It's happening again. It's happening again. It's happening again!

Shinobu lay in the bed he and his husband shared for twelve years now. He kept one hand on his stomach and the other covered his face as he worried away. Lightly he traces mostly heart shapes on his stomach and tries to reassure himself that everything will be OK. It would just be a sixth miscarriage. Another child lost like the other five. Because he couldn't hold a healthy child in his body.

He couldn't tell Yo. He would overreact and tell I'm bullshit like the baby might live. They just had to believe it would and try hard to make sure no harm comes to it.

Shinobu didn't want to listen to that. He knew destiny didn't want him having children.

"Shin, I'm home."

Shit.

Shinobu got off of the bed and headed out ton the living room to greet Yo, putting a smile on for his lover despite his mood on the inside.

"... You're pregnant, aren't you?"

"How could you tell?!"

"Five times gives you enough time to figure out someone's behavior easily."

Yo brought the shorter into his arms and kissed him on the head before burying his nose into the brunette's hair and nuzzling him. It was a silent sort of way for him to say things would be OK. He learned being negative about everything didn't quite work out. And when it came to Shinobu and children, he knew to be extra positive about things as to not upset him.

Shinobu nuzzled into the taller's chest and huffed softly against it as he hugged him back under his arms. He accepted the gesture but not the thought of their baby surviving in his stomach. They never did.

After a old amount of to,e they separated.

"We can go in every week to get the baby checked on if it makes you feel any better?"

"That would mean establishing one doctor to check on our baby every week. And we don't exactly talk with health care professionals enough to be good friends with any."

Yo held up a finger in front of Shinobu and wagged it lightly. "Eh, eh." He smiled. "The guy I used to work with, Hiroki, he married a nice doctor that specializes in children car. Including maternity."

Shinobu blinks. "... You spend too much time on Facebook."

"What?! I met the guy, really!"

"Yeah yeah... ...I'll get the weekly check up." Shinobu sighs.

Yo smiles. He leans in and kisses the brunette on top of his head. "Koishiteru."

"Koishiteru." Shinobu looked p at his partner and managed a real smile.


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