There is no excuse for why I've been gone. Just school.
Read on!
"Hey, tree! Tell my dead sister that it's all cool that she freaks the fuck out of Dave. The stupid bastard deserves every second of it!"
I waited patiently next to the tree and put my ear to it.
Of course I heard nothing, but my dear sister didn't know that.
"I know you can't actually hear the tree you weirdo." My sister said with her arms crossed.
"Well maybe I would be able to hear it, if you weren't back there nagging me." I said smartly.
She rolled her eyes and I continued to mess with the tree. Maybe if I continued to waste time with a dumb tree, she would end up doing it.
I heard her tapping her foot impatiently and I tried not to smile.
"Alright! Come on, lets go." She caved.
"Oh my God, really?" I turned to her in shock.
"Well you're not gonna stop otherwise." She said. I pushed myself from the tree, but not before kissing it and giving it a nice 'thank you'. That's right. I thanked a tree.
Thug life.
We continued walking, me a little bit faster than her out of excitement, until we finally got to Dave's house.
I ran to the door and knocked a billion times.
"I KNOW YOU'RE IN THERE DAVE! YOU MIGHT AS WELL COME OUT!" I yelled.
In mid knock, Jason opened the door rubbing the sleep out his eyes, "Shut up, Jade. Dave's not here. He's at the night of illumination thingy."
I smiled evilly and chuckled, "Even better." I muttered to myself. Fuck Dave! The chance to freak out Jason was priceless.
"Jason! Dear idiotic, unclaimed, brother! Look who I found walking through town square." I moved out the way so he could see.
He looked bored and shrugged, "You woke me up from my nap to look at air?" he asked.
"No. I woke you up from your nap to look at Becca." I pointed behind me.
He ran his hands over his face, "This is low. Even for you. If you wanna waste my time, fine. But don't use our dead sister as an excuse to waste it."
"1. There is never a low that's too low for me. 2. She's right here." I turned around to find nothing.
I blinked, "Aw come on!" I threw my hands in the air.
"You're such a bitch." He muttered, closing the door.
"Yeah?! Well you're a dumb ass for taking a nap at 7 o'clock at night! Naps are for old people!" I yelled.
"You take naps." Becca said behind me.
"That's different. I'm Jade. I can do whatever-wait-," I turned around and glared at her, "Did you forget the plan! You were supposed to freak out our family!"
"Correction. Dave. Jason didn't do anything to you." She began to walk away.
"Um! Correction correction, yes he did. His stupid ass sat there while I was being beaten to death." I followed closely behind her.
"Correction correction correction, he didn't know what else to do. He was an 18 year old boy who had just lost his mother."
"Correction times 4, he was not a boy! He was a man! The term 18 means adult! And so did I!"
"And look what happened to you. You steered to drugs."
"Correction-"
"Fuck the damn corrections!" she interrupted.
I squinted at her and ignored what she said, "Correction," I said loosely to spite her, "I went to drugs because Klaus broke my heart."
"God, don't say it like that. You sound like a priss." She made a face.
"Because Klaus dumped my sorry ass."
"That makes you sound lame."
"Because I let him leave me." I tried again.
"That one sounded better." She smiled and I returned it.
"And to be honest, my spiral was perfectly normal for a girl my age."
"Drugs are bad." She shook her head.
"Who are you? My therapist?" I said like a smartass.
"I kinda liked April. She was chill."
"That's because you weren't the one being questioned and you definitely weren't the one that was being held prisoner in a rehabilitation center." I crossed my arms.
"You're right. I was just the dead girl they were quizzing you about." She said.
"You know, for someone who's trying to make me feel less guilty, you suck at it." I glared at her.
She shrugged, "Just trying to play Devil's advocate."
I paused, "I have a question."
"Shoot."
"Is the Devil like…my father or something?" I made a face of concentration.
She paused too, "Mmmm…no no. Wyatt's your dad. Maybe…like, you're creator…I guess."
I squinted my eyes and continued walking, "That's some creepy shit. What if he reaches out to me or something?"
"Run." She suggested.
"You can't outrun the Devil. The dude has people." I whispered the last part and looked over my shoulder.
"Like who?"
I shrugged, "Ghosts and shit?"
"No I don't think so. I mean. There are a ton of released ghosts right now and none of them are bothering you."
"Correction!"
"SHUT UP!" she yelled.
WIWGFY
"Where are we going?" I asked as we walked around the corner and Becca opened the door to some creepy room.
"This is the Lockwood Cellar. Stefan, Elena, and some other girl are here."
"Okay, why am I here?" I asked as we walked down a lot of stairs. Gross. I hated stairs.
"Because this is your chance to torment Stefan." She smiled.
I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion, but when I opened the door, I smiled evilly.
"Well, well, well," I started, "What do we have here?"
"Ugh!" Stefan groaned.
My smile widened.
The strange girl that Becca mentioned walked up to me and held out her hand, "Hey, I'm Lexi. I've been waiting a long time to finally meet you."
I stared at her hand for a few seconds. Hm…a blonde. She seemed chill. Then again, so did I at first glance.
"I don't bite." She whispered playfully.
I shrugged and shook her hand, "Careful. I do." I smirked.
She chuckled, "I'm fully aware."
"Who are you?" Elena asked Becca.
"I'm Jade's dead sister." She smirked at her.
"Oh my Gosh. It's really nice to meet you." Elena shook her hand.
"Likewise. Don't take this offensively or anything, but you have a terrible tendency to purposely get your ass in dangerous situations. It makes you look stupid."
That was all she said before she walked away.
"She's definitely your sister, Jade." Elena watched her.
I shrugged, "I guess the sexy looks run in the family."
Elena gave me a look and I turned back to Lexi.
"So what are you? Ghost or something?" I asked.
"Yea. I'm Stefan's dead best friend. I'm sad to see my spot has been taken." She pouted at me.
"Meh, you can have him. He's been acting really bitchy lately."
"Guys can't be bitchy." Rebecca stated from her corner.
"Sure they can." Me and Lexi said at the same time.
"I like you." We said at the same time again.
We both chuckled and turned our attention back on Stefan.
"So what's going on?" I asked, intrigued.
"We're trying to get Stefan's humanity back." Elena said.
I nodded, "How?"
"Torture." Lexi smirked.
I sighed, "The best kind. Is it working?"
"Shut the hell up, Jade!" Stefan yelled at me.
"I'll take that as a solid 'yes'." I smiled.
Elena sighed from beside me, "We're running out of time."
"You've got to get me more." Lexi stood up straight.
"I can't." Elena shook her head.
"No! No... Not until I break through." Lexi stared at a sweaty Stefan.
"I can't, Lexi. They have the necklace. They're going to close the door."
"What necklace?" I asked.
I was ignored.
"The necklace," Lexi whispered, "Ok. That necklace. At least tell me you remember how you felt about that. You found it hurting your darkest time. And you said, when you made it through, that that necklace represented hope." Lexi told him firmly.
"Damn, I've been out of the loop." I muttered.
"I'll say." Becca commented.
Stefan chuckled darkly "Ironic, then, that it's about to be blown to pieces."
Elena and Lexi both looked down, hopelessly.
I raised my hand, "You know, I can just seduce him." I offered.
"No." Elena said.
I put my hands up defensively, "Just a suggestion."
"Bad things happen when you seduce people." She stated.
"Like what?" I asked.
"They become obsessed with you!" Elena exclaimed.
"Don't tell me you would be jealous. Just one touch. That's it!"
"No, Jade!"
"Alright. I guess we can sit here and be lame-o's."
I took a seat in a corner next to my sister while Lexi continued to torture Stefan.
Becca turned to me expectantly.
"What?" I asked.
"You don't want to get in on that?"
"Not much I can really do without using seduction." I shrugged.
"There's a lot you can do!"
"Like?"
"Punch him a few times." She smiled evilly.
I stared at her, "You know it's times like these that I really see how related we are."
She stared blankly at me, "What's that supposed to mean?"
"Are you sure you're not part demon? I mean, evil people say shit like that."
"No!"
"Yes they do. That's like…basic demon training."
"Oh and you would know?"
"Of course! Being a demonic succubus and all." I smiled.
"Well aren't you badass when you're not feeding regularly." she said sarcastically.
"I still don't get how it's a problem."
"It's pretty simple." She shrugged.
"It's really not." I shook my head.
"You don't eat right, you go crazy. You die; your emotions get turned off."
"Why do I go crazy?"
"It's like having a balanced diet. When you don't eat right, it comes back to bite you in the ass."
"What about the death thing. That makes no sense either."
"When you die without your necklace on, you die for good. If you die with your necklace on, it will cause problems."
"I've died before though."
She shrugged, "I don't own the fucking manual. All I know is, you can't keep doing that. It makes you crazier every time."
"How?"
"You become evil."
"I'm already evil."
"No, like…Klaus times a billion evil."
"Damn." I whispered.
"Yep."
"Can I turn off my emotions on my own? Like, by will?" I crossed my arms. It was kind of cold in here.
"Yeah, but please don't do that."
"Why? It seems fun."
"Because then you'll end up like him!" she pointed at Stefan who was writhing in pain from Lexi's torture.
"Yea, but I would love to kill people and not feel guilty about it." I smirked.
"Oh my God. It's already starting. You sound ridiculously insane."
"What?" I asked innocently.
She shook her head and was about to speak, but she was cut off.
"I love you, Jade." Stefan called out.
"How sweet." I said, not really caring.
"So much!"
"Thanks."
"I can't live without you!"
"I feel so special, no really, I'm crying over here." I inspected my nails.
"And I'll buy you Starbucks for a week!"
I looked up immediately.
"A week?" I asked.
"Don't let him get to you!" Lexi said.
"That's all you got? A week?" Becca said.
"You're right, "I smiled, "A month, maybe."
"Okay, okay, okay." Stefan agreed.
"What? No, Jade!" Elena chastised me.
"Why? I like coffee." I pouted at her.
"You can't bribe her with coffee!" Elena yelled at Stefan.
"Well-"I started, but Elena cut me off.
"No." she gave me her serious face.
"But-"
"No."
"Elena-"
"Jade!"
"I-"
"Shh!"
"Really-"
"Uh-uh."
"Love-"
"Nope."
"Coffee-"
"Too bad."
"Bitch." I muttered.
She glared at me.
"Jade, please!" he begged.
I sighed, "Sorry, bunny, can't do. I've got my hands tied over here….and I don't feel like getting up."
He growled at me, "I knew asking you to help was a waste. I hate you! You were never my best friend!"
I rolled my eyes, "Oh no." I said in a monotone voice.
"And I hope Dora gets cancelled!"
That struck a chord in me. I got up swiftly.
"LISTEN HERE YOU INCONSIDERATE FUCKER! I HOPE YOU ROT IN HELL WITH YOUR FUCKING BALLS CUT OFF AND WRITHER IN PAIN AS THE DEVIL PLAYS THE DORA THEME SONG REPEATEDLY UNTIL YOUR FUCKING EARS-"
"He gets it Jade!" Elena tried to pull me back.
"DON'T HOLD ME BACK! LET ME DESTROY HIS ASS!"
Stefan smirked in my direction, which only made me angrier, but Lexi was blocking me from him.
"Just relax." She said.
I coughed a little and straightened my jacket before I turned away coolly, "You better be thankful your people were here, cuz I would've flipped yo ass like bacon."
"Bacon?" Becca asked.
"It sizzles." I said.
"So do eggs."
"Bacon tastes better."
She nodded, "Amen to that."
We all continued to watch Stefan silently as he begged Lexi to stop. The whole scene made me feel jealous.
I wanted someone to beg for my mercy like that. Beg until their lungs filled with blood and their heart stopped beating.
I smiled as I thought of the many ways to kill someone. The screams coming from their mouth as they begged me to stop. The blood seeping from every pore on their body. I was getting really horny.
"Um, Jade." Becca whispered.
"What?" I asked, a smile still on my face.
"Your eyes are red."
I blinked a few times and looked at her strangely. My fantasy drifted away.
"What are you talking about?"
"I told you, not feeding right does that kind of stuff."
I shrugged. I didn't really care all that much.
I was getting really bored and I lazily turned my head to the direction of Becca.
"You read my mind." She said. We both got up and dusted ourselves off.
"Well we would love to stay and chat, but this is boring."
"Then why'd you come?" Elena asked.
"Because I thought I would get a chance to torture Stefan, but you won't let me. Some friend you are Elena! Not letting me torture your ex-boyfriend. How rude of you." I gave her the hand and walked over to Lexi.
"It was nice meeting you, dude. You're cool."
She shook my hand, "Likewise. Take care of him, will you." She looked at Stefan.
"If by 'take care' you mean keep his ass in check. Will do, babe."
She chuckled and I saluted her before leaving them to do their thing.
After Becca and I left the cellar, we walked around the town for a while. There were a lot of sirens and people screaming.
I didn't care all that much.
"So if I don't eat right I turn crazy and if I turn off my emotions I turn crazy?" I asked.
"Yep."
"That's so stupid."
She put her hands up in defense, "I didn't make the rules."
I sigh and crossed my arms. We were walking casually in the street in a comfortable silence. I began to think about where Damon was. Maybe I should call him…make sure he knew I was okay and not freaking out.
"I'm worried about you, Jade." Becca said randomly.
I turned around to her, confused, "Why?"
"You're scaring me." She muttered.
I stopped walking and cocked my head to the side, "Is this about my diet? Because there's nothing-"
"No. It's not that."
"Then, what is it?"
"I really don't want you to lose yourself."
I chuckled at her, "I'm not."
She didn't laugh like I thought she would.
"Are you serious?" I asked her, "Becca I'm fine. Just because my eyes change colors, so what?"
"I don't want you to turn into what you think you are."
"What's that?"
"A monster." She whispered.
I shook my head slowly, letting her words sink in, "I'm not. I-I won't. I promise."
She held my hand, "Don't make any promises you don't think you can keep."
"Becca, I'm just a little…I'm a little…" I trailed, not knowing what to say.
"Lost?" she suggested.
I could feel my eyes filling with tears, "Yeah, I guess I'm a little lost."
There was a bench up ahead and we both took a seat on it. She took my hand and I gripped it hard. I didn't want her to leave me. It was moments like these when I really valued my sister as a person. She was more than just that. She knew me. Completely.
She didn't need time to figure me out. I didn't really have anybody else like that, except maybe Damon.
She was my only connection to a real family.
And I killed her.
"Don't cry." She said sadly. I didn't even realize I was crying until I saw a tear fall from my cheek.
"Can't help it, I guess." I shrugged.
"Don't cry. Not now. Not while I'm here. I don't want our last moment to be you crying."
I wiped my tears away, "You're all I have left. You were all I had. You didn't have to die. It was so unnecessary! Why you?! Out of the two of us, why you?! What did you ever do?!"
"Don't be mad, Jade." She looked away.
"No. I'm just trying to understand why. I need to know, because if I don't, I'll go crazy." I ran my hand through my hair.
"Sometimes, there's not really an answer." She shrugged it off.
"Maybe I'm just too much of a bad person, God decided to punish me." I chuckled darkly.
She turned her head back, "You're blaming God for this?"
I shrugged, "Why not. Isn't He the reason why all things like this happen?"
"Don't blame God. That's stupid."
"How's it stupid?"
"He saved your life, didn't He?"
"It shouldn't be his choice!"
"Maybe it wasn't."
"Oh fuck, you sound like you've met the dude." I rolled my eyes at her empathy.
"Blame something else then." She suggested.
"Like what?" I muttered.
"Blame good old fashioned luck. I was just the unlucky girl that happened to die in that car accident."
"I can't blame luck."
"Why not."
"Luck can't feel guilt." I muttered, irritated.
"You think God does?"
I didn't answer her.
"Why would he? He does stuff like that all the time." She continued.
I still didn't answer.
"Why should I be an exception?"
"Because you didn't deserve it."
"A lot of people didn't deserve it."
"It's wrong."
"It's moral."
"Fuck moral."
"Don't point fingers at someone else because you feel guilty that you killed me."
"Should I not feel guilty that I killed you?" I gave her an irritated look.
"I'm just saying that it's not bad to feel guilty. Hell! It's healthy. But if you're gonna feel guilty, don't blame God for your mistakes. You need to move on, Jade."
"I can't go on in life acting like it didn't happen." I said with attitude.
"You don't have to. You just need to go on in life accepting that it did."
"Stop sounding like Buddha." I made a face.
"Sorry, he kind of rubs off on you."
"You know Buddha?" I asked.
"I'm not answering that."
"Why not?" I asked.
"He told me not to tell people that I knew him."
I chuckled, "He's probably embarrassed of you."
She gasped, "Buddha would never be embarrassed by me! We're homies."
"Oh, so being homies makes it all okay."
"Hell yes!"
"You're weird."
"So are gnomes."
"Why are gnomes weird?" I asked.
"Because they have weird noses. It's like watching an eagle give birth." She shivered.
I laughed at her. Really hard.
I haven't laughed like that in a while. Eventually, she joined me.
"You're stupid." I laughed.
"I guess it's in the family genes."
"No. It must come from Dave's side of the family because I don't have that gene."
"Oh yeah, you just have ignorance."
"Ignorance beats stupidity." I said smartly.
"Buddha says otherwise."
"Stop talking to Buddha! He doesn't like you!" I exclaimed.
"On the contrary, Buddha doesn't like you."
"Of course he does. I'm Jade. I'm too likable to not be liked."
"That made no sense!"
"You're face makes no sense!"
"Your mom!"
"We have the same mom!"
"Oh yeah." Becca stopped and giggled, "I'm glad you're my sister."
"Ditto, kid."
"And I love you."
"Interesting." I smirked.
"I'm serious." She smacked my arm.
"I love you too." I smiled back at her.
"I hope you stay happy, Jade. Really. I want the best for you."
"Stop sounding like you're about to leave me." I made a serious face.
"And I hope that you and Damon stay together and you continue to sexually harass Alaric."
"Becca-"
"Because I love you, and I want you to move on with your life."
"Rebecca-"I tried again.
"Move on for me."
I didn't say anything.
"Please?" she pouted.
I nodded, squeezing her hand.
"I like Damon." She said.
"Me too." I said, not looking at her.
"Don't screw it up." She muttered.
I felt an empty space in my hand and I didn't want to look to see if she was still there.
Because she was gone and I didn't want to see it.
So I just squeezed the empty space and smiled a little, "No promises."
WIWGFY
I probably sat on that bench for a solid 30 minutes. I didn't really want to get up. I was feeling too…too….ugh.
If that was a feeling.
I was too ugh! I wondered if anyone else ever felt ugh!
My phone vibrated and I picked it up to check it. It read Damon and I sighed and looked at the sky before deciding if I wanted to answer it.
I should, I mean, he was probably worrying about me.
I slid the green button across my phone to answer it and put it to my ear, "I'm fine."
"I know." He sighed.
"Where are you?" I asked him.
"Lockwood caverns. Mason just disappeared."
"Did you guys get along?" I asked with a smirk.
I could practically see him rolling his eyes, "No."
"Did you find your weapon or whatever?" I scratched my scalp.
"I don't know. He disappeared before he could tell me what it was. There's this part of the cave that's blocked off to vampires and I can't see what's on the other side."
"Sucks to suck." I chuckled.
"Yep."
"Call Ric."
"I did. I don't know if he's coming. He's still pissed at me."
"You did kill him, Damon."
"I know." He scoffed.
"You should just apologize."
"I know." He said again.
I sighed and stared up ahead. I was so bored.
"Where are you?" he asked.
I looked around at the area and shrugged, "I don't really know."
"You don't know where you are?" he clarified.
"Nope."
"How did you get there?"
"Me and Becca were walking, she disappeared, and I sat on a bench and didn't move."
"Are you okay?"
"Yep. Just bored."
"I'll come get you." He said.
"No it's okay. I can figure it out."
"I'm coming to get you now."
"Damon its fine, do what you have to do."
"Where do you think you are?"
"I'm outside of town; I just don't know how to get back from here." I rolled my eyes.
"-You're here it's about time." I heard Damon say.
"That Ric?" I asked.
"Yea. Just stay there. I'll get you." He said.
I sighed and hung up the phone. Then I proceeded to completely ignore Damon and get up to find my way back.
I got back to town and looked around. Police were everywhere and there were people screaming. Tragic.
I searched for someone that could drive and take me back home.
WIWGFY
"Thanks, Jenny." I waved at her.
"You're welcome! Be careful next time! It's not safe to walk around lost in the middle of the night while people are being murdered." She chuckled.
I laughed at her, she was so nice. She reminded me of Jenna. Not just because their names were almost the same.
"Well have a good night!" I exclaimed.
"You too!"
She drove away and I opened the boarding house door and walked in.
I was dead tired and upset. I tried not to let today's events bother me, but I couldn't help it. I felt like my head was about to explode with information.
There was so much I learned about myself, stuff I felt better not knowing. It was easier that way. Could you even imagine…
Could you imagine being told that you were evil? Literally in every aspect of the word. I was evil. Dave was right. All these years, I thought he was just trying to put me down. He was. In my mind it didn't matter what he said because it was never true. That was how I got though all of it. If I just convinced myself that it was never true, it made everything easier.
But what was I supposed to do now? Knowing that every cruel word he said was true?
I got my phone and texted Damon, 'I'm home.'
He didn't respond. I went upstairs to my room and stripped. I needed to take a shower. Taking showers helped me think.
I turned the water on and got in. I just pressed myself against the glass walls and zoned out. Then halfway into it, I started crying. My breathing was rugged as I just stared ahead at nothing.
I wasn't sad…I was irritated. I was upset. I was just fucking pissed. And I was pissed I was crying. Like, seriously, Jade. Get a fucking grip.
That only made me cry harder. Have you ever tried to stop crying so hard that when it didn't work, you started to cry harder? I was a mess.
I sat in the shower, just letting the water cascade along my body. I stayed inside for a while, I almost didn't hear the bathroom door creak open.
I sniffled and put my hand on my neck in embarrassment. I hated when people saw me crying. Especially Damon.
I didn't look at him when he came in. He didn't do anything at first, just stared at me, but I was too pissed to care. I heard some shuffling and I lazily turned my head in his direction. He slowly pulled off his shirt and then his jeans and shoes. When he was naked, he opened the glass door and stared at my bare body.
He looked at my face finally, looking at my eyes. He took a step and crushed his lips to mine. I was vulnerable and he knew that, so he was trying to go slow, but I was too upset to go slow.
Our kisses turned sloppy and he moved his lips to my neck. Our breathing was erratic. It was then I noticed that we hadn't had sex in months. This was the first time in long time we were going to be intimate with each other.
I licked him and he grabbed my hips. He lifted me and leaned my against the wall, then slowly entered me. We both sighed loudly as if we've just found something important we lost. And it was almost like that literally.
He relaxed his body against mine before he continued and kissed me again. I wrapped my arms around his neck as he began to move again. At first it was slow, but then he sped up. Each thrust made me call out. I missed him so much. I don't know how I didn't fuck him for so long.
"Oh Damon." I moaned. He grunted in response and after a few minutes, we both climaxed.
My legs relaxed and I slid down to the floor with a slight smile on my face.
He took a seat next to me and we both calmed down. I ran my hand through my hair and kissed him.
I really needed that.
I think I'm going to throw a threesome in for all the people that want one. So if you want Jade and Brian to have a threesome, tell a sista.
SUMMER'S ALMOST HERE! THANK GOD!
