MC4A; Hogwarts

Fill 5
Stacked With: Hogwarts; Spring Bingo; BAON; FPC; TTT
Individual Challenges: In a Flash (N); Click Bait It (Y); The 3rd Rule (Y); Lovely Triangle (Y); Yellow Ribbon (Y); Yellow Ribbon Redux (Y); Neurodivergent (N); Quiet Time (N); Forehead Kisses
Representations: Katie Bell; Susan Bones; Hannah Abbott; Triad; Autistic Hannah
Bonus Challenges: Nontraditional; Second Verse (Bechdel Test; Not a Lamp)
Tertiary Bonus Challenges: Terse; Terrarium
Prompts: Katie Bell/Susan Bones/Hannah Abbott (auction); Narrow (365 words); Hurt/Comfort (Insane Prompts); Bingo - 2B (Fertility)
Word count: 636


Hannah was curled up in the bed with the blanket thrown over her head and only a narrow hole to allow her to breathe properly. As she lay there staring blankly out of the little hole, her mind continued racing with thoughts. It was a stupid thing to panic over. It was something that every woman would have to think about at some point and yet she never had.

She had never thought that it would be necessary. She was lesbian and that had been enough for her mind to process when she was younger. And then when that hurdle had been cleared she had thought that maybe that was it. Surely, if she had no contact with the opposite sex, she wouldn't have to think about children.

That had been what she thought until today when Katie had brought it up. Hannah had happily participated in the conversation about children and expanding their family until Susan had brought up surrogates and Hannah had suddenly found herself in panic mode.

Surrogate meant one them would carry the child, or even children. Surrogate meant there would be approximately nine months of a foreign object within one of their bodies and Hannah had suddenly realised that she freaked out at that thought. It didn't matter that the foreign object would be a child made up of the DNA of whoever bore it and the surrogate they chose; it was still something that hadn't been there before and thus shouldn't suddenly be a part of the body.

Hannah had had to leave the table and Katie and Susan before she couldn't move. With shaky limbs, she had hurried to the bed and buried herself in its comforting depths. It was stupid to feel like this, she reminded herself again. But even though her brain was telling her how stupid it was, it wasn't stopping the unease pregnancy suddenly instilled in her.

She felt the bed dip and knew that Katie and Susan had determined she would be calm enough now to at least communicate why she had had to leave. Hands slowly pried the blanket away from Hannah's face and blinked in the light to see two concerned faces looking down at her.

"You okay?" Susan asked and Hannah shrugged slightly.

She was. It just didn't seem like it at the moment. It would pass as it always did. As she saw the concern still present on their faces, she wanted to curse her mind for panicking over nothing. It was fine. She was fine. Nothing to worry about.

"Just…all hit me," she whispered out.

Katie hummed and curled up on her side next to Hannah. "Think you could explain?"

Hannah lifted her fingers from where she was gripping the blanket and waved them vaguely. "Babies in the body… It's just…bad. Foreign. I never thought about it before but when I apply it to us, I just… It feels wrong."

"Okay, so we avoid that path."

"Really?" She thought that having a surrogate was a preferred option for both Susan and Katie. They had both seemed in favour of it when they were talking.

Susan brushed her hand over Hannah's forehead and pushed back the strands of fringe that lay there. "Of course, Hannah. We're in this together and we don't want to do something that makes you uncomfortable. We can always adopt."

Hannah sighed in relief and let go of the blanket to pull Katie and Susan closer. "I wish there was a magic pill that could make me not freak out about random things," she mumbled.

Katie laughed. "Sadly, magic isn't real and even if it was, we like you just the way you are."

"Even when I freak out?"

"Even when you freak out," Susan confirmed, pressing a kiss to Hannah's forehead and cuddling in closer.