Hiruma's POV
Chapter 53... Explanation Time
"You were a project I was assigned to." I started, my tone cold and gravely.
Seeing his skin pale and his eyes widen was painful to watch.
"When I first found you, remember? I was always angry at you. I wanted to get the project done and over with. Then I noticed how..." I searched the gigantic thesaurus in the deepest depths of my mind for the right word.
"Sporadic? Maybe chichi even. You were, simply put, showing up sexier than I had expected, and it was wonderful. I had to build up so much self-restraint- not just for the assignment, but also so I wouldn't scare you off. I didn't know you would react so swimmingly to my endeavors." I smirked in memory of Step 5. He blushed, also remembering.
"That was very fun, especially with an angel as petite as yourself. Afterward, it was even harder to control myself. I was entranced by you. Remember when we fooled around in the locker room? I had already started falling, Sena. When you met with Riku, Mamori, Wakana, Mizumachi, Kakei, Shin, Sakuraba, I was always twitching angrily, jealously, because you were so natural around them, completely relaxed and naive. Around me, it seemed like your guard was always up, even when you didn't realize." I lost some of my posture under his unrelenting gaze.
"You don't know how much it pained me to have to leave you that day." I whispered. "I really didn't want to leave you. I had to. We had only been together a week, though, so I trusted that you didn't actually like me more than the physical relationship I had built us around. I don't know how much you might have or have not suffered when I wasn't there, but I know I was damning the assignment every minute I was away." I clung to the vague hope that he had been in pain when I was gone.
"I was really happy when you came back. Our first time was amazing. Spectacular! And every minute since, I have been overjoyed that you chased after me." I stepped up to Sena and wrapped my arms around him, hugging him close.
"I'm sorry for not saying this before. I'm sorry for all those times I left you insecure. Please trust my word when I say this," I pulled back and cupped his face. "Sena, I love you."
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Don't breathe just yet...
