Ashley traipsed down the stairs an hour later to see Paula and Clay sitting on the couch playing video games. The brunette smiled, the thought of Paula being a cool video game playing mother still seemed weird.

"So she coming down we have to get going?" Clay paused the game as the two turned to look at her; she walked to the chair and plopped down.

"She doesn't want to go," Ashley sighed. The two had argued for the full hour, Ashley still had no clue as to what they were fighting about because Spencer changed gears so fast and often Ashley was struggling to keep her thoughts in order. She wondered briefly if that was how Spencer felt, like she was drowning in to many words and ideas and thoughts to keep her self afloat.

"What happen to the Davies charm?" Paula repositioned her self so she faced the brunette who shrugged.

"Well she's going and that's final,"

"Clay..."

"No Ashley you put a lot of thought into it and she's going one way or another," he nodded putting on his you-can't-win-against- me face.

"He's right; she's going but tomorrow, let's let her cool off tonight. It's a private plane so we can reschedule right?"

"Sure Mrs. C," Ashley agreed happy at least these two wanted to go. She knew Spencer would love the surprise; everything went into the plan for her.

Spencer sat up stairs staring out the bared window up to the stars, she use to love them. The twinkle of light guiding lost souls home, making the world below seem insignificant and small but now they just reminded her of nothing. Pulling her eyes away from the window she sat at her desk staring at the medicine bottles she swiped from her mother's purse.

Everything was fine with me and Ash when I took them, she was happy and I 'seemed' happy, why did I stop taking them? Because I' am fake when I take them, it's not really me and if Ashley can only love the medicated version of me than I need to let her go. But damn I don't want to, she's everything...beautiful, loving, caring , thoughtful, sexy, hot, wonderfully naughty at the right times, innocent when no one is around but me, god why can't I make these hateful thoughts stop, so she told Dr. Noble about Aiden that's no big deal...right?

Spencer slammed her head down on the desk, telling her self it was no big deal yet inside her mind, that never shut down unless Ashley is holding her, it was and she wasn't sure why.

Her phone went off and she quickly hid the medicine in her pocket before grabbing and flipping open her cell, "Hello?"

"Hey rock star,"

"What's up Brenda?" Spencer smiled and sat down in the closet where no one could see her.

"Not much you?"

"Same," an uncomfortable silence took over. Ashley and I never have this kind of silence on the phone, man I love listening to her breath or her heart beat it's the most relaxing thing in the world.

"Spence...Spencer, YO ROCK STAR!"

"What?" Spencer shook her head trying to clear it.

"You out of it or something?" Brenda chuckled into the phone.

"Or something,"

"Ok look the reason I called is there's a party going on, it's tight, so get off your ass and get over here."

"I can't..."

"Bullshit," Brenda cut her off, "No excuses. Get that girl of yours to bring you or Chelsea or any one since your mommy doesn't want you out by your self."

"It's not like that,"

"Right rock star what ever you say, now get off your ass and go ask your mommy to go out," Brenda's voice yelled above the music beating in the back ground that had been turned up as the party seemed to be getting good.

"Okay," Spencer stood up and walked down stairs to see her mom, Ashley and Clay playing video games and laughing. They played a racing game and Paula was right behind Clay so Ashley jumped in tackling Clay trying to get the controller while urging Paula to go fast and beat him. The group was laughing and having a good time, Spencer felt the medicine in her pocket and sudden got angry at the fact that her family would rather her take pills than be her regular self. Quietly she slipped out the front door with out no one noticing.

"Ya there rock star," Brenda called out for like the millionth time.

"Pick me up," Spencer pleaded walking down the side walk.

"Where you at?"

"I'll be at Stasion Park,"

"Be there in second..." Spencer hung up her phone. Once at the park she waited no more than ten minutes before the older girl pulled up.

"You're late,"

"How so?" Brenda wondered.

"You said you'd be here in a second, it was ten minutes..." the blond showed her watch as if that would prove something.

"Love ya too rock star now let's go party," Brenda sped off. The tires of the car squealing and burning rubber on the asphalt.

The party was just as big as Brenda said it was; kids littered the dancing floor as the drunken students crashed into each other or made out. The room felt like it was suffocating to Spencer who wished Ashley would show up any second and lace their fingers together.

"I'll be right back," Spencer yelled over the music and made her way into the bathroom. Taking deep breaths she pulled the medicine bottles out of her pocket, setting them on the counter and just staring. She wanted to take them, make all the anxiety and bad thoughts disappear even if it was for the night but she also knew she'd probably be drinking and it wasn't a bright idea to mix and match.

"Here," Brenda was waiting outside the bathroom door with a cup of beer already to go, she thrust it into the blonde's hand who downed it in one quick motion, "I see we'll be making several stops to the keg tonight," she laughed while linking arms with Spencer and leading her toward the back yard where hardly any one was.

Outside the cool air swept over them, cooling their hot skin from the fire burning inside the house with so many people jammed together. They sat down on the swings, Spencer felt slightly disoriented and sick to her stomach, and Brenda sat there not saying anything obviously enjoying the silence that seemed deafening to Spencer.

Just before her mind wrapped around a sentence Brenda leaned forward so their hot breaths mixed together, "You look beautiful tonight..."

"I...uh?" Spencer glanced down, she still wore her jeans and t shirt nothing fancy, she even had no make up on, "I think your drunk," the blond giggled pointing at the taller girl.

"I think you're not drunk enough," Brenda handed Spencer her drink that had yet to be touched, the girl downed this one too like it was no big deal, "Wanna dance?"

"No..."

"Okay," Brenda nodded while standing up. She reached down and hauled the younger girl up, sliding her hands to rest on Spencer's hips. Brenda moved them to the far away beat of the music in the house.

"I...Ashley...me..."

"How can you tell me you're not shy," Brenda giggled, "It's called full sentences Spencer...You and Ashley are together, I'm not hitting on you." The girl assured her.

"But we're dancing?"

"Yes we are," Brenda smiled at how Spencer had a hard time forming coherent thought around her.

"Listen I know..." a male voice broke the moment, they both turned to see Aiden on the phone, "I want to be with you two...so dump her Ash...don't give me that guilt trip...let her mom take care of her...Ashley please just come to the party, so what if Spencer is up stairs moping..."

Spencer's eyes widen and her heart fell a thousand feet to the ground, her hands shook with fear and her stomach was worse than before. He turned around and stared at her, a sick smile plastered to his face, before he opened his mouth she was gone, running off into the party.

Aiden's smile faded, the devastation on Spencer' face was way more than he bargained for, Brenda had manipulated him into thinking the blond had no feelings for Ashley and was just stringing her along, but the sadness on her face told him that he was wrong Spencer loved Ashley more than anything. He flipped the phone shut and tried to run after her but Brenda got in his way, "Where are you going?"

"I have to tell her the truth," he tried to step aside but she wouldn't let him pass.

"The truth?"

"Yeah that Ashley wasn't on the phone, I made it up..." he choked. This girl was scary when she was pissed.

"I don't think so, remember the plan," Brenda tapped him in the chest before turning and rushing into the party, she found Spencer still trying to make her way through the crowd, "Come on!" Brenda shouted and yanked the confused girl out to her car and driving off with out any protesting from Spencer.

Aiden ran as fast as he could but the car was faster than he was, he had to make this right, he flipped open his phone and speed dialed, "Ashley...I know you...she's got Spencer..." he waited while Ashley denied it and went up stairs to check, "Calm down...no I didn't...look...yes I know...fine I'll be there...in a minute," he finished saying to the dial tone. Quickly he hopped into his car and drove to the Carlin's home.

TBC.