Sorry it's short, but I feel like despite it being short it's a good chapter. :)
Sirius had felt sick the rest of the day, so they hadn't been tearing in for information. It'd been a warning, for Remus, maybe? Why had they sent a warning for Remus? He wasn't doing anything different, his order workings were one of the few most secret things. He almost never went to meeting anymore since he'd been accepted into the local pack. There was no way anyone knew about it. It was supposed to look like he was a werewolf who wanted to belong.
But…was it possible? Could someone know, was that why there had been a warning? That'd been his first night working with them, oh shit…what if that'd not been for Remus but for Sirius, they could have easily smelt him on Remus. And werewolves didn't like it when werewolves mated with anyone other than another wolf. And it didn't help Sirius was a man either. It couldn't be that! Remus wouldn't stand for it, he'd marked him for God's sake! They were partners, MATES!
"Sirius, anything wrong?" Remus had played calm all day, he hadn't let out his frustration or fears. Sirius had seemed distant since he'd walked in the door earlier that evening. He hadn't even given Remus a kiss upon first sight of him since he'd walked in the door. Sirius looked up and shook his head, "Thinking about work is all."
"Anything I can help with?"
"What do you do for the order?" Sirius blurted out, his grey eyes locked with Remus'. Remus just stared at him before shrugging "I can't tell you, you know that. It'd just cause problems."
"It causes problems without you even telling me! I'd like to know if I need to worry about a werewolf attacking me every second I'm outside of this flat!"
Remus starred at him wide eyed, "W-what the fuck are you talking about! What's gotten into you?"
"The attack Remus! Honestly you haven't figured it out!"
"Are you serious? Sirius your crazy! It was random! It has nothing to do with the order, you said so yourself that others had been attacked as well why would that have to do with us!"
"There was another Remus! And the couple survived and guess what like us, one of them is a werewolf!" Remus starred at him, "Oh look there goes the little light bulb! Figured it out yet smartass?"
"Why are you being so nasty, so what! Do you want me to feel bad for being a werewolf because that officer did a bang up job of it already! Fled the damn room once he knew! I figured you of all people really wouldn't care that I was a werewolf why is it a problem now?"
"Stark left the room?"
"Know him?"
"He had a crush on me our third year, even felt me up once or twice. Of course I gave him a good what's for but still I know him. And he's never let it go, if anything the beating I gave him just made him more determined."
"WHAT!"
"Oh Moony come off of it! We all have our secrets and how would that have made me look back then? And what would James or you have done to him? He didn't need more of a ass kicking." Sirius frowned as he watched his lover pace the room like a wild animal, "You mean to tell me I sat down with a man who felt you up as a child!"
"HE WAS FOURTEEN! Remus it was YEARS ago and who am I with! Calm down. But that's not the point, the point is that either someone came in to warn you or I. And I really don't like that idea."
"The point is that if it concerns me it's none of your damn business." Remus snapped as he stormed towards his office, "And if it's about you then you don't need to worry about it. Wolves won't attack a marked mate. So you can just sit tight and do whatever the fuck you normally do. Because that's what you do Sirius Black, you just sit there and just…do whatever." Remus had lost his fire as he finished his statement but slammed the door to his office despite it. Sirius just sat there starring at the door, unsure of his next move.
Once his office door was shut Remus leaned against it and let himself side down the door and hid his face in his hands. He hadn't meant to snap at Sirius, he felt like his head had been set on a spin cycle and with Sirius pointing his fingers at him it'd made him even more upset. What was he to do, just leave the pack. Which wasn't even an option because if he did he could only imagine what they'd do to Sirius or himself. Packs were for life, you never left unless they kicked you out.
And yes he'd been keeping it all a big secret from Sirius, he didn't like the idea. But Dumbledore had said it might be best to keep the marauders as well as the rest of the order out of the loop. Less people in danger with werewolf secrets the better. It'd only put them in danger. And once the attacks had started Dumbledore had under another suggestion said he stopped using his hide away and went out with the wolves every full moon.
It was another secret he'd kept from Sirius, in the pack Remus had found a friend. Someone he could trust enough to get him from the cellar during those nights and then put him back in the morning. Sirius was never the wiser.
There had been close calls, and on the few mornings he didn't make it back, he'd just tell Sirius, Dumbledore had sent him on another night with the wolves. He did whatever was necessary to keep Sirius out of harms way at all costs. He'd use his Wolfsbane once in a while, and would only drink so much of it to keep it from hurting. Never enough to fully contain his control.
"Remus," Sirius called from the other side of the door. "I didn't mean to get upset…I'm just…we…I…" he stopped. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to lose it. I just worry about you…I can't be with you anymore on transformations for when you work with the wolves." Remus cringed, that wasn't even the reason anymore. "And I miss those times…they were some of the best of my life…the war is messing with my mind…just so much to worry about…and with James and Lily…Remus please…I'm sorry."
Remus couldn't help the small smile that slipped on his lips, Sirius floundering for words was rather amusing. And he typically said the cutest things when he was lost for words. "Can I come in?" Remus sighed and stood up opening the door.
"I didn't mean to slam the door…I just needed a minute." Remus smiled, "I didn't mean to get upset either, it's just…I don't like thinking it's my fault."
"It's not your fault, it's whatever monsters are out there doing this. And before you think it I am not calling you a monster because your not! I am saying those that choose to lose control are, there are things made now, places they can hide and keep everyone safe. No one chooses that life." Remus cringed inwardly, wasn't he doing just what Sirius said?
"Come on," Sirius wrapped his arms around Remus' middle and grinned. "I'm going to make dinner, then were going to sit there on that couch and watch terrible telly then once we are stuffed and bored were going to crawl into our bedroom and forget all about today."
"Sounds like a damn good plan." Remus smiled, pushing back all the worry and doubt that now filled his mind. He could deal with it later, for now his very attractive lover was pulling him towards the kitchen and with the look on his face he could tell dinner was not all that was on his mind.
