Kurt spent more time in New York than he had planned. He caught up with Rachel and loved helping her coach Bryan. One day while he was out getting coffee, something at a news stand caught his eye. It was a photo of himself and Rachel when they went shopping two days prior. He stepped closer and read the headline.
"Rachel Berry friends with a criminal?" Kurt quickly flipped through to the article when a teenager pointed. "Oh my god. That's him!"
Kurt's head shot up. He placed money on the counter before quickly walking back to Rachel's.
"Kurt?" Rachel asked when the door flew open.
"What the hell is this?!" Kurt yelled, slapping the magazine on the table.
Rachel walked over and gasped. "Oh my god.."
"How did this get out?.." Kurt whispered.
"I-I don't know. Does it say?"
Kurt flipped to article and began reading quickly. The more he read, the clearer it got. Paul. Who else would have done this? "That son of a bitch!" Kurt growled.
"Who was it?"
"Paul!" Kurt hissed, grabbing Rachel's keys.
"Where are you going?" Rachel asked quickly.
"I have a few choice words for Mr. Paul Stevens!"
"Kurt, don't do it. What if he hurts you?"
"Then I'll hurt him. If you're so concerned, come with me." Kurt said, opening the door.
Rachel knew she shouldn't. But she couldn't let her friend go alone. She grabbed her shades and coat before following Kurt. They got in the car and Kurt sped to Manhattan.
"Kurt, please be careful."
"I went five intoxicated years without a DUI, I am a very good driver." Kurt said seriously. Rachel gave a small scream as Kurt swerved through traffic. "Calm down, Berry." Kurt sighed as he skidded to a stop in front of one of the nicest apartment complexes in the area.
"Kurt, I'm scared." Rachel said as they walked in.
"I know how to deal with him, Rachel."
Rachel pulled her coat around herself tighter as they found the right apartment. Kurt kicked his booted foot against the door, rolled up magazine in hand.
"What the hell?" Paul growled. His confused expression turned into a grin when he saw Kurt. "Hey babe. I see you got the magazine."
"Hey, baby. Mind explaining?!" Kurt asked, shoving it against his chest.
"People wanted to know who her new friend was. I happened to know." Paul said, clearly amused.
"Why are you so fixated on ruining my life?! What did I do to you?!"
"You left. You didn't appreciate what I did for you."
"You were a sadistic asshole that beat and belittled me!"
"You're being dramatic. I saved you."
"How am I being dramatic in the slightest?"
"I got you out. You'd be dead if it wasn't for me." Paul said.
"All you did..Was give me the money I needed to get back to the love of my life..And that was thrown at me while I was on my knees.." Kurt said darkly.
"Which is how you are at you're best." Paul said, running a finger down Kurt's cheek. "I miss that mouth of yours."
Kurt smacked Paul's hand away. "Don't touch me." He hissed.
"Why are you here, Kurt?"
"I just want you to leave me alone.." Kurt whispered. "I-I...I'll do anything.."
"Anything?"
Kurt swallowed, looking over at Rachel. "I-I.."
"Tell your friend to wait downstairs."
Kurt grabbed her hand and squeezed tightly. "Wait for me okay?" He said, tears in his eyes. "I'll be okay.
"Kurt, no." Rachel said just as quietly.
"Rachel..Please..I have to end this."
"You don't have to do this."
"Yes, I do. Trust me." Kurt said, winking at her quickly so Paul didn't see. "I'll be downstairs in a few minutes."
Rachel nodded, turning and walking back to the elevator.
Kurt looked up at Paul and smiled. "I didn't want her to hear this.. But I do kind of miss this.."
"I know you do.." Paul grinned, pulling Kurt inside and closing the door.
"You know what I really miss?" Kurt asked, placing a hand on Paul's chest. "The way you'd wrap your hand around my neck.. Not going too far but still leaving your mark. Then you'd fuck my mouth.. Oh, Paul.."
"Mmm..You want that, baby?.." Paul whispered, pushing Kurt against the door and trailing his hand up to his neck.
Kurt took a deep breath. He could do this. "Yes."
Paul leaned down to kiss Kurt deeply before squeezing the pale column. Kurt gasped as his airway slowly closed.
"Fuck, you're so beautiful.." Paul growled as he squeezed tighter. "Such a hot little slut..Mine."
Kurt closed his eyes as he tried to stay calm.
"Want my dick down your throat?.." Paul whispered. Kurt nodded slowly. Paul loosened his hand. "Say it." He growled.
"I-I want your dick.. Fuck my throat.." Kurt whimpered, reaching down to unbutton Paul's pants. Paul smiled. That grin made Kurt nauseous as he was forced to his knees. Kurt palmed over the hardening member just how Paul liked it. He waited for the standing man to close his eyes before punching Paul's dick as hard as he could. Paul grunted loudly, falling back and yelling in pain.
Kurt got up and ran downstairs to his friend. "Come on! Hurry!"
"Kurt, your neck!" Rachel gasped, following Kurt.
"I'll explain in the car." He said as they ran. Kurt climbed into the driver's seat and sped to a police station, explaining what happened to Rachel. "Now I'm getting a restraining order."
"Oh wow..Kurt." Rachel said. "You're one tough bitch!"
Kurt grinned. "I know."
She grinned. Now Paul would be out of his life for good. Hopefully. They got the restraining order taken care of. Once they were back at Rachel's, Kurt gasped. "Shit! What if Blaine or my dad sees the magazine?"
"Oh god!..Ummm..Maybe they won't?.."
"My dad can't know.. Rachel.. What am I going to do?"
"Your dad knows what you've been through Kurt.."
"But people will start harassing him too. His heart can't handle it."
Rachel bit her lip. "I'll come out and say its a lie."
"You would do that?.."
"Of course.."
"Thank you, Rach."
"You're welcome." She smiled, pulling him into a hug.
"I should call Blaine.."
"Good idea.."
Kurt sat on the couch as he called his fiancé.
After a few rings, Blaine picked up. "Hello?"
"Hey Blaine.."
"Hey..So..I saw something interesting while grocery shopping this morning."
Kurt's heart was pounding. "W-What was it?"
"The magazine..Kurt..You're not a criminal..Why would they say that?.."
"That's why I-I'm calling you.." Kurt said quietly. "It was Paul.. I-I went to see him today."
"What? Kurt you said you would stay away from him.."
"I know. But I was pissed. I got a restraining order on him now.."
"Really?..Kurt..That's amazing.." Blaine sighed.
"Yeah.." Kurt said quietly. "I'm sorry.."
"Why are you apologizing?.."
"Putting you through all of this. There's going to be rumors and its going to get nasty.."
"And we'll get through it.." Blaine said seriously.
"Thank you, Blaine."
"I love you, baby.."
"I love you too. I'll be home soon."
"I miss you."
"Blaine, I miss you so much. I'm just helping Rachel set a few things up for Bryan. Then I'll be home."
"I know baby..Just miss you. Sex with myself isn't as fun.." Blaine giggled.
Kurt chuckled. "At least you have time for that."
"And you don't?.." Blaine giggled.
"I haven't since I've been here."
"Call me tonight.." Blaine smiled.
Kurt grinned. "I will. Bye baby."
"Bye, love.." Blaine chuckled. Kurt blushed lightly as he hung up.
"What was that about?" Rachel asked.
"Nothing. He just wants me to call him tonight."
"What for?"
"To talk?" Kurt said, raising an eyebrow.
"Judging by that blush he wants to do more than talk." Rachel giggled.
"Maybe." Kurt replied, unable to hide his smile.
"You two are so cute. Gross. But cute."
Kurt sighed happily. "I love him."
"I know..You always have.."
"So.. What do you want to do..? I can't exactly go out with you."
"Well..I wanted to find Bryan some amazing vocal coaches so he can improve his projection and range."
Kurt nodded. "He'd love that."
"And with your judging skills, you could help me find one?"
"Are you sure you want to be seen with me?.."
"Kurt..I don't give a damn about what anyone thinks of you..You're my best friend."
"I know. I just don't want to ruin your career."
"I've had worse rumors." Rachel smiled.
"Worse?" Kurt asked
"I just can't think of any at the moment." She giggled.
"Do you have any people in mind for Bryan?"
"Jacob Winters. He's the best at what he does and he is where I will send my future children.
"We should surprise him."
"That sounds perfect.." Rachel grinned.
Rachel made a few phone calls and set up an all day appointment on one of Bryan's days off. He was completely surprised and starstruck. He soaked up as much information as he could. By the end of the day, Bryan was exhausted but felt more comfortable with his voice. He blushed when the Jacob Winters complimented his range, stating he hasn't heard one so wide in years and that he knew Bryan could go far.
When they got home, Bryan filled Ian in on everything that happened. Ian was ecstatic for his boyfriend as they celebrated.
Rachel grinned at Ian. While Bryan was rehearsing, she had set up a little something for Ian as well. She called in a few favors and got Ian into a top makeup class and a big hair show as an extra stylist. His eyes looked like they were going to fall out of his head with excitement as he thanked the broadway star.
The next month went smoothly. With Rachel's help, the rumors about Kurt died down. Bryan had his rehearsals and Ian went to the show and class Rachel had gotten him into. Things were going well for the boys as thanksgiving break approached.
When it finally rolled around, Kurt was excited to get back to his fiancee. He drove the boys back to Ohio where they had a small family dinner with Kurt and Blaine before leaving to Ian's parent's house the next day.
Mrs. Sanders grinned. "Dios mios! I miss you, hijo!"
"I missed you too, mami.." Ian smiled, holding Bryan's hand .
"Bryan." She sighed happily as she hugged them. "You two so skinny. Come in. I make you food."
"O-Oh no. Its only noon, I was saving room for dinner.." Bryan said, blushing.
"I'll eat." Ian grinned.
"You'll both eat." Ian's mom smiled, walking off to the kitchen.
"Just a little." Bryan said as they walked in.
"Si, si." She nodded dismissively as she loaded both of their plates.
"Arroz con pollo." She smiled, setting the plates of rice and chicken at the table.
Bryan looked at Ian and sighed. There was no way he could finish this and still eat later.
"Mamá, él es flaco. Él no está acostumbrado a comer tanto." Ian said to his mother.
( Mom, he's skinny. He isn't used to eating this much.)
"Exactamente! Él es delgado por lo que estoy tratando de darle de comer!"
("Exactly! He is thin so I'm trying to feed him!")
"Mamá, por favor." Ian sighed.
("Mom, please.")
"I-I'll eat." Bryan said quickly, feeling as if he had offended Ian's mother.
"No, no." She chuckled, grabbing his plate and scooping a good bit back into the pot. "I am just used to Ian's appetite."
"So what do you want to do today, mom?" Ian asked.
"Whatever you want. But I did run into Jake the other day. Told him you were coming home. You should go see him."
Ian's face dropped. "Jake?.."
"Sí, su ser boyfriend. The que te dijo que te amaba." Ian's mother said.
(Yes, your boyfriend. The one that told you he loved you.)
Bryan perked up at the word 'boyfriend'.
"Boyfriend?"
"Ex. Well.. Kind of.." Ian said quietly. "We were never official. But we were together."
"A-Are you gonna go see him?.." Bryan asked.
"I don't know." Ian sighed. He tried not to think about Jake much.
"You better see him. You broke his heart, hijo. Go apologize."
Bryan bit his lip. "Go talk to him, Ian."
"What if it just hurts him to see me?"
"It's better than thinking you are gone.." His mother said. "The look in his eyes when I told him you were coming..Go see him, hijo.."
"Yes, ma'am." Ian said, pushing his food around. "I'm not really hungry anymore. Can I wait for dinner?"
The older moman sighed. "Si, mi amor.." She said taking his plate.
Ian fidgeted as Bryan finished the little bit on his plate.
"Bryan, do you want to help me cook while Ian is gone?" Mrs. Sanders asked, smiling lightly.
"Sure.."
"Bryan, can I talk to you for a minute?.." Ian asked softly.
"Yeah." Bryan said, excusing them before they walked into the living room.
"I don't want you to feel uncomfortable about this.." Ian said quietly.
"You've never even mentioned him, Ian. How am I supposed to feel? You said I was the only one you've felt like this about. And all of a sudden I'm hearing that there was another guy that you loved?"
"Bryan..How did you understand that?..Either way..I never mentioned him because it didn't effect anything between us..Yes..I-I loved him..But I've never felt anything like what I feel toward you..I know I love you, I know you're my soul mate, and I know I want to you to be my husband.." Ian said softly.
"I bought one of those disks to learn a little.." Bryan admitted. "You should go. It just worried me because you never mentioned it."
"You shouldn't be worried babe..I'll just go over and talk for a bit, come home, eat dinner, then ravish you.." Ian smiled, wrapping his arms around Bryan's waist.
"Promise?" Bryan giggled.
"However you want.." Ian said lowly, smiling against Bryan's lips.
Bryan leaned in to kiss his fiancé and grinned. "Can't wait."
Ian growled lightly, pressing his lips to Bryan's. Bryan whimpered as he tangled his hands in Ian's hair. Ian pushed Bryan against the wall and moaned deeply. Bryan lifted his leg, wrapping it around his fiancé's hip.
"Fuck, you're hot.." Ian whispered, gripping Bryan's thigh.
Bryan grinned. "Just reminding you what will be waiting for you at home."
"I love you.." Ian smiled.
"I love you too, future husband."
Ian's heart fluttered. "Shit.."
"What?.."
"Just..Hearing that.." Ian whispered.
"Is it good?"
"Very.."
"Good." Bryan smiled.
"I'll be back, baby.." Ian said before giving him a kiss.
"Okay." Bryan said softly.
"I love you."
"I love you too."
Ian kissed him before walking out and getting in the car. He took a shaky breath as he drove. A few minutes later he pulled up, slowly walked to the door and knocked.
Jake answered the door with wide eyes. "I-Ian.."
"Hey.." Ian smiled weakly, his heart about to beat out of his chest as he took in Jake's appearance. He cut his blond hair and his green eyes were shining. He got much taller and his jaw was more defined, along with his muscles.
"Wow.."
"I wasn't expecting you to come by.." Jake said, unable to keep his eyes from raking down Ian's body.
"Um..Yeah..I-I..Mom said she saw..You look really good." Ian got out.
Jake blushed as he looked down. "Yeah.. So do you.. Like really good." He swallowed dryly as his eyes focused on Ian's leather jacket. Ian shifted, shoving his hands in his pockets. "Umm.. Did you uhh..want to come in?"
"Y-Yeah, sure." Ian nodded, walking inside.
Jake grabbed a couple of sodas before leading Ian up to his room. "So, why are you here?"
Ian sat on Jake's bed, rubbing over the sheets and reminiscing on that night. His head snapped up and he sighed.
"Sit with me.."
Jake took a shaky breath as he did so. Ian looked up at Jake, his eyes sincere and rapidly filling with tears. "I'm..Sorry.."
"Please don't cry." Jake said quickly. "Then I'll cry and it'll be one big mess."
Ian couldn't help but smile as a tear slipped out. "Okay.."
"Did you leave because what I said..? Because you didn't want me to love you..?" Jake asked quietly.
"No..No of course not..I had to get help.. I went to a psychiatric inpatient program in Westerville.."
Jake turned his gaze to the floor as he soaked this in. "Why couldn't you tell me?"
"I..I don't know..You, more than anyone deserved to know.." Ian said, fiddling with the hem of his jacket.
"I thought I made you hate me.." Jake said quietly.
"No..Jake..I could never hate you..Ever.." Ian said, grabbing his hand.
Jake's heart raced as he whispered his next words. "I was going to give myself to you that night.."
Ian swallowed roughly. "Y-You were?.."
Jake nodded. "I knew how I felt.. That's why I didn't want you drunk.."
"Have you?.." Ian whispered. Jake looked away as he shook his head. Ian swallowed roughly. "O-Oh.."
"Yeah.."
"Why?.."
"You're special. Haven't met anyone that I felt anything for. I don't want to get hurt like that again. I mean.. I said I loved you and you literally ran away.."
"I said I love you too..L-Loved.."
Jake had to use everything in him to force his tears to stay in. "But you were always running off with someone else. I wasn't good enough for you."
"You were too good for me.."
Jake just shook his head.
"Jake, I mean it..That's how I feel.."
"And I feel the opposite."
Ian sighed, laying back on the bed and running his fingers through his hair.
"You really had no idea why that night was important to me?"
"I was drunk..I just knew I was happy having a night with you.."
Jake laid back with Ian. "I always wondered what would happen if you came back."
"Here I am.."
"Here you are.."
Ian looked over at Jake. "What did you think would happen?.."
"That it would all come back.."
Ian bit his lip. "It might be.."
"I never got over you." Jake whispered, his eyes drifting to Ian's lips.
Ian's breathing increased. "Really?.."
"Really.."
Ian licked his lips before dragging his hands down his face. "Ohh my god.."
"What?.."
"Just..Being here..With you..I'm..It's confusing me.."
"What's to be confused about?"
Ian held up his left hand that had the promise ring from Bryan on it.
"Oh.." Jake said quietly as tears sprang in his eyes.
"No..No..Please don't cry, Jake..Please baby." Ian gasped at the last word, biting his tongue. Jake couldn't hold back as his tears fell. Ian pulled Jake into his arms. "I'm so sorry.."
Jake cried against Ian's neck. "I-I'm sorry."
"Why?..This is all my fault.." Ian whispered.
"For crying.." Jake said quietly. "And.. For telling your parents about..you know.. But you were gone and I-I.. I was scared he took you or something. I-I didn't know what to do."
"Thank you for that..He's in jail now.."
"I heard.. He deserves it.. How are you doing..?"
"I'm good..Good..You?..Have you dated any other guys?.."
"Im alright. No, I haven't, actually."
"Almost three years?.."
"I told you I don't want to get hurt again."
Ian bit his lip, petting Jake's hair. "I never meant to hurt you.."
"I know. You weren't ready for something that serious. Not after what you went through."
Ian just closed his eyes, sighing quietly.
Jake wrapped his arms around Ian. "Thank you for coming over. I missed you."
"I missed you too.."
Jake sighed heavily, his breath ghosting over Ian's neck. Ian shivered, his own breath hitching as his arms tightened around Jake. Jake swallowed dryly as he looked up at his ex.
"Jake.." Ian breathed out desperately, closing his eyes.
"Yeah, Ian..?"
"You're confusing me.."
"I'm confused too.."
Ian sighed, gripping the hem of Jake's shirt. Jake pressed his body against Ian's as he batted his long lashes. Ian swallowed roughly, his hands sliding to the small of Jake's back.
"Ian.." Jake breathed out, slowly leaning in. Ian looked up into Jake's eyes, his breath speeding up. Jake let his eyes slip close as he leaned in further. Ian had a thousand things racing through his mind in that split second as he cupped Jake's cheek in his hand. Jake pressed their lips together, quickly tangling his hands in Ian's hair. Ian moaned, closing his eyes as his lips moved with Jake's. Jake gave a loud whine as he tried to deepen the kiss. Ian opened his mouth as Jake straddled his lap, the kiss quickly growing extremely heated.
"Ian, I want you." Jake whispered hotly.
Ian gripped Jake's hips and gave a low moan agaist his lips. "J-Jake..I..I can't.."
"You're supposed to be my first, Ian.." Jake whispered. "I saved myself for you."
"I know..Fuck.." Ian whispered, craving more of Jake's kiss. He pressed his lips to his jaw and sighed softly.
"Why did you say you can't?"
"Because..I can't.."
"What's stopping you?"
"I'm engaged..I showed you the ring..Jake..I-I want to..But I can't.." He said, looking up at him with sad eyes.
"If you want to, it can't be that serious."
"It's completely serious.."
"You just kissed me." Jake said, looking into Ian's eyes. "You just said you want me."
"I know..I-I just don't know..I love him.." Ian whispered.
Jake sat up, his back to Ian. "You used to love me. But.. I guess I'm really not good enough. Not then. Not now.."
"It has nothing to do with anyone being good enough or not good enough!" Ian yelled, grabbing Jake and spinning him around. "If anything..I'm not good enough for either of you.. look what I'm doing to him..What I'm doing to you..."
Jake jerked away and shook his head as tears filled his eyes. "Why'd you come back? Now, I have to watch you walk away again. It's been years and I'm not over you. And now.. It's all back.. Even harder than last time."
"I wanted to fix this...I didn't know I would see you..And feel..Fuck..You look even more breathtaking than that night.."
"Ian.." Jake whimpered. "Don't say that.."
"I'm sorry..I-I just..I don't know what I feel or what to do.." Ian whispered.
"I know what I want. But it's not possible." Jake said quietly. "Do you regret it?"
Ian bit his lip. "I..I don't know yet.."
"I mean everything. Before.."
"No..Nothing..I..I could never regret that.."
"Okay.."
Ian sighed, resting his face in his hands.
"I shouldn't have kissed you. I'm sorry."
"I didn't stop you.."
"I know. But I know what it feels like to be cheated on. I shouldn't have encouraged it." Jake said. "Are you going to tell him?"
"I should..He told me.."
"He cheated on you?!"
"Long story, but we worked it out.."
"Well, that's good.."
Ian sighed, running his hands through his hair. "I'm sorry, Jake.."
Jake shrugged. "Its fine."
"No..It's not.."
"We can't do anything about it.. You'll go back to him. And I'll have to keep trying to move on. That's life."
Ian sighed tracing over the scars on his thigh.
"Can I meet him?.." Jake asked.
"If you want." Ian said softly.
"I do.." Jake nodded. "After you tell him..
"A-After?..Why do you want to meet him?"
"I just want to. Nothing bad. I don't have a plan. I just want to meet him. And apologize." Jake said sincerely.
Ian nodded. "Alright come on.."
"Right now?"
"Yeah..I need to get home..Mom's making dinner if you wanna come."
"Can I meet you there? I don't look too good right now."
"You look great..But...Um yeah, I'll meet you there. " Ian said softly.
"I'll call your house if things change. What time is dinner?" Jake asked nervously.
"Seven."
"Okay.. So.. I'll umm.. See you later.."
"Yeah..Bye.." Ian said, standing up.
"Bye.."
Ian gave Jake a quick hug before walking out to the car.
Jake gave a deep sigh, hoping he could keep it together tonight.
Ian raced home as it dawned on him. He just cheated on Bryan. It was just a kiss.. A deep, long kiss. But he still cheated. How could he have done this? Ian pulled into the driveway and rested his forehead on the steering wheel. He didn't know what to do. He had to tell Bryan. But how? He got out and slowly walked inside. Bryan was in the kitchen, giggling with Ian's mother. He smiled weakly as he saw them.
"Baby?.."
"Ian," Bryan grinned as he turned around. "How did it go?"
"Can I talk to you in the room?.."
"Umm yeah.." Bryan said as he followed Ian. "What happened?Did he not take it well?"
"He kissed me.."
Bryan's heart sank. "W-What?"
Ian took a deep breath before carefully explaining everything.
Bryan shook his head as he sat on the couch. "You kissed.."
Ian looked down at his fidgeting hands, tears in his eyes.
"I need to be alone."
Ian nodded. "O-okay.." He said, standing and walking out of the room.
Bryan let out a choked sob as he walked out of the front door. He didn't know where he was going. But he couldn't be at the house until he calmed down. Bryan squeezed his fist shut and punched the closest thing to him, which happened to be a tree. He cried out in pain as he tried to stretch his fingers. He found he couldn't and clutched his hand to his chest, whimpering. He didn't want to go back to the house but Bryan was worried he had broken a bone. Bryan sat on the curb and sighed shakily. He was so hurt. Physically and emotionally. He couldn't do this. But he also didn't want to disrespect Ian's mother. He sighed, getting up and slowly walking back to the house.
Ian's sad expression quickly turned to worry as he saw his fiancé. "Bryan? What happened?"
"Nothing.." Bryan said, hiding his hand in his coat.
"Are you sure?"
"No.." Bryan sighed.
"I know you're upset with me. But please, talk to me.."
"I..I hurt my hand.."
Ian reached out to take Bryan's hand. "What did you do?"
Bryan shrugged and held out his bruised and slightly bloody hand.
"Shit!" Ian gasped. "Mama! Can I get ice please."
Ian's mother brought out a bag of ice and gasped. "Aye mierda! What happened? .."
"I uhh.. I fell?"
She sighed handing Ian the bag and returning to the kitchen.
"We'll rotate ice and heat. That'll help the swelling."
Bryan nodded, looking down.
Ian sighed. "He wants to come to dinner to apologize.."
"No."
"What?"
"You really think I want to have dinner with the guy you just made out with?.." Bryan whispered.
"No.. He felt so bad. He just wanted to make it right.."
"How can he make this right?.."
"I guess he can't. But I listened to Austin. I had to hear that. I though you might want to."
Bryan hissed as Ian gently pressed the ice to his hand. "Okay.."
"I'm not saying you have to like him or be friends. He just wants to talk."
Bryan nodded, not looking at Ian. Ian took Bryan's other hand and squeezed lightly. "I really am sorry for letting it happen. But I told him about you and us. I'm with you, babe. Always."
"Do you want him?..Is there even a slim chance you still want to be with him?.."
"When I saw him, I felt something. But there's just so much history with us. Bryan.. He's the one that taped my uncle and I. He threatened him and stopped everything that was happening. He was my first real something and I fucked him over. I hate what I did to him. He'll always be a part of me." Ian sighed, looking into his fiancé's eyes. "But it doesn't compare to what I have with you. You are the one I want to marry. To spend the rest of my life with. He knows that now."
Bryan looked down. His heart still hurt despite Ian's words. "I-It just hurts.." he whispered, tears filling his eyes. "You told me nothing would happen..I t-trusted you.."
"I know. And I hate myself for it. I know how bad it feels. I just.." Ian shook his head. "I'm so sorry.."
"I know.." Bryan said softly, nuzzling against the crook in Ian's neck.
Ian sighed, kissing the top of Bryan's head. "I know I tend to fuck things up.. but I love you.. And I'm trying so hard to keep you and stop ruining everything.." He whispered.
"You aren't going to lose me..Nothing is ruined.." Bryan said, rubbing over Ian's side softly.
Ian took a deep breath to steady his emotions. "It's crazy how much I've changed.."
"What do you mean?.."
"When I was with him, if we ever fought or even if I was just being an idiot, I'd run away and drink until I couldn't think or go off with some random guy. I was such a douche bag. But with you, I don't want to run."
Bryan looked up at Ian. "Really?.."
Ian nodded slowly. "I don't want to be that guy with you."
Bryan smiled lightly. "I love you.."
"I love you too."
Bryan leaned up, kissing Ian sweetly.
"We should get cleaned up. Dinner should be ready soon."
Bryan nodded. "I'm gonna go wash my hands."
"I'm going to shower." Ian sighed.
"Can..I join you? .." Bryan smiled.
"If you sneak in before mom sees," Ian chuckled.
"Alright." Bryan giggled. Ian rook Bryan's unharmed hand and hurried to the bathroom. Bryan smiled as they walked into the bathroom. "I do believe I was promised ravishing?.."
Ian pressed Bryan against the door. "You'll have to be quiet."
Bryan smiled, biting his lip. "Okay.."
Ian quickly undressed them and turned the water on. He picked Bryan up and carried him into the shower. "You're so beautiful." Ian whispered, kissing down Bryan's neck.
Bryan gasped softly, his head falling back. "I love you.."
"I love you, Bryan." Ian said, setting his fiancé down and turning him around. Bryan leaned against the wall, arching his back and spreading his legs. Ian dropped to his knees and kissed the rounds of Bryan's ass. Bryan gasped quietly, a small shiver traveling through him. "Ian..Fuck.."
"Shh." Ian grinned, spreading Bryan and licking around his hole teasingly. Bryan gave a cut off moan, biting his lip and pushing his hips back. Ian continued to tease his fiancé. Bryan was falling apart as Ian teased him, darting the tip of his tongue in and out, scratching down the perfect roundness of his ass.
"I-Ian please.."
Ian chuckled darkly before delving his tongue into Bryan. Bryan moaned helplessly, pulling his hair. "Mmmm..Fuck yes-ah!"
"Bryan, quiet." Ian whispered, pushing his tongue back in.
"I-I'm sorry..You just..Ohh.." Bryan gasped, biting down on his lip again. Ian smacked Bryan's ass hard as he pressed in deeper.
"F-Fuck..Ian..I need you to fuck me..Please..Please.."
Ian stood and bent Bryan over. He spread his fiancé and slid into him quickly. Bryan bit down on his knuckles as Ian filled him, grunting lightly. Ian gave a low growl as he slammed into his fiancé's prostate. He loved doing the things that made Bryan scream when he had to keep his voice down. Bryan let out tiny broaken whimpers, looking back at Ian. "I-Ian. .I-I can't..I'm..Ah!"
"Let go, baby."
Bryan's knees buckled as he grunted deeply, coming hard on the shower floor. Ian moaned as Bryan fluttered around him. He slowed his thrusts as Bryan came down. Bryan panted softly, closing his eyes. "Shit.."
"Come here, baby. Come suck me."
Bryan whimpered, nodding as he got on his knees, the warm water showering over him.
"I love watching this." Ian growled.
Bryan smiled "What do you love about it?.."
"The way you look at my piercings. How you look at me all innocent. How you know exactly what I like.. I really love how you look with my cock in your mouth."
Bryan smiled wide. "Yeah?.." he whispered, licking at the tip of Ian's cock.
Ian moaned softly. "Fuck yeah.."
"Keep talking.." Bryan whispered, sucking him down his throat.
"So fucking hot.. You suck me so good, Bryan."
Bryan moaned, smiling around his lover. Ian leaned back, rolling his body lightly. Bryan swallowed around him, whimpering lightly.
"Bryan.. Fuck.."
The younger boy bobbed his head slowly, looking up at Ian.
Ian's breath sped up. "Im close, babe.."
Bryan nodded, closing his eyes as he sped up.
"O-Oh.. Baby.."
Bryan moaned, relaxing his throat. Ian braced himself against the tiled wall as he let go. Bryan gasped, swallowing everything ian gave him. Ian was panting lightly as he pulled bryan up, kissing him deeply. Bryan hummed happily.
"I love you.."
"I love you too.."
Ian smiled as they washed up and got dressed. Brayan wrapped his hand in an ace bandage and they walked out to the delicious smell of Mrs. Sander's cooking.
"Oh, that smells so good." Ian grinned as they heard the doorbell. Bryan looked at his fiance nervously.
"It's okay," Ian sighed heavily, walking to the living room and opening the door. "Hey."
Jake gave a weak smile as he walked in pulling his coat off. "Hey.."
Bryan gasped. He was gorgeous..And so skinny..
"Jake.. This is my fiancé, Bryan. Bryan, this is Jake."
Jake looked Bryan up and down. He hated that Bryan was the reason he couldn't be with Ian. But there was something about him.. He could already tell Bryan was good for Ian.
Bryan smiled weakly. "H-Hi.."
"Hi.." Jake said, nervously biting his lip. This guy was perfect..No wonder Ian wanted him.
"Dinner!" Mrs. Saunders called from the kitchen. Ian's father was away on a business trip so there was an empty spot at the table. Bryan sat next to ian while jake sat across from them. Bryan stared at the plate of the food and swallowed dryly.
"So, Jake, how's your family?" Mrs. Saunders asked.
"Oh..They're great." Jake smiled. "Mom said you should stop by sometime.."
"I'd love to. I'll call her to set it up." She grinned. "Ian, why are you so quiet?"
"I-I don't know.." He chuckled as Bryan pushed his food around his plate.
"Maybe.. I shouldn't have come.." Jake said quietly.
"No..No..I'm glad you came, Jake.." Bryan said, looking up.
Jake offered a small smile. "Thank you."
"What you did for Ian..I just..Thank you.." Bryan said softly.
"I wouldn't wish it on anyone. Except him, maybe." Jake said, shaking his head. "I'm glad I could help."
Ian smiled, glad the two were being civil.
"Thanks for dinner, Mrs. Saunders. I missed your food." Jake said softly.
Ian's mother giggled. "I love cooking for my boys.."
Jake grinned as he ate. Bryan watched Jake eat and took a tiny bite of rice.
"Babe, you don't like it?" Ian asked.
"I love it..I'm just..Still kind of full from earlier." Bryan said softly.
"What am I going to do with you." Mrs. Saunders sighed playfully.
Bryan gave a nervous chuckle. "I dunno.."
"I'll take left overs!" Jake giggled.
"You'll have to fight for it! I love mom's food!" Ian grinned.
"Here." Bryan said, sliding his plate over to Jake. "I'm full.."
"Are you sure?" Jake asked.
Yeah.." Bryan nodded.
Jake smiled as he took the plate.
After dinner, Ian was helping his mom clean the dishes while Jake and Bryan sat in the family room.
Jake sighed heavily. "I-I'm sorry about earlier.. I don't know how much he's told you about what happened between us. But, I shouldn't have done that today.."
Bryan looked at Jake with calculating eyes. He thought he would want to scream, yell, or cuss. Something completely different from what he did.
"It's okay.."
"It's not." Jake said. "You know how special he is. He meant a lot to me. I just... I have to let go of what happened."
"I know how it feels to have someone leave you like that..And..I know how you would want to go back to how it was as soon as they come back.." Bryan said quietly.
"You waited for someone like I did?.." Jake asked, feeling a little less pathetic.
"Still waiting.." Bryan sighed.
Jake shook his head. "What?"
"I'm still waiting for them to come back.." Bryan said, looking over at Ian and his mother.
"Who? You're engaged to Ian." Jake said, looking at Bryan like he was insane.
"Um..My mom.." Bryan admitted quietly.
"Oh." Jake whispered. "I'm sorry.."
"I-It's fine." Bryan said quickly. "My point is, I know how you feel. And the fact that you have enough courage to come apologize..I really respect that..So thank you.."
Jake nodded. "Thanks for listening. In time, I'd really like to be able to be friends. You're good for him."
"Thank you..I'd like that too.." Bryan said quietly
"I should get going." Jake said softly.
"Thank you for coming..And..Thank you for being there for him.." Bryan said, standing up and giving Jake a light hug.
Jake was surprised but hugged Bryan back. "Take care of him."
"I will.."
Jake gave a weak smile before walking to the kitchen. "Mrs. Saunders, Ian.. I'm going to head home."
Ian's mother smiled, giving him a tight hug and kissing the top of his head. "Come back and see me." She smiled.
"I will. And I'll tell mom you want to get together."
She nodded, smiling as Ian pulled him in for a hug.
"Walk me out?" Jake whispered. Ian nodded, telling Bryan he'd be right back. They walked out to Jake's truck. "Thanks for letting me come over.."
"It was really good to see you.."
"You too." Jake nodded. "Don't mess this one up. He's a keeper.."
Ian chuckled lightly, shoving his hands in his pockets. "I'll try not to.."
"I-I should go.." Jake said, looking down as his eyes started to burn with tears.
"Hey..Don't cry.." Ian said, knowing that look.
"I'm trying.. But it sucks. Having to say bye.."
"This isn't the last time you'll see me..Come up to New York.."
"Really? You'd want that?"
"Of course. As long as it's cool with Bryan..I'd love that. We'll be back down in December too.."
Jake nodded. "I'll see you then. Thanks Ian.. You didn't have to come see me. But you did. You really have changed."
"Thanks.." Ian smiled, hugging Jake again. "I'll see you later.."
"Bye Ian." Jake said, holding his breath to keep his tears in as he climbed into his truck.
Ian gave a small wave as Jake pulled out and drove away. When he walked back in, Bryan wasn't downstairs anymore. He climbed the stairs to his old room and looked inside. Bryan was curled up in his bed. "Baby?.." Ian said softly.
"Yeah?"
"You okay?"
"Mhm."
Ian undressed and climbed in the bed. "What's wrong?.."
"Nothing." Bryan whispered.
"Baby..I know you.."
"It's been a long day."
Ian turned off the lamp and wrapped his arms around Bryan from behind. "I love you.."
"I love you too."
Ian kissed Bryan's shoulder softly. Bryan held onto his pillow tighter. He wanted all this pain to go away. "If you need to talk...I'm here.." Ian whispered.
Bryan sighed, turning over. "I won't lie. The whole thing with Jake really hurts. But right now.. I really just miss my mom.." He said quietly, letting his tears slip down his cheeks.
Ian pulled Bryan close. "I know, baby..It's okay.."
Bryan clutched to Ian as he broke down. Ian pressed his lips to Bryan's forehead, holding him. It's all he really could do.
"I-I just want..them to love me.." Bryan gasped.
"They do love you..And now you have so many other people that love you for who you are..People that will never leave you.." Ian whispered.
"B-But I'm their kid.. I-I don't want to wind up like them.."
"What do you mean?.."
Bryan wiped his tears. "We're getting married. One day.. We might have kids.. I don't want them to feel how my parents made me feel.."
"You would never, Bryan..You would make those kids feel so loved.."
"Would you..want that..?" Bryan asked, looking up at his fiancé.
Ian looked down into Bryan's eyes as he thought of it. A family..With Bryan. A little boy or a little girl..It would be perfect.
"Yes.." He whispered.
Bryan fluttered his lashes as his heart raced. "And.. You don't miss being with Jake? You don't wish you had a second chance?"
"No..I..I love you so much Bryan..I..I want to take your last name.." Ian said quietly.
Bryan gasped softly before rolling over on top of Ian and kissing him deeply. Ian moaned softly, wrapping his arms around Bryan's neck. Bryan pulled back, cupping Ian's cheek. "I'm so in love with you, Ian."
"I'm beyond in love with you, Bryan.."
Bryan let out a broken whimper as he pressed his lips to Ian's. Ian inhaled softly before pulling away a bit. "I want you..Inside.."
Bryan nodded, slowly lifting Ian's shirt. Ian closed his eyes, helping bryan pull it off. Bryan kissed down Ian's neck. "You're gorgeous."
Ian moaned softly, turning his head to kiss Bryan. Bryan let the kiss longer as his hands explored his fiancé. Ian's body responded to every flick of his lover's wrist. Each nerve was on fire. "Ohh.."
Bryan tossed his own shirt aside before pulling Ian's boxers off. He sat between his lover's thighs and smiled. "So breathtaking." Bryan whispered, running his fingertips over Ian's light scars. Ian tensed slightly but tried to relax.
"I love you. I love every part of you."
"I-I know.." Ian whispered. Bryan leaned down, kissing over the marks. Ian took in a shaky gasp as Bryan reached up, feeling the scars on his sides as well. "Bryan.." he moaned.
"Yes, baby?" Bryan whispered.
"I love you.."
Bryan kissed up each of Ian's sides and back to his lips. "I love you too."
Ian pressed his lips to Bryan's again, wrapping himself around him. Bryan placed a finger at his lover's entrance and slowly pushed in. Ian gave a tiny gasp, pushing his hips down.
"Ian," Bryan moaned.
"F-Feels so good.."
"So perfect," Bryan whispered. Ian whined, rolling his body slowly. Bryan smiled as he added a second finger. "Ah!" Ian gasped. "Y-yes.."
Bryan kissed along Ian's jaw as he prepped him.
"I-I'm ready.."
Bryan pulled his fingers out and sucked them into his mouth as he positioned himself.
"F-Fuck..Wait.." Ian gasped.
"What?.."
"That was r-really hot..I just..Do you want to..Um..Use your tongue?.." Ian asked nervously.
Bryan grinned as he nodded. "I love when you're all shy like this."
Ian blushed. "I-I'm not shy! I-I just..Never asked you to.."
"Shh," Bryan chuckled. "Lay back and relax."
Ian nodded, taking a shaky breath. Bryan kissed down Ian's thighs before spreading his legs. Ian's breathing sped up slightly,
"B-Baby.."
"Has anyone done this for you?"
"No..." Ian whispered.
Bryan was surprised at the deep growl that escaped him. "I don't know why I haven't. But fuck, I want to."
Ian shivered at the noise. "Oh, fuck.." he whimpered. Bryan spread Ian's cheeks and licked at him lightly. Ian gasped harshly. "Bryan!"
Bryan bit back a smile as he pulled back. "Turn over baby."
Ian nodded, doing as he was told with his ass in the air. Bryan spread his lover again, licking around the tight ring of muscle. Ian moaned loudly before biting the pillow. Bryan grinned, pressing his tongue inside. Ian's thighs were trembling as Bryan licked deeper. "Ohmygod..Shit.."
Bryan moaned, getting lost in the taste of his lover. All of the noises Ian was making were so hot. From barely there whimpers to half screams. They turned Bryan on to no end. Bryan pressed his tongue in as deep as he could, bringing a hand up to tease his perineum. Ian thrust forward, Bryan's tongue slipping out with an obscene sound. "Cock..Your cock.." Ian panted.
Bryan quickly got on his knees and slid into Ian. "Fuck.."
Ian moaned, rolling his hips. "Yes.."
"Fuck yourself on me, Ian."
Ian nodded, pushing his body back and forward, taking his lover deep. "Mmph..Baby..ngh.."
"Say my name." Bryan breathed out.
"B-Bryan..Spank me baby..Hurt me, please..I fucking want it."
"Shh, we're not at home, baby." Bryan whispered before bringing his hand down against Ian. Ian bit down on the pillow, grunting deeply as he fucked himself faster. Bryan stilled Ian, spanking him again and slamming into him. Ian cried out into the pillow, arching his back and creating a beautiful dip. Bryan scratched down Ian's sides, leaving red lines. Ian looked back at Bryan, biting his lip as his moans grew higher.
"Oh, shit, Ian," Bryan growled. "So fucking good."
"I'm s-so close..Bryan.."
"Come, baby," Bryan whispered, kissing down Ian's back. Ian's body arched and his legs trembled as he came with a sharp cry. Bryan came after Ian, filling his lover as they rode out their orgasms. Ian whimpered lightly as Bryan pulled out. "Wow.."
Bryan gave a big grin. "That was sexy."
Ian chuckled softly. "Well..Now I know why you love that so much.."
"I've never done that before.. I like it.."
"Me too.."
Bryan held Ian from behind. "Goodnight beautiful."
"Night.." Ian smiled.
