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I sat with my knees folded up to my chest on the floor in the corner. I wanted to disappear. What I thought was safe and secure… what I thought was my decision… what I thought was right was suddenly wrong. I all of a sudden knew that I didn't want to be one of these people. They were going to make me one anyway, though. I felt victimized. And I hated feeling victimized. I wanted to escape… to attack Ben when he'd open the door, get past him, and find a way out… but something told me I would find nothing at the other end, and would wind up back in this col, dank room. I was alone. I heard a loud clunk outside of my door and looked up. It sounded like something hit the door. I stared at the door for a few moments, until I saw the red lever that locked the door move. I put my hands on the floor, palms down, ready to spring into action, although I knew it would do nothing. I watched as the door opened, and as a young girl… my age or younger… walked in, a slingshot in her hand. She had dark brown hair, and wore a gray sweatshirt over a white shirt with jeans. She had a beige bag hanging over her shoulder, and wore sneakers. She flung the door open when she saw me.

"Get up," She whispered urgently. I looked past her to see the man that took me from Jack's room, on the floor, seemingly unconscious. "Get up! Hurry! Let's go!" She whispered with urgency. I sprung up and ran to the door.

"Who are you?" I asked as we walked out of the room. We snuck carefully and quietly down the hallway.

"Alex," She said. I looked at her suspiciously as she led me down the hallway. We stopped outside of a room… it was the same room that Ben took me into when Jack opened the door to the ocean. I knew Jack's room was just around the corner.

"Wait," I said, grabbing her shoulder. I went around the corner to Jack's door.

"What are you doing?" She asked, grabbing my wrist. I pulled it back away from her and hurried to his door.

"This is Jack's room, we have to…" Suddenly, I heard urgent footsteps down the hallway near my room… someone must have found the guy she knocked out.

"Let's go," She said. I nodded, understanding the urgency. I left Jack's door, looking back in promises to rescue him if I ever could; I knew I was in much more danger than him.

"What about my other friends?" I asked her as we headed up the ladder onto the ground.

"We're going to get them now," She said. I smiled a little.

"Why?" I asked as we walked on the sidewalk. She never answered my question. We snuck carefully off of the sidewalk and into the trees, and walked slowly and stealthily through the jungle until I could see a section that was deforested up ahead. As we got closer, I could see figures of people, and I heard an angry man, who I thought might be Danny, through the trees. I looked around, and my eyes eventually fell on Kate, who was on the ground. I looked around frantically and spotted Sawyer. Alex and I were crouched silently, not ten feet away from them.

"How the hell did she get over here?!" Danny yelled. I watched as Alex loaded her slingshot.

"Don't!" I whispered as she let the rock fly. It hit a man in the back of the neck. She sprung up and ran out of the trees, and I followed, farther behind her, cautious at her sense of confidence around the men with guns. She knocked another person down by hitting him in the face with a rock.

"Get up! Come on, get up!" She yelled at Sawyer. I ran closer, and he made eye contact with me. When he saw me, he hurried to his knees. "Let's go!"

"Alex!" Danny yelled, holding a gun to her. She turned to him, threatening to hit him… with a rock… "What the hell do you think you're doin?" Someone pushed Sawyer back to the ground.

"Run, Carmen!" She yelled. I turned and ran. I heard someone shoot a gun, but nothing came near me. I continued to run until someone wrapped their arms around me and held me. I threw my head back and found that it hit someone, who groaned. They dropped me and I struggled to get free of other men grabbing my arms.

"They're gonna kill your boyfriend!" Alex yelled.

"Shock her!" Danny yelled. I thought he was talking about Alex, but I soon found I was wrong.

"Get off me! Sawyer!" I called. Someone raised something to my neck, and I screamed as I was shocked, feeling electricity shake through one side of my neck to the other. I went limp from the shock, and the men holding me dropped me. I fell to the ground, and blacked out.


I sat on the floor, curled up with my knees to my chest. The door opened to my room, and Tom walked in. I looked down at my knees. He walked over to me and stood in front of me.

"Stand up," He ordered, holding a rope to tie my hands with in his hands. I looked up at him. "I'm gonna take you to see Sawyer and Kate." At Sawyer's name, I stood up. He tied my hands in front of me, then grabbed between my hands, leading me to the room with the ladder. I climbed up the ladder, then he continued to lead me on the sidewalk. The sidewalk curved, and I saw two cages that were old and rusty. In the one facing me, I could see him. Sawyer. I walked forward quicker, wanting to see him. Tom led me up to the cages, revealing to Sawyer who I was. He stood up and came to the bars. I looked at the other cage and saw Kate, also at the bars. Tom let go of me, pulling out a gun. I looked at him nervously. "Five minutes," He said. I ran to Sawyer's cage. He put his arms through the bars and grabbed around me, trying to hug me.

"Are you okay? Where are…"

"Near Jack," I answered before he could finish. By the time I looked up at his face, tears were already welling up in me.

"What did they do to you? Are you…" Sawyer asked, panicked at my anxious, depressed, and frightened state. I started crying as I told him what was happening.

"They're gonna turn me into one of them," I cried. I tried to control my crying, but I couldn't.

"What?"

"I don't know how, but he told me this is the last time I'll ever see you again," I cried. I started sobbing harder as I reminded myself of losing Sawyer. He put his hands softly on the back of my head.

"Tom," I heard a muffled voice. It sounded like Ben's. I turned around quickly, terrified. It was Tom's walkie-talkie. He picked it up off his belt, still holding his gun.

"Yeah?" He asked.

"Did you take Carmen?" Ben asked.

"Doin' it now," Tom replied, looking up at me. I looked at the walkie-talkie, terrified of the man on the other end.

"Well take her back to her room, I changed my mind," I heard Ben order. I backed up into the bars as Tom said something back into his walkie-talkie. I faced Sawyer, desperate to stay, desperate to not lose him.

"Sawyer, don't let him," I desperately cried, reaching through the bars to try to touch him one last time. I grabbed a hold of his shirt as he held my back.

"Get away from her!" Sawyer angrily yelled. I pushed my face into the bars.

"Sawyer!" I cried at him, desperately afraid… wanting to think this wasn't happening. Tom grabbed the back of my shirt and pulled me away from Sawyer's grasp. I cried out in fear.

"Leave her! Leave her alone!" Sawyer yelled at him. Tom grabbed my hands.

"Stop!" Kate yelled. Tom pulled me forward by my shirt. I twisted and pulled until he lost his grip. He grabbed my hands as I fell to my knees, and pointed the gun down at me.

"Carmen!" Tom yelled, trying to control me. I couldn't stop crying... I needed to see Sawyer.

"Please," I begged him, refusing to be pulled up. I didn't want to leave Sawyer... I couldn't. I hadn't said goodbye. Tom weakly looked down at me, taking pity. "Please," I cried. "Let me have a few more minutes… just a minute, please… I'll never see them again," I cried. He pulled me up after lowering his gun.

"A minute," he said. I ran to Sawyer's cage again. He touched my hair.

"I'm sorry… I… I'll help you. I'll get you out…" Sawyer started.

"No," I interrupted. I was thinking clearer now that I had taken a moment away from Sawyer. "No… I don't want you to get hurt. I'm sorry, Sawyer," I said, crying as he held my hands through the bars. I cried, dropping a tear onto our joined hands. "I love you," I told him. I couldn't remember if I'd ever told him I loved him before, but it didn't matter. A tear rolled down his cheek.

"I love you, too, San Diego," He tried to smile. I let out a gasp of air, half out of sadness and grief, and half out of his nickname. I leaned into him, and we hugged through the bars one last time. I looked to Kate and walked over to her. She was crying to herself.

"I guess we were right," I said to her through my tears. "We should have trusted our instincts and left the first day, huh?" I asked her. She smiled at me, wanting to be comforting and supportive, but falling into my sadness. I cried as I leaned into the bars and she hugged me. "Take care of Sawyer," I told her, crying out the words in a low whisper. I heard her cry harder over my shoulder. Tom touched my back.

"Carmen," He said. I didn't want to leave… it was the last thing I wanted to do. But I had to, and I would either make myself look like a fool, or I could walk towards my torture with dignity. I backed away from Kate and tried to feign a smile as tears rolled down my cheeks. I looked at Sawyer one last time. My lips quivered, and I closed my eyes. When I opened them, I tried to smile one last time.

"Goodbye," I whispered through my cries. Tom pulled me down the sidewalk and away from my friends… the last time I'd ever see them. I cried as we went back to my room. When we got into my room, Tom untied my hands. I went straight to my corner, sat down and curled my legs up, crying into them. I felt Tom's eyes on me, then I heard him leave. For the first time in a long time… for the first time ever on this island… I felt truly alone. I grabbed Boone's necklace that fell around my neck, looking for some sense of support... but for the first time the necklace felt cold, and the metal stung against my skin. I let go of the necklace, and wrapped my arms around my legs, desperate for someone to help me.


The door to my room opened and Danny walked in with two other men. I stood up.

"Time to go," He said. He grabbed me by my elbow and pulled me to the table, where he pushed me down. He tied my hands behind my back as I silently cried. He then pulled me back up to put a bag over my head. He walked me down the hall, and pushed me up the ladder, while someone above me pulled me up. They walked me down a sidewalk, then over some dirt path for a while. Then I was pushed up some concrete stairs. "Leave her with the kid… they still getting the video ready?" Danny asked. Someone else answered him.

"Yeah, they're fixing everything up still… is she going to see it, too?" The man asked… he sounded young.

"Yeah, take her, I gotta run. Ben's getting his surgery done in an hour," Danny said. He let go of me and I heard him and the other men walk off. The younger man opened a loud metal door and walked me down a hallway. He stopped me at a metal door, then led me in. He took the bag off of my head. While he untied my hands, I saw a young boy, about my age, in the room. He had brown hair, and his face was dirty. I turned my head to see the man who brought me: he couldn't be over twenty, and had short brown hair and was lanky… the boy my age had more muscle than him. He pushed me forward, then left the room, shutting the door behind him. I went to the door to try to open it.

"It's locked," the guy my age said. I tried to open it anyway, and discovered he was right. I looked around the room, looking for another escape route. I sat down next to him on the floor. "What's your name?" He asked me.

"Carmen," I said. I looked at him curiously. "Who are you?"

"Karl," He answered. I shook my head.

"No, I mean… who are you? Where did you come from? Did the others... I mean, did these people find you?" I asked him. He shook his head, chuckling.

"I am one of these people," He answered, looking up at the door. I frowned.

"Then… why are you here?" I asked. He smiled again and looked at me.

"'Cause I pissed off Mr. Linus," He said.

"Ben?" I clarified. He nodded. I looked at the door. "What are they gonna do to us?" I asked. He lost his small smile at this and frowned, upset.

"They're gonna brainwash us."

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