Lacey stirred herself awake in the middle of the night and slowly moved out of the bed turning around slowly looking to see Justin was there. He slowly moved and opened his eyes and saw her standing there and raised up fast thinking something was wrong.

"Whats wrong? You okay?" he asked

"Yeah, I'll be back" she said leaving for the bathroom

Justin reached over to the side of the bed and turned on the light while moving to sit against the headboard waiting for her to come back. After a short moment she walks back out again laying down on the bed then moving to her side again with her back to him.

"You okay?" he asked reaching to her stomach and rubbing slowly

"Yes" she said the sniffed lightly

"You sure?" he asked

"Yeah I'm fine" she said

"Did I hurt you earlier?" he asked

"No" she said moving to her back and looking him

"You want to talk about it?" he asked

"Not really" she said

"Baby you need to start talking to me, this isn't good. Look what just happened. Its not good for the baby and maybe if you talk about it more about it, it'll help. Just tell me how you feel" he begged

"How I feel?" she asked

"Yes I want to know everything you feel. If you want to talk about this or what happened I'm here for you baby you know that" he said kissing her forehead

"I know baby. I just...I really hate myself for what happened. I hate I didn't try harder to get him off me. I tried I swear to you I did did but when I would move I would just feel more pain than I was already feeling. That last time I thought my wrists were about to break. It really hurt, he hurt me so much. The night I lost my virginity to you didn't even hurt like that did" she frowned

Justin frowned and rubbed her stomach and stayed silent in case she had more she wanted to say

"I just feel like its my fault' she said tearing up

"No, its not your fault" he said

"But I had every opportunity to tell you and I didn't" she frowned

"Because you were scared. Heath is a big man and when he says something he usually means it. You cant keep blaming yourself sweetheart if I was you I'd be scared to say anything too I completely understand how you feel" he said "plus if I was a girl, and if I were you I'd be hot as hell" he smiled

She giggled and moved to her side covering her face blushing making him smile at how cute that looked.

"I dunno I might look funny if I was a girl, don't you think?" he asked looking at her

She laughed

"I don't, you'd look lovely" she smiled

"With a beard?" he laughed

"Well you'd have to shave that" she said

"Wait are you saying I look like a girl?" he asked

"Nooo" she giggled and he laughed

"Those gay jokes were getting pretty mean" he frowned

"I know, I'm sorry baby" she frowned

"Its okay cause no one was aware I was obviously with you. We even made that obvious" he smiled

"I know its weird how no one knew" she said

"You look tired" he said running his hand through her brunette hair

"I am, I dunno why I slept all day" she frowned

"Well, lets get back to sleep maybe you will feel more rested" he said moving over her and turning the light off and moved back to his side and the two began to get comfortable again.

"You are sure I didn't hurt you when I was ontop of you earlier right?" he again asked just wanting to be sure

"No you didn't hurt me or the baby" she said

"Okay" he whispered "love you babe" he said holding her close while she laid on his chest

"I love you too" she said as she slowly drifted off to sleep and he soon followed


Lacey woke up and got out of bed and was really hungry since she didn't eat the night before. She made a stop in the bathroom then quietly left the bedroom and walked into the kitchen looking around and found the sandwich she wanted in the refrigerator still. She smiled and took it out and opened it up and began to eat it. As she was eating Heath came out of the bedroom he was in and looked at her at the table and smiled lightly closing the door catching her attention and she looked up at him.

"Hungry?" he asked smiling

She covered her mouth that was full of the sandwich and nodded and laughed through her nose

"You alright today?" he asked

She took a moment to finish chewing up what she had in her mouth and swallowed.

"Yeah I'm fine" she said as she took another bite "I'm starving though" added as she chewed

Heath sat down across from her and looked at the table.

"Um Justin told me...about...what you think. Its not your fault, its mine. You don't have to keep blaming yourself, you did nothing this entire thing was my fault" he said

She continued to eat her food but was eating less than she was.

"I am so sorry I did it. Honestly, I am, I wish I could change it now so that I didn't do it. I know I hurt you, I hate that I did. I love you so much and never in a million years would I ever wanted to hurt you, ever. You shouldn't hate yourself, you should hate me" he said

"That's the thing, I don't hate you" she said

"You should"

"But I don't"

Heath showed a small smile then went back to being serious again when he saw her cringe.

"What happened?"

"Cramp" she said

"Are you okay? Want me to get Justin?" he asked

"No its gone" she said

"You sure?" he asked

"Yeah"

"That's what he also told me, what I suspected all along, that you do hurt when I am around you. I can honestly quit and move away from you guys and you never have to see me again. I just want everything to be okay for you two...you three" he said

She teared up "Heath, no I don't want you out of our life. I still...I...we had been best friends. You were the best friend I never had. And yeah sure what happened was unforgivable and was bad but I dunno I still want you in my life, I want you to be my friend but its so hard now" she cried

"I know" he said

Justin walked out of the room rubbing his eyes and then took them off and saw them at the table together. Justin noticed she was in tears and couldn't help but think the worse.

"The fuck you do to her now?" Justin asked

"he wasn't doing anything" she said

"Why are you upset?" he asked

"We're talking" she said "Sit, we should all talk together" she said

"Sorry" Justin said looking at Heath

"I understand" Heath said

Justin sat down next to Lacey.

"So yeah we really need to make this work because honestly I don't want Heath out of our lives but somehow we need to all start getting along"

"I thought we were" Justin said

"Are you?" she asked seriously

"Well...yeah, I am trying" Justin said

"He really is" Heath said

"You are telling me the truth right?" she asked

"Yes" they both said

She cringed and looked at her food and Justin put his hand on her lap

"Whats wrong?" he asked

"Nothing just a cramp"

"Because of me, Lace, seriously I need to go and leave you guys alone its just hurting you" he said

"No! Heath I love you okay? Yeah I said it I love you, you were like my big brother and I loved you before you did what you did. It hurt me and yeah I hated you for a while but something in my heart still wants me and you to still be friends and I want that too" she said tearing up

"Lacey its hurting you" Heath said

"Not having you in our life would hurt me more" she said

"Maybe he should leave" Justin said looking at her

"No!" she said

Wade walked out and looked at them

"He doesn't have to leave, its not his fault I am having pain...oh shit" she whispered rubbing her stomach

"I think its both of us" Justin said

"When we're around each other, Lacey are you scared something is going to happen?" Heath asked

"Yes" she said

"Like what?" he asked

"That you are going to snap and punch him again" she said

"I'm not going to do that" Justin said

"You said that the last time and it looked like you were about to just now" she said

"I just...I don't like when he's alone with you." Justin said

"This is what I'm talking about! This...this...whatever this is. We need to get something together so we can trust each other being alone together" she said feeling the stress return again

Justin remained quiet for a few moments looking at the table.

"I don't know that I can" Justin said looking at her

She threw her hands up then ran them through her hair and gripped her hair tightly and sighed and felt more intense pain but her hormones decided to take over her mouth at the moment.

"You know what? Then maybe we shouldn't be together either" she said standing up and pulling the ring off her finger and throwing it into his lap and walking into the bedroom slamming the door.

Justins heart dropped into his stomach and he began breathing heavy as he sat there shocked. He felt as if he was going to be sick or something. After a moment he reached to the ring but it dropped to the floor so he leaned down and picked it up. As he did Lacey walked out of the room now fully clothed and carrying her purse heading for the door.

"Lacey?" Justin asked as he stood up from the chair and followed her

"Where you going?" he asked

"Anywhere but here!" she said storming out the door and Justin continued to follow her even though he was only in a pair of shorts

"Baby, no please don't leave! Please I love you please! I am sorry please just come back so we can talk about this" he pleaded

"We've talked enough" she said walking to the elevator pushing the button

"Lacey stop please" he begged "the baby don't need this stress" he said

"Maybe you should have-" she stopped and cringed leaning over

"See? Baby please just come back with me" he begged

"No, I've had enough" she said lightly as she stood back up and decided to take the stairs instead and Justin followed her there too

"Lacey? Please don't do this" he begged as he began to tear up

"Leave me alone Justin" she said as she continued to walk and began to cry herself

Justin was scared to follow her fearing she would pick up her pace and fall down the stairs so he ran back to the room to get some clothes on. He thought that he would have just enough time to catch her downstairs before she left anywhere. He really didn't think she would actually leave anyway. As soon as he threw some clothes on over his shorts he ran back out of the room and down the stairs not finding her on the way down. He walked around the lobby trying to find her but no sight of her so he took his search outside again not finding her.


A/N: :(