SPENCER'S P.O.V
"Hey"
"Hey Kirsten"
"Why are you sitting over here by yourself?"
"Maddy and Ash went to grab something and I really didn't want to go sit with them"
I nod over at the table where Kyla, Aiden, Glen and the parents are all sitting.
"Do you mind if I sit"
"No of course not"
"I was hoping you'd say that"
I force a smile as she sits down next to me on the edge of the pool.
"Maddy told you what happened didn't she?"
How did she know that?
"What?"
"Spencer you're a horrible liar it's written all over your face"
I really need to work on my lying.
"Yer she told us this afternoon"
"And what exactly did she tell you?"
It's probably best I shut up.
"Not much she just..."
"Spencer don't go all weird on me"
"She said you turned her down"
When I look over at her she starts shaking her head.
"She'd just caught her boyfriend hooking up with another chick and she was wasted"
"I know"
"I didn't turn her down Spencer I just... I just couldn't do that to her"
I can't believe how quickly my opinion of Kirsten has changed.
"You're a good friend"
"No i'm not because now she hates me"
"Kirsten she doesn't hate you"
"I called her today to apologise and she hung up on me"
I start flicking the water with my foot.
"This is weird"
It is a little.
"You don't even really like me and i'm sitting here telling you all my problems"
"Kirsten I don't not like you"
"Really?"
She doesn't believe me.
"Yer you're not so bad after all"
"Thanks... I think"
We both start laughing.
"Kirsten I know this isn't any of my business so if you want me to shut up I will"
"Spencer it's fine"
"I don't get it"
How do I say this without insulting her?
"From what i've been told you used to hook up with Ashley all the time when you were wasted"
"Let me guess you think i'm a slut and you can't believe I turned Maddy down?"
"No I just don't get it"
"Spencer i've been friends with Maddy for a really long time that's how I met Ash"
Why are we talking about this it's weird?
"When I was with Ash we were just fooling around and it didn't mean anything"
That's what I like to hear.
"There were no feelings involved, I knew she didn't like me like that and I knew I didn't like her like that, but with Maddy it's different"
"You like her don't you"
"I ahhh"
She so does.
"You're not going to believe me but i'd honestly never thought about her like that 'til last night"
"Really?"
"Yer we're friends Spencer and she's been going out with you brother for ages so I just never thought about it"
"You need to tell her what's going on?"
"How do I tell her what's going on when I have no idea?"
I have no idea.
"Maddy's not into chicks"
Yesterday I would have agreed with her but now i'm not so sure.
"She was just wasted and I was there"
When I look up Maddy and Ash are walking out of the pool house.
"Here they come"
"This is ridiculous I can't believe i'm nervous"
"You'll be fine"
Ashley quickly jumps in the pool splashing Kirsten and I.
"FUCK ASHLEY"
At least Maddy's laughing.
"SPENCER CARLIN WATCH YOUR MOUTH"
"Ashley you're so fucking dead"
"Spence did you not just hear what your mother said?"
She's so cute.
"Hey Kirsten"
"Hey Ash"
"Hey"
Okay that was awkward.
"Hey Maddy"
"Okay you're sexy ass needs to get in the pool"
"Ash?"
She quickly stands up pulling my shirt up and over my head.
"The water will be good for you"
She starts undoing the strapping on my ribs.
"Okay doctor Ashley"
When she's finishes undoing my bandage she quickly throws it on a chair.
"You can keep your board shorts on"
"That's very nice of you"
"I'm a nice person"
I slowly push myself up and slide into the pool.
"It's cold"
"No it's not"
MADISON'S P.O.V
"Spencer's got Ashley so whipped"
I owe her a massive apology.
"They're perfect together"
"Yer"
I'm standing in the water next to where she's sitting.
"Kirsten I..."
Why's this so hard?
"Maddy let's just forget about it"
That's not what I want.
"No"
When I look up at her she seems surprised.
"I'm sorry I was a bitch"
"Maddy it's fine you've got a lot going on"
"I should have let you explain"
"It's fine"
"Okay Kirsten you need to stop being so nice to me"
She staring at the water.
"Maddy this is really weird"
"I know"
I think it's best I just tell her everything i'm thinking.
"Look this whole mess has been driving me crazy all day"
"It must be pretty hard seeing him so soon"
I'm not talking about Glen.
"I don't care about that asshole"
I really don't.
"He's been pissing me off for months now and last night he did me a favour"
She's not believing me but it's honestly how I feel.
"Kirsten you're the one who's been driving me crazy"
I can't tell what she's thinking.
"I get why you stopped things last night but I wouldn't have regretted sleeping with you"
Did I really just say that out loud.
"Wait what?"
"I'm not saying i'm gay or anything like that but last night I wanted to sleep with you and it's freaking me out because that's the first time i've thought about being with another girl"
"I ahhh... I umm... I don't know what to say"
"Kirsten I don't want things to be all weird between us that's why i'm telling you this"
I think i've made everything weird.
"I owed you and explanation and I know it was a pretty shitty one but it's the best i've got"
I'm still trying to figure everything out.
"I'm still trying to get my head around everything"
"Okay"
This isn't how I pictured this conversation going.
"Are we alright?"
"Yer of course"
I'm never this nervous.
"Do you want a drink?"
She's smiling.
"Ash has a bottle of vodka if you're keen"
"Of course i'm keen"
Maybe this barbeque won't be so bad after all.
