There was a knock on my bedroom door, it interrupted me as I read the twilight book sue had let me borrow; I didn't have much else to do without proper use of my phone as I was trying to conserve the battery life to call Kendall later and I didn't have any proper belongings here to keep myself occupied.
"Come in" I called out to the door.
"I'm ready!.. oh are you wearing that?!" Helen said cringing at me as she walked in and sat on the end of my bed.
I frowned at her. "I don't have a lot of options, most of my clothes are in Los Angeles." I replied with a huff.
"Great!" Helen replied sarcastically. "Well, you coming then. Wait until you see noah... he is the sexiest cunt you've ever layed eyes on" she said.
"Stop saying cunt!" I laughed.
"Sorry miss prim! Let's go then!" She said pulling me up by my hand.
I stood up and with Helens' help; got down the stairs with my broken ankle fairly quickly, sue and Phoebe were in the kitchen getting dinner ready.
"Are you girls off now?" Sue asked as we walked through.
"Yeah.. do we have a curfew?" I asked unsure of the rules in her house.
"10:30 please Sheri. I will keep some food by in the oven for you both" she said.
I watched Helen roll her eyes at the fairly early time we had to be home. She didn't have the same relationship I had with sue. Helen saw all grown ups as wastes of space.
"Ten thirty is fine." I smiled.
"Take care girls. Sheri please be careful on those crutches!" She said giving me a concerned look.
"I will be fine" I assured her with a smile.
Once Helen and I had left the house, she led me to the skate park. It felt like it was miles away. My arms hurt from the crutches, my ribs ached and my foot throbbed.
"Did you want to take a breather or something?" Helen asked as she watched me stop for the millionth time as we walked to the park.
"No... thanks! I will be okay. I just have no upper body strength to be carrying my leg this far" I explained.
"You sure? You look in pain Sheri! If you wanna take a break then it's cool!" She said looking fairly worried.
I shook my head. "Honestly it's fine. How much further?" I asked.
"It's just up there, do you see the basketball hoop just behind that big bush?" She said, pointing up ahead.
"Yeah, I see it" I replied looking up, it wasn't far at all. I began walking again. Looking forward to having a sit down and catch my breath.
"So, your dad is in jail? What about your mom?" Helen asked as we slowly walked.
I let out a sarcastic laugh. "Hooker!" I simply replied.
"Fuck! That sounds fair!" Helen replied.
"Tell me about it!... what about you? you lost your mom. What about your dad?" I asked.
"My real dad I never knew but he died in the army when I was a baby... I have a step dad, but the cunt didn't wanna know me after my mom died... fucker!" She replied.
"Sucks!" I replied.
"I know right!..." Helen said. "... Oh great!" Helen then said dead pan.
I looked up to see what she was moaning about and saw a group of six girls all sat around a bench in the park. Three guys who stood with their skateboards were talking with them.
"Who are they?" I asked as we walked the short distance towards them. I noticed one of the skater boys; a cute black guy, look over at Helen as we came nearer.
"It's Chelsea Daniels! The biggest whore your ever likely to meet. She likes Noah too, the rest are her clique... fucking fake ass bitches!" Helen said, staring daggers at the pretty Latino looking girl with her group of friends.
"Is noah the black guy?" I asked.
"Yes! What do you think?" She asked smiling at me.
"Fuck girl! He is all kinds of hot!" I laughed back at her. It was then I noticed the blonde haired guy next to noah. He had beautiful light blonde hair, just ever so slightly longer than Kendalls. He was possibly... only very possibly! Better looking than James!
"Oh I see you eyeing up Sam!" Helen laughed.
"I've got a boyfriend thanks... I was merely admiring the view!" I replied with a smile. My bed hopping days were well and truly over. I was more than happy with my sexy Kendall and his good and bad points.
"Do I look okay?" Helen then asked me quietly as she flicked her hair over her shoulder.
I looked at Helen, she was a pretty girl, long blonde hair and tanned skin, she was elegant and tall but looked younger than 16. Her clear blue eyes made her look angelic... at least until the word "cunt" popped out her mouth.
"You look hot!" I replied quickly and honestly as we were now in hearing distance from the group of teens at the bench.
It was Noah that walked up to Helen, leaving his mates and the girls behind.
"There you are! Wasn't sure you were allowed out again after last night" Noah said to her.
"Hi! Yeah its cool. I got a little saving grace thanks to Sheri here" Helen said back to him, pointing her thumb at me as she spoke.
I had no clue what they were talking about, or what had happened last night. But I gathered helen was only allowed out today because I was with her. I smiled at sue on the inside; being trusted with her confidence was a nice feeling.
"You got cigs babe?" Noah asked Helen.
"Fuck, Noah, I only gave you a pack yesterday... I'm not made of fucking money" she moaned as she rummaged through her purse and pulled out a pack of cigarettes. Noah took one out.
"Shit... I've got no light!" Helen then said having a good look through her bag.
Noah tucked the cigarette behind his ear and walked over to blonde boy Sam asking for a light.
Helen presented the pack of cigarettes in front of me. "Feel free" she said offering me one.
"I don't smoke" I replied turning my nose up at her bad habit.
She looked up at me as she folded her bag back up. "Just have one Sheri.." she urged.
"Honestly I don't smoke" I replied with a smile.
Helen came in a little closer. "Sheri your gonna make us both look like fucking losers! Just take a fucking cigarette" she said looking over to the group of girls, with a nervous look on her face.
I also looked over to the girls, all of them had a cigarette in their hands. They looked a lot more grown up than Helen and I. When I looked in the mirror I still saw a child. The girls sat over on that bench looked liked women... slutty women; but women all the same.
I reluctantly took a cigarette. Helen smiled at me, "c'mon I will introduce you to Sam, he can light us up" she said excitedly.
I walked over with my crutches, the unlit cigarette between my fingers feeling very foreign.
"Who's this then hels'?" Sam asked Helen as he gave me a friendly smile.
Helen held her hand out for the lighter. "This is Sheri... she is staying with the cunts with me" she said as she lit up.
My heart rate quickened as she turned to me with the lighter in her hand.
I had never smoked, I always thought it disgusting breathing in my father's smoke. I wasn't even sure what to do. I wasn't one hundred percent that my previously punctured lung was going to appreciate it either.
But Helen lit me up and I took my first puff of my first cigarette.
It burnt my throat slightly to start off with but in all fairness it was quite nice. Relaxing!
I smiled at Sam who seemed to of taken a liking to me, but not quite sure on how to begin a conversation.
He turned to Chelsea and her friends. "Yo, you think it would be good to let crutches here, sit down" he said to the girls.
Chelsea stared daggers at me, I looked down at the floor not wanting any trouble.
"Yeah, run along skanks!" Helen said squaring up to one of the smaller girls.
Chelsea looked Helen up and down with her evil eyes, but gathered her clique and retreated, realising that the boys they wanted weren't interested in any of them. They walked away. One of them called something back to Helen, in which Helen threw a half empty beer can at her. It missed luckily.
"Thanks!" I said to Sam as I hopped over to the bench and sat down.
"It's cool ya know... did you used to go to Campbell high?" He asked.
I nodded as I took another puff of my cigarette. "Yeah.. I left for LA for a bit though. Did you go to Campbell too? I asked.
"For a year yeah! My family moved town so I left. I thought I recognised you" he said.
"Your face doesn't ring any bells to me" I said honestly.
I looked over to the third friend who was now back on the skate ramps. He was pretty good on his board. I noticed then that Noah and Helen were backed up against the flat side of the skate ramp. They were all over each other. I was pretty sure he was giving her a discreet fingering up against the wall.
I let out a laugh and looked down to the floor again.
"She finally snagged him by the looks of things" I chuckled.
Sam looked up to his friend, who dry humped Helen while sticking his tongue down her throat.
"Yeah I would call that snagged" he joked.
"So what school you going to now your here?" Sam asked as he also looked away from his friend.
"I'm not sure... it's been a tough few days... things will get sorted soon I expect" I replied.
"We are all at bridgehouse now, hopefully you will get in there.. least you will know a few people then" he said opening up a bag by his feet. He pulled out a beer and handed it to me.
I automatically took it. Not wanting Helen to moan at me again for being a loser. I shouldn't be drinking though, I was on antibiotics and still wasn't keen on alcohol since my puke session at the beach house months ago.
I stubbed my cigarette out and opened the can, taking a sip.
"Do you know Helen well?" I asked breaking the awkward silence.
"Yeah kinda. We hang around at school... she has been after noah for weeks." He laughed looking back over to the now empty spot where noah and Helen were. I imagined they had gone round the back of the skate ramp to get it on.
"She beat me up earlier, tried to steal my things... she seems okay though... now I know her" I replied.
"Yeah she does what the fuck she likes... that's just Helen for ya" he replied.
The guy that was skating came and sat with us shortly after. He drank a beer. Turned out his name was rob. Rob gave me an uneasy feel, he seemed a bit dark on the inside.
Helen came back over, dusting off leaves from her dress from her fumble with Noah who she now held hands with.
"You guys coming back to mine?" Rob asked the group.
"Yeah"
"Yep"
"Sure" came the trio of yesses from Helen, Sam and Noah.
"What's the time?" I asked Helen. I had left my cell at home, turned off, to save the battery.
"Just gone 9:40pm" Helen replied helping herself to beer from the bag.
"We won't have time, back at half ten huh! it's gonna take me that long to get home with these" I replied holding up one of my crutches.
"Your not honestly saying your going home at ten thirty are you Sheri?" Helen said giving me a smirk. "I never go home at curfew and sue does fuck all about it because she is a soppy cunt" Helen replied.
"But I like sue!" I replied feeling uncomfortable.
Sam handed me another beer. "My car is just around the corner from robs, I can drive you both back for half ten" he said.
I looked up at Helen who raised an eyebrow at me.
"Okay... but ten thirty on the dot" I said back to Sam.
"Scouts honor" he replied giving me a beautiful smile that just reminded me of James.
The walk to robs was fairly funny and quick as Noah had the ingenious idea of letting me balance one foot on his skate board while Sam gently pulled me along, Helen held my crutches for me.
I once again marveled at how my life had completely flipped around. A week ago I was an LA golden girl with a bright future. Now I was just an ordinary kid again.
I felt more relaxed being normal. Acting was fun, but it wasn't me. It was Logan's dream.
I wondered how Logan was now he had entered my mind.
"What about you Sheri! You got a boyfriend?" Rob asked nudging Sam in the ribs.
"Yeah I do" I replied with a smile. I could tell Sam liked me but I didn't want to give him the wrong impression.
"Oh bad luck Sammy!" Rob laughed out.
Sam blushed as he continued to pull me along.
"Sheri has some hot Kansas cutie, don't you Sheri?" Helen said smiling.
"He is pretty hot!" I agreed.
"How long you been with him?... I remember you used to go out with the rich dude with the horses" Sam said.
I looked at him in astonishment that he actually knew about Logan.
"Yeah Logan... things didn't work out with me and him, but I've been with Kendall a few weeks... on and off" I replied honestly, not wanting to discuss my complicated love square that had been going on. All that mattered now was I loved Kendall and he loved me back.
That's all I needed to get by.
"That's cool" Sam replied.
We reached robs house by ten to ten. It reminded me of my dad's house. We all traipsed down in to his basement. Noah got fed up with me hobbling and ended up giving me a bumpy piggy back ride down the stairs.
I sat on the sofa that was in there. Noah sat next to me with Helen on his lap as they made out.
Sam was rummaging through some boxes and my heart sunk when I saw him pull out a crack pipe.
I didn't want to be here any more, I felt scared and completely out of my depth. I wasn't in to smoking and drinking or doing drugs. I began to panic.
I looked over to Helen who was still trying to eat noahs' face off.
I probably could of coped with the booze and the smoking, but when Rob knelt down by the table and pulled out his rock of crack I felt sick
It was this that set the alarm bells ringing in my head. I was a good girl, I was normal, I had normal friends and did normal things. Watching this go on in front of me wasn't normal. I wanted to go back home to sue, in her normal house.
"Oh my God Sheri... your fucking face!" Helen laughed as she now looked at me.
I smiled at her, not wanting to let on that I felt so nervous right now.
"Have you never smoked crack before?" She asked amused.
I forced out a pretend chuckle. "Yeah... course. I don't really like it though" I lied.
"That's because I bet the shit you had was shit... robs stuff is always great, huh Rob?" Helen said.
"Sure is baby hels" Rob agreed as I watched him prepare his pipe. I noticed Sam waiting patiently.
"If Sheri don't want it, she don't have to smoke that shit" noah said.
"Shut the fuck up Noah!" Rob said. "Lil Sheri ain't tried it before, she is lyin'" he chuckled and handed Sam the pipe.
I watched as he held it up and inhaled. He wasn't Sam after that... he was a different boy. A boy with only one look in his eye which screamed "when is it my turn again!"
I noticed it was rob that was handing the pipe around.
I watched Noah have his go. He then offered it to me. I shook my head then he gave it to Helen.
Helen didn't take her turn just yet though. She was still smiling at me.
"Try it Sheri!" She said.
"No, im good... honestly" I replied trying not to make a big deal out of it.
"Sheri, don't be such a fucking baby. It doesn't do any harm! It just makes you feel... nice!" She said still shoving it in my face.
"Leave her alone Helen, just cause your a fucking crack head doesn't mean everyone else has to be." Noah said.
I looked over at Rob who gave me the look like I was a complete twat!
"Helen's right... it just makes everything good... all your problems just float away... you look like a girl with a lot of problems" Rob said smiling.
I looked at Helen. "It's true... try it. Nothing bad will happen" she said softly.
She explained what I had to do then... I did it!
It was the head rush of all head rushes. I had never felt so amazing. All my problems did float away. Nothing worried me, nothing bothered me. I didn't have a care in the world. I was amazing the most beautiful person in the world.
The room got more intense, the sound of Sam talking seemed to get louder... life was just better. Life felt great.
At least until I breathed out and the amazing feeling that my body just possessed faded away with me after just a few minutes.
"Good huh?" Rob said looking at me.
"Holy fuck yeah... it doesn't last very long though" I said watching as the pipe made its way round the group.
"Na, but it's worth it huh" he laughed. "Once you go crack, you never go back!" He smiled.
We spent the evening passing the pipe around. I loved it. I just wanted the feeling to last longer. My body felt immense on the high, then it felt drab when I was down again. I watched the pipe going round and round, all the while chasing the next high. Noah was blowing his left over smoke in to Helen's mouth.. all I could think seeing that, was I wanted Kendall to do it to me.
I felt like shit once it had all gone. My normal body felt lifeless, boring, mundane, tired...
I was now sat next to Sam, he was really chilled from what we had done. There was zero awkwardness with our group now. I Iayed my tired head down on Sam's lap. He stroked my hair back. It just felt nice.
"Can't it last any longer than that?" I said to rob who was sat on a giant bean bag. He was the guy in charge of all this. He was the supplier, the dealer... he was God to me right now as I craved more of that amazing feeling.
"Not like that... you want a longer high it's gonna cost you Sheri" he replied matter of factly.
"Sheri has got the major Jones's" Noah laughed.
"Leave her alone" Sam said looking down at me.
"It just felt nice" I replied to both of them.
"I don't think I will be any good driving you home... I'm so tired... you can stay here if you like?" Sam said softly still stroking my hair.
It was those words that really sent me back to the miserable world I lived in.
"What is the time?" I asked sitting up, ignoring Sam, who was clearly trying to pull me. I wasn't interested one bit
"12:20" Noah answered.
"What? What the fuck! sue is going to freak!" I said practically jumping from my seat and grabbing my crutches.
"Who gives a flying fuck Sheri" Helen replied as she wrapped her arms tighter around Noah.
"I do! I said I would be home, and I need to call Kendall!" I said making my way towards the stairs.
Sam dragged his body up from the sofa. "I will give you a lift... I will be fine" he yawned.
"Helen come on!" I said now feeling ten times more stressed than I did earlier.
"Na I'm staying!" She said flatly.
"For fucks sake!" I moaned. Then did my best to get up the narrow staircase without falling.
Sam helped me to his car. I was home within five minutes. I saw the downstairs lights were still on.
"Great!" I huffed out now knowing I was gonna get a bollocking from sue.
"See you tomorrow?" Sam asked.
I looked at him. He was no where near as nice as James once you got passed his good looks. "Maybe!... just friends though Sam" I said.
"Yeh sure... see you later Sheri" he said.
I gave him a smile then left the car.
Sue opened up the front door before I even reached it.
"I'm sorry" I said to her.
"Where is Helen!" She replied looking at me with disappointed eyes.
"She said she was staying at a friends house" I explained as sue moved aside and I walked in. The floral smell and the neatness of the house compared to the messiness of robs basement were like two different worlds.
"Is she safe?" Sue asked.
"Yeah... yeah she is fine where she is" I replied.
"It's almost 1 so get up to bed.. we will discuss this tomorrow with Janice" sue said. Her hand on hip.
I didn't say anything further to her. I kind of relished at the thought that all she did was put her hand on her hip, my dad would of beat two barrels of shit from me!
I turned my phone on once I was upstairs and called Kendall.
He took a while to answer, but finally did sounding croaky.
"Hey baby" he said taking in a deep breath from waking up.
"Kendy I'm so so sorry" I said apologising for not calling him sooner.
"What for?" He asked.
"Not calling!" I replied.
"I just thought your battery died. What you been up to then?" He asked.
I collected my irrational thoughts as quickly as I could. "Just went out with the other girl that lives here... didn't do much... hung out and shit" I replied.
"Well least your making friends... I'm glad things are good for you Sheri. I miss you so much though" he said. I could honestly hear the pain in his voice.
I crawled in to bed fully clothed, not feeling up to doing anything. "I miss you too kendy" I said as I rested my head on the pillow and turned my bedside light out.
"Can't wait to see you tomorrow Sheri. I still haven't got my car back but they called earlier and said definitely tomorrow. So I will be round as soon as possible okay" he replied.
"Okay baby" I answered.
"You okay sheri?" Kendall asked.
"Yeah... yeah im fine... just miss you" I replied automatically as my mind was searching itself as to when and how I would get my next high...
Author note: thanks to everyone who is reading, and to jenno2, oxybtrswag, musicrox14, iloveeebtr, unthinkable13, and livingbigtime. The reviews and feedback I'm getting for this story on here and on Twitter are amazing! I can't thank you enough!
Unthinkable13, reviews like yours I will remember for a life time. thank you!
Musicrox14, it really doesn't matter what age they are, or you are. Just enjoy the way they make your emotions run wild! I love it! I was devastated when jalston broke up briefly a few months back. It's nuts how they make us feel!
Iloveeebtr, I talk to you all the fucking time so I'm not wasting my characters replying to you lol. Love you lots! X x x.
Jenno2, don't get to excited coz it will take me a while. Your idea is amazing tho!
Oxybtrswag, daddy Kendall! Oh sweet Jesus, yessss! I actually have a little something up my sleeve for that. Never done bad boy kendy though, I leave that to Logan but im sure I can come up with something. You wrote loads lol... erm... the Kendall experience was just a one off so it is complete. I only do one shots (that was a long one shot) for ppl, coz im really anal with choosing the names for my characters. Which is why they are being recycled in this story.
Livingbigtime, team shames!... gahhh you must be really pissed with me! Lol im afraid it's team shendall all the way now... Maybe ;)
Sooo under no circumstances in this chapter am I advertising the use of crack cocaine!
This will be established in the next few chapters so I don't want no hate in my reviews pleeeese! But that idiot guy rob who is purely fictional said "once you go crack you never go back" which is sooooo fucking true it is unreal! So moral of this chapter... dont do drugs boys and girls! It's a one way ticket to shitsville.
Any way hope you liked this one, not much btr interaction going on but that will all change in the next chapter!
My author notes are getting really long lately. I am sorry lol.
Will update tomoz 25th. Thanks for reading! Nat x
