Disclaimer - The characters of this fanfiction, as well as the 'Sons of Anarchy' world belong to Kurt Sutter, with the exception of Boo Trager, who is an original character created by me. I make no profit from this work.
A request.
How the story would have played out, if Jimmy had managed to rape Boo.
Rape – Chibs tries to bring his girl back to him.
It had been three months since Jimmy O had raped her. It had been a brutal attack and Jimmy hadn't held back at all, he'd been rough and violent, had torn Boo open and cut her face to shreds.
And he'd made Chibs' watch. He'd had his cronies pin the Scotsman's arms behind his back and force his head up so that he had little choice but to watch as Jimmy raped the woman he considered to be his wife.
Any time Chibs' tried to break free or closed his eyes, Jimmy took his knife to Boo and as a result, she now had raw, deep, healing scars on her cheeks that matched his own.
She'd spent the entire attack screaming, kicking and trying to break free. But she'd been unable too; Jimmy had been far too strong. Worst of all she'd continued to reach out to Filip during the entire ordeal, had desperately tried to get to him, begging him to save her despite knowing what would happen if he tried too.
Chibs tried to save his girl though, oh how he tried… he fought against the men who held him and things only got worse for Boo for his efforts.
The rest of the club had burst in soon after Jimmy had finished, taking out both the Irish prick and his cronies. They'd saved Boo and Chibs both from being murdered by Jimmy but they'd not been on time to stop Jimmy raping Boo.
Since then Boo had been… gone. There was just no other way to put it.
She was like a zombie. She just sat and stared off into some distant place, almost never speaking, barely eating. When she slept, she was plagued with nightmares so she often just remained awake long into the night. She kept as far from Chibs as possible and often slept on the couch.
It would take Chibs hours to coax some food into her, even longer to get her to shower. And she was reluctant, so reluctant to let him touch her, in any way. Sometimes she let him hold her hand of stroke her face, but mostly she jerked away from his touch as if it burned, pushed him away. She rarely even let him kiss her.
The whole thing was heartbreaking for Chibs, crushing him, destroying him. He couldn't stand to see Boo in such a state and nothing he did seemed to make it better. And it didn't help that every night, without fail, he was there again watching as Jimmy raped her and cut her face open.
He wasn't going to give up on her though, not his beautiful wee Hen. He was going to bring her back to him…
"Boo…" Chibs whispered as he knelt beside the bed and tucked stray curls behind his girl's ear. "Talk teh me Hen…" he added, gulping softly, his eyes swimming with tears.
Boo's eyes focused on him for just a moment, but then she looked away again, shifted slightly so that he was no longer touching her.
"Please just… come back teh me Hen." Chibs begged. He didn't dare try and touch her again. "Please… I need yeh Boo… I love yeh so much and I can't stand teh see yeh like this." He wept, tears tumbling down his cheeks. He didn't bother to wipe them away.
Boo shifted again at that, turned her head and buried it in her pillow so that she no longer had to look at Chibs.
Chibs gave a soft groan of despair at that, raked his fingers through his hair. Every time he thought he was getting through to her, she just crawled into herself a little bit more.
"Boo…" Chibs whispered, determined not to give up. He stood up and perched on the side of the bed, put his hand on Boo's shoulder, smiled softly when he didn't shrug it off. "I know yer in there darlin'… come back teh me." He said. He risked pressing a kiss into Boo's curls and smiled again when she didn't shudder or push him away. "Don't let Jimmy take yeh from me Boo… then he's won." Chibs hated that although Jimmy was dead, his body at the bottom of the ocean, he was still screwing with his life, still tormenting him.
Boo made a muffled sound then, it sounded somewhere between a sob and a mutter of 'Filip' but Chibs wasn't sure which it'd been.
"Talk teh me darlin'… I'm right here lass, I'm not goin' to let anyone hurt yeh every again." He promised. His words sounded hollow and he knew it but he didn't care, they needed to be said. "I hate that Jimmy did this to you Boo and I'm give anythin' teh take it back, I would, but I can't. Nothin' I can do or say will put this right Boo but you have it in yeh to get past this, to move on and be okay again, I know you do… Yer so strong darlin'! Yeh came back from a fatal overdose and you can come back to me now Boo… please"
When Boo said nothing, Chibs sighed again and nodded his head, rubbed at his aching temple. He'd pushed his girl enough for one night. He pressed another kiss into Boo's curls, then stood and headed out the bedroom.
"I'll be in the living room if yeh need me darlin'. Just call or come out and see me…" he whispered, before disappearing down the hall.
Hours passed. Night fell. Chibs had a few guilt ridden wanks to pass the time. He'd much rather be inside his girl, but he knew this was an impossibility and may be for some time.
The Scotsman was flicking through the TV channels and considering going to bed when Boo appeared in the doorway. The sight of her shocked Chibs so much he literally leapt out of his chair.
"Boo? Darlin', what is it?" he asked as he took a few cautious steps towards her. She had a fearful and yet determined look about her face and her eyes were dry, free from tears. "What do yeh want lass?" Chibs asked when Boo said nothing, only hugged her arms and looked down at the floor.
"You…." Boo whispered, voice low and cracked from its lack of use in recent months. "I want you Filip." She said a little louder.
"You have me Boo." Chibs replied. "I'm right here darlin' and I'm not goin' anywhere."
Boo nodded her head at that and then looked up at Chibs once again. The Scotsman was elated to see she was smiling for the first time since the attack.
"I want to be yours again." Boo said as she held out her hand to Chibs. "Make me yours again Filip… take me back."
"Boo… darlin'…" Chibs muttered as he stared at Boo's hand, lost and confused. "Are you..? Surely you don't want me to…"
"I do! I want you, I need you." Boo whimpered, tears springing to her eyes. "Jimmy had me in a way that only you ever have before. He forced his way inside of me and he stole me away from you. I want you to take me back Filip. I want you to claim what's yours."
"I don't want to hurt you lass… if you're not ready…"
"Then I'll ask you to stop, I promise." Boo insisted as she waggled her fingers impatiently. "I feel Jimmy all over me Filip, no matter how hard I scrub. I know the only way to get rid of him is to have you touching me and holding me and making love to me again…please Filip, I need it." Boo begged.
"Ok." Chibs said, finally nodded. "Ok… but you stop me if I hurt you, you tell me if you don't want me to do something."
"I promise." Boo nodded.
Chibs took her hand then and led her back into their bedroom. He lay her down and slowly peeled off her clothes, making sure to kiss and caress every part of her that Jimmy had maimed. Boo was stiff as a board at first, but she insisted that Chibs continue. Finally, when he traced his fingers over her crow, she started to relax, to respond to his touch.
It took a lot of kissing, coaxing and touching to get Boo wet and even then she wasn't anywhere near as wet as usual. Chibs used some tingling lube just in case she wasn't wet enough. There was resistance when he pushed inside of her and he had to ease into her so slowly it was like time itself stopped. But they got there in the end.
He stilled when he was fully inside of Boo, kissed her tenderly on the lips and caressed her scarred face with his knuckles. Chibs gave a little jerk of his hips and practically chuckled in delight when Boo groaned and tilted her head back in pleasure, when she wrapped her legs around him and suddenly seemed very wet indeed.
He moved slowly and with little force, occasionally paused to kiss Boo, to caress her face and body. His efforts however, paid off because soon Boo was whimpering and begging him to go faster. Soon she was quivering with pleasure; soon she was crying out and clutching at the sheets below her, lost to her orgasm.
Just the sight of Boo cumming sent Chibs over the edge, knowing he'd gotten through to her, knowing he was close to getting her back and that she was on her way to recovery.
"You okay Boo?" Chibs asked as he pulled his girl against his chest and stroked her side.
Boo nodded her head but didn't speak for a long time. Having Chibs make love to her had had the desired effect; she could no longer feel Jimmy O on her, her tormented mind was beginning to clear and for the first time in a long time, she wasn't thinking about what'd happened.
"Thank you." She whispered after a while. She pressed a kiss to Chibs chest and then buried her face in the crook of his neck. "I really needed that…."
"No problem lass." Chibs said as he stroked her hair. "You sleep now darlin', I'm not goin' anywhere."
Boo nodded her head at that, attempted to drift off. Chibs wrapped his arms around her and stroked her arm softly, occasionally pressed a kiss into her curls.
Just before sleep claimed Boo, she spoke up.
"I'm going to come back to you Filip… I'm going to be your beautiful wee Hen again." She promised.
"Yeh always were my beautiful wee Hen." Chibs assured her. "Nothing will ever change that."
That night, both Chibs and Boo slept soundly, neither won plagued by nightmares.
So yeah… got a little carried away with that one. Anyway, this is how the story would have played out, had I taken it in this direction.
After this, Boo continues to improve. There are still times when she is haunted by what happened, when she has to push Chibs away or when she weeps for no reason, but she refuses to let herself be beaten by what happened.
She never becomes quite herself again. She is a little more withdrawn and a little more subdued. She does however, become much more her old self again once Tig and the others are released from jail.
Chibs hides a lot of the cartel stuff from Boo because he doesn't think she can handle it. When Boo eventually works everything out, she's mad at Chibs but she understands why he kept things from her. She promises she can handle it and gets him to tell her everything.
Boo doesn't write after the attack and it takes over a year before she is able to put pen to paper again. Her work has become much darker but this becomes her way of coping with what happened. She puts all her negative emotions into her writing.
When Dawn appears she makes some snide remarks about Boo and touches on the subject of rape without realizing what Boo has gone through. As a result Boo and Tig have a major falling out which is not at all helped when he gives Dawn money.
She patches things up with Tig after he steps down as SAA but when he accidentally kills Pope's daughter to avenge Clay, they become distant again. She knows Tig is slipping away into a very dark place but she can't seem to bring him back.
When Jax becomes president and Chibs SAA Boo tells Chibs she's finally ready to try for another baby.
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