(Tag: Carry On, Hawkeye)
The guilt she feels is nearly overwhelming. Rationally, she thinks she feels this way because of the situation within the camp. After all, when he's the only able surgeon in Korea – and she knows they've looked far and wide for a relief surgeon – and she ranks him, she knows she's responsible for him. But there's something preventing rational thinking from bringing the relief she expects.
Maybe it's her nurse's training and her dislike of causing harm to other human beings.
Maybe it's the determined, single-minded way he's dealt with this crisis.
Maybe it's the only barely dented humor he still finds so easily during surgery.
Maybe it's something completely different.
Maybe it's, "You know those rotten things I've said to you, all those nasty little tricks I've played on you? I'd like to get well and do them all again."
Maybe it's, "Margaret Houlihan -- nurse, friend and all around good egg."
And maybe, though she hates to admit it, even deep within her mind, it's because he's a good guy, a good surgeon, and something of a friend.
