1. This is a Role Play between myself and RipJawWolfFang. I am role playing as Light and she is role playing as L.
2. I have altered this story to that of a fan fiction format so it not in script style in accordance with the rules.
3. This story is primarily Light x L, but will feature appearances from other canon characters.
4. This is an Alternate Universe, but will contain references to original canon plot.

Disclaimer: We do not own Death Note or its characters. They belong to Tsugumi Ohba and Takeshi Obata.

A/N: Part 50! Why is it special? It is not :P but it is half of 100 Parts, a number we are getting close to, so I guess it is special :D
I guess the other reason is that after this point, things begin to change for everyone in the case. Turning point so to speak :D

Part 50

"What is wrong with your room Light-kun?" The raven asks and raises his thumb to his lip.

"I know you mean to protect your boys Ryuzaki, but I assure you, they will come to no harm. Besides, I think Mello might actually like to learn a little more about B, give him a little more insight into the enigma that B is."

L took a deep breath and opens the door slowly. "Very well Light-kun..." He whispers and slowly walks back into the room.

Light enters the room and closes the door, wary of the furious blonde who is still sleeping next to his redheaded friend, much to his surprise. He does not go any further than the doorway, opting to lean against the wall next to said doorway.
"Well now, I will begin. I spoke to Ryuk in my bedroom as you already know Ryuzaki. I brought up Beyond and his Eyes, asking him if someone like B could logically exist, with the shinigami rules and all. That is not exactly how it was worded, but you get the gist of it, correct?"

"That is... very interesting..." His eyes had widened slightly with each word towards the end. This is not something he was ready to hear.
"And what of him now?" *Will I ever get to see him?*

"Ryuk says that the creature B had become is nameless, but lives in the human's afterlife, able to alter the realities of the people who go there. Now I am not sure if it is individually or collectively, but he exists to cause these realities to exist and also as an eater of nightmares. He also mentioned an interesting fate for me because I killed him, but it was not elaborated. By the sounds of things, you may or may not ever see B in the afterlife."

"Oh..." The news was surprisingly sad to L, the thought of never being able to see his younger friend even in death ate at him. It was partly the thought of seeing him again that took away his fears of death...

"One last thing. His name was Bernard Lockheart, just thought I'd tell you as a tidbit of good news. It is not a lot after taking in a lot of potentially heartbreaking news, but I did promise you that I'd help you solve the mysteries around his eyes, and help you I did. Again... I'm sorry that I took him away without knowing how important he was to you." He opens the door before walking out and closing it without a word.

L looks back at the boys and for a long moment before following Light out the door.
"Wait Light-kun..." He whispered closing the door carefully behind him, "Thank you... It... it means a lot to me..."

"I know it does Ryuzaki. I was more than happy to help bring closure to his problems for you. I have kept my promises to you thus far. I know that I lost your trust completely, but... I liked what we had before that was taken from us. I think I might actually miss it." He backs up slowly, smiling sadly before turning around and continuing his path to his own room.

"I liked it to Light-kun..." L whispered softly but Light heard it. "It... it felt good to be close to someone... when it hurts so bad... When this is all over I think I will simply die..."

Light wanted to stop and offer words to console the detective, but knew that the words might not hold the strength they would have otherwise held had Kira not taken L's last shred of humanity that he'd been trying to rebuild. He only paused turning his head only slightly and gave a short nod before walking and once reaching his bedroom door, closing it and bringing a hand to his mouth to stifle a small sob that escaped. He closed his eyes, willing himself to become composed again before stripping and crawling into bed and falling into a restless sleep.

L crawled back into bed with Mello though he never closed his eyes again that night. He did miss the shaky but comfortable bond he had with the younger male, and it would be nice to get some of it back, to have some nice memories of the one he will eventually have to chose the fate of, unless it is decided for him by him harming either L himself or one of his boys.

Light awoke the following morning with a feeling of utter dread. He did not want to leave his room. He felt anxious, depressed and frustrated. His morning tea would just have to wait to be made until he felt like moving himself. He was just not motivated this morning.

L was oddly up before Light, fixing himself a very sugary tea before padding out to Lights room. Somehow despite everything he woke in a good mood. Matt, after all would be woken today and that was reason enough to be slightly more cheery.
"I brought you some tea Light-kun..."

Seeing the detective walking into his room came as a shock to Light, more so with a cup of tea held out to him with a smile. He forced a small smile and took the cup and giving it a hesitant taste, wincing at the slightly more sugary flavor than he was used to.

"Thanks Ryuzaki... That was... very unexpected from you."

"Matt-kun is waking up today..." he sparks, far from his usual dull expression the older was genuinely excited just to see his redheads little green eyes again.

"That explains it, but if that's the case, shouldn't you be in your room to catch this moment and put it to memory? I should be the least of your concerns by now." He chuckled a little at this, though in his morning apathy, it held no real humor.

"No, it wont be until Mello-kun wakes up that I will ask A to rouse him, though I am sure the second Mello-kun wakes we will both here about it... and everyone else on this floor for that matter..."

He chuckles again, the little bit of laughter was a little more heartfelt this time.
"Knowing Mello, I do not doubt it. He packs quite a pair of lungs on him. I know that I 'm not the only victim of his verbal attacks." He takes another hesitant sip and sets the cup on his bedside table.

"So what brings you in here Ryuzaki, other than to bring me tea?"

"Simply that Light-kun... A little thank you for... giving me answers I may be able to take to Beyond one day... Or perhaps just for my own comfort... because of you I have a chance to keep my promise to my best friend..."

"You're welcome Ryuzaki." He pauses for a moment.
"Ryuzaki... I killed Mogi, you know that I did. I did it so that I would not have to kill my father. I wanted to save him and killing Mogi was the only was that my father could continue to live. I thought you might want to know that."

*Mello-kun was right... he will be pleased with himself...* "I know Light-kun." The detective mumbles in a serious tone, "But there is nothing I can do about that... I cannot bring him back, as badly as I want to..."

"Kira was threatening to kill my father and nearly succeeded if I had not gotten the control back at the last moment. He was speaking to Misa and only had to say my father's name. If he had succeeded, I would hate myself for it. Killing Mogi was no better though, but I could not stop myself. This persona... I fear it is winning over me and that I can no longer reverse the damage. I can only hold on as long as I can at this point. Time is my enemy now."

"My offer to help you still stands for as long as I and my boys are safe... though if I feel you become a threat to their existence I will bring you down..." He mumbles, "But if... if the Light that was so gentile with me... if he is still in there I want to protect him... Unless he was a lie to begin with..."

"I want to accept your offer Ryuzaki. I've told you more than once that I would like to deal with this affliction that lives in my mind. I want to protect you from it. If it continues to get worse... I don't want to think about it. I've always cared about you Ryuzaki. I never wanted to have harm done against you. I have not lied to you, Kira lies, but not me."

"Would you be willing to go to the hospital Light-kun? Dispose of the Death Notes and come back to England with me?" He offers this hopefully, knowing Kira would object.

Not disappointing the detective, Light felt the other persona wanting to make a move to retaliate against the detective, but he held it back, holding his head and feeling a sharp pain in his head that was never felt before.
"Y...Yes..." It was strained and pain sounding, but understandable.

"Are you sure Light kun? This will mean you have to hold on until you can get the Death Notes, all of them, for destruction..."He knew this would be the hardest part for Light.

He winced and gasped in pain, but nodded.
"When... Matsuda gets the 3rd... When... the other 2 are recovered... I... I..." He groans, fighting hard.
"I'll... go... with... ... ... you..."

L leaned over and almost lovingly stroked his hair, mimicking the younger males motions to calm himself.
"Then I will assure your safety and comfort as I did for Beyond..."

End Part 50