OMG I'm ALIVE! How long has it been? Since August? OH! I am a terrible person! falls into a ditch
When Our Eyes Meet - Part 53
Normal POV
It wasn't until Boris and his guards had left that Tala was able to shake himself free of the horrified, frozen place he had disappeared to in his mind. He had watched his best friend, his boy friend his lover be raped. Had watched as the guards took turns holding Kai's arms and legs to the bed and assulted him one right after the other. He had listened to the insults and demeaning, horrible things they had said to the person he loved,
And he had done nothing.
Boris had held his arms until they threatened to snap in half, smiling and laughing as he watched Tala try desperately try to reach his lover on the bed and fail. He took pleasure in the way Kai finally broke down and cried, giving into the raw human emotion that came with being violated and turned into an object over and over again. Eventually Tala stopped struggling and fighting and cursing. He just stared, empty eyed and silent, slowing sliding to the ground and just staring at the horror show in front of them.
When it had finally ended, when one of the guards had refused to take his turn, Kai had been released and his attackers gave their own final insulting goodbyes and filed out into the hall, as per Boris's orders. They had been alone in the room, Kai laying on the bed, trembling violently and whimpering, Tala stone still on the floor, just staring.
Boris had laughed, run his hands once through Tala's hair and approached Kai, staring down with lust and contempt at the vulnerable figure. He had said something Tala couldn't hear, and spit at the once strong blader, then abandoned them in the room.
It seemed like forever before Tala finally stood, still numb, and walked on stiff legs towards the bed. He was crying silently, hesitating every few steps, afraid of what he was going to see when he got closer.
"Kai..."
His lover didn't answer, didn't give any sign that he had even heard Tala call him.
"Kai...Kai..please."
He was close enough to see, but he closed his eyes and tried to stop the shivering he felt coming from inside himself before he opened his eyes and faced him.
"Oh God."
Kai was laying on his side, eyes wide and terrified, just staring at an empty space in front of him. His pale neck was dotted with bite marks just beginning to bruise. His wrists and ankles were already swollen and discolored from being held while he struggled. Between his legs and on the bed was semen and blood, mixing into a disgusting pink fluid. Tala closed his eyes.
"Oh God. Kai."
He crawled onto the bed without realizing it, crawled through the mess and grabbed Kai from around the shoulders, pulling him up towards his chest.
"Kai. Oh my God."
Kai hadn't even reacted to being pulled off the bed. He was trembling so violently in Tala's arms that Tala feared he would never stop. The thought that Kai might suddenly stop breathing entered his mind and rocked His body back and forth.
"I am so sorry. Kai. I am so sorry."
He began to chant the words over and over, stumbling only to choke out a more painful sob and clutch Kai tighter.
Kai let out something between a whimper and a wail and clenched up in Tala's embrace. He rolled his head downwards against Tala's shoulder and cried. Tala responded by holding him tighter and continued to chant until Kai fell silent again.
"I should have fought harder to get away from Boris and get to you. I should have ripped my arm off to get away. I should...oh God. I should have let him do what he wanted with me. He would have left you alone. Oh God."
Kai couldn't remember anything from the time Boris had stepped up to the bed until he woke up to the sound of Tala whispering. A blanket had been wrapped around his body, covering up the wounds and the blood and the semen. His head was on Tala's leg, Tala's fingers in his hair, and Tala was whispering over and over again.
He kept saying he was sorry.
Kai couldn't understand. Tala kept saying he was sorry, but what had he done? It wasn't his fault. It was Kai's own fault. If he had just stayed strong and not shown any emotion, everything would have been okay. It was his fault, for doing something that had made the guards want to touch him. It was his fault that Tala had had to see it.
He closed his eyes and let out an uneven breath. How would he be able to face Tala after that. After Tala had seen him weak and demeaned. Helpless and vulnerable. All the things he was supposed to be, the things that Tala loved, were gone. How could he look Tala in the eyes, after proving to be everything that they had been taught to despise?
What would Tala do, when the obligatory comforting time was over? When morning came, would Tala leave? Stop talking to him?
Hate him?
He curled himself up tighter, hardly even noticing how badly the rest of his body hurt. Somewhere above him, he could still hear Tala chanting.
"It's my fault. Why didn't I do something? I'm so sorry."
'I'm so sorry Tala.'
And that's that. Short chapter, very disappointing. Hopefully now I'll be into the whole update frequently thing. I have time now and all. laughs
Sadly, this is not the end of the pain and torture for Kai and Tala. I know, I'm awful. And this isn't the last straw either. There will be a last straw for Tala and Kai, and that's were the story will take a turn. We still have a ways to go .; What the hell have I gotten myself into? He he.
Anyway, leave a review if you're still reading, and hopefully I'll update soon .
