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Carlisle's POV

Although I wasn't keen on getting the information out of my wife, I had to find out what the cause of this was. If I knew what had caused that sudden dangerous moment and the reason why he had pointed that knife at me, then I could figure out ways to prevent that from happening again. That way, we won't have to give up on him for the safety of our other children.

My wife was still in the kitchen but the knife was nowhere to be seen so she must have put it with the others that were locked away. As always, the place was looking very tidy thanks to Esme with everything washed up and dried. She was now currently cleaning the sides.

"Next time, I'm going to have to be more careful when I'm washing the knives" she mentioned once she noticed me.

It was true. Jasper had just been in the kitchen at the wrong time, unfortunately the moment Esme had put a sharp knife on the draining board which was clearly on display for Jasper. Part of me was actually relieved that instead of using the knife on himself, he had pointed it at me. I may have been in the more dangerous position but it would pain me even more if he would end up lying in a hospital bed again.

"It's probably for the best" I agreed. "By the way, I didn't manage to get that information out of Jasper. He said that he wanted you to tell me" I stated.

Esme stopped what she was doing and turned around with a small sigh. She was probably thinking the same thing as I; that it would have been a safer option if he was the one that told me but he had clearly stated to me that I would not be getting anything from him so it was pointless trying and right now, Jasper was back to his stubborn phrase.

"I don't know if I should tell you or not" Esme admitted.

It was understandable. Like I said; we were both unsure if this would change Jasper's attitude towards us, thinking that we were just sharing information about him.

"The sooner the better. I need to know so that I can prevent this from happening again because if it does, he could hurt one of the others and I really couldn't have a violent child in the house" I explained.

Esme knew the risk and it was obvious that she wanted to keep him so badly, as did I; but she also knew that I was right. Jasper was capable of hurting any of us although it wasn't exactly intentional. At least I hope it wasn't.

"You're right" she sighed. " Jasper...he had a...a nightmare this morning" she revealed.

He had a nightmare very often when he was in psych ward but they decreased once he was released. Now he was just having them every now and again but that was mainly because Alice stayed with him until he fell asleep so that relaxed him and took the darkness away for a little while.

"Same as usual?" I questioned.

It would be strange if it was because Jasper never showed any sort of violent behavior after one had happened. Maybe this one had been worst than his usual ones.

"No. It wasn't about his father" she revealed with a regretful look on her face.

Was it possible for him to have a nightmare that wasn't his father? It was him that caused pain throughout his whole life. Or maybe, due to the events that have happened lately, he had a nightmare about somebody getting hurt again. I mean, Edward got away with a minor injury but he could have dreamt that this time, it was Alice that got hurt but quite badly. But still, that would include his father.

"So what was it about?" I asked.

Her expression was very hesitant so I knew that she really didn't want to tell me. So Jasper didn't want to say and neither does my wife; surely it couldn't be that bad.

"He had the same dream as always but instead of the person being..him.. it was...it was you" she whispered.

I take that back. He couldn't control his nightmares but they were based on what he thought of other people, perhaps exaggerating it a little. But this would mean that despite being his '2nd favorite person in the world', there was still that small part of him that believed that I would do that to him. I know that he couldn't help it; especially because that disgusting man has both physically and emotionally destroyed him but it made me realise that there was still something missing. Had I stopped giving him the attention that he needed once he finally began to trust me? Possibly. I would need to change that.

"Oh. That explains a lot" I replied, almost speechless.

That was why he had looked so nervous when had entered the house and why he had quoted 'don't touch me'. As wrong as it sounded, it had made me proud to see him stick up for himself like that although there really was no need for it. It wasn't as if I really was going to hurt him. He probably stopped standing up for himself with his father because he had ended up being physically abused as well as sexually. I guess he just figured being raped without any further pain seemed like the better option; the poor boy.

"It does. He just got scared, Carlisle" Esme said.

I knew that and he probably would be for a while now. But back when I was with him, he had literally clung on to me, begging me to let him stay here. I couldn't let him go. We have tried too hard to let him go. If we had given him up, all this time getting him to trust us along with all this worry would have all been for nothing. I see a point in everything and Alice had saved him from his first suicide attempt for a reason. I had saved him from his 2nd suicide attempt for a reason. There was definitely a reason why we had found him at those moments he needed us most and it was not to just lock him away in a padded room; it was to give him a chance at a normal life and I would not give up until that is what he gets.

"I know" I agreed.

The knife incident was a wake up call to help me realise that Jasper still had issues with me despite the father and son act.

"So how is he now?" Esme asked.

"Fine. I had left him to rest" I stated.

In fact, it was very familiar with the nights that had happened when he was put in psych ward like the night he had fallen asleep in my arms so I had carried him back to his bed. Well, he did it again only this time, he cried himself to sleep. Well, it was more of a nap since he woke up in the next hour but I left him still lying in his bed. He was probably back in his corner now, anyway.

Once Esme was satisfied with the kitchen, she decided to give it a rest and spend some time resting so she turned on the TV and sat next to me on the sofa. Not long after, Rosalie came down the stairs and joined us in the lounge.

"You wanna tell me what that was all about?" She questioned.

I knew that it would seem too much of a miracle for nobody else to hear all the commotion. I had expected them to come running down the stairs though to see what it was all about. They had surprised me. Knowing that Rosalie was very mature (well they all were excluding Emmett but he, too, has his moments) so I explained it to her. It wasn't easy to be on Rosalie's good side so if Jasper was any other person, she would have killed him for it but luckily, Rosalie loved him like a real brother so the evidence of pity was clear.

It was about 8 in the evening when Alice appeared.

"Hi mum, hi dad, hi Rose" she said joyfully as she sat on a sofa.

She looked at us curiously, probably noting our casual postures; almost as if nothing had happened.

"So, is everything okay? We're still keeping him, right?" She double checked.

Well that explains her expression. She was just feeling rather anxious about our decision with Jasper.

"Of course we are sweetie. He's just going through a hard time right now" Esme answered.

"Good. He's sleeping now anyway"

Again? That was surprising. I thought that having the hour nap would have disturbed his sleep so I was amazed to hear that he managed to sleep earlier than usual. But then again, it did mean that he was more likely to wake up early in the morning so I'll have to listen out before I head out to work in the morning just in case.

"Oh, and dad? Jasper hasn't told you yet, has he?" Alice questioned.

"Told me what?" I asked.

I remember Esme telling me that there was something else that Jasper had to say but because of the situation he was in, it was unlikely that he would tell me it. Now I was curious.

"Well, since Jazz probably won't tell you after... you know" at my nod, she continued. "Well, we have decided that...we have realised that we... Damn it; I didn't think it would be this hard" she took a deep breath and started again. "I love Jazz and you already know that but...I know he loves me, too. I can feel it. Anyway, we have decided to give it a go with the whole girlfriend boyfriend thing" she nervously explained.

I was speechless but I didn't understand whether I was happy to hear it or not. Don't get me wrong, it's good to know that my daughter is happy and Jasper is, too...sort of, but I couldn't help but also see it as a bad idea. First off, Jasper had proven to have a dangerous side so considering that Alice is closest to him, there is a chance that she could get hurt.

Secondly is how Jasper's past can affect them. There is two ways that it can. One: Jasper would either avoid all sexual contact all together or two: he might encourage it. What I mean is that Jasper is use to being sexually touched whether he wanted it or not but we have to face the facts here; many sex offenders have been sexually abused themselves when they were younger so it is possible that Jasper could turn on her; perhaps not yet but sometime in the future. That's what had me worried.

I couldn't exactly tell her this; not yet anyway so for now, I will let her be happy but I will need to speak to her about this. I'm not saying that he would definitely turn into the bad guy but I would rather be safe than sorry. This also means I should talk to him, too but I will back off for now because of the state he is in. As long as I keep an eye on them, they will be fine. After all, I accepted Rosalie and Emmett's relationship.

"It's about time!" Rosalie exclaimed.

She had seemed to support the way Jasper had always followed Alice or the way he looked at her. She also seemed to understand him even before she began to speak to him and now I understand why. They had both shared similar pasts. Alice continued to look at me, expecting me to say something but I struggled for words.

"Alice, I...I'm glad that you're happy and I could already tell that you really liked him but...just be careful" I warned.

"Dad, you say it like he's some sort of murderer" she commented as she rolled her eyes.

"What your dad is trying to say is that we just want you two to not force yourself into anything, okay?" Esme intervened.

"Don't worry. After everything that Jazz has been through, I'm going to go super slow with him. I promise" Alice said with a smile.

He's not the only one I'm worried about.

That's going to constantly be on my mind until I do have a talk with Jasper. I hope it's not long until Jasper settles back down so there would be nothing holding me back to bring this topic onto him. I would need to remember to let Jasper know that I don't have a problem about him being with Alice. It was important to tell him this because it's twice now that he has told me he thinks I want Alice to 'hate' him. He does seem to make incorrect assumptions because Alice was one of the strongest reasons why I refused to give up on Jasper.

Giving up on Jasper meant giving up on Alice.

Alice may have a very bright personality and finds it easy to fit in well but Jasper is the first person who has actually caught her attention and not just by attraction. He seemed to brighten her even more than I thought was possible and the only time she seems to have expressed sadness has involved Jasper. An example was when she first started school in Forks. She seemed to be really down and quiet and it turns out that this was the first day she had noticed Jasper and realised how rare his presence was. His sadness appeared to radiate onto her and now that he has finally found peace away from that monster, Alice's mood is more joyful than ever.

And Jasper is the one to thank for that.

The next Chapter will be set about two or three days after this one which will be when Bella visits the Cullen's. I think I will remind you now the things that Bella currently knows about Jasper. Alice is into him, he has been adopted, he tried to kill himself which is what put him in psych ward and caused Alice's mood to change. She doesn't know about the sexual abuse.

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