It was late at night when they were moving. Onirun was carrying the sleeping Glynda Goodwitch and Weiss Schnee on his back. Ruby and Raven were walking off to the side, neither of them were able to sleep, and both knew they had to keep moving.
They were heading back to the White Fang headquarters. Ruby's training had come to an end, and she was even less prepared for the upcoming battle than ever before. Ruby had discovered her true power, and she had discovered that no one knew of this power. The way Raven wanted to used the Maiden powers to simply destroy Salem and Cinder proved that she had no idea what would happen, and the way that Glynda assumed that all of the Maiden's power would simply destroy proved she didn't know anything about the maidens other than that they existed.
Ruby felt drained to say the least. With her hands shoved into her pockets she simply thought about what the future held for her. With the loss of her long hair Ruby had let go of the fear of losing her friends, but it it's place the fear of her own life had fallen into place. The one thing that would guarantee Salem's defeat, would mean her death.
Ruby had given thought to her life, if her death would mean much, and before now she always thought maybe if she were to die on a job that would be for the best. She had ruined many lives, she never denied that, and sometimes she hoped someone seeking revenge would stop her. But no one ever did, she was to good at her job.
Now though, Ruby didn't want to die. She figured that's what happens when told that you could sacrifice to stop a horrible, horrible war, but she still found the thought odd. Glancing to Weiss' sleeping form Ruby took a deep breath. Ruby blamed Weiss in a sense for her sudden change of heart. Before reuniting with her partner Ruby just existed, her only reason for living being to protect her friends. Now however, Ruby wanted to live, she wanted to stay with her friends, her family. She wanted to stay with Weiss, more than anything.
"Don't worry about it too much," Raven said softly. Ruby looked towards the red eyes woman and raised an eyebrow. "You're acting a lot like Summer did before," Raven's voice trailed, and Ruby knew where she was going. "What ever's going through your mind, don't worry about it too much. It'll just make thing worse."
Ruby returned her gaze to the ground. "I just don't know what to do," Ruby admitted gently.
"Do whatever you think is right," Raven answered. "Glynda and I have our ideas about the maidens, but at the end of the day it all falls to you to act. Summer was very big on the idea of doing what she wanted with her powers." Ruby looked to Raven and saw a friendly look on her face.
"How is it you're more motherly to me than your own daughter?"
"Because Yang doesn't need me, she's a big girl, and she can take care of herself," Raven answered. The two women fell back into silence as they walked. Ruby smiled a little as they walked, a new thought entered her head. Her future.
Ruby was tired, she had refused to sleep for the entire journey. Instead she kept to her thoughts. The few words she shared with Raven was enough to set her straight for the most part, but Ruby still had a lot of questions about herself.
Years of forcing herself not to feel, forcing her innocence to die with every death she caused, had forced Ruby to lock away certain thoughts and idea. Her future was definitely one of them, and love was another.
Ruby never really knew what love felt like, she never really had any flings with anyone, especially after the fall. She knew what it felt like to be loved by family, but not loved by someone who just, loved her. And it didn't help that Ruby was struggling with the concept of her own love as well.
She remembered the few dates Yang went on, and she remembered how Yang rarely consoled her sexual anxiety with her little sister. But Ruby remembered it clearly.
Yang's belief was that she was wrong, that she was broken, that she just had to force herself to act like a lady who loved men. The struggle Yang went through to discover her preference as Yang once described it, Ruby didn't have.
It was simply Ruby felt like it was right to be with Weiss. They shared a bond deeper than most, maybe even deeper than Yang and Blake. Ruby definitely couldn't say she was attracted to Weiss when they first met, or that when they even reunited she thought she would end up with Weiss Schnee. It just kind of happened, with that first kiss.
It was that first kiss, that seemed to rouse a dormant emotion in Ruby. She wanted more of Weiss, she wanted to be with Weiss. She wanted Weiss. And it was that want that confused Ruby the most. She had jobs where she had to play a part, she had to 'love' the target, and she played that part well, going far enough to once get engaged to a person she killed. But even then it felt like she could never truly be those people that were known to go out night after night and fool around.
She was never attracted to any of them. She never wanted what they gave her. She never wanted any of the "lovey dovey crap" before Weiss. And now, deep down she noticed it, and it grew each day. She noticed how pretty Weiss was, how Weiss made her tingle in ways she never felt before. The tingle, was more of an itch that Ruby felt only Weiss could solve.
Ruby sighed and looked over towards her partner. Weiss was still riding Onirun, not that it bothered Ruby much. Their eyes met, and then fell away from one another's gaze. Ruby felt horrible for pushing Weiss away. In the past that's all she needed to do to stop any feeling of attachment she had to targets. But Weiss wasn't a target, she was a friend, she was a partner, and currently, the person Ruby couldn't live without.
The hours ticked by until the small group arrived at the White Fang's front doors. Before entering the base Ruby looked towards Weiss who wore the red cloak Ruby was known for. It looked good on Weiss, giving her some other color than the snow like blues and whites Weiss almost always wore. Ruby smiled, and Weiss gave a gently smile back. Weiss dismounted the grimm, and began unclipping the cloak to return it.
"Keep it," Ruby said grabbing Weiss' hands to stop the action. "It looks good on you."
"But it's your cloak, you're known for this," Weiss answered. Raven and Glynda had entered the base already, being led by Onirun to Blake's office.
"That cloak and I have been through a lot, but now I want you to have it okay," Ruby said softly. "It's not like I get cold or anything," Ruby joked. Weiss didn't want to accept the cloak, it was and always will be Ruby's to her, but decided to keep her hands on it until Ruby decided she wanted it back.
"Okay," Weiss answered.
Hopefully I portrayed Ruby's sexuality well. I actually tried really hard to get it accurate. I also really hope you guys got what I was wanting to portray... This is a little more... Grey... to write I suppose.
It was still fun to challenge myself with this section. But I know there's still room to improve on the subject.
Oh well.
- Nerdz :3
