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Chapter 50 – Renewal (Bella)

August 11th, 2011

She shut her eyes briefly as a wave of nausea hit her. It was the same nausea that she'd had since Edward had gone into his coma. The constant sickness had finally made her call her general doctor for an appointment that morning. Her appointment was scheduled for the middle of November. The nurse who'd scheduled the appointment said if she was really sick than she should go to the ER.

Bella wasn't going to spend several hours in the ER, because of some minor anxiety sickness though. She figured if she could manage her anxiety she could get over the illness that was plaguing her which was why she needed to tell Jacob she wanted a divorce. She needed to rip it off like the band-aid it was, but he was so excited and talking about the property he bought almost every night. It made her hesitant to bring it up.

She folded the second cheese, ham, and egg omelet and pushed it on to the second plate. She took over the two omelets to the table where the bacon banana-nut muffins she'd woken up at the crack of dawn to make were already sitting in the middle of the table.

Jacob came out of the bedroom and looked at the spread on the table which also included fresh pressed orange juice and bowls of mixed fruit.

"Wow, you're really spoiling me lately, Bells."

She shrugged.

"Jake... we, ah, need to talk."

"Okay, what do you want to talk about?"

"You know... we've both said and done regrettable things..."

Suddenly Jake grabbed her hands in his. "Let's get married."

It took her half a moment for his words to sink in. "Jake, we're already married."

"No, I'm serious. Let's get remarried or renew our vows or whatever the hell it's called. There was a time when everything was right between us... and I know a lot of the issues stemmed from my mistakes, but there was a time when Edward was just your friend and Leah was just my wayward ex step-sister. Let's go back to that. Let's try this again. Start over."

"Sue and Billy were never actually married..." It was the only thing she could think to say to his words.

"Only because the state of Washington doesn't have common law." He glared at her for a moment and then he shook his head. "That's not the point I'm trying to make. There was a point in my life when I wasn't jealous of Edward being your friend. There was a time when we were happy. And like you said, we've both done regrettable things but we don't need to keep doing it. Let's just try to do this right this time around."

"Jake... we can't just rewind the last five years. Or at least the last three." She pulled her hands out of his and stepped away.

"I know, and I know it won't be perfect. It'll take time for us to get back to perfect, but let's try. Let's say to hell with the odds and the doubters and all of it and go back to being us."

"Okay..." The word was out of her mouth before her mind fully had a chance to consult with her on it.

"Okay?"

"Yeah, okay. I mean yes, let's get our vows renewed. Let's try." She couldn't help but wonder as she said it if they could actually pull it off or if it would just be another in a long line of mistakes.