There came a knock from behind the door

There came a knock from behind the door. Tommy couldn't even muster up the breath to speak. He disentangled his body from Jude's. He got up slowly and moved to the door feeling as if his body was made of lead. When he opened the door he didn't expect to find what he did though.

"Hey Tom" said Sadie smiling.

Tommy looked at her and Kwest standing side by side in the doorway. Tommy pushed through them and into the hall pulling the door closed behind him. Then he punched the wall with both his hands and slid down it with his back sobbing.

"Oh God" said Sadie kneeling down next to Tommy on the floor. What the hell was going on she thought to herself. "What's wrong?" asked Sadie panicked "Is Jude hurt?"

Tommy looked up at Sadie slowly wiping the tears from his face "Jude's fine" he choked out and then shook his head no while looking at the floor "but…" he whispered and he couldn't finish.

"Why don't you go in" whispered Kwest to Sadie and he sat down next to Tommy on the floor.

"Okay" Sadie said and stood up and walked inside the room Tommy had just exited.

"What's up man" asked Kwest when Sadie was inside.

Tommy clasped his hands in front of himself and looked down at them and the tiles between his legs "Jude was pregnant man" he whispered "and I didn't even know."

Kwest breathed out and leaned against the wall "harsh".

"No" Tommy moaned "She had the right not to tell me. But Kwest I crashed the car…I crashed the car and she got hurt, and they delivered the baby, and god…man…it was this tiny thing that we went to see last night…last night…and the doctor down in the ER told me there would be development problems…but she was so beautiful…oh god…and then…just now they came in…they came in and told us…Hannah…Hannah, oh god Hannah's had some seizer thing…she had a seizer…oh god" whispered Tommy "She's…she's…she's gone man, and I feel like a piece of me just died with her." He whispered and tears dripped down his face onto the floor.

"Hey" Sadie said soothingly walking into the room to Jude curled up on the bed sobbing. "Jude, what's wrong? Talk to me, please" asked Sadie sitting down on the edge of the bed.

Jude just stared off into space as tears fell like rain from her eyes.

"Come on Jude…you can tell me…you can trust me…" Sadie whispered and looked down at her hands. Silence fell between them as Jude sobbed uncontrollably next to her. Sadie paused and then casually said "So should I know I'm an aunt or were you saving that for later" Sadie tried with a slight laugh.

Jude felt like a knife had just been shoved into her heart. Oh god…Hannah Jude thought to herself.

"So is it a boy or girl?" asked Sadie looking over at Jude "Are you upset about me knowing? Or are you upset at all of this…or what Jude, come on…"

Jude whipped a stream of tears off her face and turned to look at Sadie "You had a beautiful perfect little niece" Jude choked out.

"I'm sure she is perfect" said Sadie rubbing Jude's arm.

"Yeah" whispered Jude as she squeezed her eyes tighter shut as tears continued to pour down her face "she was perfect though…not is perfect."

"Jude" whispered Sadie "did you and Tom give her up?" asked Sadie cautiously.

"No" sobbed Jude "she just died."

The smile fell off Sadie's face "oh god" she whispered clasping her hand over her mouth. Then slowly tears started to trickle down her checks.