Sevasey Drabbles
Yes or No
"Matt, can you hear me?" Severide's green eyes bore into his.
The world was spinning.
Everything was a haze.
He couldn't feel anything.
"Don't try to talk." Severide shook his head at his garbled attempt. "There's a tube in your throat."
His eyes searched around but he saw nothing.
"Blink once for yes and twice for no, ok?"
Blink.
"Do you remember what happened?"
He couldn't remember anything.
He didn't know where he was.
Blink blink.
Now he noticed Severide's eyes were not only full of concern, they were on the brink of crying.
Again.
Again because he could see there were tracks in the grime and dirt on Severide's face.
"A gas tank blew. The ceiling caved in and…" Severide looked away.
He tried to talk, tried to ask what was wrong but he couldn't.
"Do you remember?" Severide asked again because he didn't want to remind him, didn't want to be the one to tell him.
There were flashes of images. Flashes of pain. Flashes of tears. Flashes of fear.
Oh God.
Blink.
"You do remember," Severide stated.
Blink.
A tear escaped and trailed down his own dirt covered face.
"They weren't going to wake you." Severide was forceful with his words, as if he was struggling to speak. "But you have a choice and they will make it for you if don't."
He didn't who they were.
Severide took a deep breath. "Both your legs were crushed. They can… they can try and repair them both but… but…"
He stared up at him.
"… But the damage is… is significant. The chance of… the likelihood that you'll develop an infection… that the stress of the…" Severide swallowed. "They want to amputate your right leg."
Oh God.
"You'll never regain full function of it if they try to save it… Matt… Matty, if they try to save it your survival chance decreases but… but I want you to choose… I wanted you to know before they…"
Oh God.
"I… I think you should let them amputate," Severide stated, "And I want you to know whatever you decide I'll be here with you, I'll support your decision. I'm not going to leave you."
Oh God.
"Yes or no, Matt?"
Blink.
Severide let out a sigh of relief. "Ok." He looked away for a moment. "They're gonna put you under again. I'll be right here when you wake up. I promise. I love you Matt, I love you…"
