SUNSHINE POV

(Quick note uh i thought i mentioned this maybe not. . . but In my story I'm pretending that the Sandlot 2 never happened, just with the way I'm writing the story it wouldn't make sense to have it happen, plus it was my least favourite and i would feel obligated to write the characters in, ugh it'd just be a mess. . . anyways i hope that clears some things up enjoy :D)

I Just led him back to his house, shaking all the way. His mom looked at us but didn't say a thing. I was about to leave when Benny held onto my hand tighter and looked at me with wet eyes, silently begging me not to leave.

I hadn't been planning on it, I was going to give him a little time to himself to get changed then come back but he didn't want to be away from me, and I didn't want to be from him either.

He led me to his room and I shut the door, he sat on his bed with me beside him.

He didn't say anything and just when I was about to he looked up at me.

"He's dead." he whispered. I brushed my fingers through his hair and rested my hand on his cheek.

"Yeah." I said hoarsely. That did it, Benny broke into tears, resting his head on my shoulder. I let him cry to his hearts content. His tears soaked my shoulder and my shirt but I didn't give a damn about it, he could break my leg right now if that was what he needed to feel better. I hugged him tightly, not daring to let go, it sucked it really sucked the situation we were in and I wanted it to be over, I wanted to be able to wave a magic wand and just stop the pain and emptiness I knew Benny was feeling, I wanted to take all his pain and just put it me to stop his sadness.

It killed to see him this sad, sobs ripping though his throat I hoped to God I never made him this sad.

It could have been hours before he stopped Crying but I didn't know, time didn't matter, all that mattered was that he felt better. I couldn't give a shit about how I felt, I was sad too but I would not break down when Benny needed a wall.

Suddenly he stopped crying, his breathing even and slowed, his body shaking only slightly, but his hands still gripped my back and shirt tightly. He lifted his head and looked at me his eyes still shiny and beautiful. His gaze flickered to my lips then back to my eyes, before he slipped his hands over my neck to hold my face and then kissed me firmly.

It was Benny's kiss the kiss I could have every moment of my life, it was firm, passionate but filled with grief and sorrow. Benny needed comfort and a distraction and I was willing to be both. I shifted so I could kiss him a little more deeply, he seemed to have the same idea he moved his hands from my neck and gripped my waist tightly, pressing me onto my back and hovered over me. He kissed me fiercely lips crushing mine, hands still shaking held me tightly, hurriedly moving from kiss to kiss.

Our breathing became ragged, his body was hard against mine and I bit my lips biting back a moan when I felt him through his jeans as his hips drove into mine.

His hands skimmed over my hips and then back up my thighs. I needed to breathe I pulled my lips from his but only an inch away, his eyes were still closed and he took the moments to trail kisses up and down my neck.

"Benny." I groaned as he sucked on a patch of my sensitive skin. Benny dragged his lips over to my ear and bit lightly on my ear lobe, his hot breath sent shivers down my spin. Running my hands down his chest I fiddled with the hem of his shirt, he seemed to catch on and pulled away long enough to rip his shirt off and then kiss me again.

Benny's hand held my back pulling me up to him, as his other slipped under my shirt and I learned that I didn't have a bra on the moment his warm hands contacted my bare breasts. Benny pulled away his eyes dark as he looked down at me his hands not leaving where they were. He was asking if it was okay, of course it was. My mind was swimming and I felt dizzy with the way he kissed me, touched me and was just with me.

I kissed across his jaw and down his neck, I wanted him to be as crazy as I was, wanted him to feel good, feel anything but this sadness.

"mmm Toni.' he moaned and I lightly bit down on the flesh of his collar bone.

I kissed him again, pulling him closer even though I knew it wasn't possible to get any closer then we were.

Benny slipped his hands across my stomach, my shirt bunched up at my chest exposing my stomach, his hands gripped the waist band of my shorts. I didn't push him away but I did stop him.

"Benny your mom is down stairs.' I whispered. He stopped what he was doing and looked at me, his eyes clearing and he released my shorts. He sat up leaving me laying on the bed.

"Jesus Toni, I'm so sorry." he said suddenly looking worried.

"What?" I asked as he moved from over me to beside me.

"I didn't mean to. . ." he whispered looking at my hips. I looked too and saw light red fingertip shaped marks on the bones.

"Oh Benny it's okay I didn't even notice, you didn't hurt me." I assured him.

"Not just that, I don't want to rush you."he trailed off.

"Benny it's not like I stopped you.. . . or didn't want to" I replied.

"it just feels wrong, like I was using you to feel better." he said holding his head in his hands.

"Benny it wasn't like that, I know it wasn't, we love each other remember? You just needed comfort." he was silent pulling his head up to look at me.

"Mr. Myrtle. . . and all that I just don't want to waste time Toni, I don't want to not say or do something before its too late."

"Benny I'm not going anywhere." I whispered shifting to sit on my knees beside him.

"He'll never be gone Benny, ever. He's always with us, he was baseball and every time we play he'll be with us, it'll be like we're playing for him. He knew he was going to go Benny, he was old and sick, and we didn't see it but he is not gone forever." I said grabbing his hand and running my thumb over the back.

"I wish I could have done more for him."
"I know, but I'm sure he's wishing you didn't feel this sad. He had a good life Benny, I miss him too, but he was happy, he didn't die in vain or anger at the world, he loved the world and he loved us, and we loved him back. It was just his time."

"I know what Toni. God, I know that I just didn't want it to happen, not like this, not seeing him in his bed, shaking him to wake up and he never did. I called his name but he didn't answer, I held his hand but he didn't hold it back, he was dead, dead in his home-"
"Shhhh" I whispered pulling him into my arms, I didn't want him to cry again, and I knew he wouldn't, he had cried enough and he would refuse to do it anymore.

"How can you be so calm?" he asked face buried in my neck How could I be so calm? That was a good question, I was empty I felt like there was nothing in my chest but air, a pressure pushing in me and ready to burst. My stomach felt like it was at my knees, and I wanted to scream just feel something enter my lungs that no longer seemed present.

There was a lump in my throat and I thought maybe it was my heart trying to escape the pain I felt. But I was calm.

"Maybe my brain just doesn't want to process what my heart feels." I breathed.

We laid there for hours just on his bed in each others arms, occasionally he would shift his weight or pull me tighter but other then that we just laid there, my head on his chest arms wrapped around his torso his holding my back and running his other hand through my hair. Nothing important was said, neither of us cried or chocked back a sob we just laid there.

Aw they comfort each other, lol sorry I'm a day late, I was at work last night.

Anyways I hope you are enjoying the story :D thank you so much for the reviews and comments.

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