Married to the Mob?
Ch 50: Dead inside?
Christian and Ana entered the park. He took her there because he needed to talk to her. It was more quiet than Fifties.
"Okay...why did you bring me here?"
Christian sighed. He hated to do this but she had to see what life would be like with him. "See that bench?"
"Yes, what does that…"
"It looks like a normal bench right? Where mothers can sit while the kids played."
"Yeah." Ana replied.
"My mother brought me here one day...when I was fourteen," he began speaking as he looked at the bench. "She told me the facts of my life, of my legacy. I learned everything that day, my father never told me any of this because according to him when he died I wasn't a man yet. So it was up to my mother to tell me about the business. I became a man right here, on this very bench. My mother told me everything about our family, and what we do. She told me the history of every Grey man and what they did to survive, and what we must do to protect the family," he said looking at Ana as she looked at him also. "She said we must never show our weakness, we must never be vulnerable with our enemies, or we'd lose everything. She also told me I was the future of this family, and I must protect the family, whatever it takes. My life changed that day. I learned who I am and what will always be expected of me."
Ana stood there as she couldn't believe his own mother would do such a thing to a child. But then being around her she could see that she wasn't your normal everyday loving mother. Grace was to be considered the head of the family until Christian would take over. But Ana herself wanted to change that for Christian. She went to comfort him but he rebuffed her.
"I'm sorry…" she said, to Christian who pulled away.
"Stop...what are you sorry about?" He said walking away from her then facing her. "It's my life and who I am."
"But I do know you and…"
"No, you don't know me, Ana. That's what I'm trying to tell and show you. You don't know me at all. There is a code that I live by everyday, that I will always have to live by."
"I can't believe that…"
"Yeah well you're living in a fantasy. Do you really think I can skip off and live in a suburban fairytale with you? Why would I want to do that? Why?"
I stood there listening to myself tell Ana about my life and what was expected of me. I knew part of her thought she could change me. Living with me would make her life miserable we already proved that while we were together. She could never accept who I was and what I did for a living. So I had to deter her the best way I knew how. And it hurt like hell to do it.
"Because, I think you'd give anything to live a normal life." Ana answered.
"I would be bored to death."
"Christian, you would never be bored with me. I think given a chance we would be great and you do too." She explained and moved closer to him.
He shook his head. "Wow, you are really easy to manipulate, you know that?"
Ana looked at him shock. Really? Easy to manipulate huh?
"You see only what you wanted to see." Christian smiled to her, "You are so accustomed to people evolving to your needs all out of their great love for you, Ana."
"Are you telling me that I imagined you feeling anything for me?"
"Yes! I wanted you to believe exactly what I wanted you to believe, that way I could control you and you were very hard to control." His tone intense.
Her eyes looking into his as she replied "You're lying."
"You think so?" He asked her. "Are you telling me you don't like to change people? It took me only a few seconds to size up what you did for the grease monkey, turned Romeo, Jose Rodriguez, your crowning achievement. I knew exactly how to play you."
Ana was in shock to hear Christian say that to her. Yeah Jose was a struggling artist but she never thought of him in that way. Ana found him homeless and helped him along the way.
"What?" Ana bellowed. "I never saw him that way and he always wanted to get away from the life he had."
"He had lot of potential. You though he had a lot of potential, Ana. I have just as much potential as I let you think I have. You can't change me, and you know what. I don't want to be changed."
Ana was still denial. "Yesterday's kiss...I know you felt something, you can't fake that kind of thing."
Christian still looking her in the eyes, replied, "Oh...no, you can't fake it. Your a beautiful girl, you are, I'm a guy, it's called lust." In his nonchalant attitude.
Ana was mortified when he said that. There's no way that what we he was feeling was pure lust! It couldn't be.
Please tell me that Christian is lying to me. He says it was all lust, not love that he was feeling for me. I've always been good at reading people how could that…
Ana pulled hair her back in frustration as she said, "That was not what it was! That is never what it was, Christian!"
I'm so close! I know I am. I was getting through to her, so I laid it on more thick to her.
"Oh wake up! Hell, Ana, what did you think was going to happen? We were thrown together, lying in bed every night, side by side, barely clothed. We're human."
"So, that kiss was just a bunch of sexual frustration?" Ana asked disgusted with that whole terminology.
"Well it certainly wasn't a romance novel that you're writing in your mind." Ana's eyes narrowed at him.
"Have you ever thought what it would be like living with me? Have you? Let's say if we stayed together, you want to pursue your career as a doctor, how long before your friends say 'Nice marriage, she saves lives and he takes them.' Every time when I'm out of the house you're going to want to know what I'm up to, but you're not going to really want to know. And what if we have another argument, are you just going to keep a knife every room to defend yourself?"
She briefly closed her eyes as she said, "Christian, I know you would never harm me in anyway. I know because we'd be together, we'd have a family."
"Right." he said as also said, "And what if I brought our son down to this very bench, and I told him what my mother told me...you really want that for your children?"
Ana held her head down as she thought about everything Christian just said to her. She had no idea it would be that way, the way he described. She looked back at him into his eyes looking for that last hope.
"You think you could bring me into your world, I would pull you into mine, and it would destroy you."
"Okay...I got the message," as she sniffed. "I had this foolish romantic idea I suppose, that there was something good in you. That my feelings or what I started to feel could might actually provide a way out I guess."
"What? You thought you could save me?" he asked her his arms crossed. "Get over yourself. I don't want to be saved." Christian expressed with his hand on his chest.
"That's not what I was trying to do...I just wanted to be fair. To us and our marriage. I didn't want to really quit, that's something I don't do," she said as she wiped at her runny nose.
He laughed as he looked away from her for a moment. "Let me tell you something, sometimes it's just better to get out while you can."
"You're such a coward," she replied. "But you're right you know. When you kissed me I guess I could have been anybody.."
Christian smirked at her as he remembered that kiss. Too bad it couldn't of turned into more. Ana wiped at her tears as she spoke to him.
"So you have a nice life, and um when you get the papers, you can send them over and I will sign them." Ana walked away from him.
Finally! She saw the light or lack thereof. But why in the hell does it hurt so fucking bad? I tried not to think about the pain in my chest. God, it was so damn hard letting her go. Seeing her walk away from me like that just about killed me. But I had to stay strong. I had too.
I walked back to Fifties, it wasn't far from the park. I went inside and straight the the bar. The barmaid poured me a drink as I shot it down my throat as I felt the burn of the alcohol run down my throat.
Mia, his sister saw him sitting at the end of it as she walked his way. She could tell he was hurting. He looked up and saw her behind the counter instead of in front.
"Hey what are you doing here?"
"Just forget about me for a minute. You look like hell, Christian." His sister stated.
"Thanks, Mia," as he patted her hand.
"No, I mean it. What happened?" She asked concerned.
"Oh nothing much. I just had to do the hardest thing I've ever done in my life."
I broke my wifes heart by telling her I basically never loved her or had and feelings for her. I'm sure by now she's running back to Jose as we speak.
But he changed the subject quickly. "So what are you doing here?"
Mia began to explain what she was doing as she begged him to listen and hear her out. She told him that even though he always tried to protect her, she wanted to be independant now. She wanted to live life on her own and she got a job there at the club. He told her that was a big decision to make, but she assured him that's what she wanted.
She didn't want to go back to their mom, she wanted nothing to do with their business. That right there made him very happy. He told her good for you and to get as far as she could from their life. Mia was saving herself from that life and that's all he wanted for his little sister. Ethan helped Mia get the job at the club so she could have her own money, she explained that their mother couldn't touch her now.
Mia got him another drink as Christian also told her that he knows she learned a lot about their family, it doesn't mean she has to be apart of it. He told her he wanted her out while she could. Mia also wanted him to get out as well but he said it was too late for him. That he was more involved than what the papers said and what he lead on. That when you do certain things it changes you and not for the better.
Mia didn't care what her brother has done in the past, that she will always love him no matter what. Christian was glad he brought her back home so she could learn the truth and be free from that life. He looked at the time and didn't realize how late it was. He gave his sister a hug before he started to leave.
Just as Christian was about to go out the door, Ethan came in and was beat up. Mia helped him into a chair saying his name.
Elsewhere in Kate's apartment there she was in bed with Jose. They both came to the realization that they wanted each other. Jose had basically chosen Kate whom he wanted to be with. They were kissing and Kate began to kiss his chest. However; Ana came into the door shocked to see them in bed together.
"Oh my God! I'm so sorry!"
"Ana!" Kate shouted from the bed.
"No...Im sorry. I shouldn't be that surprised...I'll leave!" as she started out the door only Jose shouted for her.
Ana was already out the door and he hurriedly got his pants on to catch her. He was able to stop her in the hallway.
"Ana wait," he asked, pleading with her. "Let me explain."
Her back to him as she said, "Jose, please, there is nothing to explain. Just don't."
"I'm sorry, I didn't want you finding out this way. I wanted to find you and tell you everything that has happened."
Kate came rushing out saying, "Ana, we never wanted you to find out this way. I wanted to tell you the last time we talked but…"
"Kate, please, just don't. I know you have wanted him from the beginning, I should have known the moment I turn my back you'd go after him."
Jose spoke up, "Ana it wasn't like that at all." He looked at Kate and asked her for a few minutes alone. Kate didn't want to leave him at first but went ahead anyway.
Ana told Jose he didn't have to do this but he felt as if they needed to talk. Kate told them to go ahead and use her apartment. As they walked back into the apartment Ana said that she came to speak with Kate. But seeing them in bed together, made her realize it was indeed over between them.
Jose and Kate had gotten together while they thought she was visiting her dad in Europe. Jose confessed to Ana that he did have feelings for Kate. In fact he started having feelings for her after she married Christian. But when Ana wanted him back, he figured he owed it to themselves to give it another try. But they failed miserably. Jose never intended on her walking in on he and Kate.
Back in the club, Ethan just came in the door, beat up. Christian had Mia to go get some ice and some alcohol to deal with his cuts and bruises. When Christian tried to help him, Ethan turned to Christian blaming him for the thugs that beat him up, saying he got the message to stay away from his sister.
But it wasn't Christian who sent the thugs on Ethan. He'd much rather Mia hang out with Ethan than anyone else for that matter. Seeing Ethan take up for her when Christian tried to keep him away made him realize that Ethan wasn't so bad after all.
When Ethan realized Christian was telling the truth he asked him, "You really didn't set this up?"
"No. But I know who did," he started to leave but then told Ethan not to say anything to where he went. "You watch your back for now on, and if anyone messes with you again. Tell me." Christian left the bar, he was pissed.
Back at the Grey mansion, Grace was talking to one of their goons who did the job for her. The goon said he took care of Ethan as she requested. Grace didn't want Ethan anywhere near her daughter poisoning her mind against her. She didn't want him taking her daughter away from her. Christian arrived hearing that last part.
"There you are!" Christian said as he looked at his mother. She was surprised to see him there. "Good job, mother!" Then looking at the thug Christian asked, "Was it you?"
Grace pretended she didn't know what her son was talking about. "Christian, stop!" As he shoved the man's shoulders.
Christian went on the attack, as he pulled down the man's jacket, trapping him in it while he punched him in the gut! He shoved the man on top of Grace's desk as he started punching with his fist. He grabbed the man's mouth twisting it as he shouted, "I will kill you! Answer me! Was it you?" he gritted his teeth, "Tell me!"
As Christian was fighting with the thug that worked for his mother, Jose and Ana were talking about their relationship. Or what was their relationship.
"I don't even know why this bothers me so much I mean I left you…" Ana replied.
He'd just put his shirt on, "Look, Ana, I didn't want you finding out this way…"
"I didn't know it was going to happen this way either, but then I should expected this since I have been lying to myself this whole time," as she looked at him.
"It just happened…"
Ana looked right at him, "Jose, it didn't just happen. You two have been living together this whole time. She has wanted you from the beginning when she met you, it was only a matter of time before her games, especially when she sent me off to Christian."
"Don't blame this on her!" Jose shouted.
"Oh please, she made it clear from the very beginning she wanted you!"
"It's not like she stole me from you, I mean we weren't even together," Jose replied.
Ana blew out a breath. So now the truth came out! She had no idea how to take that.
Have they been together this whole time and I didn't see it? What an idiot I have been!
"I can't believe I felt sorry for you for walking in here and you saw us together. You're the one who left me remember? You didn't ask any questions, you just left thinking I would be here waiting for you."
"I'm sorry Jose...I still love you though."
He sighed. "Yeah well, you have a funny way of showing it."
It hit her just then. He and Kate were both right. I should have been more honest about my feelings and now everything was a mess!
"You're right, Jose. I'm so sorry. I have hurt you in more ways that I can count," Ana started crying again. "I guess I'm getting what I deserve right?"
"It's not like that. I...I...just couldn't wait anymore." Jose explained.
"For so long, I was convinced you and I belonged together no matter what happened. I know we tried to get back together but it didn't work. Nothing worked. I feel all alone right now."
"You're not alone, you shouldn't feel that way."
"But I do...I don't know how I'm supposed to act or feel anymore. I just know one thing...I used to love you…"
They realized that their relationship was over. There was no going back to what they once had. Jose has moved on with Kate and was finally happy.
Meanwhile back at the Grey mansion Christian had pinned the thug that beat Ethan onto Grace's desk. He was threatening to kill the guy if he didn't stay away from Ethan and Mia. Grace was trying to get Christian to stop this but he wouldn't listen. He was enraged.
"I'm giving you the same warning you gave, Ethan. You stay away from both of them. You stay away from all of them you hear me! Or I will put you in the fucking hospital!" Christian grabbed the guy and threw him to the floor.
Grace shouted, "I've never seen you like this!"
Christian looked back at his mother, "Get used to it! I've got a warning for you to mother!" He looked back at the thug. "Get out!" Christian shouted, at the man as he stood. "Get out!" Christian commanded.
He was panting out of breath as he watched the man leave. Grace was furious with her son.
"What is this? You don't talk to like this to me!"
Christian was angry shouted to his mother, "You don't control me!" as he pointed his finger at his mother. "I mean it. Don't you mess with me or you will be very sorry."
"Are you threatening me? Because if you are…"
"Be proud mother. I learned it from you! You always said to to your enemies in the only language the'd understand."
"So...now, you're saying I'm your enemy?" Grace cried out, scared of her own son.
"Leave Mia alone. I will not let you bully her into staying in this family!"
"She's my daughter! I don't want to lose her!" Grace yelled.
Christian calmed his voice a little. "Wake up, mother, You already lost her. For once have some dignity and just let go."
Grace was crying as she tried to reach out to her son. "What is happening to you? What have you become?"
I laughed staring back at her. Really? She had no idea why I'm acting this way? It's all because of her and what she taught me while she sat me on that bench and told me how my life would play out.
"I've become you, mother," he said choked up. "I've become you. Are you satisfied?" Christian replied, getting choked up.
Grace didn't know what to do with her son's behavior.
I can't believe my son is acting this way towards me. After everything I have done for this family, And now he turned his back on me because of that Steele girl.
"I would never turn on my family!" Grace yelled.
"You destroyed this family, mother. You did this all by yourself!" Christian shouted.
"No! Everything was fine! Anastasia Steele has destroyed all of this. Every since she come into our life, nothing, nothing has been the same! Because of her I've lost one son and I won't lose another to her!"
Christian went after her as he flew to her, he was so close he could count all of her teeth. "Don't you talk to me, about loss. If you ever speak about Ana that way again, I won't be held responsible for what I do to you." His voice desperate.
Grace was terrified of her own son. She has never seen him like this, ever! Her eyes bore into his as his did also.
Speaking of Ana, she was at Kate's apartment with Jose as they were ending their relationship. He had just chose Kate whom he wanted to be with.
"You don't care about me anymore, Jose."
"I will always care about you, Ana."
She turned to jose as she said, "I know but it won't be the same."
"Look, Ana, we gave it our best shot. We did. I think we would have ended like this somehow or another either way. We really tried to work things out after you left Christian, but it just wasn't there anymore."
"Is it there with Kate? Do you love her?" Ana asked while wiping tears away.
Jose stood there for a moment because he knew how he answered that it wouldn't be good either way. But Ana stopped him saying she didn't want to know. She just wanted him to be happy no matter what.
"I know that Kate really loves you...I just hope that you really feel something for her."
"I do. I love her, Ana." he said back to Ana.
She apologized again to Jose as she kissed him on the cheek and hugged. Kate walked in and thought they have patched things up as she stared at the two of them hugging. They pulled away from each other looking at Kate. She started saying she was sorry and that she didn't mean to interrupt their reunion. Only Jose told Kate that it wasn't like that at al.
"I know what I saw, Jose."
"Well, you're wrong. Ana was about to leave."
"I was just saying goodbye to him. I was on my way out."
"On your way out?" Kate questioned.
"I really hope you guys work out and that you're happy," Ana said looking between them and left.
Kate stood looking at Jose. She wasn't sure what to think anymore, especially with all the back and forth stuff.
"Was she telling the truth. You two are officially over?" Kate asked.
Jose walked up to Kate, palming her face as he kissed her. She kissed him back.
"What does that tell you? I'm in love with you, Kate."
Kate was in shock, but she grabbed Jose as held onto each other. "I love you too, Jose," Kate said back.
Meanwhile Christian had just told his mother to never speak ill of Ana again. The two of them were arguing over Mia leaving the family as Grace blamed Ana for it.
"You can't mean what you just said!" Grace gasped out.
"Try me mother. Try me."
"You're not going to take my daughter away from me."
"You are not her keeper. She deserves to be who she wants to be, I never got that chance, Elliot never got that chance, because you took it away from us! But not Mia. I'm going to make sure she gets away from you as far as she can and maybe she will find someone to love and not be afraid that you will come along and destroy it! I know that I will never have that, that's my life, but I will be damned that you take that away from her!"
"When are you going to stop punishing me over, Ana?" Grace yelled.
"God damn you! I warned you!" Christian angrily tossed everything from the end table to the floor.
He left the room as Grace chased after him. He slammed the front door shut behind him as he left in his car in a rage, peeling out. Grace was stunned at her son's behavior. She walked back into the den as she looked at the mess he made.
Ana got back home. She walked into the back door that led into the kitchen as she saw her brother and sister in law in a lip lock. She announced she was home. They hugged her and told her welcome home. They tell her they missed her so much. Rick asked how dad was, Ana doesn't let them know she didn't go to see him. Ana just said dad was dad as Rick knew their dad pretty well.
"Did you get time to relax and sort things out?" Abby asked.
"Things kind of sorted themselves out."
"What happened?" Rick asked.
"Jose is with Kate now."
He's surprised by that fact. "What?"
Ana explained that she kind of saw it coming. That when they tried to get back together, so much has happened that it was impossible to get back where they were. So while she was gone he took up with Kate.
"What about, Christian?"
Ana looked at her sister in law and said, "I'm really the furthest thing from his mind right now."
Don't be too sure of that Ana. In fact Christian was back at Fifties after arguing with his mother. He was sitting there remembering his last conversation with her at the park. He had told her that she was very easy to manipulate...he rehashed everything he had said to her in his mind.
How in the world did things get so bad? It wasn't that long ago I was happy. I'm in love with the most wonderful girl in the world, though she didn't love me back. Even know she was starting to have real feelings for me, I just couldn't keep up the facade of us being together. It hurt too much knowing she didn't have the same feelings for me.
Now my mother is trying to run my sister's life and keep her away from Ethan, the new guy she was seeing. I didn't want mother to ruin her life too that way she ruined mine.
Mia went up to her brother asking what had happened. He explained that their mother wouldn't bother her again. That he broke a couple of pieces of furniture to prove his point. Mia tried to cut him off the alcohol but he told the guy to keep them coming.
This frat guy comes up behind Mia telling her he needed some pretzels. He called her chiquita, she told him she will be there in a minute but he grabbed a hold of her. Christian was suddenly off his stool as he pushed the guy. He almost got into another brawl with four frat boys that was until his sister yelled that he is Christian Grey and to back off asking them if they knew who he was. The men backed away as Christian was upset that Mia used their name like that.
"Christian, you're acting crazy! If you don't get it together you're going to end up dead!" She yelled.
He stared at her saying, "Do you think I give a damn? Huh? Mia, I'm already dead." His tone harsh.
A/N: Hey there peeps. I know that you are waiting patiently to see Christian and Ana get back together. I am too! Just a little while longer. But wasn't it awesome to see Christian in Mob mode?! I mean the way he handled that thug who beat up Ethan. Plus Kate and Jose finally together! That was awesome!
I wanted to say a special thank you to my fantastic readers. You all are the ones who gave me the inspiration for this story again. We are at ch 50 and this story only has about 13 chapters more to go. Now, I was going to make this one a sequel, I still have plans for it, but, I have another story in the works. So the sequel for the Mob story will be put on hold for a while until I get the other one posted. Thanks again for your reviews, this story has over 100 reviews since I've reposted it! Wow! The information on the new story is below.
It's called Fifty Shades or Not. Here is the summary for it:
Carrick was the President of the family's company Grey Enterprises; he was ready to step down and have Christian take over. Ana worked as his assistant. Upon her exit with the company; Christian made a deal with her to have a non romantic working relationship. Along the way Ana dates a prominent Executive;however problems ensue. Will Christian renege on their deal? Will he have to?
