CHAPTER 54
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It's been two days since I confronted Jax about the letters and I think it's safe to say the atmosphere in the club house is awkward and tense but things between me and Jax are great. In those two days I had time to think and I've registered that things will be different – I don't know how or when Clay will get what's coming to him as Clay still sits at the head of table.
Then I thought about the plan for me and Jax to get away from charming and it doesn't look like it's going to happen anytime soon which as long as Clay isn't around I'm ok with.
As for Gemma she has accepted what Jax knows and she's accepted that something needs to happen to Clay which I've heard her say from herself. I know that they aren't living together anymore and the only time they cross paths is at TM.
I keep asking Jax when he will plan a time to let everyone know about the letters and truth about Clay killing JT. Everyone must be wondering why they've been keeping their distance from each other but he doesn't know 'when is right' and that there is 'more to it'.
I also worry about my dad. Although I have told him I'm thankful for giving the letters to Jax I know Clay won't feel the same and the history the two of them have together is bad enough.
I know Jax better than anyone and the last thing he will do is walk away from his club that's falling apart.
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It was late and Neeta was still here helping the boys get ready for bed and since Jax wasn't picking up his cell I decided I might as well drive over to the clubhouse to see if he's there.
When I get there I can see Opie's bike but no sign of Jax's. When I open the club house door I hear yelling coming from towards the back and when I walk there I can see Opie standing in the doorway of the chapel pointing a gun. I walk nearer towards where he is and see he's pointing it at Clay and Jax is pointing his gun at Opie
"What the hell is going on?!" I shout when I stand at the chapel door.
"Go outside Cara!" Jax yells at me when he notices I'm here
"No! she should see this!" Opie yells and my focus is going back and forth between them.
"See what Ope?! Will someone tell me what happened?!" I ask franticly
"Clay killed Dad" he said still looking at Clay and I'm not sure if I heard him correctly or just don't want to believe it.
"Shit" I hear Jax say under his breath and yell at Opie "Ope just put the gun down!"
"What?" I say quietly not sure what else to say, hoping his words aren't true.
"I found him Cara, with a hole blown through his chest!" he says and I stand there in shock as I try register his words. Clay did what I was paranoid he would do, because of the letters.
"Do I get to say anything here?" Clay says from his end of the room.
"Did my old man get to say anything when you blew hole in his chest?! Sit down!" Opie yells at Clay and I've never seen Opie this angry - ever.
"Ope, put it down – don't make me shoot you!" Jax yells, why is Jax protecting him?
"Somebody's been lying to you Ope" Clay says lying through his teeth and I'm still standing frozen from what Opie told me. I don't even notice I'm crying until I taste tears in wide open shocked mouth.
"Having Donna killed, that a lie!?" Opie yells again, what the hell has this got to do with Donna? "You're gonna die at the gavel!" he yells one last time and all I hear is BANG BANG BANG and clay falls to the ground.
"SHIT!" Opie calls out grabbing a hold of his hand and I go towards him to make sure he's ok but his hand has a gunshot wound – I take off my jacket quickly and wrap it around his hand.
"Jax!" I yell at him as he goes over to Clay to try help him, then Rat comes running through freaking out trying to help Clay up.
"Go take Opie to the truck Cara and wait for me there!" Jax yells asking me
"You just shot Opie Jax!" I yell back him
"CARA! GO! TAKE OPIE TO THE TRUCK!" he yells at me one last time while I look back at him annoyed by his response. I grab Opie by the arm and walk quickly to the truck.
I help get Opie into the front seat of the truck and ask him "Are you okay?" while I wipe my still running tears.
"Yeah" is all he says
"Put pre-ssure on - it, o-kay?" I tell him through the tears, shut his door and go and sit in the back seat and wait for Jax. When we are both sitting in the truck its silent apart from Opie's groans from pain.
"Oh my god" I say covering my mouth
"I'm sorry you found out this way" Opie tells me looking in the rear-view mirror
"Ug-h" I let out wiping my completely wet face
I hear the driver's door opens and Jax hops in covered in blood.
"Where is he?" I ask still crying and Jax turns on the engine and starts pulling out the drive
"In the garage, with Unser – an ambulance is on its way. Its covered"
"I'm gonna kill him Cara" Opie tells me ignoring Jax.
"No, you're gonna let me find out what the hell happened!" Jax yells at Opie
"I hope he dies." I say to myself loud enough for them to hear
"Talk to your mother Jax. Gemma and Unser found my old man up at the cabin. They knew Clay killed him and tried to pass it off as a cartel hit." Opie tells him
"How do you know all that?" Jax asks him
"Unser followed me up there last night." Opie tells him and Jax says "Jesus Christ."
I break out of my stare out the window when I hear Opie say last night to say "You knew since last night?"
"Yeah"
"Why didn't you say anything?!"
"Because Cara, you're my little sister it's not something that is that easy to tell!"
"I'm gonna drop you at the emergency care off of Crane. Lyla'll pick you up?" Jax says to Opie
"Yeah, man."
"You gotta lay low, Ope. I'll tell the guys you're up at the cabin. I will find the truth, I promise."
"Yeah. Just what I need, another promise." Opie says as we pull up at the hospital and Opie jumps out
"Maybe I should go with you Opie" I say getting out of the truck.
"No Cara, get back in the truck" Jax says and I sigh, annoyed at him telling me what to do.
"Jax is right, I'll be okay" he says and I give him a sympathetic look and I get back in the truck but in the passenger seat this time and Jax continues driving on.
We drove in silence for a couple of minutes, the only sound was me silently crying and the engine.
"Why did you try stop him Jax?" I ask him bluntly not looking at him but out the window.
"Cara, it's not that simple."
"He kill-ed my d-ad Jax. How is it – how is it not simple to give a man what he deserves?" I say this time looking at him but he focuses on the road. "How are you in this much denial? After everything we talked about with the letters and -"
"I'm not in denial! If I had let Opie just shoot Clay in the head this would be a bigger issue than you think. A member killing another member of the club … it's not good Cara. You have to vote – look into these things.'"
"Bu-llshit!" I yell at him and more tears keep running as I feel angrier "Take a vote, pfft. If that's your right way of doing things, then why has Clay been walking around like the god damn king after what happened to Donna!? … Opie said he ha-d something to do with her death. Did you know about that?" I ask him looking at him this time.
"Cara, will you drop it?" he tries to tell me
"Stop the car." I tell him trying to remain calm.
"No Cara! Are you crazy?!"
"JUST STOP THE CAR!" I yell at him louder than I didn't know my voice could go and I feel the car swerve and him pull over and I take the chance and get out slamming the door behind me.
"Where he hell do you think you're going?!" he yells after me but I ignore him. "Cara stop being a child and get back in the truck." He says and that was enough to make me turn back and when I get near him I push him
"HOW DARE YOU?!" I say and push him again
"CARA STOP!" he yells back at me
"NO!" I yell and try to calm down and control my breathing. "I'm am done with this shit! I dodge bullets for you, I watched people get stabbed because of you, children are kidnapped and now my dad dies because of this club by a man you said would die for everything he did and now you are trying to protect!" I step back and wipe my eyes for the millionth time. "When your father died you got to do whatever the hell you wanted. You started treating me like shit on and off – you yelled at me for no reason, I didn't hear from you at days at a time. I'm allowed to be this angry okay?! I'm allowed to want the man who killed my dad suffer the same fate!"
"Look, I know it's hard Cara but I will deal with it!" he says holding his hands up
"What you just throw away the clothes?! Wipe away the blood?! Is that how you deal with it Jax?! God, this is starting to make so much sense!" I say pushing my hair out of my face
"What are you talking about?" he asks me.
"Maybe if I had told you sooner about the letters then Clay wouldn't have done this." I say taking a breath and trying to control my new tears. "And all the times Clay mentioned them to me I just pushed it aside not thinking he would do anything and now."
"Hey" Jax says softly and puts his hands on my shoulders "I'm not mad okay? I get it, I get how you feel, that anger, that grieve – you want Clay dead. Look, so do I but as I said it's not that simple. You just have to trust me. Do you trust me?" he asks and puts his hands on my face.
"Yes" I say as he wipes away my tears.
"I ask myself the same questions you do and I loved your old man. We will make him suffer, just at the right time. I promise you"
"I don't know how many more promises I can take" I tell him blankly and walk past him and back to the truck.
