Could I disappear?
This is totally non-canon and OOC.
I own nothing. Anything recognizable belongs to S. Meyer.
Chapter 44:
Fpov
Wow. Just wow. I wish that fucker wasn't dead so I could kill him again. Slowly. More painfully. I should have practiced the offensive use of my gift on him more. For now I just have to accept the fact that the fucker is gone and try to make heads and tails of what we found. Bella is besides herself with grief and fear and all I can do is comfort her the best I can. We are going to go through all of the stuff we found together, but I think I need some private time with my babe to make her feel better.. I hope we can work something out, but it won't likely happen till we get home.
Jasper reserved a double connected room at the Super 8 for us. Both rooms have two beds, a table with two chairs each and a TV. We gather in the first room while Jasper neatly places everything on one of the double beds. Char and I are doing our best to comfort Bella while sitting on the edge of the other bed in the room. Jasper, Peter and Garrett are all business. They are focussed intently on what we found. All of them seem to be in the zone.. I know if anyone can figure it all out; it is them.
I'm thinking about everything that has lead us to this point and I am so grateful to whomever was paying attention upstairs. Bella has too good of a heart to survive what ever it was Edward had in mind for her. I'm watching her and Char whisper quietly back and forth when Peter speaks-up.
He says, "Ok y'all. We found some fucked up shit. There's no questioning that fact, but we cannot get stuck on 'what-ifs' and dwell on it. This is serious shit and we need all of our heads in the game if we are going to win." At this he stops and looks at us all. He walks up to Bella, kneels in front of her, grabs her hand and continues, "Sugar, I know it aint easy, but don't let what we found fuck with your head. We all need you here with us. Put those thoughts in a pocket and save them for later. At least until after we have all survived what's comin our way. Can you do that for me?"
Bella squeezes his hands, straightens her shoulders and responds while looking him in the eye, "Yes Peter, I understand and will do my best not to let it get to me. I think I'm mostly reacting to the shock from what I saw in that room.. You are right though. Let's see what we have here." She stands up and walks over to where Jasper and Garrett are standing. Peter stands up to follow her and stands beside her with his arm on her shoulder. I'm thinking that maybe Peter was effected by that room; more than he is letting on.
Jasper looks at all of us seriously and begins, "Alright pay attention. It looks like we have found a few older journals that may give us some insight to what was going on in that moron's head. We have a laptop and a cell phone from the secret room and a back-up drive that Peter managed to make from the PC that was in the main office. The live feed from the surveillance was going to a server which Peter will discreetly hack into." He stops here to look pointedly at Peter and Peter nods in understanding then he continues, "Finally we have a box of letters and mail that needs to be sifted through. If we work together we can hopefully get through it all tonight. We will take notes so we can cross reference any details that match-up. Any questions?"
I speak up, "I know Peter has a system with cell phones and he will handle the server. I can handle the back-up drive and laptop unless anyone else wants to of course."
Garrett laughs and says, "Fine by me. I can barely use my cell phone you fart smuckers." Peter punches him in the arm and says, "That would be smart fuckers to you and don't forget it!" Jasper just roles his eyes and says, "That's fine. Works for me. Garrett can help you guys record your findings." Garrett's grin falls off his face and he narrows his eyes at Jasper.
Jasper laughs and continues, "It will do you some good to get with the times old-man." Garrett grumbles something that sounds like 'dog house' and Jasper continues, "Bella, Char and myself will work through the journals and letters. Garrett can help while he waits for Fred and Peter to find something. Do we all agree?" We all nod affirmative and that is how we spent the next 7 to 8 hours.
Bpov
At first I was shocked by what I found in that room. Then I was hurt because I realized that he has had that surveillance set-up for a long time. He watched me fall apart for four months and did nothing. The bastard probably enjoyed it too. At that I'm beyond pissed. There are so many questions that come to mind. If he had the surveillance than why did he 'think' I killed myself? I put down the journal of self-important idiot ramblings at that thought and ask.
"Hey Jasper, he had surveillance on me. He must have known I was alive. Why did he go to the Volturi last year if he knew it would expose me and my yummy blood?" Jasper stops writing and looks at me quietly for a minute before he answers, "That darlin is a good question. That was when you were spending a lot of time with the wolves right?" I look down and I'm tapping my fingers on the comforter when it hits me. "Do you think he thought that I was getting closer to Jacob and wanted to split us up? Do you think he exposed me to the Volturi out of jealousy?"
Jasper smoothes my fingers down so I stop tapping. I can feel him sending me calm when he answers, "That is a pretty good theory, but I think it was more than that. He truly thought the wolves were a danger to you. I don't think he was jealous as much as he was worried about protecting you.. and your blood. If he just came back like nothing happened you might not have accepted him because of how he left things so, he had to make it dramatic. You had to worry enough about him so you wouldn't think of questioning him, his motives or his absence. Does that makes sense?"
I hold onto his hands and look up to him. I send him my feelings of acceptance and gratefulness. He quirks an eyebrow at me and I say, "Unfortunately, what you say makes perfect sense. I don't like it, but I accept it as truth because from what I now know of him and his sick twisted mind.. that is most likely exactly what he was thinking. I am also grateful. Grateful that he left so, I had the time to bond with the wolves more. I truly believe they helped me wake-up.. I'm also grateful for my new life and family. We will get through all of this together."
Jasper gives me one of his beautiful crooked smiles and hugs me. He looks me in the eye and says, "That's the spirit. We will. We all will and I'd say that the Volturi would regret it but honestly.. I don't think they will last long enough to hold any of those thoughts." Peter and Garrett both pipe in from the other room and say, "That's right!" and "You bet your sweet ass sugar!" I back away from Jasper, laugh at their antics and say, "Alrighty.. let's get back to it then!"
Jasperpov
I can feel all of the conflicting emotions going on with everyone and right now I feel mostly determination coming from the lot of them. In my long life I have known more pain, sorrow, hate and greed than anyone should rightfully be able to say they have felt. Since, I came to be a part of this coven I can say that the love and happiness I have felt almost makes up for it all; in just a few months. I believe that when we take care of the Volturi/Maria threat all of us will be able to breath much easier. Figuratively of course. As leader of this coven I am determined to make this right for all of us.
It is terrible what Edward had planned for Bella. In his most recent journal he illustrated his blood fantasies. The last entry was perhaps the most revolting.
June 3, 2012
It has been 6 months since Isabella has gone missing. If she thinks we are over she is sorely mistaken. I have set-up a lovely guest quarters for her in my surveillance room. If she does not come willingly I plan to strap her to the table there. I can surely keep her alive via intravenous. However, if I am forced to keep her alive with fluids; I will use her greatest weakness against her. Her family and loved ones. One threat to Charlie or the mutt's lives and she would service me like a good little slut. During such time I can also procure 1 to 2 pints of blood a week from the source of my singer indefinitely. It's brilliant. I wish I had thought of doing that with test subject A.
Unlike with that failure; I have decided that if I can keep Isabella alive and isolated long enough she will grow to depend on me for all of her needs. She will have no choice to comply with everything I desire. Until such time that she is willing I can strap her to the table while I use all of my toys on her. She may protest at first, but her body will react to the repeated stimulation whether or not her mind wants her to. During these times I will speak softly and glamor her repeatedly until she no longer has a will of her own. I will have to test these theories of course, but I believe that if I stimulate her body and mind enough that she will grow to be addicted to the pleasure that only I can give her.
She has a boyfriend now. When I first found out I wanted to kill him, but now that I have calmed down somewhat I do believe that I can use him to my advantage. Self-sacrificing Isabella would do anything to protect him I'm sure. Perhaps, she will beg for his life. In return for his life I can have her pleasure me in front of him while he struggles and watches.. maybe he will even participate. Hmmm.. I'm hard just thinking about all of the possibilities.
He goes on with fantasies of his plans and theories for pages and pages. In all the years I spent with the Cullens I never knew he was such a freaky bastard. On one of his theory pages he talked about keeping daily records because when Bella died off he planned on capturing another food and pleasure source so, that he could get off of the animal diet permanently and not feel terrible about taking many human lives. He felt that this would be more humane than going on hunts. He also theorized ways of approaching Carlisle with the idea of keeping human house pets so that he could go home. He felt that if he corrupted Carlisle with this 'new way of life' then the rest of the Cullens would follow and he would have his family drinking from their natural food source.
I stop reading his delusions and scan the rest of the journal for key words such as Aro, Volturi and so on. I can't take anymore of his mental break. For the first time since I was human I actually feel like I wanna puke. I'm almost through my final scan when Peter says, "Hey y'all finished? I wanna get the fuck out of here. I got a bad feelin." Huh. No more bad than my stomach doin flip-flops on elk-blood. I close the last journal and ask, "What's going on Captain? Report."
He stands before me and says, "Well Major. They have discovered Edward and Alice's remains. Dmitri will be on his way within hours. It would be in our best interests if we were as far away from here as possible even though Fred is masking us." I nod and say, "Very well. Let's pack up. We can discuss our findings on the way home." Everyone nods and says let's go. I stop them and say, "Peter and Fred, were you able to complete your tasks? Will you be able to report on the way?" They both nod so I say, "Let's get out of here then."
Peterpov
Good fucking riddance to shit-cago. If I ever have to come back here again it will be too soon. God I hate this city! I can tell that Jasper is really disturbed by whatever it was he was readin. It looks like a journal. Fucking Edward. I shake my head and help pack up. We are all packed and on the road within thirty minutes.
I drive because that's just my thing. I like navigating. We are all settled into the ride when I finally ask, "Alright. Let's go over what we found. I'll go first. When I checked the cell phone it looked like it was used only for contacting the Volturi. There were at least a dozen missed calls from Aro's personal line and the last call that was made to Aro was made one day before Edward came out. Before that it looks like he reported on a weekly basis."
Everyone seems to grasp what I'm sayin so I continue, "As for the server that the surveillance was feeding to.. well I was able to hack into it to get the locations for all of the cameras. I had some feed sent to an unknown server of my own that I have set-up. We can access it when we get home."
Fpov
I wonder what the heck he had on the surveillance cameras? There were 10 monitors and I only know that one of them was a split screen of Bella's Forks bedroom and bathroom. What else did he feel so invested in that he felt it needed monitoring? I'm brought out of my musing by Jasper's voice, "Very good Captain. Fred. What were you able to find in the laptop and the back-up drive?"
He is looking at me expectantly and I answer, "Well.. the back-up drive was easy to get into. I found a lot of investment portfolios and financial statements. He also has a Sims game on there with characters named after the Cullens." I look over at Bella and say, "Sorry babe. I forgot to mention that you are Mrs. Cullen on the Sims. You have a dog and you are a homemaker of a huge mansion. Edward is a Scientist." She narrows her eyes at me and says, "I want a digital annulment. That marriage is a scam!" We all start laughing. It's great to find some kind of levity in the situation.
I continue on now that the mood seems lightened a bit and say, "That was about all on the back-up. It was just a very basic home computer set-up. Everything legit. On the up an up and all that. The laptop however had some serious security on it." I grab hold of Bella's hand and look at her nervously. She nods and I feel a boost of confidence that I'm almost positive that was sent to me from Jasper so I say, "The laptop was more difficult because that was where he stored all his dirty stuff. He had a lot of porn and photographs of Bella. He had digital copies made of some very old black and white photographs. It looks like he tested a room like the one he had set-up for Bella a long time ago."
Everyone reacted to that by tensing up. I decide to make it quick and blurt it out. "So, um yea guys Alicewashisoriginaltestsubje ct." Peter pulls the car off to the side of the road at the same time everyone says, "What?!" I rub Bella's hand. More for my comfort than her own at the moment. I'm just a little freaked out by what I saw in his files. She squeezes my hand in reassurance so I go on, "Edward had a room set-up like that before a long time ago. The set-up was old fashioned, but it was basically the same. He had pictures of Alice strapped to the bed. He had pictures of different things that he did to her and had others do to her while she was strapped there."
Bella lets go of my hand and grabs onto my neck and starts sobbing. Jasper gets out of the car and takes off into the woods and Garrett follows him. Peter is shaking his head saying, "I had him pegged all wrong. He was more of a twisted fuck than I ever thought he was." He grabs ahold of Char and she is sobbing along with Bella. They both know what he meant for Bella with that room and the fact that he had practice seems to make it more real for them; I guess.
Peter says, "You know this is going to hit Jasper pretty hard. It is easy to be angry at Alice thinking she is just a manipulative bitch. Hearing that she was also a victim in that way will mess with him." I nod because I know exactly what he means. Alice was used and abused. She was mentally scared and never had a chance at a real life thanks to Edward and the Volturi.
Bella calms down and says, "After everything that's happened. I feel so horrible for Alice.. She even lost her mate who also went through hell because of Edward and the Volturi." I hug her tight and say, "Alice is free now. She no longer has to suffer for their decisions. Drake is also free enjoying his new chance at life to the fullest.." Peter interrupts me by saying, "Edward didn't pay enough, but I'm sure we can take out our frustrations on the Volturi." At this point Jasper and Garrett get back in the car and Jasper says, "Sorry. Had to let off some steam. You are right Peter. The Volturi will pay." Then he looks back at me and says, "Is there anything else to report?"
I close my eyes and say, "Yea, can we get back on the road? The sooner we get home the better." Peter pulls back onto the road and we are on our way. I look around at everyone and say what's on my mind, "Guys, I do believe he found her in the asylum. He then used Alice as a test subject and turned her.. most likely by accident." Jasper nods and says, "I think you are right. He mentioned something about test subject A when I was reading one of the journals. I can see why he wouldn't want to name her in it."
What a shithead.. We spend the rest of the drive in silence. Who knows how many hours later; we pull into the driveway. Home. Bella says, "Finally home.." Peter interrupts by saying, "What in the bloody fuck?!"
A/N Mini cliffy. Sorry. I'm hoping to have the next chapter up tonight with any luck. Finally got most of Alice's story out there. Sucks huh? Ah well.. Review! Don't forget. Sometimes, I make mistakes. Many of them are here.
