Chapter 55
Adrianna POV
I was currently sitting in my dorm doing homework, it was a Friday night and I knew my friends were heading off to a party that one of the Royal Moroi were throwing and I wasn't the tiniest bit interested in going.
My dorm door burst opened and both Emily and Stefan stormed in before walking and taking a seat on my bed after pushing my books aside.
"What was that for guys?"
"We've had enough of this funk you are in Dri"
"Stefan's right, we have been at school for a month and there have been a couple of parties and you have only been to one, that isn't normal for you Dri"
"Exactly but it's not just that, even when we are sitting with the rest of our friends whether it's during class, at lunch or after classes have finished for the day. You barely speak to any of us you just sit there and listen to the conversation"
"What is going on with you Dri, we're worried" I looked over at my two best friends, they were worried.
They were right though, we had been back for a month and I wasn't myself. I was distancing myself from my friends not participating in conversations or caring about the parties that were happening. Even tonight it seemed as though they ditched the party just to check on me.
"I'm sorry for worrying you guys, I just can't seem to get this one thought out of my head" I looked over at them as tears formed in my eyes, I had been being trying to get it out of my head ever since the novice only party I went too and I'm surprised James hadn't said anything to me.
"What's going on Dri, please tell us" Emily begged me and looking at Stefan I could tell he was here for me as well.
"I can't it's so bad and everyone else's fault for asking me what I felt and now I know and it won't go away"
"Dri, we are your best friends. We didn't judge you after what happened in the summer"
Stefan was right, him and Emily were my best friends they didn't judge me after I told them I had sex with Nikolaus, when I told them about Michael or even the countless stupid things I have done in the past. They were my best friends and they loved me either way.
"I think I have feelings towards Nikolaus, they won't go away and I don't know what to do"
"Oh is that all, we already suspected that" Stefan shrugged but Emily punched him
"What makes you think that Dri"
"It's just everything, every time I think back on what happened in the summer I enjoy the memories, I look forward to my sessions with him every day and there are parts of him that I love, even the small parts don't annoy me as much anymore. Even before all of this happened I tried to forget him by kissing Aiden but it didn't work, I just ended up comparing him to Nikolaus"
"So what are you going to do?"
"I honestly don't know Em, I don't know what to do. I've been trying to work it out but I can't and it's annoying me"
"I hate saying this but maybe you should talk to James, see if he knows something" for some strange reason there was a bit of jealously on Emily's part about my friendship with James. I've tried telling her that she is being silly but she wouldn't stop
"I doubt he knows anything if he did he would have said something to me by now"
"He could be keeping quiet because he knew you didn't want to talk about it. Maybe you should confront him"
"Whatever, not tonight" I snapped at them
I knew I shouldn't have snapped at them but they didn't say anything, in fact they both got off my bed and went over to my T.V and turned it on while I went back to my homework. I thought they would leave and go to their party but I guess they wanted to stay and make sure I was alright.
I noticed the hushed conversation taking place between them but I didn't say anything knowing it would be about me.
I got annoyed after a while and couldn't take it anymore so I closed my books and went and joined them by the T.V receiving small smiles.
The morning came too quickly for my liking, my sessions with Nikolaus had become quiet and abnormal for us. It was the only way I could deal with the awkwardness that now existed between us, I believed that if I never discovered that I had feelings for him or maybe if we never had sex but it happened and no matter how much you wish you can never change the past.
The session didn't involve anything physical today, Nikolaus knew I had tests coming up as well as assignments due so he wanted to focus on theory which was fine with me since Emily and Stefan had turned up and refused to leave I didn't get everything finished.
"Dri is everything alright?" his voice startled me, I looked up at him and noticed he was concerned.
Apart from when I first met him over time I stopped paying attention to how good looking he was but now after having sex and constantly having flashes of what he looked like naked it made me remember how good looking he actually was. Even some of the other female novices or Moroi made comments on his appearance but I always shrugged it off thinking it was nothing because he was a teacher unless it was Emily or Belle or on the rare occasion Sarah or Amelia.
"Fine" I looked back down at my notes for the maths test I had but it was apparent he didn't like my answer since I watched as my notes were snatched away. I hated that he always did that when I didn't give an answer he liked and most of the time I could see it coming but I never stopped him since it would make things worse.
"Something's bothering you, I've known you long enough to know when something is"
"You don't know me that well"
"Right, when you and Jeremy broke up the morning when we first began working on silver stakes he came in, that morning I could tell something was bothering you but you were trying so hard to make it seem like you were fine so I didn't question it"
"So what I had spent the night crying, I looked like a mess anyone would have been able to tell something was bothering me. You aren't that good of a mind reader because nothing is bothering me now" I snapped at him as I reached over and grabbed my book back from him, I was surprised when he didn't even fight me on it.
We were silent for a few moments while I went back to working on my homework, I honestly didn't expect him to stay quiet for this long we were both too stubborn our arguments normally only ended when one of us walked out.
"Adrianna please talk to me" he never and I mean never called me Adrianna anymore, even in front of my family he was calling me Dri. Dad was used to us being close and long ago dropped the idea of something happening between us, if he knew what happened during the summer I think he would have had one of us pulled from the academy.
When I looked up at him concern was written across his face, had we really gotten that close that he was able to tell when something was bothering me. He was truly worried about me but there was no way I could tell him what was bothering me, not without it changing everything.
"I can't" was all I said as my eyes welled up
"You can talk to me about anything Dri, even if it is silly high school gossip that is bothering you" I shook my head, I knew I could talk to him about anything but this wasn't acceptable. I couldn't believe I had allowed myself to fall for him.
It didn't matter how much of a great guy he was, everything about him was perfect to me and no matter what he had always made me feel safe and that was what I needed the most. After everything that happened to me all I ever craved was safety and security and he gave me that.
I shook my head at him as a tear escaped down my cheek, he didn't say anything. All he did was frown before reaching over and cup my face to wipe away the stray tears. It was all I could take, I pulled back from him and gathered up my books before standing and leaving the gym. I guess one of us did walk out this time.
I quickly went back to my dorm and dropped my books before sending James a text asking where he was. I paced my room waiting for him to reply and when I eventually got a reply he was in our usual corner in the library, I grabbed a jacket on my way out and went to look for James.
When I found him in the library I didn't say anything as I walked over and took a seat beside him not saying anything. I didn't even take notice of what homework he was doing, I just sat there waiting for him to realise what I wanted to talk about.
James let out a sigh and I looked up at him and it was then that he realised I had been crying, I noticed him concentrating while looking at me. I knew he had been working on shutting people out but I didn't realise he was able to do it.
"I've always known, ever since you first realised it Dri"
"Why didn't you say anything?"
"What was I meant to say? 'hey I know your struggling with the idea of being in love with a teacher but it will be alright" I stared at him, I never once suspected it was love I honestly just thought it was similar feelings that I had towards Jeremy.
"Love?" I choked out and he nodded at me. "I never said anything about love, I can't be in love with him"
"Dri your aura doesn't lie, every time Nikolaus entered the room and you looked at him the colours would flash through your aura indicating love" I groaned and leaned back to bang my head against the wall.
"Fine so if I'm in love with him what the hell do I do about it? I can't exactly tell him, even today he tried to get out of me what is bothering me, I snapped at him but he wouldn't drop it. I eventually left and came here"
"I wasn't going to say tell him, he wouldn't believe you anyway. He would think you are trying to get out of something"
"How do you know so much about what goes on in his head? I swear you haven't spent that much time with him" James shrugged at me and I knew to drop it, no matter how much I tried he wouldn't tell me anything about what he knew about Nikolaus. "Fine then smartass what shall I do about this?"
"Just kiss him, I know how many times you have ended up pinned to the matt and have been close to kissing him. Just do it"
"No way, that is worse than telling him. If I kiss him I'll end up with a lecture to end all lectures, it will be the worst one of the lot" I narrowed my eyes at him before I stood up and stormed off.
James POV
I watched as Dri stormed out of the library, she was angry yes but she didn't know what I knew and I still couldn't believe she had no clue that Nikolaus was in love her. It was why he cared so much about her and how his mood would easily flip, she would say something that would make him realise that nothing would ever happen between the two of them.
But now she was in love with him and it was all because of the two of them having sex in the summer, who would have thought that one event would bring them together. I could always tell there was something between the two of them but I never knew what it was because I didn't have all the information but now they both loved each other and someone had to have the courage to finally do something about it.
I knew Nikolaus wouldn't do anything, if he would he would have by now so I hoped Dri did something for the sake of both of their happiness. You can tell by their auras when they're around each other just how perfect they are for each other.
Auras give you a lot of information about the person and seeing them around another person indicates just how they belong with each other. The varying colours that indicate love create different patterns and when they match with another person it's like they are in sync or they're another piece of the puzzle or how ever people explain soul mates. I see it all the time, I see it in my parents, I saw it in the Queen and her husband, I've seen it in Dri's dad and step mum, I've seen it in Rose and Dimitri and now I'm seeing it in Dri and Nikolaus
Dri and Nikolaus belong together and I didn't want to have to get involved in their relationship but if no one did something than I would have too eventually.
A/N: Thank you to everyone who keeps reading and setting alerts for my story! Dri finally admitted that she has feelings for Nikolaus, what does everyone think is going to happen now?
To the guest reviewer, thank you for reviewing. Yes Dri finally started realising she may feel more for Nikolaus and now she has realised she is in love with him thanks to James telling her.
LilianGrace thank you for always reviewing, it means a lot. I'm sorry you're sick but I'm glad me updating everyday makes it that bit better for you. Her friends pick on her because they love her, I'm sorry if it doesn't make sense to you but it's how I am with my friends and it's just normal between us. Yes, Nikolaus does want Dri to know how to survive and remember how I said some chapters give hints to future chapters, there is one right there.
Gabergirl thank you for always reviewing, it means a lot. I'm glad you're still enjoying my story. Don't worry Rose and Dimitri will make appearances it might just be a few chapters in between. As you can see Dri did finally admit she had feelings for Nikolaus but she wasn't convinced it was love until James told her otherwise.
Moulinness thank you for always reviewing, it means a lot. Yes Dri is falling for Nikolaus and this chapters is where it finally comes out that she has admitted it. I didn't let that happen to Dri mainly because I know how much it doesn't work. I'm glad you fall in love with Dri and Nikolaus every chapter, I'm glad that they are loveable characters. I was a little unsure how people who react to that scene with Dimitri because some would say it is out of character but as you said it is also in character for him. Even if Dri didn't come across as a Rose junior I tried to make it seem like that Rose and Dimitri care about Dri as if she was their child as well since they can't have their own. I believe if I showed scene between Rose and Dimitri with Dri's brothers or even Lissa and Christian's twins then they would be similar as well but since Dri is the only girl it's different. Everyone is wondering the same thing with Adrian but no I can safely say no one and I mean no one tells Adrian, for now anyway.
