldn't just sit by and watch.
"Relent," ordered Sesshomaru evenly. His swirled eyes held a deep anger but the way they were dropped made him look dispassionate. This Daiyoukai was trying to collect himself as well—as much as Jinenji was doing the same.
"You are not my Lord," Jinenji let out in a breathless whisper, "The feuds have been dissolved for centuries now Sesshomaru."
Sesshomaru's eyes narrowed in his irritation and his hands tightened against the half-demon's throat, "Are you challenging my status Jinenji?"
"You can't kill me," stated Jinenji confident.
"I can…and can also do worse," reminded Sesshomaru. He didn't care about the new laws that had been made for youkai when involved with Kagome. He had been at the side for most of the centuries and that is how he wanted to keep it. There was nothing anyone could do. He respected order—sought it—but if he had to disobey a treaty for a greater benefit he would. "I fear not the Youkai court. This you should know, they can do nothing to me."
Jinenji's eyes flashed red for an instant again but this time he used his time wisely and willed his strength to his hand. In a second Sesshomaru had been thrown back and was regaining his footing. Jinenji freed his youki and shaped it like a sword and directed it against Sesshomaru. Sesshomaru willed his own youki to form a wall and it did. It was unstable and was bending at every thrust but it was enough cover to keep the core of his soul—and youki—safe.
"Stop," Sesshomaru ordered in a growl. He could feel his beast awakening and with the lack of control he possessed at the moment it was bound to cause harm. He couldn't allow that. "If you don't I will kill you."
Jinenji kept at it for a few seconds more half-confused and half unable to rein it in at the moment but after that his youkai slowly subsided and Sesshomaru's mimicked his. The pair of youkai stared at one another for a few seconds as they found their breaths again and to ascertain their momentary treaty.
"What does it matter to you?" asked Sesshomaru after a minute of standing deadly still, "This Sesshomaru is not doing this to hurt her—although he is certain it could—but to save her pup. You are a doctor, you know of this!"
Jinenji breathed in and out before forming a reply. He was a calm person by nature so when he got out of control he felt fearful of himself. He had never tested the limits of his strength—never had the need to—and had never taken the time to practice and deal with his inner self. "It shouldn't be like this," said Jin tiredly and he glanced at Kagome's sleeping form. His aura unconsciously went out to her and prodded her for an answer.
"You know her," Sesshomaru stated a little perturbed while he fisted his hands tightly, "You are not thinking objectively," accused Sesshomaru angrily.
"Are you?" demanded Jinenji as his blue eyes once again locked on the Daiyoukai. He wouldn't deny that he knew Kagome, but he doubted it had much to do with the current situation, "Did you kill your brother to take her for yourself?"
Anger flashed through Sesshomaru's eyes—which instantly bled red—and his 'human' body shook with the strength of his fury. His face was distorting and his youkai markings were starting to come back to life.
Jinenji watched helplessly as the Daiyoukai in front of him apparently proceeded to transform. He knew some youkai could do it—he couldn't because he was half-demon—but he was sure this space was not enough to welcome the size Sesshomaru's inner beast was going to be. He moved forward and raised his hands in a placating manner trying to get to the Daiyoukai in front of him…since when did he act so rashly? He was a doctor for goodness sake! He should know how to deal with these matters, feelings! "Sesshomaru-sama! I apologize! Please, stop!"
Sesshomaru's red eyes widened even more—apparently more angry—and was about to transform when a tingle pierced through his senses. His offended eyes turned to the side and instantly he faced Kagome's aura. The blue aura was mingling with his hungrily and was eating away its energy. A growl erupted from Sesshomaru's throat and he gave a step back to escape the attack at him. He stood against the wall as the miko's aura continue to prod at him and he could do nothing more than stare as his shield, the same one that had stood against Jinenji and had held strong was being corroded away. Fiercer growls escaped him as his shield finally fell and he closed his eyes while he waited for the final blow. It never came.
He had been expecting the wound, the hit and the jolt of purification but was rewarded with a soothing caress. It made his eyes return to their collected youkai gold and his shoulders relax. His face didn't hold the mask of indifference it always had, instead it was relaxed and full of emotions. He watched in awe as Kagome's aura seeped inside his pores and her powers hummed a soothing song against his ear. Soon enough his legs gave way and he fell to the floor in a sitting position. Never had he felt as peaceful. The Daiyoukai closed his eyes as he inserted all the sensation into himself moving silently in tone with a soundless song until the sound of shoes jolted him back.
Golden eyes glared at the fidgeting hanyou in the corner of the room. Their eyes met momentarily but Sesshomaru turned away, "Leave."
Jinenji stopped his fidgeting and stared down at the Daiyoukai. He was about to say something but Sesshomaru interrupted.
"I will do nothing this night. We will talk tomorrow…and think things clearly. I don't want useless emotions and morals."
Jinenji's eyes hardened and he fisted his hands, "Are you even aware of what you are doing and of what you are suggesting?"
"I am," replied Sesshomaru softly, "I don't live with regrets."
Finally Jinenji nodded his head. The Daiyoukai was more to the insane side than he had first thought but he had a whole day and night to think about this. Truth was, what Sesshomaru said was true, the pup—not so much Kagome—would be saved, but at what cost?
Did Sesshomaru really intend to sacrifice so much…just for the pup to survive? Was this the cold Daiyoukai everyone feared? Was it?
Just what had happened to Sesshomaru in this lapse of time he had remain hidden? Had he really given up in life? Had he really given up his lands?
Would he really exchange the life of his heir—his first and strongest—so Kagome could have a last fragment of Inuyasha?
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To be continued…
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