Esha Napoleon: LOL Oxa is a safe choice to root for. Not only is she awesome but she would so totally win. Spike is just uh…well useless really. EternalxInsanity: That's a pretty safe prediction…one can hope for the best but in this case, hoping might not do much good.
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"I was named after a Metallica song" Amber said plainly while skimming down Cooper's iPod which was in a loading dock for his gigantic high-def speakers, "did you know that?"
"Sweet Amber" Cooper answered automatically, watching her from his spot lying on his bed as she skimmed down the songs on the St. Anger album and clicked it so the beginning guitar riffs started up.
"Yes, sir" Amber sighed in exasperation while leaving the stereo and hopping onto Cooper's bed to crawl next to him, "Metallica meant a lot to my daddy and Mommy. Back when my old house was just Daddy's cabin in the woods that he lived in with Mommy when she felt like it, he had a box of CDs he kept under the bed, and one time when Mommy got in a huge fight with Uncle Mark she stomped back in the house and made my dad show her all his CDs, and he put on the Black Album for her…they found 'their' song off that album."
"Oh do let me guess…" he snickered knowing Mindy's highly artistic, mushy, and romantic nature, "Nothing Else Matters."
"I can't listen to it anymore…" she shook her head with a frown, "even though they never talked about that song with me. I never knew Mommy and my daddy liking each other. He was always so mean to her."
"I know" he scowled in disgust, "and things haven't changed much for her, now have they?"
"No" Amber shook her head with a sigh before moving her long blonde hair behind her and resting on his arm, "my middle name Rose came from Sleeping Beauty. Mommy is Sleeping Beauty, and they called her Briar Rose to hide her from the witch, so that is where my middle name came from."
"I thought Mommy loves roses?"
"She does" Amber nodded stiffly, "Buy her roses she will love you forever. James bought her purple roses once back when he was lying to make her love him, and she cried. He killed Aunt Trisha so he went out and got her that bracelet she always wears, the pink blankie she sleeps with, cookies, and all those roses…she saved a few and keeps them in a frame"
"Mommy's favorite color is purple, right?"
"Yes, sir" Amber nodded with a smirk, nudging him, "Why? You wanna show-up Dad?"
"Please" he rolled his eyes and snorted, "The only way I could show-up Dad is to kill him, and Mommy won't take too kindly to that." Amber's brow furrowed and she cocked her head at him.
"I don't like him, but Mommy says never wish death on someone. So I don't want Daddy to die, I already lost one."
"I never had one" he hissed and again Amber's brow furrowed.
"Uncle Mark is a terrible daddy…but Daddy is a good daddy too. I just hate him for Mommy because he hurts her."
"He hurt you too, Ambs!" Cooper snapped, "He hurt fucking all of us"
"But Mommy told me Daddy was not Daddy…"
"And you believed her?" he raised an eyebrow as Amber got up and skimmed down his iPod again, looking for her mother's band to notice that he had all 187 Stratusfear songs.
"You really like Mommy's music, don't you?"
"She's talented as hell, don't you think?"
"Yes" Amber nodded with wide eyes, "but not even Mommy knows there are six alternate versions of 'Bring Me to Life' that you can download legally…"
"I got my hands on Mommy's demo CDs, have you heard them?"
"Are you high?" Amber turned to him with a raised eyebrow, "She's my mommy." He snickered at her for a moment before shaking his head.
"You've got some mouth on you for a six-year-old, you know that?"
"You've got some sad life for a man Mommy's age" she countered just as quickly, obviously joking but still it was shocking to hear from her. Amber sniffled a bit before playing 'Snow White Queen', noticing a strange look on Cooper's face as it slowly went on. "This is the stalker song" she nodded stiffly, "Mommy's had very bad stalkers. Even my daddy stalked her a lot…she checks into hotels using-"
"Snow White" that response kind of freaked Amber out. She knew Cooper had never been with Mindy while she checked into a hotel.
"How'd you know that?"
"She told me" he nodded quickly, "This one's about getting raped too, like when fucking Mark-"
"That would do it," Amber sighed with a shake of the head, "Did she tell you about what she's doing with Daddy?" Immediately he sat up straight and furrowed his brow worriedly.
"What? What the hell are they doing?"
Without verbally replying, Amber left Cooper's iPod for his laptop, logging onto the Stratusfear widget with the secret code Mindy gave her before skimming down the unreleased songs and clicking a track called 'Lose Control'.
"What is this?" his lips pouted and he hovered over Amber as she pulled up the photocopied lyrics which were written in Polish and translated into English with a bunch of Mindy's obscure and adorable doodles on it.
"Mommy's next music video…she wrote the song when she was dating Daddy." Listening to the hauntingly slow piano and the sensual tone Mindy took (the words alone were killing him) it made him sick.
"It's about fucking sex-"
"Mhm" Amber nodded nonchalantly; "Instead of a porn movie they're having sex in the music video…" she was amazed at how red his face got and he shook his head angrily.
"Is he out of his fucking mind?"
"Nobody will see their privates" Amber shrugged with a slight smile like Cooper was insane, "it has to go on MTV, that's TV-14."
"He's fucking…" his voice died in his throat and he shook his head, "he's fucking nuts, he's insane doing that he's fucking forty-five! What the hell is he exploiting Mom to be? She's not just some video slut"
"It's HER video…" Amber said a bit weirdly, "People do it all the time"
"But they've got KIDS!" he shouted with a firm shake of the head, "What? Do they actually want you guys seeing that shit?"
"I don't care" Amber shrugged, "Mommy used to be a bikini model" she giggled a bit, "Why are you so mad?"
"Why am I…?" he nearly choked before barring his teeth at her, "He fucking raped Mom! Why are you NOT mad?"
"I don't like him at all" Amber defended herself slowly, "I'm not gonna shoot him with a gun though, Mommy loves him."
The shill orgasm cries disguised as long, belted operatic notes made Cooper sick at the end, what was Mindy even thinking?
"What's this even about?"
"Stealing Daddy from Uncle Mark" Amber snickered, "She called Uncle Mark 'Mary' and Daddy a 'lamb', HAH!"
"So what is this?" Cooper shrugged nastily, "Her victory march? Dad's a fucking bastard to her and doesn't deserve her. If it weren't for me he wouldn't have fucked her in the first place! That was MY idea that should have been ME!" Amber's eyes got very wide after that.
"Cooper…" she held a hand over her mouth, crawled on the bed, and tried very hard to disguise her laugh, "Are you in love with Mommy?"
He stared at her for a second before dropping his eyes and saying nothing, almost curling into his own little world before running a hand through his hair.
"If you see that goat, can you kick it for me before it fucks my shit up?"
"But Mommy will not be happy-"
"So blame it on fucking Dad! Say he told you to do it! Obviously he doesn't give a fucking shit about YOU has he even said anything to you since coming back? No! All he's done is fucking bone Mom and wrap her all the fuck around his god damn finger so next time he feels like abusing her one way or the other she'll think it's him! Don't you get it?" he shook her shoulders slightly, "He's JUST like your birth father! Only worse!" Amber gasped, "Because he's gonna fucking kill Mommy one of these days because he doesn't fucking deserve her. He used her for his convenience and once he's bored of her, that's it! No more Mommy for us, we'll move right along to the next one! This is how he WORKS, Amber! He does something so fucking horrible to Mom that it makes her on the verge of suicide before being like this all over again and reeling her back! Give it a fucking week he'll hurt her again! He doesn't fucking love her, he never did! He's using her like a fucking Barbie!"
Staring at him with wide eyes, Amber dropped her gaze to the floor and left the room.
You don't remember my name…I don't really care. Can we play the game your way? Can I really lose control? Just once in my life, I think it'd be nice. Just to lose control, just once! [With all the pretty flowers] in the dust…
Mary had a lamb…His eyes black as coals. If we play very quiet, my lamb, Mary never has to know….Just once in my life; I think it'd be nice. Just to lose control, just once!
If I cut you down to a thing I can use, I fear there'd be nothing good left of you.
…
Amber walked into the kitchen to see James hugging Mindy from behind and whispering into her ear as she tried to mash up bananas for Elizabeth in lieu of actually buying baby food. She had a fear of the processed shit in the jar poisoning her babies (schizo thing of course) so all her 'baby food' she insisted on making fresh. He seemed to have a case of Roman hands and Russian fingers as she giggled loudly apparently conversing with him about something hilarious (to them at least).
"No but seriously…" James frowned while nestling his nose into her neck, "Why do they call it an asteroid when it's outside the hemisphere, but call it a hemorrhoid when it's in your ass?"
"Why the fuck would I know?" she spun around and placed her hands on her hips with a shrug, "YOU'RE the expert of things in their ass between the two of us, so" he gasped and pinned her to the counter, shaking his head in astonishment and going to come back with something witty when she scraped some banana with her thumb and stuck it in his mouth and he sucked her finger before leaning down to kiss her. Her arms wrapped around his neck and Elizabeth started to fuss, so reluctantly James held a finger up before lifting and gently bouncing Elizabeth until she was soothed. Continuing to mash the bananas and scrape them into a cute little bowl, Mindy suddenly looked puzzled and craned her neck to face him. "Can vegetarians eat animal crackers?"
James howled with laughter before kissing her temple and hugging her with his free arm. Elizabeth seemed excited about the mashed bananas though James and Mindy were too busy throwing retarded questions at the other and actually pondering them.
"Do you ever think you've drank the same water twice?"
"EW!" she wretched over the sink and shook her head fearfully, "I'd hope not!"
"Why are there flavored condoms?"
"You're asking ME?" her eyes widened as she let James place Elizabeth back in her highchair and grabbed a little spoon to start feeding her manually when James sat on the counter and pulled her onto his lap as she spoon-fed Elizabeth. "I dunno, we've never used one I can't exactly defend that point very well, now can I?" he nodded along admittedly, "You have to use one when you fuck a guy, don't you? I mean, guys don't get wet naturally-"
"That's why you use lube, sweetheart" he sniggered while giving her hair a kiss. She nodded and continued to feed the baby before folding his hand in hers and pouting her lips.
"Baby"
"Hm?"
"Do you like it better with guys or girls?" He took a deep breath and furrowed his brow for a moment.
"Well…" he cringed, "I'm a bit biased now"
"Oh please!" she waved him off with an eye roll, "If I were to wear a strap-on you'd be SO fucking for it-"
"Was that a serious question?" he grinned and began sliding his hands down her sides slowly, "Because I remember you selling me sexual favors in exchange for that god damn goat"
"I don't have one, moron" she rolled her eyes before looking him in the eye confusedly, "You're not serious about that, are you?" she giggled at the look in his eye, "You'd seriously let me fuck you like that?"
"That is…" he exhaled with a smirk while running his fingers through her hair, "if YOU'RE comfortable"
"I'd fuck you any day of the week, you just gotta promise to fuck me right afterwards since the dick isn't real" she grinned as his lips covered hers in a kiss.
"Deal. Let's find one to my liking."
"Now?" she giggled as she finished feeding Elizabeth and he nodded with a pout. "God!" she laughed meekly and covered her mouth with her hand, "Alright, we'll go get one…" she grinned as he started to laugh excitedly and grabbed the keys off the counter as she lifted Elizabeth and kissed her, wiping her mouth with a napkin. "Is there a particular color you would like?" she rolled her eyes and took his hand while holding the infant.
"You like purple"
"But its going in YOU, darling" she laughed at herself in disbelief that it was coming out of her mouth when they walked right by Amber, and once they stopped walking James smiled weakly at her and Mindy handed Elizabeth off only for a moment to James before bending to touch Amber's cheek. "What's wrong, baby?"
"Where are you going?" she asked disappointedly, making the married couple exchange glances before white-lying.
"The store" she replied simply, looking Amber in the eye and running her fingers through her hair, "Is something the matter?" Amber could only drop her eyes and shuffle her feet, and James frowned too.
"Is there anything you would like us to bring back for you?" he offered kindly though was spurned by Amber.
"Amber" Mindy frowned and shook her head at her, "What's going on? What's the matter with you?" Again Amber could only shuffle her feet, so sigh a sigh Mindy placed her hands over James's chest and gave him a soft look, "Why don't you put Lizzie Bear in the car and I'll come out and meet you?" Though he felt like someone just stabbed him in the heart, he nodded and they kissed before he left with the baby. Shaking her head in dismay, Mindy's hands went to her hips and she became incredibly cross.
"What?" Amber tried to play innocent, but Mindy clearly wasn't taking that shit for a second.
"I don't know what kind of GAME you think you're playing, or stunt you're trying to pull with Cooper, but-"
"But-"
"Amber Rose!" immediately the child went quiet, "I don't give a damn WHAT you think he's done wrong, he's your fucking father-"
"NO HE ISN'T!" Amber screamed and stamped her foot, "He's LIZZIE'S daddy!"
"Lizzie doesn't fucking scorn him when he did nothing wrong"
"But-"
"Amber don't you fucking 'but' me!" she NEVER spoke this way to her or any of her children for that matter, so Amber immediately fell quiet from fright, "HE is the man who's raising you and loves you JUST as much as he loves Lizzie!"
"I'm not stupid, Mommy" Amber shook her head while touching Mindy's burned face, "I know he did this to you"
"His body did it, but it was not Daddy, I don't know how many times its going to have to be explained to you. It sounds to me like someone's been filling your head with nasty thoughts and I don't fucking like it one bit. Daddy loves you all WAY too much to deserve that shit after what we've just been through, alright? Don't you think we've gone through enough fucking shit in our life, Ambie?" she dropped to her knees and pulled Amber into a tight hug, "He loves us…and he's too good a person to be treated so bad by you-"
"But Cooper…!" Amber swayed waywardly and again Mindy pinched the bridge of her nose, "He's in love with you Mommy, more than Daddy"
"Daddy and I love each other more than anyone in the world, baby" she shook her head slowly; "Cooper and I never had a relationship. He loves the IDEA of loving me, but I do not think he gets the full picture or all the responsibility that comes with me, I mean…" she didn't want to say this, but cringed, "He's my age and look at the difference in where we are in life. As perfect as we get each other, Daddy and I get each other in ways Cooper does not get us. He's going through a very rough time, and I need you to please please please do Mommy a favor and stay out of Cooper's room"
"I told him about your music video" at first Mindy's face went white, and then she shrugged. "He got really mad."
"Well…" she took a deep breath and curled her lips in, "when he becomes a rockstar one day he can do whatever he wants with his music videos. Daddy and I are making one together, and I, who actually worked my ASS OFF for what I have now, believe that I indeed have say in what I do with my artwork. Thank you."
"But Mommy…" Amber sniffled and hugged Mindy tight worriedly, "Daddy hurt you-"
"He did not" she assured gently while kissing the top of her head, "In fact…" she smiled and pet Amber's hair, "What would make Daddy REALLY happy is if you ran up to him and gave him a big kiss when we come home, alright?" she rubbed her cheek with her thumb, "Its okay if it takes you a little longer to forgive him…but just try not to make it so obvious, alright?"
"Yes Mommy" Amber nodded in defeat and gave Mindy a kiss on the cheek, "You're beautiful, Mommy."
"Hee!" Mindy squealed before giving Amber a huge kiss on the cheek, "You're twice as sexy. And Daddy and I will be back soon, okay?" she warned her quickly on her way towards the door, "Remember what I told you!"
"Hurry back, Mommy…" she gulped and glanced towards the stairs, almost worried if Cooper would come down at that very moment.
"Go play with Julie and the girls if you're uncomfortable" Mindy called while lingering in the doorway, "I love you, Ambieloo…and so does Daddy."
"I love you too" Amber nodded while flipping her hair and walking off to hopefully find Julie.
…
"Sorry…" Mindy frowned upon entering the car, leaning over the console, and giving James a big kiss.
"Don't" he shook his head dismissively to make her not worry before her hand squeezed his and she twisted her torso to see Elizabeth smiling at her in the back seat.
"HEY, Lizzie Bear! Are you excited to go with Mommy and Daddy to the sex store? Huh? Are you gonna even know what we're looking at?"
"I'd hope not" James took her hand and kissed it, "I just didn't want her in the house with Cooper."
"He freaked the hell out of Ambie like nothing I've ever seen" her eyes widened and she could only shake her head while running a hand though her hair, "She actually looked scared to talk to me, like she was worried or something."
"He better not be bullying her into sharing his fucked fucking Oedipus feelings."
"I hope not…" Mindy frowned before returning a kiss to his hand and squeezing it even tighter, "I've never actually fucked someone before so you have to kinda guide me through it"
"Gladly" he nipped her earlobe and smiled warmly, "And I'll treat you incredibly well afterwards."
"You always-"
"These sexual favors are extraneous. I still have to fuck you somehow every day" she started laughing, but he kept going, "as promised in my wedding vow."
"I'm gonna bake cinnabons when we get home"
"Even though I already know that's an aphrodisiac for guys, I fucking dig it every time I smell it."
"Because it's an aphrodisiac, dummy" she giggled when he pulled the car out of the driveway and gave the house one last glare, particularly Cooper's bedroom window.
"You should fuck me in his bed" he nodded; seemingly more chipper at that idea, "send the little fucker a message-"
"Hey!" she paused, but thought it over and didn't really know what to say. After witnessing what he was attempting to do to Amber, she actually found herself entirely on James's side, even though she was there to begin with, now she'd make it officially known. Whatever his intentions were he was truly crossing the line for what was acceptable and what was just plain psychotic. One Mark was enough.
