Uncertain ch42
A/n: Well, here it is…the rest of the weekend that you've all been waiting for. I hope it makes you feel as mushy as it has me;)
Thank you to my beta extraordinaire, Siobhan Masen and my precious, Eternally Edward's girl and my sidekick, Grnidgirl, for their master pre-reading skills.
Enjoy!
BPOV
I was exhausted.
We'd been at it for hours when the sun finally started to creep in windows around us.
Between each time we'd made love, we'd talked more in depth about subjects that we'd originally talked about that weekend.
We knew each other now, had an idea of who we were and it became even more meaningful than the last time.
Edward told me stories about his College days and the crazy things that he'd done in his fraternity.
I told him stories about growing up with parents that were serial daters and how they constantly had new people in and out of our house.
He told me stories about family vacations and how Emmett always tried to play pranks on him and Alice.
I told him about dating Mike and how I followed him to Texas, how I left everything and everyone I knew back in Washington.
When our stomachs demanded attention, we made pancakes together at three in the morning.
We showered at dawn.
We fucked hard against the kitchen cabinet.
We made love on the couch.
But, most of all we were together.
Bella Swan and Edward Masen.
He wrote down his phone numbers, his email and his address and I did the same for him.
He told me about growing up as the son of Ed and Elizabeth Masen and how at times he hated that everyone knew his family. How that as a rambunctious teenager he felt like he couldn't just cut loose and have fun for fear of being caught and causing a media circus for his family.
I told him how Angela and I snuck out one summer night to go to the beach with some friends of ours only to have our dad send the cops out to look for us. He thought we had been kidnapped.
Edward and I were in a bubble, we secluded ourselves and it allowed us to let down all the walls that stood between the two of us.
Our hearts were vulnerable.
I was still in awe of the fact that this brilliant and gorgeous man wanted to be with me, love me, and even marry me. I felt the same butterflies when he kissed me and I could hardly catch my breath as he lavished me with his tongue.
I cried when he told me he loved me, because it felt like the first time, all over again.
It had been better than the first time that was for sure.
We woke up wrapped around each other on Sunday morning, both of us were a little sad that our time was about to end.
"I need you, Bella, baby," Edward whispered, his voice sounded thick from sleep as he slowly pushed me to my back and nestled in between my thighs.
"Take me, I'm yours." My own voice was as low and raspy as Edward's.
As he slid his body into mine, it felt infinitely different than any time previous. It felt like a promise for the future. It felt like the declaration of the greatest love in the world.
Nothing else mattered but this exact feeling at this exact moment.
Our cocoon filled with our love.
"Bella, look at me," I heard him instruct me as I opened my eyes to see him a mere inches from my face.
His body covered mine, his arms wrapped under my shoulders, his hands settled at my neck. I felt smooshed by his body heat and completely surrendered to the feeling of security he offered.
"I know I can't live without you," he spoke with a softness that made my heart skip a beat.
"I know I don't want to live without you," he declared and his eyes shone the truth of his words.
"I want you with me, by my side for all of eternity," his voice was smooth and velvety as he continued to move his body inside of me at the same time.
"I need us to leave here, knowing that we'll never have to be apart again." His words were heavy and filled with such emotion that I thought I might explode from the weightiness of them.
Our bodies exploded at the same time, each of us called out for the other in the midst of the power of our love in the release that we'd just experienced.
"Please say you'll marry me, Bella Swan. Please say that you'll be my wife and never leave my side for the rest of my life," he said as he reached under the pillow.
I saw a dark blue velvet box in the palm of his hand. His free hand pulled me up a bit to sit against the headboard.
I was shocked and stunned, so wrapped up in the euphoria of his words, combined with the fact that we just made love the emotions were almost too much to take for me.
"Yes, Edward, I'll be your wife," I replied. The tears began to spill down my cheeks.
My heart beat a rhythm as fast as a thousand drums as he pulled the antique ring from the beautiful box and slid it onto finger.
"This was my grandmother's ring; she wore it every single day for sixty years that she was married to my grandfather. I can only hope that we'll be as blessed in life and our love as they were," he said as he pulled my ring finger to his lips where he laid a gentle kiss.
"Oh my God, Edward. It's so beautiful … and to know this was your grandmother's ring," I said, unable to speak because of the enormity of emotions I currently felt.
His smile and the wetness of his own eyes made my heart skip another beat as I pulled him closer in order to kiss him.
I had so many uncertain feelings as we began the weekend, but I was absolutely certain now that things had changed between us. I had forgotten so much of the hurt and was happy to just let us be who were in the beginning.
He had thought out every single detail. I knew he felt the same level of emotions if the tears on his cheeks were any clue.
I grabbed his face and put my forehead against his.
I closed my eyes for a second so I could catch my breath.
When I opened them I put my palms against his cheeks, and whispered, "I forgive you, Edward Masen."
A/n: See ya'll tomorrow for the next chapter;)
Rec for today: Mud, Sweat and Beers by sparrownotes24 – it's funny, quirky and I'm loving the growing tension between "Cullen" and Bella. Give it a read and tell her I sent you;)
Kyla
