Chapter 54
Adrianna POV
"Here at least talk to her," I glared at Damon as he held out his phone, I grabbed it before unlocking the door and walking in.
"I hate you and can't believe you did that." I snapped into the phone just in time to see Nik standing there looking hurt.
"What?" he questioned and I think at first he thought I was talking to him.
"Not you Nik, I was talking to Bri. Bri I hate you and you owe me." I handed Damon his phone and he nodded at me before walking down the corridor laughing about something with Bri.
We stood there looking at each other neither of us saying anything, I wanted to apologise for sounding so angry before he even told me what happened.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to be as angry as I was. I was more annoyed that you didn't tell me, for a year I had been trying to get out of you what happened because it sounded like a damn mystery and I wanted in. You had all summer before I was taken to tell me but you still hadn't, they hate pulling Guardians off Moroi guarding if they can help it so it must have been something pretty bad but I know you. I doubt you would have done something without thinking, you must have had a good reason to do whatever it was you did." I spoke as I carefully took a step forward until I was standing in front of him and I looked up at him.
"I know and I'm sorry I stormed off, I partly regret what I did so bad. I could have been in much worse trouble then what I am, but I still stand by what I did and I don't regret that part of it. I also don't regret how it brought me to you." He cupped my face before softly kissing me and I instantly smiled into the kiss before wrapping my arms around his neck.
"Are you going to tell me what happened?" I questioned softly and he nodded before grabbing my hand and leading me over to the couch before pulling me onto his lap.
"I was paired with a Moroi that was related to my mother's charge, we were lucky, we were able to see each other regularly. The families were taking a holiday and we were attacked, it was eerily similar to what happened when I lost my brother. I snapped once the Strigoi were dead because my Moroi happened to push my mother's partner's child in front of them and in turn that child died. I turned on my Moroi and beat the living daylights out of him, it took both my mother and her partner to pull me away before I killed him. I was taken off Moroi rotation because I turned on my Moroi, I caused harm instead of preventing harm." I twisted in his arms and looked at him in shock.
I could tell he was worried, he was worried what I would think of him but honestly it doesn't change anything. He did what he did for a reason, yes he went against everything we grew up believing but if we were humans. There would be nothing wrong with beating up someone who was the reason as to why an innocent child was dead.
"Dri…?"
"I don't hate you, don't ever think I hate you. So you snapped, an innocent child is dead because of a selfish Moroi. You didn't kill anyone, the Moroi deserved it and I agree you got lucky with your punishment but either way you need to learn to stop beating yourself up because of it. You've told me before to look on the positive side of things, the positive side of this is that we got to meet. If that never happened you wouldn't have been at St Vladimir's." I smiled at him before snuggling deeper into him.
"Thank you." He kissed the top of my head. "You need to stop beating yourself up as well, you can't keep blaming yourself for what happened. You couldn't have prevented Clary's death, it was either you or her."
"Damon and Bri conspired against me to drag me to therapy, that's why I was telling Bri I hate her when I walked in." I spoke softly and all he did in response at first was kiss the top of my head again.
"Did it help?"
"Nope, but it didn't make things worse. I'm going back in a couple of days though."
"If I had of known dragging you there against your will would have worked, I would have done it weeks ago." Nik teased and I pulled away to glare at him but he just laughed. "Oh come on, you and I both know if I dragged you there it wouldn't have worked for me. Damon and Bri are different, you would have been so happy seeing them you would have done anything for them, even this."
"You aren't mad?" I questioned, honestly surprised he didn't sound annoyed because he has been bugging me about therapy for weeks.
"Not at all, I actually gave them the idea hoping at least one of them could be here over Christmas."
"That's why they all came out here instead of going straight to Izzy and Eric's parents'." I grumbled before pulling away and headed towards the kitchen.
"And now you're mad at me?" Nik spun me around so I could face him and I shook my head.
"I just hate being forced to do something I'm not ready for."
"I actually believe you were ready for it, it's why you didn't storm out but you were just so set on not going you stopped thinking about it."
"That's not true…"
"Yet you're going back in a couple of days."
"We'll see what happens…" I shrugged before pulling away from him. I heard him let out a sigh as I headed towards the fridge and pulled out a bottle of water, he nodded and I threw one at him before grabbing another.
I stood there leaning against the counter and he walked closer to me, he didn't stop until he was standing directly in front of me.
"Just don't stop going Dri, I know how well therapy can work. I saw one after I lost my brother, this will help you get over whatever guilt you have left regarding Clary's death. I know you went through so much while you were taken but this will help, it will help you get over your guilt and let you move on with your life. You know the final step is to get your tattoos right?" he reached around and softly rang his fingers over the spot where my tattoos should be.
"Maybe as your Christmas present," I teased him and he laughed for a second before he stopped and his face became serious. "What is it?"
"My mother wants me to come see her over Christmas…"
"Then do it, you haven't seen her in a year." He furrowed his eyebrows and looked at me, hoping to detect something.
"I won't go if you don't want me too, I'm glad you're seeing a therapist but I know how you can be Dri. You were panicking when I left for my shifts to begin with, I think a part of you still panics but the reason you don't react like you used to is because of two reasons, one you want me to believe you are perfectly fine and two you know I will come back in a few hours. I will be gone for three weeks, are you going to be okay with that?"
"I have to be don't I? I can't continue to be this needy girlfriend, if I was never kidnapped we probably wouldn't be living in the same apartment, I would continue to have the one downstairs. My family is returning for Christmas and…I can live with Rose and Dimitri if I'm that worried about being alone and plus Damon and Josh are here until Christmas Eve, you should go see your mum. You don't get to see your family as often as I do…and…I can't take that from you." I had to keep taking deep breaths, I had to make it seem like I was fine with him leaving.
I needed him to believe me because I knew if he thought I would be a complete mess without him here then he wouldn't leave and I will not be that girlfriend. I put on a brave face because I knew he missed his family.
"Dri are you sure, because one word and I can stay? If it wasn't for the fact that I know you would panic the minute we left the wards I would ask you to come with me."
"It's fine, I promise I will be fine. You should go see your mum," I gave him a smile as he softly stroked my jaw with his thumb.
"Okay, I love you." I nodded and he pressed his lips against mine.
"When do you leave?"
"A couple of days," my stomach dropped with that.
"Why am I only hearing about this now?" I snapped at him and he frowned placing both of his hands on my neck.
"Because I didn't even think it would be possible without you stepping foot into your therapist's office, you've been in such a good mood lately with you being able to be back in the gym and having some of your friends back here. I wasn't planning on going but seeing just how close you are to being back to normal I thought it would be possible, I still wouldn't do it if you didn't want me to leave you here alone."
"I've already said this, you should go. I will be fine." I pulled away from him and headed down towards our bedroom with the idea of getting changed and heading towards the gym.
Nik wrapped his hand around my wrist to stop me from walking out the door, "are you alright?"
"I'm fine, I just want to go to the gym." He raised an eyebrow at me. "I promise I won't push myself, nothing more than what we've already done and I'm pretty sure I can get Damon and Josh to join me."
"Okay," he softly kissed me before letting go of my wrist and allowing me to leave the apartment.
Except I didn't have to call Damon and Josh to ask them to join me at the gym because when I entered I found the two of them sparing, but they both stopped when they noticed me walk over and join them.
"Everything alright Dri?"
"No, I still hate you." I snapped at Damon and Josh laughed before wrapping an arm around his neck.
"I told you she would hate you."
"Oh go fuck yourself Josh," I watched as Damon and Josh began fighting it out while I laughed on the sidelines.
It wasn't until they realised I was laughing at them that they turned on me and started coming my way.
"Woah, hold up there. I'm on light training, think of me like a poor little freshman." I looked at them innocently but it still didn't stop them from running at me and I had no choice but to turn and run.
"Okay, I'm sorry. I give up, please don't hurt me!" I screeched as I was pinned to the floor, they shared a look before they both started tickling my sides and I had no choice but to squirm underneath them as I tried to get away but it was no use, they were stronger than me.
I was completely out of breath by the time they stopped tickling me and I was grateful, I was able to catch my breath.
"So what are you doing in here? I figured you would have stayed away from me and with Nik, he looked really hurt when I left." Damon got off and sat beside me while I sat up.
"He thought me saying I hate you to Bri was for him, once I told him it was aimed at Bri and not him he was fine. I found out what happened though, it's pretty bad."
"How bad? Could it get you in trouble being with him?" I shook my head.
"No, I can't be dragged into it. He basically went against everything we've been taught by turning on his Moroi, if it wasn't for all his Strigoi kills he would most likely be stuck behind a desk." I spoke, Nik didn't say I couldn't tell my friends but I could trust Damon and Josh, I knew they won't tell Izzy and Eric.
"You're not mad at him for it?" Josh questioned.
"A little but there's more to it that is definitely not my place to tell and I understand why he did what he did. But after everything that I've been through he has stuck by my side, he deserves the same treatment."
"He stuck by your side because he loves you, do you love him?" Damon questioned and I didn't know how to answer that. It was something I've been wondering myself the last couple of days but had still yet to work it out completely.
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