A very short update.
A month had passed and Ellen moved in with them when she was released from the hospital two weeks before. Carole had died two days after Ellen had woken up. Meredith stayed with them until the funeral, she didn't feel right attending it, since she never knew Carole, but Ellen had insisted that she wanted her there, and Meredith didn't want to let her down.
For the first time since she had been with Derek, she accompanied him to the vineyard that he had brought them to have his daughter close to him, after Carole funeral to pick up the rest of Ellen's stuff.
They stayed there was a couple of nights, and one evening after Ellen had gone to bed, Meredith was stood out on the porch overlooking the vines, she found it so peaceful, she was so deep in thought that she never sensed Derek approaching. Derek had come to realise how badly he had treated her over the last few weeks, and he was sorry, but he didn't know how to make it up to her. He missed her, especially at night, even though they were sleeping in the same bed; they stuck to their sides on the bed, which a huge space between them and Derek didn't like it. He missed the smell of her conditioner in the morning when they were cuddling in the morning, her beautiful smile she always gave him, especially making love to her, hearing her call out his name, has she came. Meredith was always crying herself to sleep, and Derek hated to not being able to reach out and hold her, and he knew that he was the cause of the tears; Meredith was always up before him, and spending all her time looking after Ellen, anything so she didn't have to talk to him.
"Meredith" Derek said, reaching out and touched her, causing Meredith to jump. "Sorry i didn't mean to scare you"
"I know," she said softly.
"Mer, how can i fix this?" Derek asked sounding so vulnerable, that it made her wants to reach and hold him, but she didn't, she couldn't, he had hurt her so much.
"I don't know, Derek"
"Please don't leave us Mer, we need you, i need you" he begged her.
"I am not going anywhere" she said walking back into the house.
Derek stayed outside for a while, sinking into the chair behind him, he buried his head in his hand and cried, letting out all of the emotions from the past few week. He missed his wife so much, but didn't know how to reach out to her, she was again that little bit out of reach to him.
