" So you say that's she's changed?" Alex's voice spoke from the other end of my phone.

It was currently the next morning around 11:30Am.

"Yeah. Last night, you saw her, how different she acted." I clarified marking words down on my homework assignment due Monday.

Alex didn't answer me right away so I had to call his name to make sure he was still there.

"Alex, you still there?"

"Yeah, I was just thinking. . ."

"About?" I inquired.

"I'll admit she has. . .uh, changed ."

I lifted an eyebrow at the way he had said it, his voice sounded unbelievable. "Why'd you put it that way?" I asked stopping my pencil from writing.

" Don't you find all this to be strange, that yesterday morning she was completely out of it and wasn't herself but then suddenly she's all over it as if it never happened." he replied back trying to prove his point with facts that pretty much did make sense.

I didn't know why, but I kind of felt offended by the way he had said this." What is that supposed to mean?" I asked the annoyed edge in my voice clearly heard.

"Don't get the wrong idea, I just think she's. . .not completely over her drinking thing even if she has just started it."

"Oh, really, then why didn't I find a single bottle of alcohol under her bed last night when I went to go check, plus she even told me she was over the drinking thing."

"Gareki, I'm just not sure about this. I don't think she's fully over it all, I mean think about it, how hurt she was when Jared left her and not to mention your dad being taken away to jail.

The offended feeling grew inside of me making my fingers tighten around my phone. was he honestly trying t o make this even more worse for me. I wanted to believe things were over and I had but now his words made me think my mom wasn't completely over her pain. I just wanted to forget and relax knowing that I didn't need to worry about her being home alone and drinking and doing something potentially that could end her life but why did he have to make me second guess myself?

"Are you an expert on this?" My voice came out deep and slightly angry despite me trying to hold it back. I didn't want to be mad at him but I just wanted my life to be normal and not stressing over problems in my life such as this one. But having him make me second guess what was actually happening made me stress all over again.

"No, but- "

"Then I think we should stop talking about this." I interrupted quickly.

He sighed before answering slowly, " alright."

We both were silent and the awkward feeling started. Something neither of us had felt in a long time it seemed.

"I'm sorry." He said quietly.

"Alex don't, I shook my head looking down at my homework before replying, none of it is because of you. . . I just don't want to think about it any more. Sorry."

"It's fine. he said before adding, what happened between you and Nai yesterday?"

I paused and frowned." How did you know about that?"

"D.C told me. Only part of it anyway."

"Oh." Was all I could say.

Alex inhaled a breath on the other end before asking." I heard that you and him pretty much almost got into a fight."

I clenched my jaw just thinking about the events that had happened between me and him. I wasn't going to tell Alex what had happened but since D.C had already told him part of it then I might as well tell him now and hope that he wouldn't start an actual fight this time. I may have been angry at Nai for what he had said but I didn't want to see him or Alex punching each others faces in.

I leaned back in my chair and stared up at my sealing, "my mom's out of the house right now which means I don't have to keep an eye on her now, could you pick me up and we could go somewhere?"

"Sure." He agreed.

My bare feet touched the soft sand as I looked out over the horizon to see the sun cover by the clouds leaving a warm wind to blow threw my hair and my bare arms since I was wearing a lose tank top and jeans.

Alex walked up next to me with his hands shoved into his jean pockets. He looked off into the horizon with me.

"Is this good enough to make you feel calmer?"

I nodded, earlier I had asked him if there was any where in Boston that would be enough to calm my anger down and he decided to take me to a beach, the most calmest place he ever knew of.

"Yeah." I said beginning to walk along the shore line feeling the cold salt water splash against my feet and soak the bottom half of my jeans.

"So what did Nai do to you exactly?" Alex asked me seriously as he walked along with me.

"He didn't do anything to me, it's what he said that made me angry."

Alex lifted an eyebrow." What did he say?"

I explained to him how I was planning on telling both Nai and D.C what had happened to him in gym thanks to me when Nai had said something that still made me angry every time I thought about it.

"I don't know what his problem is, I just think that he either feels jealous or he doesn't think your good enough for me." I said rolling my eyes.

"It's all because of the breakup thing, am I right?" He asked thoughtfully.

"Yeah."

Alex sighed. "Oddly enough I'm not offended in any sort of way, or angry."

I stopped in my tracks and turned to him." You're not mad?" I asked in disbelief.

He stopped as well and gave me a confused look. "uh no, am I supposed to be?"

I shrugged, no I just expected you to act differently about him talking bad behind your back. I even thought you were going to fight him because of it."

"The only reason if I would fight would be if any one says anything bad about you."

I blinked a little surprised by his statement.

He noticed my slightly surprised look and shrugged nonchalantly, "What, I can't be over protective about you?"

I turned away from him an unstoppable smile coming to my lips." I didn't say that, it just surprised me a little. But how do you honestly feel about the whole situation?"

We began walking again.

"I told you, I feel like he's not offending me in any kind of way because I'm not going to let him, let him say and feel how he wants just as long as he doesn't try to get together with you then I don't really care what mood he's in." Alex answered.

I nodded, " Well said."

Alex looked up at the sky again. " I can't believe how much we've been threw in a matter of weeks."

"You're right, I guess everything just started to happen once you came to this school."

He looked at me. " I wouldn't say everything."

" Of course not everything but most of it. Sort of like. . . everything happens for a reason."

He laughed slightly." I guess so." he then walked away from the shore and pointed out a spot near the rocky part of the beach.

"lets go check out the ocean in this direction."

I followed him stepping carefully on the rocks before coming down to my hands and knees and climbed the rest of the way before sitting on the edge of the large rock, leaving my feet dangling from the long height the ocean spraying water beneath us, Alex joined me soon after.

from this view point I could see the sun way more clearer then from below where we were initially. It was so much more brighter and golden.

"How are you feeling?" He suddenly asked.

I looked at him from the corner of my eye. " What do you mean, I'm fine?"

"You sure, I know what we did happened the other night but sometimes when you do it for the very first time you tend to feel odd and I haven't asked you ever since that night- "

" Wait, are you talking about the night we had sex?" I asked just now catching on to what he was mentioning.

"Yeah." he smiled.

"Oh, in that case are you asking me how I felt that night?"

" No, but I do feel like I need to say sorry since I did come onto to you unexpectedly."

"You don't need to, I mean I did tell you that it felt good, and besides you asked me if I was okay during it so I'm not mad at you or anything."

He was silent for a moment before asking. " So you wouldn't be mad if I asked you to do it again?"

I turned towards him not expecting him to say that." No, matter a fact I would say yes."

He smiled a small one at me before reaching towards me and lifted my hand up and kissed my knuckles with his warm lips making my face heat up at his actions.

I didn't know what I was saying next but it had just fumbled out of my mouth." You should kiss me." I said quietly soft.

Dropping my hand he reached towards my face and pulled me into him before kissing me on the lips.

I instinctively closed my eyes feeling him against me, I wondered why his lips always gave me a reassurance that I always needed when I was near him. Maybe it was because sometimes he would seem unreal, to perfect to even exist but this was the way I knew he was here for me and actually here with me and not some figment of imitation.