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Meredith smiled as she snuck her cell phone back in her pocket after replying to her boyfriend. Things were really great with them right now, and while she had hated fighting with him, things were even better with them now than they were before. It had made them a lot stronger, and Derek meeting her mom had gone the complete opposite of how she'd imagined. He seemed to love her even more, and wanted to show her all the time. He was affectionate at the best of times, but now they were touching constantly, like, all the time. She never thought she'd be one of those pda kind of people, but with Derek she couldn't help it. She was always holding his hand or sat in his lap or leant against him, and it was amazing.
He was coming over tonight for movie and pizza and then assumedly lots of sex. Lots and lots of sex. It was almost impossible for her to be with him for a substantial amount of time without having sex at the minute. It was crazy. And she'd slept with a lot of people for her age, but nothing compared to Derek. She wanted him all the freaking time, and it never ever got boring. She'd always thought sleeping with only one person was boring, but it was anything but. He was actually really dirty, which she had never expected of him, being his geeky self, but he was willing to do anything she was. Plus, he connected with her in a way no one else had before, she had fallen so completely in love with him and it made any kind of sex a thousand times better. Especially the slow stuff.
It was crazy, because they'd only been dating four and a half months, and this was her first kind of relationship ever; but she really couldn't imagine her life without Derek. Ever. They had agreed to start looking at med schools together after Christmas, and she wasn't sure where she wanted to go, all she knew was that she wanted to go with him. She had no idea if it was normal to feel this way about your first boyfriend, or if she really had met the love of her life; because she was feeling really big things with him that she never thought she would feel with anyone, despite only being nine-teen years old. Everyone probably felt this way about their fist love, Lara probably thought this about Jake, which made her kind of sad. Because how many people do you know that end up spending the rest of their lives with their college boyfriend? Probably not a lot. But she couldn't imagine ever not loving Derek, and so medical school together was natural.
It was only two weeks until he was taking her home for Thanksgiving, and she was a little nervous, despite his constant reassurance. Apparently Alison made nothing but amazing food all day long and all they did was sit around and talk, which did sound good. And she was getting more and more comfortable with his family, his grandma had been really nice. But she was still nervous about meeting his Aunts and Uncles, and especially his cousins. She had no real experience with kids apart from being one herself, while she could already imagine Derek being amazing with them. Plus, she was still wary of Liv, she had seen and looked after Derek when she had hurt him the most, and she didn't know if she would ever forgive her for causing that. And she'd probably told Imogen too, which was great. Her two favourite sisters probably hated her and that would make it a lot harder to be in his home.
Lara had called them on her birthday to thank them for her gifts, and she'd seemed really grateful and had been really sweet on the phone, so hopefully things wouldn't be too awkward. It was weird, she felt like they were her own family now, except they weren't, they were Derek's. And that would be the case every time her and Derek fought.
She sighed, glancing around the library as she waited for her friends. They were meant to be meeting her before class to do the preparation reading, but apparently Izzie and Alex had had a fight last night, so Cristina was probably still dragging her out of bed. She walked over to the vending machine and pressed the button for a lemonade as her cell buzzed in her pocket. Derek. She smiled as she opened the message:
-Movies tomorrow? X
-Sure, what movie? X
-New Star Wars is out…. X
-You have got to be kidding me
-Please? X
-Seriously? X
-Please baby, I love you X
-Hmmmm X
-Please? X
-If we sit at the back will you finger me half way through? X
She smirked as she typed the last message, sitting down with her drink as her friends came into view.
'Hey,' she smiled.
'Hey,' said Cristina, sitting opposite her and dumping her textbook on the table.
'Hey Iz,'
'Hey,' Izzie breathed, sitting next to Cristina. 'Muffin?'
'Muffin?' Meredith laughed as Izzie pulled out a bag of chocolate muffins. 'Sure. Thanks.'
'No problem.' She replied, taking one for herself and stuffing it into her mouth.
'How's things with Alex?' she dared to ask, biting into the cake.
'Okay.' Izzie smiled. 'Except he's a fucking ass.'
'Oh,' she laughed slightly at her friend's tone.
'I'm not talking to him. I can't be bothered right now.'
'I see.' Meredith nodded.
'But you can be bothered to go on about it all the time.' Cristina rolled her eyes.
'Shut up,' Meredith laughed. 'Boy problems are stressful.'
'Right?!' said Izzie, reaching for another muffin.
'Very stressful.' Meredith nodded.
'This is why I don't bother.' Cristina mused, flipping to the page in the textbook. 'I thought it was bad when their tongues were down each other's throats, this is even worse.'
'You'll be fine in no time.' Meredith smiled, squeezing her friends hand.
'When he stops being an ass.' Izzie groaned.
'He will.' She reassured her. 'It's only been one day.'
'True.' She sighed.
'I bet in no time he'll be turning up at the apartment with flowers and apologising to you.'
'He already did that.' Cristina said flatly.
'What?' she breathed.
'I was still mad, okay?!' said Izzie, to which Cristina rolled her eyes.
'Oh Iz,' Meredith laughed softly. 'You'll be fine. He's sorry, and when you're ready to accept it, it'll be fine.'
'Yeah.' She whispered.
'I was the ass with me and Derek, and he didn't take my first apology either. But Alex will give you some space and then you can try and work things out again.'
'You think?'
'I do.' She smiled.
'Oh great, so now they're gonna get even worse like you and Brain Boy.'
'Shut up,' Meredith laughed. 'We're happy.'
'It's disgusting.' Her friend winced.
'You're just jealous,' she smiled, taking another bite of the muffin Izzie had given her. 'These are so good, Iz.'
'Thanks.' She grinned. 'I made them last night.'
'And by last night she means two am.' Cut in Cristina.
'I bake when I'm stressed, okay?'
'I am not complaining.' Meredith laughed licking some of the chocolate off her finger.
'What do you guys want for dinner tonight?' asked Izzie, still yet to open her textbook.
'Derek's coming round tonight,' Meredith shook her head. 'we're getting pizza so I'm good thanks.'
'Cris?'
'Whatever.' She shrugged. 'As long as I don't have to help.'
'I'll do everything.' Izzie nodded. 'What time is Derek coming over?' she turned to Meredith.
'Not sure.' She shrugged. 'He knows we have class until five.'
'Please try to refrain from having sex while we are eating dinner.' Cristina winced.
'I'll try,' Meredith giggled.
'At least someone's getting some.' Izzie rolled her eyes.
'Are you serious?' Cristina raised her eyebrows. 'you'll be fucking with the ass by tomorrow, latest.'
'Nope,' Izzie shook her head. 'My panties are staying on for now.'
'You say that now,' Meredith laughed. 'Make up sex is better than regular sex.'
'Ew.' Said Cristina.
'Seriously,' Meredith nodded. 'I mean, me and Derek… it's always been amazing… but since the fight… its like a thousand times better.'
'I still don't believe you that he's that good in bed.' Cristina shook her head.
'Are you for real?'
'He's just… nerdy.'
'Cristina he made me come five times last night in one round.'
'Seriously?' Izzie gasped.
'Yes.' Meredith laughed.
'Okay so fuck Alex, I want Derek.'
'Nope, he's mine.' Meredith giggled.
'Five times? Seriously?' frowned Cristina.
'Yep. He's amazing.'
'Does he not get boring?'
'No,' Meredith shook her head. 'It's… I don't know…'
'Do you never want to fuck anyone else?'
'No. I cant imagine sleeping with anyone else, ever.'
'Ever?' Izzie breathed.
'No,' Meredith shrugged. 'He makes me really happy.'
'You guys are so cute.' Izzie smiled.
'Disgusting.' Corrected Cristina.
'Thanks,' Meredith couldn't help but blush. 'He asked me to go to New York with him for Thanksgiving.'
'He did?' Izzie smiled.
'Yep.'
'Are you gonna go?' Cristina asked.
'Yeah.' She nodded. 'I'm a bit nervous but… yeah I want to go.'
'I love Thanksgiving.' Groaned Izzie. 'The food is so good.'
'I've never really done it before.' Meredith shrugged.
'What?' Izzie gasped.
'Yeah, we just spent the day drinking last year.' She nodded to Cristina. 'And my mom… we never really did Thanksgiving.'
'Seriously?' Izzie turned to Cristina. 'You don't do Thanksgivings either?'
'No.' She shrugged.
'Okay, so we are totally doing it in the apartment this year.'
'Thanksgiving?' Cristina frowned. 'Just the two of us?'
'Yeah! Well, Alex can come too.'
'I thought you guys weren't talking?' Meredith smirked.
'Shut up,' Izzie laughed. 'It will be fun!' she beamed at Cristina.
'Eh,' she sighed.
'It won't be as good as a proper family Thanksgiving, but it will be better than you sitting doing nothing.'
'Since when did we turn all happy?'
'Since Mer, the most dark and twisty of us all fell in love with a boy.' Izzie laughed.
'Shut up,' Meredith blushed.
'I hate being the only single one.' Cristina groaned. 'It's no fun.'
'Shall we go out tomorrow?' asked Meredith. 'The Dublin or something?'
'That sounds fun.' Izzie nodded.
'She'll probably be having sex with Alex.' Cristina rolled her eyes.
'I can put making up off another day.' Izzie shrugged. 'Drinking sounds fun.'
'It does.' Nodded Meredith. 'I haven't been drunk in too long.'
'Me neither.' Cristina sighed. 'This semester is kicking my ass.'
'Shit I can't do tomorrow,' Meredith breathed, remembering her plans with Derek as her cell buzzed. 'I'm going to the movies with Derek.'
'What you seeing?' Asked Izzie, getting out yet another muffin.
'Star wars,' she rolled her eyes, not being able to hold back a giggle.
'Star Wars?' Both of her friends pulled a face.
'Yeah.' She sighed.
'You're choosing Star Wars over getting drunk?' Cristina asked flatly.
'I'm choosing my hot boyfriend fingering me in the back of a movie theatre over getting drunk.' She laughed.
'Ew too much information.'
'Hot though,' Izzie breathed. 'I never had Derek down for dirty.'
'Me neither.' Meredith giggled. 'But he is.'
'Okay I'm drawing a line here with you and the sex talk.'
'She cant help she's getting good sex.' Admitted Izzie.
'Great sex.' Meredith corrected. 'Mind blowing sex. The best sex.'
'What's Alex like in bed?' Cristina turned to Izzie.
'Seriously?'
'Yeah.' Cristina nodded. 'Brain boy who looks crap is apparently amazing, so maybe Alex who looks all angry in bed is actually shit.'
'He's good.' Izzie nodded. 'Really good.'
'Bet he's not as good as Derek.' Meredith giggled.
'Bet he is.' Izzie nodded.
'I doubt it.' She smirked. 'Have you ever come five times in one round?'
'Well no,' admitted Izzie. 'But he is really good. And big.'
'Derek's big.' Meredith giggled. 'Very big.'
'Mer seriously I don't want to picture Brain Boy's dick.'
'Yeah don't do that,' she shook her head. 'It's mine.'
'I'm not exactly fighting you for it.'
'Well you should be,' she blushed. 'It's amazing.'
'I bet Alex is better.' Izzie repeated.
'I thought you were mad at him?' Meredith laughed.
'I am.' Izzie frowned. 'But it doesn't mean I can deny he's good in bed.'
'Seriously can we stop talking about which one is better in bed and actually do the reading now?' groaned Cristina.
'I know!' Izzie gasped. 'You can test it!'
'What?' Cristina's face dropped.
'Who's better in bed!'
'What?' echoed Meredith. 'You might be okay sharing Alex, but she is not going near my Derek.'
'Ew no,' Izzie cringed. 'But she lives with us. Who sounds like they're having the best sex?'
'Seriously?' Cristina frowned.
'Yeah. Who sounds like they're having the best sex?'
'I can't believe you're asking me this.' She sighed.
'Who does sound like they're having the best sex?' Asked Meredith, curiously.
'Probably you.' Cristina nodded.
'Ha!' Meredith squealed.
'No way,' frowned Izzie.
'She does make some pretty wild noises. And don't tell me you don't hear the fucking headboard banging every night.'
'So?'
'It sounds crazier than yours.' Cristina shrugged.
'I knew it.' Meredith smirked. 'Derek is a God.'
'Shut up while I puke.' Smiled Izzie sarcastically.
'Does the headboard really bang that loudly?' she turned to Cristina, seriously.
'Are you fucking kidding? It keeps me awake.'
'Sorry.' She blushed.
'Maybe tell Brain Boy to be a little less forceful.'
'I am definitely not doing that.' She giggled.
'Ew I do not need that mental image.' Cristina buried her face into her book as Meredith felt someone walk into the back of her chair, causing her to jump.
'Is this seat taken?' came a familiar voice from behind her. 'Oh wait, I forgot… you don't care about that. You just take things anyway.'
'Rose,' she breathed, as Derek's ex-girlfriend walked around her and placed her hands on the spare chair at their desk. 'Hi.'
'Hi.' She smiled sarcastically, looking Meredith in the eye. She felt so awkward it was unbelievable, she'd literally been sat bragging about how good her boyfriend was in bed when his ex had been behind her. The ex who probably hated her, with good reason. 'So do you make a habit of stealing people's boyfriends or was Derek an exception?'
'I…' she stuttered, not expecting the direct challenge.
'Because from what I've heard, you like to get around.'
'Oh.' She breathed, glancing at her friends quickly, before meeting Rose's gaze.
'I never really had Derek down as the kind of guy to like whores.' She shrugged. 'But I guess it explains things.'
'I'm sorry, Rose.' She said quietly, not really knowing what else to say. She seemed to have gone two months at school without running into Derek's ex, and she should have known it was only a matter of time before this happened. She glanced over to the desk to their right, three girls sat watching them, whispering, one of them being Addison Montgomery, great.
'You're sorry?' she laughed. 'You steal my boyfriend and you're "sorry"?'
'I am… Rose… I didn't mean to come between you guys.. I never meant to hurt you.'
'So you thought I'd be happy about you fucking him?'
'I didn't sleep with him.' She said quickly, shaking her head. 'I swear… I didn't sleep with him.'
'Apparently you said that about Kyle too.' Rose said snidely, and Meredith caught a glance at Addison smirking at her from the table.
'I….'
'Tell Derek he's a fucking asshole too.'
'Oh.'
'Does he know how many people you've slept with?'
'What?' she breathed, feeling tears stinging her eyes. She didn't want to cry, she wasn't prepared for a fight with Rose, especially not with more and more people in the library looking.
'Derek,' she nodded. 'Is he aware that you've slept with half the grade?'
Rose was a bitch. She hadn't minded her when she'd been with Derek, apart from the fact she was obviously jealous that she was with Derek. But she was being a bitch. Of course she was going to be angry with Meredith, she'd kissed her boyfriend and now they were happy and serious and of course Rose was going to be angry. But she was causing a scene in the library and calling her a whore and insulting Derek.
'I don't think it's any of your business what's between me and my boyfriend.' She frowned.
'Except the whole sophomore year knows,' Rose laughed.
'Okay,' she sighed. 'I'm really, really, sorry Rose. I'm sorry things with you and Derek didn't work out and I'm sorry for my part in it. I am.'
'I don't want an apology.'
'Well then I'm not sure how much I can help you.'
'How long was it going on?'
'What?' Meredith laughed.
'You and Derek.'
'We… it was like he told you… the night you guys broke up.'
'You really expect me to believe that?' she raised her eyebrows.
'It's the truth.' Meredith protested.
'So all those times you watched movies together, lay in bed together, you seriously expect me to believe nothing happened between you two?'
'Yes because it didn't.' she said indignantly.
'I'm not stupid, Meredith.'
'I swear, I mean… I'm not going to lie and say I didn't wish something happened sooner, because I did. But it didn't.' she shook her head.
'You're almost as bad of a liar as he is.'
'I… I'm sorry Rose. I don't know what else you want from me.'
'Everyone knows you're a slut.'
'You already made that clear.' Meredith rolled her eyes.
'And just so you know, when you fuck Derek over, I'll be the first one to rub it in his face.'
'Fuck off,' Meredith snapped.
'Unless you already have?' Rose smirked.
'What?' Meredith frowned.
'It would be a miracle if you'd managed to keep your legs shut this long.'
'They're very much open for my boyfriend. But only my boyfriend.'
'Right,' Rose scoffed.
'Fuck off, Rose. I know you're mad at me or whatever, and that's fine. I'd be mad at me too. But mine and Derek's relationship really isn't any of your business.'
'Awww your relationship.' Rose mocked. 'You'll probably just screw each other over anyway. He's just as bad as you.'
'I think you need to shut up.'
'Make me.' Rose dared.
'Shut up about my boyfriend.' Meredith said firmly, beginning to stand from her chair.
'Mer,' breathed Izzie. 'Sit down, she's not worth it.'
'She needs to shut the fuck up about Derek. I'm sorry Rose, I really am, I'm sorry that he loves me and not you, but you need to get over it. It was months ago.'
'Aw he loves you does he?' Rose laughed.
'Yes.' Meredith said, damning herself for her voice wavering slightly. 'He does.'
'Cute.'
'Seriously, Rose. This isn't doing any good. Go out find yourself someone new, get over Derek.'
'Babes I don't need telling to be over him,' she laughed. 'I wouldn't go near him with a barge pole.'
'Good. Because he's mine.'
'You do realise how pathetic you sound, right?'
'I think you've got that the other way around.'
'He cheated on me and he'll cheat on you.'
'Seriously I get that you're mad at me for stealing him or whatever, but get a grip and keep your nose out of my relationship. You were with him for what, two months? We've already doubled that, and Derek's a good guy. You know that.'
'Yeah, such a good guy that he cheated on me with his "best friend".'
'He apologised for that, and he knew he was wrong. We didn't mean for it to happen and he told you as soon as it did! You're making it out like we had some sordid affair or something. It was a kiss!'
'You literally have no girl code do you?' Rose narrowed her eyes.
'Are you joking me?' Meredith spat. 'I was nice to you the whole time you were with Derek even though I was in love with him. Even when I was jealous of you I still gave you the spare key to his apartment! And I sat there listening to him talk about you, encouraging him to date you. So stop making out like I've been a bitch to you because I haven't. I'm really sorry things ended the way they did between you, and as I said I'm sorry for my part in it. Now, we were trying to study. You can have the seat no problem.'
She sat down and turned her back to Rose, not wanting to hear her reply. She heard her mutter something under her breath before turning back to sit with Addison and whoever else. Her cheeks were hot and red and she was very embarrassed, not that she would admit that right now. She kind of wished she'd been able to keep a cool and be civil towards Derek's ex girlfriend, but the moment she'd started mocking their relationship and insulting Derek, she felt a fire inside her that forced her to defend him. He'd felt so bad about the way things ended with Rose and he genuinely hadn't meant to hurt her, but she'd ignored every one of his calls over summer and didn't want to hear an apology. Which she guessed was fair enough, but she was still pissed.
They probably deserved it, they'd hurt her, and she knew if Derek ever kissed someone else she'd be furious too. But bringing up all the people she'd slept with before Derek really wasn't relevant and it had pissed her right off. Almost as if she wasn't good enough for him because she'd slept around a bit. Like Derek would never want anything to do with a whore. But she hadn't slept with anyone else since before Christmas last year, she'd gone a whole six months of not sleeping with anyone before she'd began dating Derek, and he was the only one she wanted.
All the way through class she couldn't concentrate, just thinking about the way Rose had looked at her, asked her about the people she'd slept with, the smirk on her face. It made her want to punch her in the face. It was none of Rose's business. And anyway, she wasn't a whore anymore, she had seen the light or whatever and she was in a happy, serious, faithful relationship.
She was supposed to text Derek when she was back from class and he was going to set off and stop at the pizza place on the way over, but she couldn't be bothered waiting to see him, so just walked straight to his apartment. She knocked before opening the door, Mark and Tim sat on the couch.
'Hey guys,' she smiled, closing the door behind her. 'Der in his room.'
'Yeah,' nodded Tim.
'Thanks.' she breathed, pushing her boyfriend's door open and immediately launching herself on his bed and into his arms. 'Hey,' she murmured into his neck, wrapping her arms around him.
'Hey.' he smiled, hugging her close to him, kissing her forehead. 'You okay?'
'Do you care how many people I've slept with?' she looked up at him, her faces millimeters from his.
'What?' he breathed.
'Answer the question, Derek?'
'No, no. Of course not.' he rubbed his hand up her arm softly.
'And you know I'll never cheat on you, right?'
'Mer-' he frowned before she cut him off.
'Answer the question!'
'Okay,' he nodded, moving his hand to her hair to run through it gently. 'I know you'll never cheat on me.'
'And you'll never cheat on me either?' she asked hopefully, her eyes big.
'Of course not baby.' he murmured, kissing her gently. 'Where's all this come from?'
'Nothing.' she pouted, kissing his cheek.
'Mer,' he tilted his head to the side.
'Fine. Rose.' she sighed.
'Rose?' he pulled back a little to look at her properly.
'I saw her in the library.'
'Oh.' he whispered, pulling her closer to him again, wrapping his arm around her tightly as she laid her head on his chest.
'She started fighting with me.'
'Oh Mer,'
'And she basically called me a whore and asked if you knew how many people I've slept with.' she whimpered, burying her head in his sweater as his hands rubbed her back comfortingly.
'Mer,' he breathed.
'And then she said you would cheat on me. And that I'd cheat on you. So we'd basically cheat on each other.'
'Wait, you know that's never going to happen.' he said, taking her face in his hands. 'Ever.'
'I know.' she nodded. 'I love you and I trust you and you know I would never cheat on you, ever. I love you. But the things she said...' she shook her head.
'Baby listen to me,' he breathed, looking into her eyes. 'I love you. And I'm in this. Rose is just... bitter. And she probably has a right to be because what I did was wrong. What we did was wrong. But it has absolutely nothing to do with our relationship or how it's going to end. Okay?'
'Okay.' she whispered as he kissed her softly.
'Ignore her.'
'I know.' she whispered, kissing him again. 'People were watching and her friends were laughing.'
'They don't matter.'
'I know.' she whispered.
'You have me, and you have Izzie, and Cristina, and Alex and Sarah. Who cares what Rose and her friends think?'
'I know.' she repeated. 'I haven't actually seen Sarah yet this semester. I keep texting her but we haven't met up.'
'Maybe try and see her this week?' he kissed her temple.
'Yeah.' she breathed, reaching for his hand.
'Seriously, we're good, Mer. And you never have to worry about what happened with Rose happening with you. I love you so much I could never think of wanting to be with anyone else.'
'Me neither.' she whispered.
'And anyway, we have better sex so she should be jealous.' he teased.
'Derek!' she giggled.
'What? We do.' he laughed.
'That's not the point.' she grinned, tipping her head up to kiss him.
'I know.' he smiled. 'Just wanted to make you laugh.'
'I love you.'
'I love you too.'
'No, I really love you.' She giggled, rolling on top of him.
'I really love you too.' he beamed, his hands moving down her body to rest on her jean covered ass.
'I really, really, really, love you.'
'I really, really, really, love you too.'
'I love you more.' she teased, kissing his nose.
'Not this again.' he rolled his eyes, but his hands squeezing her sides.
'Yes, this again.' she giggled, leaning to press kisses all over his face, not being able to help smiling as he held her. She couldn't explain how happy she was when she was with him, how he had the power to instantly lift her mood and make her feel okay. She knew he loved her and she knew he would never hurt her, and she had felt confident in defending her relationship to Rose. She never knew she could be this happy with someone, or want so many big things, but she knew that whatever she wanted in life, it was with Derek.
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