56.
i'm going to hold him to that 'completely'
believe me i am
hold him to it and crush him to it and…
yeah
i'm going to
because i want it too
it and the rest
to be only and completely and forever his
and for him to be mine
mine only
mine completely
mine forever
MINE
not hers
like she wanted
and he didn't
and told her he didn't
like he once told me
sort of
though less cruelly i think maybe
but more too i know
completely it was and completely i know it
and felt it
feel it still
and hear it
still...
You don't belong in my world, Bella.
This is the last time you'll ever see me.
It will be like I never existed. I promise.
even though none of it is true now
and i've heard other things
Almost as much as I only and completely and forever want you to be.
PERFECT for me.
perfect for him
him who wants the honor
of defending
and avenging
the wrongs done against
and the ones that were supposed to be done to
the ones that he thought had
before he knew the reason for
and that i could still be his
reason for living
instead of his reason for dying
like he planned
a stupid and wrong plan
but not only
like hers…
just because she was no part of any of his
and he told her so
Edward wants to defend me…
choose death for me…
a world where she doesn't exist
so that he can for me always
only and completely and forever
and so that i can for him
so maybe we can talk about it
or maybe we don't even need to
because maybe i've already decided
that whatever honor he wants…
he can have "Well, I can't promise to just stand there and watch…"
i really can't
not with my hostility variety issues
and my Cranky Newborn Bella Syndrome diagnosis
"But if you want the honor… really and truly want it…"
"I do, Bella."
"Because you really and truly want me…"
"Forever, Bella. I really and truly do."
"And completely, right? Like, COMPLETELY? Like–"
"I know what completely means, Bella. I promise you I do. And yes... COMPLETELY."
FTW!
"After you… SAY… I do. Of course. To me."
ugh
of course
his other plan
which maybe is a little uuuchgh too
maybe
just a little
but i won't tell him that
not now anyway
because he's already getting his other
way "Then I'll try to give it to you. The honor, I mean. Of killing her. I wouldn't have to try to give you anything else… I mean–"
"I know what you mean, Bella."
he really and truly does
his smile tells me
and that he…
and it…
and all…
is all mine
"Okay, Mr. Chivalrous…
"Lets go…
"Because I can't wait another second to watch you defend my honor. And have yours..."
because i think doing that…
if i can focus...
will be almost as good as that pie i've been dying for
and that that skank Tanya will...
DIE for
..tq..
sorry about yesterday... I couldn't focus on anything.
