Selfish Lovers 43
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Chapter 43
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Noah is at Traci's place when she comes home...
"What are you doing here Noah? I thought you found a place to live while you're in town?" She walks to the kitchen and pours a drink taking it back to the living room.
He raises his glass to her, "Here's to your speedy recovery Traci. You look beautiful as usual. I came by to talk to you about a newspaper article I read the other day."
"Why should what you read interest me?"
He sips his drink, "Because it is about a shooting that happen the same night you were shot in the shoulder. I know there were probably a number of shootings that night with us living in the city and all…but the blood type is the same as yours my dear."
Traci laughs, "So you think they were talking about me? You sound like an idiot. Why would that have anything to do with me?"
He looks at her over the rim of his glass, "I wonder what your new boyfriend will say when I share my thoughts with him? I've always thought you were lying when you told me that story about what happen to you. So tell me the truth Traci, were you involved in the shooting of Jim Barclay?"
She smiles at him, "Are you saying, I'm a killer Noah? I'll be very disappointed in you if you think I could kill someone like that."
He gets up, pulls the drink out of her hand, pulls her close to him, and tells her he could care less about that because she could kill a hundred people as long as she didn't kill him or their relationship.
Traci pulls out of his arms, "You think I did it, don't you?"
Noah chuckles, "Traci I've wondered for a long time what you and Paula do when you take these unexpected trips out of town. The only reason I didn't bring it up is because I know you didn't trust me enough to let me in on your secret. Every time you and Paula take your trips, some poor sucker ends up dead. You weren't hurt, so I just kept it to myself."
"However, this last time, I knew it was something that had to do with your job. I'm not asking you to tell me, I'm just asking that you be careful. I know you don't care for me anymore but I do still love you and I wouldn't want to see you hurt."
He pulls her in his arms and whispers, "Traci I love you more than I love myself." He drops his arms, turns, and heads for the door. She calls out his name and he turns and looks at her expectantly.
"You know I loved you too Noah and I have never stopped. I just couldn't take the idea you wanted Taki instead of me. Mitchell is an important person in my life but he isn't you Noah, he'll never be you. Taki is in love with Marc and right now, you are the one that is cementing their love, because now they are united against you. I can't understand why a man as smart as you can't see that. If you leave Taki alone he may come back to you."
Noah puts his hand on the back of his neck, "I see you along with everyone else, don't believe me when I say I am not trying to get Taki to take me back. We're friends and that's all, so I'm not having this conversation with you or anyone else for that matter. You can all think whatever you want, Taki and I know the truth. Why do you think he talks to me? Have you ever seen him act afraid of me?"
"If that's the case, why were you fighting with Marc? Why did you lie and say you were going to the airport and you went to his house? Why did you drug the poor man while you were having lunch? These are questions I don't have answers too and this is why I had to get away from you."
Noah says quietly, "You never asked me any of this before, Traci. You just went with whatever you heard because this is the first time I've ever heard this from you."
She sighs as she sits back on the sofa, "You're right Noah; I didn't ask you about it. I guess I didn't have faith in you like I should have, at the time. I think I wanted an excuse to be with Mitchell, so I ran with it. I'm sorry Noah because you're right." He walks over to the door, looks at her over his shoulder and walks out.
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Colin has Aya on top of him and stroking her waist and her hips. She is grinding on top of him as he kisses her with his tongue probing hers. She whispers against his mouth, "Don't make me wait too long Colin, I want you now." He smiles to himself, flips her on her back, and pulls her panties down with his teeth. She looks down at him as he puts his head between her legs. He sticks his tongue between her split and probes it. She is getting wetter and wetter as he eases her hips up and says, "Do you like this baby, does it feel good?"
She says yes and holds onto his head, bringing it closer. He bites her on the thighs lightly and moves up and over her. She looks up in his face knowing what is to come. He looks down in her face and says it's going to hurt just a little but he wants her to relax. He spreads her legs open, positions himself over her, slides in, and can feel the barrier. He pushes sharply and pauses as she stifles a cry.
He looks in her face, "Are you okay, I can't stop now." She tells him she is all right so he pushes again but this time he pushes harder and deeper. She cries out and he covers her mouth with his own. Her screams in up drowning in his kiss. He holds her tightly as a tear flows from her eye. He pulls out and pushes in again and she holds on to him as if he is her salvation.
This is something he does not like doing since virgins end up crying like babies, but somehow, Aya is different. After the first shock, she calms down and doesn't cry out again.
He is taking his time with slow and easy moves as she matches his rhythms. He pulls her hips towards him and he is going into her slowly at first but he is so caught up inside of her thinking that he is the first one to take her that he almost loses control.
She calls out his name in a soft mewling cry that is too much for him to take and he starts to move faster and faster. He cries out to her when he reaches his climax and she says she loves him. He collapses on top of her, covered in sweat. He looks in her face and asks if she is okay and she answers yes.
"It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I'm so happy Colin, it was you." He smiles and rolls over on his back and brings her on top of him. "Why don't we take a shower and this time, we'll see if you can enjoy it as much as I have, okay?" She giggles down in his face and says okay. He gets up pulling her with him and they go off to the bathroom together.
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As Katou answers the ringing phone, he looks at his lover trying to catch his breath wondering who would dare disturb them. He takes a deep breath and says hello.
The caller asks to speak to Iwaki and Katou says of course and hands the phone to a puzzled Iwaki.
"Hello this is Iwaki, may I help you?" His mother is on the line wondering if Aya is with him because she has not called about her interview.
"What do you mean; she was supposed to call you last night?" His mother tells him that she hasn't called and she isn't answering her cell.
Iwaki tells her he will make a few calls and get back to her because he is sure she is fine. He hangs up the phone and Katou asks what has happen. He looks at him, "Aya hasn't called mother and she told me she had. She's supposed to be with Masahiko, having dinner, but she turned her phone off. I wonder why she would do that."
"Why don't you call your brother and find out if they are still together, Iwaki?"
He nods and dials his brother. They talk for a few minutes and he hangs up and turns to Katou. "She isn't with him and they never made a dinner date. Where could she be? She doesn't know the city very well and I hope nothing has happen to her. She's been gone all day. She had a second interview and then she was supposed to meet with our brother. She lied about having made plans with him."
Katou looks at him with a frown on his face, "She was in tears last night and this morning it was if nothing had happen. She was actually in a good mood." He smiles at Iwaki, "Do you think she may be with Colin?"
Iwaki looks at him as it dawns on him she just may be with the photographer. "I never thought about that but Colin is a married man, Katou
He dials the club and asks for Ryan. Katou goes in the kitchen and gets a broom to clean up the glass while Iwaki is on the phone. "Hey Ryan, how is it going at the club?"
Ryan says, "Everything is fine, were you thinking about coming tonight?"
"I don't know, is the usual crowd there, I mean our little group that is?"
He tells him that Marc is off so he and Morgan are going to close since Colin is on a job right now and he won't be able to make it so he's staying with Morgan.
"Why don't you and Katou join us tonight it may be fun?"
Iwaki laughs, "You know we just might do that. But you said Colin is not coming tonight?"
"As far as I know, he told Morgan he would be on a job and he is going home afterwards. Is there a problem Iwaki, you can call him if you need to talk to him about something you know."
"Well, he took some pictures of Aya and I wanted to know if he had any more."
"Yeah, he was telling us about it last night before he left, he said they came out pretty good. Did you see them?"
Iwaki tells him yes, they talk about him coming to the club, and then hang up.
He turns to Katou, "You know you may be right because he isn't at the club. If he is with Aya, I'll kill him. What the hell could he be thinking?"
"Now Iwaki, you don't know if he is with her just because he's not at the club. Why don't I call him and see what he is up too?"
Iwaki looks at him, "And what is the reason you're going to give him for calling?" Katou smiles at him, "I'm going to ask him point blank if Aya is with him. Come on, where else could she be if not with him. She got upset because you threw him out last night."
Iwaki scowls at him, "I did not throw him out. I just made it clear, I didn't want him getting involved with her but I guess he wasn't listening to me."
Katou pats his shoulder and says, "You want me to call him or do you want to do it?" Iwaki tells him, he will do it and picks up the phone.
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Aya is getting dressed as Colin checks his massages. He reaches up and pulls her hand and she looks at him and smile. He brings her hand to his lips and kisses her palm. She touches the top of his head and strokes it lovingly.
He hangs up the phone, "We have a half hour to get you back to your brother's place and I have a shoot I have to do, are you ready to go?"
"Will I see you again like this, Colin?" He takes her in his arms, "You know this is a onetime thing remember? Have you changed your mind now? Do you think I want you less because we won't see each other? I'll never forget you Aya, I hope you know that."
She holds him around the waist with her head pressing on his chest, "I'm not ready to leave yet Colin, can I stay here with you?"
He chuckles, "What would your brother say about that? You know he doesn't approve of us being together don't you and I don't want to have any problems with him."
"I don't care what he says, this is my life and I'll live it the way I want to. I don't need his approval for anything. I just want to be with you Colin, tell me you want the same thing."
He kisses her on the neck, "Baby, if I had my way we would be together forever. I wish I had waited to get married. I didn't know you were out there waiting for me. I wish I had known. I feel guilty for making love to you and telling you in the same breath, I can't see you anymore. I know it's not fair to you but you make me weak and I find it hard to say no to you."
She looks up in his face, "Why don't you come see me at home. I'm sure you can get away once in awhile, can't you? You can say you have a job or something out of town and then we can be together. Besides, if I do get the job, I'll be back for good and we can be together then, whenever you're free."
He looks at her smiling, "Aya, I am married and I can't see you, no matter how much we may want that. How do you know you won't meet someone that catches your fancy more than I do? You have to think of yourself and the career you say you want. If you move here, you will meet different people and I'm sure there is a man out there waiting on you. Don't pin all your hopes on a relationship with a married man. I would hate for you to share a man because you deserve so much more than me."
She pulls away from him, "But, if you leave her...we can be together can't we?"
He smiles at her sadly, "I never told you, I would leave my wife, Aya. I love Morgan and she loves me. That's why I didn't want to do this. You're still basking in the afterglow of making love. Trust me; you will put it in its proper perspective when you think about it. However, that's not to say I don't care about you, because I do. It's just that adults take sex for what it is, just sex."
She stops, turns and looks at him, "Is that all it was to you…just sex?"
He turns his head; he doesn't want her to see the look on his face. He has never been so infatuated with any one before in his life and he wishes he could be with her but he knows it is out of the question so he has to be mean, to be kind.
He bends, picks up his phone and turns, "We both enjoyed ourselves Aya and you know we can never have a relationship with each other…I did make myself clear. I didn't want to do this but you are the one that insisted, so I gave in. I care what happens to you but I can never be with you and the sooner you accept that, the easier it will be for you to move on. This is all you wanted from me, isn't it?"
He stands firm, watching her, steely jawed, trying not to give in to his true feelings of sweeping her up and staying with her for the rest of his life. However, he made a commitment to Morgan and she trusts him not to break it. He knows he loves his wife and being with Aya is like a dream come true but he can't give in to her, no matter how endearing she is.
She looks up at him, "I know what you're doing Colin and I'll back off. You didn't promise me anything and I know I shouldn't expect anything from you but I want you to know...if you and your wife ever and I mean ever break up, please come to me first, okay?"
He laughs at her as he pulls her in his arms, "You are too much and I'm going to miss you when you're gone." She laughs with him and pretends that everything is okay but she knows she can't make him feel guilty about what happen between them. Maybe one day she just might have him because there isn't any other man she wants.
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As Colin is driving down the expressway he's thinking about Aya because she is a force to be reckoned with. He knows what he did was wrong but he couldn't help himself with her big beautiful dark grey eyes. Aya is so sweet and unspoiled and so true in her feelings. There is no guile in her yet and she can't hide what she feels. However, as charming as she is he doubts anyone would want to take advantage of her. His phone rings and he looks down at it and thinks it's safe to answer now.
It's Iwaki so he says hello. "Hey Colin, I hate to ask you this but have you seen my sister today?"
Damn! He almost swerves on the road, "Why would I see your sister, didn't she leave today?"
"No, she didn't she's leaving tomorrow. She lied about meeting my brother and she's been gone all day. Now why would she do something like that, unless it was to be with you?"
"Listen Iwaki, I'm not with your sister. I'm alone in my car. Why would she want to be with me? Did she tell you she was spending time with me?"
Iwaki says, "Well if she's not with you then who else could she be with?"
Colin clears his throat, "She's not with me so I'm sorry I can't help you."
Iwaki hangs up and Colin starts to panic thinking he might mention this to Morgan. Then he says to himself, "I'll just bring her back and make her mine if Morgan believes anything Iwaki tells her. At least I know I will be Aya's first choice." He smiles to himself and drives the rest of the way home, very content in knowing he can have a woman that wants only him.
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As Iwaki hangs the phone up Katou is opening the door for his sister. He turns and watches her as she comes in smiling. "Hey everyone, I'm back!" She kisses Katou on the cheek and throws her arms around her brother. "I had the best day ever but I'm tired from all that walking, so I'm going to turn in, okay?"
"Wait a minute Aya. We need to talk, come in the living room." Iwaki turns and heads for the living room and Aya stops and looks at his back and then over at Katou wondering what is going on. He shrugs his shoulders and walks to the bedroom giving the sibling some privacy.
Aya sits on the love seat and looks in his face waiting for him to begin. 'There is no way he knows I was with Colin does he? Oh shit, I bet he talked to Masahito!
Iwaki clears his throat, "Where have you been for the last eight hours, Aya?" He raises his hand before she can speak. "I already spoke with our brother and he told me the two of you didn't have any plans to see each other. So, don't lie to me."
"I was out walking around. I was upset at you for what you put me through last night with Colin. I just needed some time along before I return home." She has her head down because there is no way she is going to tell him she was with Colin.
He stares down at her hard, "Go on to bed, Aya. However, before you do, call mother. She says she hasn't heard from you. Also, Masahiko is expecting a call from you. It seems he wants to see you regardless of your lies."
Aya stands suddenly, "I am not a child that you can order around! I'll do what I want, when I want! I knew you would have some objection if I wanted to be out alone. What is the big deal?"
"The big deal is you lied about it! That's not something an adult would do. If you want to be treated as an adult then you need to start acting like one. When I get ready to go somewhere, I don't lie about it. I go!"
She looks at him and chuckles, "I think Katou will have something to say about that don't you think?"
He looks over his shoulder and then looks at her glaring. "Ha, ha, you're full of jokes aren't you? Yes I do take his feelings into consideration but I don't lie to him about where I'm going. Anyway don't you have some calls to make?" He smirks at her with his arms folded across her chest.
Aya gives him a salute and stands on tiptoe and kisses his cheek and turns going into her room. Iwaki sighs and rubs the back of his neck as he heads for his bedroom.
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He opens the door and shuts it as he leans back against it with his eyes closed. Katou is watching him with a slight smile on his lips. "That girl is going to be the death of me yet. I know she was lying and she with Colin. They must think I'm stupid!" Iwaki lets out a growl.
Katou gets up and walks over to him and puts his fingers under his chin, lifting it, "Who needs to calm down now?" He drops his hand saying, "You can't keep Aya and Colin from seeing each other. Just who do you think you are anyway? I chased you until I got you didn't I. What makes you think they will stop because you disapprove? Are you the relationship police or something?"
Iwaki sighs, "I know I can't stop the two of them but I don't have to like it do I? Are you saying you think its okay for her to be with a married man?"
"Of course not, I just want you to calm down that's all."
Iwaki narrows his eyes at Katou, "Now I get it, you are so predictable Katou. If I'm not obsessing about you, then I should calm down and take it in stride, right?"
Katou flips his hand at Iwaki and heads for the living room. Iwaki grabs his arm, "That is not going to work Katou; I'm not finish with you."
Katou turns, "You just called me selfish and a diva, so I think you are finish with me. So let go of my arm before I sock you."
Iwaki looks at him with his mouth open and drops his arm. Katou starts laughing and Iwaki grabs him around the waist and pushes him down on the bed falling on top of him. Katou is moving his head from side to side chuckling as Iwaki grabs his chin and holds him still.
"If you ever threaten me with violence again, I will screw you so hard you won't be able to walk for a week!"
Katou's eyes fly open, "Why Iwaki, I didn't know you cared. If you're making me a promise...then I will do it again." Iwaki looks down at him and gets up shaking his head.
He leaves him on the bed as he goes into the kitchen. Katou follows him still chuckling, "Iwaki you know I didn't mean it don't you? I would never hurt you in any kind of way."
"And I would never hurt you either but you are selfish and I really don't mind too much because I like making you happy. I just can't always deal with your emotions all the time."
"I'm sorry Iwaki I just don't want you thinking about anyone other than me. I can't help it but I will try okay?" Iwaki drinks his water and puts his glass in the sink reaches out for Katou and he comes in his arms lying his head on his chest and his arms around his waist. Iwaki puts his hand on the back of Katou's head saying, "You're the most important person in my life Katou, so you don't have to feel that way at any time. You alone have control of my heart." Katou looks up at him with his eyes watering and kisses him passionately.
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The following morning while Iwaki is at work…
Iwaki is working when Monica calls to tell him what time to pick her up. She asks if he has his tux and he says yes. She gushes about the fun they will have and hangs up. Iwaki hangs up and thinks about Katou telling him, he can take one night without him.
He is going to make sure he doesn't stay out any longer than he has to since Katou has been agreeable about the date and that's not like him.
Maybe he's not worried about him being seduced by Monica. This is good news as far as he is concern. His hand drops to his lap as he thinks about making love to the blond beauty. With his sister staying with them he has had to restrain himself. However, tonight he is going to insist they have sex because the two days of abstinence is taking its toll.
The blow jobs doesn't count to either one of them so no, they haven't had sex. Iwaki is smiling to himself and looking forward to going home when Gilda sticks her head in, "You have a visitor Iwaki, Mr. Forbes is here to see you."
Iwaki sighs, "Send him in Gilda." He thinks about putting on his jacket and decides not to. He doesn't have any business with him and he is probably here to talk about Katou.
Nicolas strolls in his office, "Hello Iwaki, I thought I'd stop by and let you know I'm back in town. I'm here for a funeral and fun-raiser in that order." He smirks at Iwaki, "How is Katou doing, I haven't seen him yet?"
Iwaki stands as he looks at the older man with a smirk of his own, "He's doing fine. I'm surprised you came to see me, before stalking him out. You must be losing your sense of direction."
"No, not at all. I didn't want him to have to keep it from you that I am back in your fair city. I also wanted to invite the both of you out to dinner, to repay you for having me over for a drink. It was very kind of you to be so liberal in your thinking."
"There is no need to repay me. Katou is the one who wanted you there after he declined your offer for a private meeting with him, which leads me to believe you have an ulterior motive behind this. Why don't you just come out and say what's on your mind and quit playing these childish games."
Iwaki nods towards the chair in front of his desk as he sits behind it. With Nicolas showing up at his office it can't be good news. The man is relentless in his pursuit of Katou. Somehow he has to get it across to Nicolas, Katou belongs to him and he is not letting him go.
Nicolas sits and crosses his legs as he removes his thin leather gloves. He looks around his rival's office and turns back to see Iwaki watching him. "I see you went to Harvard law school, very impressive, Iwaki. Maybe you can compete with me, for Katou."
Iwaki chuckles under his breath, "You are a piece of work, you know that. I have Katou, so why would I compete with you for his affection. You're not even a player, if this is a game. I hold all the cards and we both know that." He leans back in his chair and steeples his fingers under his chin.
Nicolas gives him a perplexing smile, "Wasn't it you who told me, Katou is not a prize to be won. I agree you have him now but don't get to comfortable with your gain. Katou is with you because he was confused about his feelings for me. He has come to terms with who he is now. I think I stand a better chance with him then I did before. I should thank you for helping him see what he is and what he wants."
Iwaki leans forward with his hands on his desk and a scowl on his face, "Allow me to make myself perfectly clear, Nicolas. You have about as much chance of sprouting wings and flying out of my office as you do in having Katou in your life. I will not give him up, even if he decides you are the one he wants instead of me. I will send you both to hell first and you can take that any way you want too. Now get the hell out of my office before I have you thrown out!" He stands glaring at the silver haired man with malice in his eyes.
Nicolas stands and gives him a cocky smile, "You have quite a temper don't you, Iwaki. I'm sorry to have upset you this way. I didn't think I was dealing with a man that can't control himself. I hope Katou is never on the receiving end of all this anger." He turns towards the door and looks at the raven haired man over his shoulder. You will inform Katou I am back…never mind, I'll do that myself." He chuckles as he leaves out.
Iwaki is glaring at the door, wishing he could wipe the smug look off the older man's face, once and for all. The nerve of him, coming into his office and declaring open season on Katou! He slumps down in his seat and puts his head down and his hand over his eyes trying to calm down before he finishes his work. He looks down at his desk and growls as he remembers Nicolas telling him that his time with the blonde is temporary. In a moment of fury he sweeps everything off his desk and stand holding the edges, as his knuckles turn white with rage.
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