A/N: self harm trigger/content warning, if you have issues with it i will message you the chapter without it!.

As he quietly slept I kept peering at him arm. Only minor changes, slowly returning to normal. For hours I just sat there willing it in my mind to change it, instead of trying to logically figure it out. No, being a mom is different, he got hurt. And I just injected him and put him to sleep. I started digging my nails deeper into my palms, I need to remember that day... that horrible day. My breathing got shallow for moment, Jack is alive, you don't need to worry about that. Just focus on the biggest mistake of your life, I inhaled sharply, my hands felt a slight popping sensation. Think... smoke, trying to find your papers in your lab... think. Goddamnit Angela, think think harder. But it's like there's some sort of block, like a loss of memory. I know I revived him, what chemicals had spilled? Is there documentation? He's a mix. Of three people... and then maybe a loose compound.

My brows knitted together, ask Winston for any information, try to get Ana to draw it out of you. A loud sigh exited my lips as I glanced down. My hands were slowly getting covered in blood, my palms sprung open. Scheisse.

Quickly is an understatement to how fast I reached for my medical supplies to sop up the bloody mess, the healing would be soon, just what would remain wouldn't be...

" love..." said Jack softly. Caught.

He was sitting up, his eyes blinking away sleep but I knew he knew.

" come here" he said in a soft but commanding tone.

My feet felt stuck in concrete, heal damnit, I crawled into bed and curled into his arms as he pulled my hands away from my body.

"It's okay" he said into my ear, rocking me gently as his cheek pressed against mine.

" but it's it's "

" I know" he responded, his calloused hands holding mine tightly as he wrapped them in front of me, making a safe and protected place.

After a few minutes he whispered " what caused it?"

" I'm trying to figure out if there's another factor that I'm missing" I whispered back. He grunted and rested his chin on my shoulder.

" have you been through all the files?" He asked.

" I thought so, but that.. it was-" my voice cracked and I turned to bury my face in his neck.

" I know, I know" he said tightening his grip.

" we are both safe now" he added with a gentle nose push to my cheek.

" but what about him?! What if his cells just turn into necrosis and he becomes..." I started to whisper.

" his attitude is everything, while his appearance may change he won't"

I sighed, he is right but what kind of life would that be for him? Would it even be living?

" it's clearing up isn't it?" He asked.

" yes"

" then you don't have to worry for a long time" he replied.

" we don't know that"

" no, but we do know that he still can regrow bones and flesh, so you need to look into other options" said Jack. I nodded and basked in his body heat and his comforting words and arms.

" want to play a game?" He asked softly.

" what?! " burst out of my mouth.

" welllll we have an unfinished game of monopoly from like... ten years ago?"

He said with a smile.

" are you serious?"

" I never joke about monopoly" he replied feigning hurt feelings.

I looked into his eyes for a moment. My mind searching for the honest truth, wait...

" remember after that huge mission and we both couldn't sleep, because you had to stay awake in case of Liao going into a cardiac episode, and I had to stay up to handle any of the aftermath of the explosion and follow up calls?, the UN was breathing down our back and Torbjorn had his board games laying around?"

Then it clicked... what a stressful fucking night.

" but how do you remember where we left off? We tried finishing it numerous times, each time recording all the data, well it just so happens I keep those notes stored on my old burner phone. " said Jack.

" what is wrong with you?"

" probably a lot of stress... missing you and knowing that that stupid game would constantly be our late night thing... next to ice cream and sex" he responded with a cheeky grin.

I let out and sigh and nodded " proceed " I said.

He smiled as he pulled out the old phone, carefully entering the information into his holopad as the game was set up.

" oh now, I believe you are cheating, I know I owned kings row" I said glancing down at the properties I had.

" no, I bought it off of you, it was a horrible move of mine but you didn't seem to mind at the time"

" probably because you were distracting me" I growled.

" oh darling, YOU were always doing the distracting " he said as he leaned over and gave me a kiss.

Glancing back down at the properties I possessed I knew that it wasn't looking good for me.

" scared to lose?" He teased.

" possibly" I replied as i furrowed my brows.

I glared at him and spun the dice, a weird thing in an app which I swear had always been biased towards him.

My legs tucked under me, I moved the Medicine bag piece down the road promptly ending in jail.

Even Jack looked disappointed.

" want me to lend you the money?" He asked.

" I can pay to get myself out!" I exclaimed as I made the transaction.

We played for what seemed like hours, I somehow got kings row back and oasis.

" I'm disappointed... we had a lot of fun there" he said wistfully. I felt my cheeks flush for a moment, oasis was absolutely a wonder.

They had run out of rooms, after some of the lower ranking members had rooms, they said Jack and I would have to share a suite. It was two bedrooms, which made for an easy concealment and led to a very busy night. No surface was safe from us, the roaring fire providing a warm glow as we explored every inch of each other.

" we should go back sometime " said Jack wistfully.

" oh?" I said.

" oasis is the one place they wouldn't look for anyone" he whispered, looking deeply lost in thought.

The champagne was flowing freely, the deserts melted in your mouth within moments of contact. A smile crept onto my face, a momentary reprieve from everything. Even if it's just a dream it's a perfect dream... he leaned over and kissed my cheek before looking back down at the game.

" oh look where I landed" he murmured as he looked up and smiled.

" don't you dare" I squeaked.

" I dare" he replied mischievously as he bought back oasis and planted a mansion on it.

I grunted and leaned down, propping my head onto my hands.

" the medication should be wearing off soon" I muttered looking at the time.

" lovely, I'm going to go make food, because John will probably be exhausted and want something comforting" said Jack " and you are going to need a hell load of coffee"

I nuzzled his neck and he grunted " ange..." he murmured.

" yes?"

" I'm going to go do that okay?" He said.

I relented and curled up away from him, he responded by stroking my neck for a moment before leaving.

I rolled back over and stared at John, his little chest rose and fell with his breathe. I have so much to do today, I let out a sigh and brushed out my hair. Thankfully now fully restored to its natural color, all of the rinses stripped away what little fragments of color remained. What a stupid thing to think about right now, then again minds work in mysterious ways. Not too mysterious thankfully, the brain protects the psyche from becoming too overloaded, or that's what I like to think. Perhaps it's the years with Genji, and his discussions of Zenyatta. I closed my eyes tightly and sat up as straight as I could on the rickety bed, each piece of my spine clicking into place, taking in a large breathe for five seconds, holding it then exhaling for fifteen. Trying desperately to clear my mind and focus on what needed to be sorted. ' Jack says you have time, he's in the early stages of

whatever this is... prevent injury and the rapidness of it shouldn't take place'. Exhale...

Hold that thought ' everything will be fine, how many degrees do you have?' Inhale...' too many to count at this moment' exhale.

Inhale... ' oh my god he made French toast '. My concentration broken as I concerned myself with how the hell he found ingredients. I opened the door when I heard his footsteps and he walked in quietly setting down the plates.

" I'll be right back" he said. I restrained a squeak of joy as I looked at what he created. Within moments he had a large thermos of coffee and sat it down, as the door closed I pounced up at him.

He quieted a laugh as he squeezed me tightly.

" is that toast?" Came a small happy voice.

Jack spun me around to look at our son.

" yes, I did the best I could with what we have here, Ana pitched in some of her nutmeg creamer and well, it just oddly worked " said Jack as he took off his mask.

" how are you feeling?" I asked softly.

" hungry " said John as he got up, he then realized the sling on his arm and began fidgeting with it immediately.

" moooooom" he shouted.

Jack set me down and I began to inspect his arm, the break had fully healed so did the scar but a shadow remained on his skin for now. It wasn't noticeable unless you knew what to look for.

" go eat mein love" I said softly, his little eyes got big as he raced over to the table. My heart pounded for a moment thinking what if he fell again, chokes on food? Stabs himself with cutlery?

" stop worrying for a moment and eat " whispered Jack.

I couldn't barely taste the food, what I did was delicious but my heart felt stuck in my stomach, these stupid nerves are wrecking me.

" what's wrong mommy?" Asked John as he looked at me between bites.

" I have a lot of work today" I said trying to push out a false happy face.

" does that mean I get to be with daddy all day?" He squeaked.

" sure thing bud" said Jack.

I quickly drank the coffee and glanced at the time, Winston should be up now.

" I'll be back a little later" I said suddenly.

Jack nodded and John gave me a hug.

" can you go set up the game we were going to play?" Asked Jack while glancing at John. John agreed and walked over to his toys while Jack turned to me.

" don't overthink it today" he whispered before kissing me, his hand lingered on my cheek.

As I approached the room Winston was staying in, the door was already open. I still knocked and he turned around and asked how John was doing.

" he's fine, slept well and is more playful than yesterday" I remarked.

" that is good to hear" he kindly said.

" yes, yes it is... but I do have a question to ask of you"

" ask away!"

" you wouldn't happen to have the reports regarding the state of my lab when the bomb went off? " I said my voice fizzling in and out during my request.

" unfortunately, we don't have much information regarding that, we had some findings but nothing overly informative.

I sighed and probably looked more annoyed than I should display.

" your portion of the trial is online, thanks to the people demanding to know... anyways maybe you knew then?" He asked.

" are there transcripts? I don't know if I can handle watching" I said softly.

" maybe, I can look into it and get back to you, but the full trial wasn't aired so those details may not be in there unless I found less than reputable sources, which could open us up to the risk of being found" his voice replied sounded solemn.

I slumped down in the chair near him and had to gather my thoughts.

" if there was a legal way of acquiring the documents.." I started

" for you there is no legal way, I don't mean to bring you down but-"

" thank you Winston that will be all" I said cutting him off and storming out of the room.

There has to be a way, there just has to be. Jack and John were running down the hall, Jack stopped immediately when he saw me and I just shook my head.

" hey Genji can you watch John for a minute?" I asked as he was passing by.

" of course" he replied holding out his hand for John as they rushed around.

" so... he says he doesn't remember and that it's probably not available besides the snippets of the trial" I grunted.

Jack nodded and stroked my cheek, I can't help but feel completely defeated.

" well, could you get ahold of anymore of the records?" He asked.

" not unless I turned myself in, or got someone to hack into the database... which would be more trouble than I'm already in" I said.

He stood silently for a moment before pulling me into his chest and whispering as softly as he could in the mask " we will just have to remember then". I could feel my eyes widen in panic.

" it's for our son, I can't keep running from it " his voice was barely audible. I knew how much this pained him, it was tearing me apart and I cannot imagine what he is going through.

"Sorge dich nicht" ( do not worry) he said as he titled my chin up. Despite the mask I just couldn't bear to look at him.

"ich bin besorgt" ( I am worried) I replied hastily.

" I know, just go work on something, we will bring you coffee and later we can watch something " said Jack reassuring me as best he could.

" danke" ( thank you)

I walked to the room and pulled out my notes, if he can remember I will try harder. It was a horrible day for me, but for him... scheisse.

I was working on the regeneration, what else... Then it clicked, looking up the newest viral outbreak during that time period.

The next few hours came a process of elimination, with Jack stopping in to give me coffee and at one point I think he ate with John, I'm trapped in my own world right now. I had a few things narrowed down that I had cured within that time period, thanks to medical archives and wiki articles. A slight pang of longing to be out there and discovering new ways to treat medical problems ate away at me. I could feel John pushing his face into my back as I self loathed.

" mommy say goodnight!" He whined.

" hmmm? gute Nacht mein Schatz" ( good night my darling )

" huh?!" He responded. I flipped back to face him.

" gute means good... nacht means night and mein means my and then that leaves us with..." I paused for a moment as I looked at him.

" schatz " he said looking proud.

" which means darling... so what does that mean all together?" I asked.

" good night my darling " said John after a moment of squirming around and thinking.

" Sehr gut, very good"

" sehr gut" he repeated.

" yes... sehr gut, emphasis on the z instead of sssss sound" I stated. He smiled up at me and kissed me on the cheek, I pulled him into a hug.

" now... schlaf " I said motioning for him to get moving. He frowned and glanced at me.

" sleep... John. To sleep" I said softly.

" you need sleep" he argued.

" I do need sleep, so does daddy" I said.

" he has watch soon, come sleep with me til I fall asleep" he whined.

I glanced at Jack who was picking up some toys.

" I do have to leave soon" he said with a slight shrug.

" alright fine" I said as I walked over to John's bed, he snuggled in and I curled up next to him.

" awww" cooed Jack, he had finished cleaning and walked over to us, messing with John's hair and kissing my forehead.

" John get to sleep but if you wake up because mommy is working too hard, you tell her to sleep"

" okay daddy" said John as he nestled against me.

The door opened and closed as he left, and John's sleepy little face and warm snuggle hold on me was making me extremely tired.

I nearly punched Jack when he carefully woke me up, he lifted me up and I melted against him as he placed us in bed.

" I missed you " he murmured. I just sighed in agreement and tucked my head under his chin.

When I woke up for real I had John nestled against my back and I was still tucked into Jack. Their warmth made me feel so comfortable, so loved and all I want to do is stay like this.

Jack's eyes fluttered open, a smile formed on his face as he leaned over to pull me closer, John whined in his sleep and rolled against me.

" ah" Jack softly muttered and I nodded.

He kissed my lips before closing his eyes again and letting sleep take over again.

I am awake, my body wants to do more, I carefully untangled myself from them and crept over to the corner of the room, the dim glow of the screen providing light as I researched what was happening outside these walls. A new virus, nothing too serious, all the medical reports pointing to a simple cure, that they weren't figuring out. I let a spurt of air leave my lips as I tried to blow a strand of hair away from my face. Glancing down at a clean page in my medical journal I began to write out how to cure the virus. Tedious work but it would be worth it, I would make it if I had a lab.

Hours passed until I was completely satisfied with my hypothesis, I began translating it to Spanish , hopefully to send it out when someone went into town. I would need to copy it again while wearing gloves and using different paper, so it couldn't be traced.

" morning beautiful " said Jack, I jumped from the abrupt noise.

The slight creak of the bed as he got up. John still completely asleep, as he approached me.

" did you figure something out?" He whispered into my ear as his arms encompassed my shoulders.

" for the current virus going around..." I mumbled.

" that's wonderful" he said as he buried his face into my hair.

" it's nothing, It was a basic formula that the medical journals kept forgetting " my voice sounded more frustrated than anything.

" but they couldn't figure it out, and you did in how long?"

" I figured it out almost immediately but writing down what would work to treat it took longer"

His hands rubbed my shoulders, I rolled my head back to look up at him.

" we can send it out with Ana when she goes out, she can drop it in a mail bin and whoooosh! The brilliant doctor Angela Ziegler saves the day again" he said as he leaned down to kiss my lips, his chin bumped my nose in the upside down kiss.

" you two are so gross" groaned John, his voice still groggy from waking up.

" we do it just to bug you" said Jack.

" ughhh" he groaned as he pulled the covers over his head.

He peeked out his head for a moment to yell " food!" Then disappeared.

" John... say please" I responded.

" no" came his muffled reply.

" ah well, no food for you then" I replied.

He started whining loudly and Jack and I just shared a mutual look of understanding.

" John..." I softly said.

He stopped crying for a moment to peer out.

" ask your father nicely " I said sternly.

He huffed, rolled around and whined.

" John!" Barked Jack, not an angry bark just more stern than usual.

" dad, can I pleaaaase have food" he said while pouting.

" that's better but not great, but okay" said Jack as he kissed my forehead and slid on his mask before leaving.

" why are you so mean today?" Asked John.

" I'm sorry darling, I wasn't trying to be mean, I just wanted you to be polite" I said fighting my own emotions. My son calling me mean is not what I needed, probably any day.

" also it's rude to call someone mean when they just want you to be nice" I added.

" but mom" started John.

" you know I love you, and I don't ever mean to be mean"

" I love you too" he responded.

" can I have a hug please?" I asked softly.

Within seconds he lunged at me and I scooped him up, holding him in my arms as he squeezed me as tight as he could. Considering the fact that he does have serum in him he is abnormally strong for a kid his age.

" John too tight my darling " I said. He loosened his grip and just sat on my lap.

" can I look at your arm?" My voice tried to remain neutral but in reality I'm

Worried.

He held out his little arm, the slight discoloration was almost normal again and I can relax more. I kissed his cheek and he started wriggling again.

" sehr gut!" He exclaimed.

" ah! Sehr gut! Mein leibe!" ( very good my love) I replied with pride.

The door opened with Jack balancing food and coffee.

" I'll help!" Shouted John as he ran over and jack handed him a plate.

We had a relaxed breakfast and John wanted to see what Fareeha was doing so Jack took him to go check it out. As I looked over the news I noticed the advertisement for Lucio's concert and smiled to myself. That would be tomorrow night.

I didn't noticed Jack returning and laying down next to me.

I lifted up my arm as he laid his head on my chest.

" hey" he said softly, I stroked his hair absently before looking at a strand or two in shock.

" Jack, do you color your hair?"

He furrowed his brow and looked up at me.

" sorry, just a question " I said quickly.

" well, truthfully... it went white after the explosion, but in the years it started to shift between the two, some of it will grow blonde, but the majority is white. The patches drive me crazy so I just do it" said Jack with a sigh.

I ran my hands through his hair again stroking his scalp gently.

" that happens with trauma" i mumbled.

His eyes closed as he softly mumbled in agreement. Sometimes these little revelations make everything I get annoyed at seem like very small things.

" I love you" I whispered. His hold on me tightened for a moment then loosened, a sigh of contentment left his lips. My hands made their way to his shoulders, I carefully rubbed at the tension knots deep in his shoulders, he grunted when they sorted out.

After awhile he looked up at me, his face totally relaxed.

"I love you, thank you" he said as he smiled.

" of course, I forget how horrible your shoulders are " He moved his body next to mine, and motioned for me to lay on him now, I tucked myself against his body and he securely held me in place.

"When does everyone return?" I asked into his chest.

" we don't know yet.." said Jack. " the concert is tomorrow and nothing should happen since the news hasn't buzzed anything about Hana and Lucio being involved with us. Just their relationship" he brushed his hands through my hair.

" however we do know that Reinhardt will be returning with Torbjorn" he said.

I smiled and turned to look up at him, his eyes had a distant look for a moment.

" Lena and Jesse ?" I asked hopefully.

" I don't think we could send those two away for long if we tried" he replied.

" I also just want a lab again" I sighed.

" well we do have some of your supplies to make a makeshift mini lab"

" do you really think we will be here long enough for that?" My voice shook.

" I don't know darling but the base still hasn't detected anything"

That is more good news for now at least.

" however talon has struck a few places... causalities reported but there's nothing we can do in such small numbers right now" he sighed.

" any reason why?" I asked

" why does talon do anything? Chaos... that's all the news is saying " he grunted. I crept up closer to him my nose touching his cheek, he turned his head and kissed the tip of my nose.

" don't worry my love, soon we will figure something out"

" I thought there was a plan?"

" there's a few but we are working on all of it and the safest options"

I let out a sigh and traced my finger down his neck.

" distract me?" I asked gently.

" gladly" he replied as he leaned over covering me in kisses.

Later that evening as I laid next to him with only a blanket wrapped around me, the door had a rapid knock of Fareeha.

" scheisse" I groaned as I quickly began to pull on clothes, at least we both had a very psychical and loving distraction for awhile.

Jack waited for me to finish dressing and switching out the sheets, before opening the door to Fareeha holding a sleeping John.

" thank you" I said to her and she just grinned and handed John to Jack.

" anything to help, and it seems I helped" she said with a wink to me.

I let out a groan and shook my head at her.

" what?!" She said as she poked her tongue out and giggled.

" Fareeha... " said Jack sternly.

Fareeha threw a hand up to her chest in mock fear.

" oddly enough that will always strike a brief moment of fear in me, it's worse when Wilhelm does it, I panic " she said in a serious voice.

" I don't blame you" I said with a smile at her.

" don't get me wrong I love him, but the minute he raises his voice and I'm out of there!" She laughed for a moment then turned to leave.

" thank you again" I said

" anytime" she replied as she left.

Jack touched my chin lightly.

" I have my watch in an hour but I can lay down with you for a bit before" he said.

These things make me love him more and more, his ability to make me feel comfortable always.

We cuddled in the bed, his hands gently rubbing my back as I began to fall asleep.

A/N: I want to quickly apologize because this one doesn't really advance anything but it's necessary. I'm mostly apologizing because chapters like these take the longest for me to be okay with. However there's some moments that I really like and that's definitely thanks to my lovely friend lordofthememes, so massive shoutout to them for always being great and for giving me the happy ideas for downtime , thank you so much to all of you who read or who take the time to follow or favorite or comment. Believe me, anything you say helps. Even just a " yay! " or a " this is terrible" whichever. Whatever. I hope you all have a great day! And oh my goodness so much excitement for junkertown going live on overwatch! THIS IS THE 50TH CHAPTER! AHHHHHHHH