This is a shortish update and no porn, i just can't get my head around it to write, updates will still be sporatic, coz although i am feeling a little better i am not 100% at the moment. Enjoy!
Meredith woke up and it was still dark, she looked over at the clock and could see it was only 3 am, Derek was fast asleep, his arm over her stomach, and she leant over and kissed him gently, before slowly extracting herself from his hold, trying not to wake him up. Meredith knew that he hasn't had much sleep over the past few days, just like she hadn't; she knew it was ridiculous but she couldn't sleep without him and apparently neither could he. Meredith grabbed her robe, off the chair next to the bed, wrapping it around her. Meredith walked over to the balcony door, and stepped out into the New York air.
The events of the day before had finally caught up with her, has the tears came hard and fast. Meredith wasn't sure how long she sat there crying when she felt Derek's arms wrap around her, and she buried her head into Derek chest, Derek held her, letting her cry it out, letting all the emotions that she let build over the past 10 years out. Several hours later the tears finally stopped has the sky brighten over New York City.
"I'm sorry" she murmured into his chest.
"Meredith, don't, there is no need to apologise, i promise, i have been there myself"
"I know, but after everything Mark put me through why do i feel like this"
"Because has much i hate to say it at one point Meredith, you did love him and you have just ended a marriage. No-one especially me expects you to be happy about it, no matter what he did or how he treated you"
"I feel awful crying in your arms over another man" Meredith admitted to him, Derek shifted himself so that Meredith was sat in his lap, he ran his fingers through her hair, he found it was a way to help her relax.
"Meredith, when we met i knew you were married; so don't you dare blame yourself, I practically begged for you for us to be friends. I knew that you were married even though I was attracted to you; i had no right to chase you but i did, and i love you so much"
"I'm sorry" Meredith repeated.
"Stop Meredith, I was expecting to be comforting you tonight, I love you and here i am"
"What did I ever do to deserve you?"
"Meredith, you were a breath of fresh air, you saved from drowning, and that is all I know. I need you...so much...no one could ever mean as much to me as you do" Derek told her kissing her forehead.
"I know and i have never known anyone who makes me feel the way the way, you make me feel, Derek" Meredith said with a small smile, before kissing Derek. "I love you"
"I love you too...why we don't go back to bed and let some sleep and tomorrow we can enjoy our engagement" Derek said, Meredith smiled and kissed him hard, Derek pulled her close to him, and Meredith sat on his lap, deepening the kiss, before she pulled away and rested her head against his, that stayed like that for a few minutes before Derek picked her up in his arms and carried her to bed, Derek quickly joined her in bed, before wrapping his arms around her small frame, pulling her close to him, so that every part of their bodies were touching, Derek buried his head in her hair, as they both drifted back off to sleep.
